+Anima Fan Fiction ❯ It can't always be the way it should the first time ❯ Chapter 1

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

I had grown up loving michael jackson. from when i was a little girl to now in my life. your prob wondering what this is
about. well let me tell yyou starting from the beginning.
*flashback*
"bye mom!" i yelled as i ran out of the house towards the bus. the doors opened && i stepped in surrounded by the noise. i
saw my friend towards the back so i waved at her && she waved back. as i started towards her a guy smacked myy butt. i
turned to glare. it was the star quarter back on the football team, josh. so substitution. an obnoxious over confident jerk.
whom happened to have his eyes on my body for his next fling girlfriend. did i mention i was the best basketball player for
the girls && home coming queen? yya well thats me && he wanted what i was. duh. he wiggled his eyes at me && i just growled
at him glaring.
"oh, fiesty are we?" he said, laughing.
"uggh, your disgusting. && you wish." his smile melted away && he sat there looking at me, studying me. his hand went up
to his chin like he was thinking, the ego coming back into his face.
"you know you could just try && be with me && you'd find being mine would be .." he smirked. "extremely fun." i made a
disgusted face && walked towards the seat next to myy friend sitting down as he && his friends made cat calls towards me. i
could tell that she was trying to keep laughter in, && failing miserably.
"oh why dont you just let it out." i said crossing my arms over my chest scowling at nothing. she removed her hand from
her mouth && burst out laughing as the bus started towards the school after picking up the final students. as her laughing
started to ebb away she said,
"im sorry. it shouldnt be new *giggle giggle* but it gets funnier every time." she finished the sentence with another
giggle earning a glare from me. "oh stop it, its funny admit it! && i would like to have all those cute guyys chasing after
me.." she said, winking at me && nudging me in the arm. i stuck myy tongue out at her but then got serious.
"no, i just.. want someone who will be committed. a nice guy, more mature. not focused all on sex && looking good with the
girl he has. ya know?" she nodded && we pulled up at the school. grabbing our stuff, we filed off the bus going our ways.
my way happening to be the same way as josh's && his posse. i rolled myy eyes. "beware were being followed." brittaney
turned to look behind us then grinned.
"you should lead him on." i looked at her, confused. she rolled her eyes at me. "lead him on. tease him make him think you
want him then stop. like flirt && when he falls for it stop && walk away." i scrunched myy nose up.
"i wouldnt ever want to give him even THAT satisfaction." she laughed and turned to see if they were still following us.
they were.
"dont they have a life??" i said, stopping and leaning up against the wall outside my new locker. she smiled standing next
to me also next to her locker.
"of course not." brittaney said moving aside as josh came up && put his arm against the wall next to myy head.
"hi there pretty thing. this your locker?" i stood there looking up into his hazel eyes, unnerved.
"what's it to you if it is or if it isnt?" he smiled and moved his face closer to mine. i moved my head to the side as his
nose glided along my jaw. this was usual guys did this to me a lot but when he reached down to my skirt and put his
hand under it i immediatly tried pushing him away but he held his place firmly. when brittaney saw it was going to far she
tried moving towards me but josh's friends blocked her from getting near me.
"heyy c'mon let's go find us a secluded place && i'll show yyou a good time && give y\you a reason to be my girl." he grabbed
my hips and pushed them back against the wall then kept them in place with his hips. i started trying to twist awayy but he
was to strong && held me up against the wall. "oh so you dont wanna wait? yyou wanna do it right here? in front of my
friends, && yours? dayum girl you are frisky. but idont like that i wanna do it somewhere where no one will hear your
cries except me." he licked his lips and stared down at me with lust filled eyes. i laughed trying to tell if off as nothing.
"ok. just stop messing around and let us get to our classes ok josh?" he only eyed me then smirked.
"okk.. but for a kiss." he leaned in his head daring me with his eyes.
"you disgust me." i said crossing my arms over my chest and turning my head away. he ran his hand down my face and
lifted myy chin. "just a little one.. its our last year here in highschool. i promise me && myy buddies'll make sure no
one bothers you for the rest of the year. just a nice lip lock kiss." i sighed && turned myy head finallyy meeting his
gaze.
