Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ Four AM ❯ One-Shot

Author's note: This fic has been nagging me to be written since the middle of the summer... about time I got around to writing it, ne? Considering it's the middle of October... Anyway, enjoy! I know I will. *grins*

4 AM
By Jonathan Lee

Matt gazed out the window, staring out into the rain. Tai... I wish... I just wish I could tell you how I really feel.

He sighed. I suppose my father is to blame for not telling you. After all, he's only been drilling into me for the last eighteen years of my life that liking boys is bad. After the way he treated my uncle... Mom's brother. And after he found out about you... There was no way he'd let me be around you at all... He thought I'd catch it from you, or something. Huh. Little did he know.

Matt looked sadly at the phone. You scared me with that phone call, Tai. All of a sudden, everything I'd always dreamed of happening, but never expected to actually happen, came into the realm of possibility. And of course, I just had to tell Dad.

I think I really have loved you all along, Tai. Ever since we first met, back at camp... And no matter what, Tai, I think I always will. I just wish I knew why I can't tell you that.

Matt got up, moving over to his mirror. "I better get cleaned up before Mom and TK come over to pick me up for the funeral." He sighed. They'll probably be thinking I'm crying for him. Not bloody likely. He sighed. I'd never cry for him. Not after everything he did to me, without even realizing it. Cutting me off from my friends, not even letting me see TK-not that it ever really stopped me.

And of course, there's always Ryuu. Ryuu, the little perfection. Dad always wanted me to be a better friend with him, especially with the way that he reacted to Tai's revelation. I certainly put on a good show, too... I had Dad fooled. He thought I was the perfect copy of Ryuu, always ready to stamp out deviation from the norm. He picked up a tissue, and wiped his eyes. Sighing, he began to get dressed in his suit.

The doorbell rang. "Coming!" he called. Probably Mom and TK. They're a bit early, though.

He opened the door, and said, "Mom, TK, I'll just be another-"

No! What's he doing here! "Tai... what a surprise." Matt tried to keep the quaver out of his voice. "Here to finally tell me that this is what I deserve after the way I treated you?"

"Not at all, Matt. I came to tell you how sorry I am. I know how close you two were."

Matt looked deep into Tai's eyes, and saw nothing there but sincere grief. "Tha-thank you. It's far more than I deserve after the way I've treated you these last few years." You don't know how much this means to me, Tai. How much it means to me that we can still be friends after I was such a jerk.

Tai looked back into Matt's eyes; Matt could feel him searching for something. "There's something you're not telling me, isn't there? Some reason it was that much more important to act the way you're father wanted you to towards me." Matt's eyes widened. "Don't be so surprised, I know that the only reason you ever treated me like you did was because your father wanted you to. I know you'd never turn on me like that on your own."

Matt shook off the shock, and gestured Tai inside. "C'mon, it's about time I told you this. I've been hiding it for the last several years, it's time you knew the truth."

Matt led Tai into the living room, and sat down across from him. "Tai, I want you to listen to everything I have to say before you say anything, okay?" Tai nodded, and Matt took a deep breath. "The reason I reacted like I did to you telling me you're gay is because... because... because I am to. Ai shiteru, Tai. Ai shiteru, forever and always. I couldn't tell you before, because of my father, but I've loved you ever since we first met, back at camp. And no matter what, I think I'll keep loving you, because I think that it's what I'm supposed to do." He opened his eyes, I hadn't even realized I'd closed them! and looked deep into Tai's eyes. "Please, can you ever forgive me?"

Tai just looked at Matt in shock. "You mean, all these years... all these years that I've spent wanting someone I thought I couldn't have, you've felt the same way?" Matt nodded, slowly. "Matt, of course I forgive you! You're my best friend! And... and... and I love you, too!" Tai jumped over the tale, and pulled Matt into a deep hug. "I'll always love you, Matt, forever and always. And from now on, nothing will ever keep us apart!" Matt just hugged back, and cried into Tai's shoulder. "Shh... it's okay, Matt. We're together now, and nothing can ever take us apart. Ai shiteru, Matt, always and forever."