InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ I Love Him ❯ Prologue

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I Love Him

By Jennifer Baccus

(Kagome's POV during her time spent in the future of episode 48

I felt betrayed. And a very hurt. My heart ached and each thought,
no matter how random, would always lead back to that moment. The moment
where I saw Inu yasha nd Kikyo together. I felt so lost and so very alone.
Inu Yasha had always been there, but now I knew he would never be again. Or
at least I thought so. He would never come for me from the past and demand
that I help him find the jewel shards; no matter the trivial reason, i knew
that he would never come for me. My pride wouldn't let me go to him either,
that and something else. A deep ache in my heart every time i thought of him,
something that held me back. What is it?

Downstairs, my mother makes breakfast. I can smell her cooking even as I lay
upstairs in my bed, covered in blankets. My eyes hurt from crying and pressure
was intense in my head. Had I, Higurashi Kagome, been up all night long
crying over a guy?

Not just any guy, my Pro-Inu Yasha side of my brain said. It told me that
this was the boy who had constantly saved my life. Who had put himself
in danger for my sake and for the sake of others. The boy who had hugged me
tightly and told me to never come back for my own saftey. I can stll remember
the hurt in his voice as he did so. This memory made more tears come to my
eyes. Did I like this boy? Yes. Did I like him enough to go back to him even
though I knew that his heart belonged to another?

I wasn't sure.

The Anti-Inu Yasha said that he was a violent, selfish, jealous boy who never
said the right thing and always hurt my feelings. He could never look me in
the eyes, he could never compliment me nor could he trust me. No matter how
much we had been through together, it was THIS BOY who was choseing a woman
who hated him over me! It was this side of my mind, of my heart, that wished
Kikyo would just die!

Had I really become such an ugly person? Yes. Now, not only was I angry at
Inu Yasha, but I was angry at myself for such awful thoughts. Never in my life
had my heart been torn between two things like this.

I got out of bed, hoping that going to school and seeing my friends would
cheer me up. It only resulted in me feeling worse about myself and this whole
situation. I had told them not to worry, and that i was over it. But I wasn't!
Lying to my friends didn't make it any easier for me; it just made the burden
heavier. At the resturant with my friends, one had said that she knew that I
was in love with Inu yasha. Was I in love with Inu Yasha?

I asked myself why I had to meet him?! If I had to suffer this much just
because of him; why did I ever meet him? It would have been better if I had
never, ever met Inu Yasha! I wouldnt' have to go through this! I could be a
normal happy teen girl with normal teen girl problems!

But I want to see him!

Just one more time! I want to see Inu Yasha! I do love Inu Yasha. I love
Inu Yasha. Since when have I come to love Inu Yasha so much?

"Kagome?' It was my mother from the store. She looked at him rather curiously.
All morning, she had helped me avoid any questioning from Souta and Grandpa
by keeping them busy and their mouths full.

"Mama." I ran toward her, I needed my mother right now. I felt like such a
child! She dropped the bags and hugged me fiercly has I cried on her shoulder.
We sat under Goshinboku and she asked me if I felt a strange power flowing
from it. I did. She told me of how father proposed to her under that tree.
And how she was blessed with Souta and me. She said, "I won't ask what you're
worrying about, but you know I believe in you Kagome."

"Thank you, Mama."

Now, as I stand in front of this well, I have to make my decision. Actually,
my heart had already made it for me. I did love Inu Yasha, I was just scared.
That feeling that kept me from going to him was nothing more the fear. I was
scared of what he would say; though I knew no matter what it was I would get
hurt. With the last ounce of courage I had in me, I jumped through the well,
Shikon Shards in my pocket. Just has a I swung my legs over the side of it in
his time, I heard him apporaching. I looked up and saw his enlightened face.
That beautiful, unkempt hair blew in the wind and his golden demon eyes were
sad. He had been hurting and torn between two thing just like I had. I
realized, that i loved this boy, with all his flaws and uncertainties.

I love him so much.

"Kagome."

I wanted to ease his pain. "I kept ont hinkgin while i was staying on the
other side. About you, Kikyo and me."

"Kagome, I . . . "

"I know."

I wanted to be by his side forever. . .