"fine, but its going to be a quick one !" he smiled triumphantly. i grabbed his head and pulled his lips down to me and then
he smashed his lips to mine. it was kind of an awkward kiss but his lips started to become calmer. i relaxed in his arms but
soon remembered who i was kissing && pulled away. he looked a little dazed && stood staring down at me. i wiped my lips
with the back of my hand && turned my reddened cheeks awayy from his gaze. ok now i believed all those guys who told me i
was an amazing kisser. i mean this was JOSH. the player of highschool. he was dazed from a little kiss from moi. he stepped
back && let me go but before i was out of his reach he grabbed my arm && pulled me back whispering in my ear && slipping
something into myy hand.. what was going on now? he let me go. smirking then walked away with his posse laughing about
something. i stared after him for a while then turned awound to face brittaney. she stared in awe at me. i just shrugged at
her.
"what? i had to or, Lord knows what he wouldve done to me. && you!" i added as she still looked at me like i had 3 heads.
i rolled my eyes. "whatever it meant nothing to me so thats all that matters. now lets hurryy up idont want to be late myy
first dayy in 12th grade. last yyear of highschool!" i grabbed her hand && putting my things away && grabbing the ones i
needed proceeded down the hall to first period. ignoring all stares...

*ring!* i looked up as everyone crowded out of the room, the day finally over. i sighed && stared down at the desk i sat
at. someone shook myy shoulder so i looked up to see brittaney. "did you read it yet?" the note. that josh gave to me.
yes i read it. i read it && thought it was the most stupidest idiotic thing in the world! i giggled && scooted back myy
chair standing up && gathering myy things. "well?" she asked, impatient.
"yes! it was the stupidist thing ever.. haha here read it yyourself." i threw the note into her unsuspecting hands and she
opened it up in a hurry, read it, smiled, then started laughing her ass off. we both started laughing with each other &&
walked out heading towards our lockers.
"so you going to do it?" i looked at her for a moment with a 'your kidding' look but she stared back unnerved. sighing i
shook myy head.
"no way. its stupid && with you as myy witness he wont do anything. so whatever. im just going to ignore him like i have
for the past 3 yyears. i mean last yyear of high school? most popular girl? not snottyy or rude extremelyy nice whom
everyone likes. someone would notice if i went missing. definatley being an honor student. no way am i doing it. i just
want to go home && do homework listen to some MJ, read && go to bed to get up && do it all over again. yippee ki yay. you
with me girl?" i put out my hand sticking my pinky out to her. she just smiled.
"of course." she stuck out her pinky && we crossed them together putting our knuckles together && touching our thumbs
together making our signature hand shake. "this is going to be a great year." i winked at her. putting myy arm around her
shoulder && walking down the hall with her.
"a great one." i agreed.

'get away from me !' i screamed running from the darkness slowly consuming my world. finally, like it always did, the
darkness caught up with me && soon all i saw was black, and then. i woke up. panting i pushed my hair back from my face
looking around my room. i was covered in sweat so i shoved the covers away from me && got up. looking over at my clock i saw
that it was 5:30am. sighing i thought. 'might as well get up now.' i grabbed a towel && walked into myy bathroom staring at
the big clock on the wall. i just liked the old thing for some weird reason. looking in the mirror i saw how horrible i
really looked. laughing i winked at the girl in the mirror. "oh you are alright sucker." i said into the mirror, ending
with a sigh && tossing the towel on the toilet walking over to the shower && turning it on. soon steam was filling the
bathroom so i hopped in && let it run down my body. at times like these i turn on some soothing music && just listen to the
lyrics trying to figure out what it all meant.
finished i jumped out && left the towel running into my room naked. i new everyone was starting to get up. no wonder too. it
was already 6:45am. talk about a good shower. i stood in front of my mirror && stared at my body trying hard to see what
everyone else did. nothing like it always was. i pulled my sticky hair back away from my neck gazing at the scar there. that
was when it all started.. no i was not going to go down that path again, i told myself. finaly feeling the chill i raced into
the bathroom, grabbed my towel, and wrapped it around myy body. i turned the music up a little more knowing it would annoy
my mom extremely much. i was a bit addicted to Michael Jackson. i smiled. someone opened up my door and my heart started
racing even though i new i was safe.
"goodmorning sissy." said my little brother and sister in unision, both having big goofy grims on there faces.
'what are yyou two up to?" i asked grabbing a brush && combing it through myy hair while i picked out clothes to wear.
looking at them intently through my mirror as they stood behind me as i dug threw my drawers.
"i told you she would forget." whispered elizabeth even though i could hear her. thompsan just shrugged. elizabeth rolled
her eyes. "she can remember when Michael Jackson was born but not for mom? were related how??" she said making hand
motions in between us.
i gasped && looked over at my calender seeing the big MOM'S BIRTHDAY !! in red. "shit" i muttered under my breath. i heard
them giggling. i smirked. "but because im older && smarter i got mom her present EARLY." i said accenting the last word.
elizabeth's smile faded away but thompsan's grew bigger.
"ha ! told yyou so ! i new it she alwayys has a backup plan ! i win yes yes yes !" glaring elizabeth folded her arms over
her chest && started to leave all the while saying.
"for once in yyour life thompsan dont expect it anymore." she turned around and stuck her tongue out then ran as he started
yelling things like 'you take it back!' and 'oh dont worry i understand your just jealous cause i beat you i beat you i
beat-' && that was the last of that sentence i heard. she probably hit him.
"yes i'll wear that!" i said grabbing some dark skinny jeans, a black shirt with hot pink flowers on the front, and myy
converse, which, have i mentioned, i am in love with. throwing on the outfit then going to sit on my vanity i put my mascara
on then went downstairs making sure i didnt have to pluck. i left my hair down and accented the layers. i got to the kitchen
and saw everyone was already eating. i walked up to my mom and kissed her on the cheek. "happy birthday madre." that was my
hispanic nickname for my mom. i was half hispanic from my father's side.
"happy early birthday to you too!" she said laughing i went over to sit at the table grabbing the milk from my brother and MY
chocolate cereal from my little sister.
"what have i told you dont eat my cereal! mom tell her i buy this cereal for me and never get any cause she eats it." momjust
turned around and shrugged. tess smirked and tried to get it but i pushed her away. i was the stronger one. my mom heard the
fuss and sighed, dropping the dish she had been drying.
"cant you two get along for a minute???" she said me and my sister glared at each other then turned back to her and in
unision said, no. "you are both so immature!" she said throwing her hands up in the air and collapsing in the chair across
from us.
"my cereal!" i yelled.
"my favorite kind of cereal!" yelled elizabeth.
"i payed for it!" i screamed at her then ripped it out of her clutches. she sat with her arms crossed and glared at the wall.
"hey," i said "dont glare at the wall. it didnt do anything." i teased and she was about to pounce on me as i stuck my
tongue out at her. but my mom being the best she was saved the day.
"so dont i get to see what i got?" elizabeth being the twerp she is jumped up yelling hers was the best and bounding out of
the kitchen to get it. mom sighed and i smiled over at her. "you have to always usher her on?" i just shrugged eating my
cereal. thompsan rolled out of his chair always being the neutral, saying he was getting his too. elizabth was 8 and thompsan
7, as i was going to be turning 18, it was the last year of high school. i reached up and behind the counter as i put my
plate in the dishwasher then came back to the table with my mom's present behind me.
"ready?" mom looked behind her at the kitchen.
"where have you been hidind my gifts!" to this day i have a hiding spot no one knows about that i put presents. laughing i
handed her the big box. she studied it then took it and, like a kid, shook it. "was it expensive?" she always did a guessing
game i dont know why she didnt just open it and see. i pushed the box into her more so she would open it. deciding to give
up on the guessing she ripped it open and threw the top of the box away. i laughed as to how she was like a little kid. she
gasped softly staring down at the soft fabric of a dress, purse, and shoes i got for her.
"dont worry i didnt spend to much the purse was on sale at the coach and when i saw it, it just screamed mom!" i laughed. she
looked up at me with tear filled eyes. i backed up with my hands in front of me. "no no no not this mom its just a gift yyou
dont have to cry over me it was nothing." but she was already walking up to me with her arms open and hugging me.
"oh i love you baby, thank you so much! you always do such nice things and i never do it for you.." blah blah blah i heard
it all before. the first gift i had ever bought without help from anyone was a book on 101 reasons moms will always stay
behind you and i wrote something on the inside of the book and then she criend saying how much she loved me and all. over-
dramatic mothers. but i loved her and new it was her day so i let her cry herself out. she backed up and kissed my forehead
then sat back down.
"mom i really dont care if you dont get me nice things. i mean you do pay for my electricity, a roof over my head and theres,
food on the table and everything else. i can understand. i've understood every non existent coach purse year. got it? i dont
even care for that stuff i mean isnt it obvious?" she laughed and cried at the same time. "i love you mom through everything
that will ever happen." this time i beant down and kissed her forehead. she held my face in between her hands. nodding she
let me go and grabbed her present.
"thank you baby girl." she said then elizabeth and thompsan walked in. when elizabeth saw mom had already gotten my present
she turned and glared.
"why'd you have to give her, her present already? me and thompsan wanted to do it so it was the first and we dont feel like
ours is less." i shrugged but new what she meant. she looked down at her gift then put it behind her back. "i dont have mine
mommy im sorry. but i'll get it to you." she smiled waving her in and taking there presents and opening them to see what was
inside. thompsan made her a necklace and elizabeth made her earrings and a bracelet to match.
"thank you all i'll wear it all tonight when i go out, and elizabeth?" she stopped at the door where she was about to exit.
"yours is amazing but dont feel like you have to compare to emily okay? she has a job so she can get me more expensive things
but they are all the same in my eyes and what matters is not the price you payed, but that you did it for your dear mother.
they smiled and hugged her then ran into the living room to watch T.V. we hugged then i whispered.
"ya mom and when you get me my present it doesnt matter what it is just as long as you made it." i smirked at her when she
tried to throw a seat cushion at me.
"that was once and it wasnt for you!" i laughed walking out the room yelling,
"but i loved that hand-made thong. it came from the heart." i said patting my heart walking backwards. " just i dont wear
them." laughing i dodged another pillow. "love you!" i yelled then ran up the stairs. i heard her scream it back laughing.

three days later i was woke up by jumping on my bed. i opened my sleepy eyes to see my mom, and elizabeth standing at the
foot of my bed and, of course, thompsan jumping on top of me.
"whats going on?" i asked sitting up and rubbing my eyes.
"happy birthday!" they all yelled throwing there arms in the air. still half asleep i looked at the clock. no wonder i was
sleepy! it was 6:04!
"why are you up so.. early?" i asked. my mom laughed and they all threw boxes at me. i sat up and stared setting them in a
neat pile.
"well i wanted it to be different than last year so it is exactly the day of your birthday. your officially 18 now cool huh?
i nodded my head which was starting to clear up. "so? arent you going to open your gifts so you can go back to sleep?
remember you have to go to school for the last day and then spring break. you know them two are already out." she said
pointing to the two of them standing next to her. elizabeth rolled her eyes, the "know-it-all" 8 year old. she sat down and
pointed to the boxes.
"please, hurry up and open them? i want you to see what i got you!" she grabbed the one in the middle and flung the one on
top to the side. thompsan went and picked it up from the edge of my bed bringing it back over to me. i sighed and sat back
already falling asleep.
"i'll make you two a deal. both open it at the same time so its not unfair to the other. ok?" they both squeeled then waited
for my ok. "go ahead." i said a little impatient. they both giggled and started ripping the gifts out. finally the last piece
of cover fell off. gazing upon the gifts i felt a lump rise in my throat. elizabeth had made me the prettiest box covered in
black paint then had purple and hot pink slashed across it. she saw where my gaze was and smiled, blushing.
"i made it in class, and brittaney helped show me what you would like.. its meant to hold like jewelery and stuff.. do you
like it?" she was really anxious i could tell.
"i love it. its so pretty im going to use it always." i said hugging her. "thank you baby." she stepped back and i set the
box to the side then looked at what thompsan got me. it was an old purse i was going to throw but now had skulls, clouds and
lightening bolts all over it. it looked so like me. "you made me this?" i asked looking at him doubtfully. he nodded his
head.
"ya but dont tell anyone i just new you would like it though." he hugged me then him and tess ran out of the room screaming
happy birthday all the way down. my mom sat next to me and patted my leg.
"so arent you going to open MY gift?" i smiled at her teasing tone then opened her present slowly this time. it was as
special as anything someone could've gotten me. it was two tickets to a memorial concert for Micahel Jackson. people were
going to be playing all his songs and ones that had never been released. showing all his vidoes and things like that giving
t-shirts and stuff. i looked up and smiled. she truly new me. then i frowned.
"this must've cost a fortune." i said. "i can't." i handed her the tickets back. she shook her head pushing them back into my
palms.
"no dont worry any i won them online." laughing i said,
"well nice to know." she winked then started,
"and i also won something else.. just a few bucks.." i lifted my eyebrow.
"am i suppose to ask how much or something?" i said. she sighed and rolled her eyes.
"of course! so i'm just going to tell you. i won $500,000! can you believe it? i finally won! i new i would too! finally i've
been playing a while."i was still shocked and just sat there staring stunned. she smiled at me and got up from the bed. "ok
so get ready last day of school before the break!" i nodded and started to roll out of bed once she left the room.i turned my
MJ music remix on and ran to my shower. feeling the water cascade down my body felt good but i had to get out. turning the
water off and stepping out into the cold air really woke me up. i wrapped my towel around me and grabbed my hair brush,
combing it through my thick hair. it had finally grew out all of my layers and was back to its original hip-length. i sat on
the bed and fell back with my arms at my side staring uo at the ceiling. sighing i closed my eyes and let the music swallow
me up. as i listened to the lyrics i opened my eyes.
"what were you feeling when you wrote this song?" i whispered into the air talking to no one. i picked out an outfit and ran
downstairs. when my mom saw me she smiled.
"my my. we look pretty today dont we? but you always do so its not a surprised." i smiled at her and put a bagel in the
toaster. i was wearing a blue layered skirt that came above my knees by a few inches but frizzed out like a too-too that had
a black leather belt attached to it. i was wearing a white sweater with stars all over it with a black lacy tank top under it
and my vans.my hair was in its usual style long and straight. i had a bow in my hair that held my bangs to the side. i think
i looked pretty good. my bagel popped up and i smothered it in cream. i sat at the table after pouring me a cup of orange
juice. i had my "new" bag filled with my stuff that thompsan had made. i finished my food, kissed my mom goodbye, then walked
out to the bus stop. as i waited i felt a weird feeling creep along my skin, as if something was going to happen that was
extremely different. i turned to look behind me to see if someone was watching me. at the last second of me turning my head
back i could've sworn i saw something but at that moment the bus pulled up. walking towards the back where i usually sat with
brittaney i sat down with just a few cat calls. she always saved me the window seat so after a greeting i turned to look out
the window and as we pulled away i saw someone step out of the shadows right behind where i had been standing..

the end of the day we walked out to the parking lot together. "so you'll come with me?" i said smiling. she giggled.
"ya totally i might not be obsessed with him but i enjoy his music. we'll have lots of fun." laughing we walked onto the bus
but as we were getting on i looked over and saw the guy. for some reason i had a feeling to go with him. stopping at the bus
doors i pulled out of her grasp still looking at the stranger.
"uh, you go ahead im going to.. meet up with an old friend." i said.
"you sure?" she said, reaching out her hand to re-take my arm. nodding i pulled out of her reach. i waved her on the bus as
the aggitated driver honked the horn. the bus started off and brittaney started walking towards the back and when the bus
turned i could see her worried expression in the back window. once the bus was out of view i walked, slowly, towards the
stranger's direction. this was so crazy. obviously this guy was stalking me, so why would i go to him? but that feeling still
nagged at my mind so i kept walking. he just kept standing there not doing anything. you'd think he would run but he just..
stood there. the weird thing was he still kept to the shadows so all i could see was his body not his face or upper torso. i
stopped a few feet in front of him and we stood staring at each other. well i stared at the shadows where his face was. i
cleared my throat.
"do you need something?" ya that was a good question to ask definatley if he was a stalker. 'oh ya i just want to follow
you around and watch you if thats alright.' what was i thinking i had to get away from here. but i couldnt it was like i was
frozen to the spot. i stood frozen as he walked out of the shadows but it was as if he was made of shadow. he had a face but
it wasnt human. it was dark in a powerful way not evil, but desperate like he had to give give give. the eyes of a hawk and
the mouth of a furnace. he was blazing with eternal life. i was struck senseless and when he spoke it was as if an orchestra
was playing but at the same time it was like the ocean hitting rocks, and the booming of high and mighty. he spoke but it
took me time to focus on what it was he said.
"i come from the eternal Lord almighty. i am an angel and follower. i come to do good for the ones whom God needs to show his
power." so he was an angel no wonder he seemed to be flooded with power. i closed my eyes and spoke with my soul. 'dear Lord
if this truly is a messenger from your heavens, please send me a sign or give me a verse to say and if he is a devil-follower
it will banish him from me.' for a reason i know not why, the verse, Jesus Saves, popped into my head. opening my eyes i
yelled.
"in the name of Lord All Mighty, Jesus Saves." the wind whipped around us and he stood staring at me. i needed more proof so
i flung my hand in front and yelled, "if thou are follower of satan be banished frommy sight and may i be in Christ again."
he just looked at me with those eyes as if saying, 'i told you.' i let my hand fall to my side. "ok," i agreed. "so what do
you want?" he stared at me with those eyes and i felt the stir of aw in my heart. "well?" i was getting restless standing
there as he watched me. like he was reading me.
"im here to give you your heart's desire." i was taken aback but then lowered my head. i didnt understand. was this some test
or something? my thoughts were cut off by the voice again. "no you are not in trouble. i am here to give you, as you say, the
cake and eat it. i will let you go back in time to when you want and live there until the time of your birth. when you
are born then you must go back to your original body but will be able to still go around as the older age sometimes. then
when you hit the age that you were sent back agian you can be the way you want. you will not grow like you would've if you
choose the sent back time but will be the same just no one will remember you from before. do you want it? you dont even have
to tell me but the heart will whisper the answer and it will happen. time will be frozen for your life when you leave so when
you grow to be at this age again, you will be as you were from the moment you left. when you are growing up again you will
not remember the older life but only when you are released for the time being. then when you hit the age you will get the
memories. do you agree or not? it is not a thing you can think about you must make a decision. now." i thought quietly. if i
did it, i couldnt loose anything...so...
"i'll do it." i said nodding my head but i didnt even get to look up because all of a sudden this blinding light consumed me
and before i new it i was in a room. my eyes started to re-focus and i saw i was in a hotel room. standing up i went over to
the mirror and gasped standing back. i was totally changed. i mean i looked the same it just wasn't my normal style. i had
little makeup like usual but.. my hair was in two long braids but ended braided in the middle so then the rest of my hair
hung down in just normal pig tails. it was cute but my hair was shorter in ways it was a few inches below my boobs. i liked
the length it was perfect on me. my bangs were still there and i had skinny jeans on so that must mean im in the eightys. i
tried figuring out what was on my top. i was wearing a neon colored tank top. it looked so eightys but it was still .. me in
its own kind of way.
"you better hurry up if you dont want to be late." i heard the crashing ocean's voice say. turning around i searched the
small room but couldnt find him. "do you doubt God's wisdom?" there it was again. i sighed then let my shoulders untense. he
was right.
"ok so where am i going if i may ask?" the voice laughed.
"yyour heart's desire." thats all he said then a knock sounded from the door. i was freaking. should i answer it? what if i
dont know what to do? what am i going to do should i do it?
"if if if goodness go open the door!" then i felt a push and i went to the door opening it slowly. i peaked out the door to
look at a big man in a suit.
"can i help you." i squeaked out. he looked at me then answered.
"emily messa?" he new my name? i decided to go ahead and answer him.
"y-yes. what do you want?" the man smiled now and the tension went away. few! big man likey me now.
"your car is here. its going to be taking you but you need to hurry. may i lead you?" i waited for an answer from the voice
but got nothing so ran in saw that i had nothing there except a purse and brought it. he was still there in the hallway so i
closed the door, after checking to see if had a key in my purse. he lead me down stairs and then we walked out into a street
where a limo sat. i was looking around for like a taxi but he started walking towards the limo and when i didnt follow he
turned. "miss?" i gasped.
"im riding in that?" i asked awed. he nodded his head.
"sorry it wasnt more but it was all they had." i cleared my throat as i got into the limo.
"of course no big deal it will do." i said laughing and smiling at him as he closed the door for me. putting the window down
when he knocked he said,
"the car will come and pick you up when its over. but you must call it you still have the number?" i reached my hand in my
purse and brought out an old cell phone. giggling a bit, but stopping when he stared i started searching and found it. i
nodded.
"yes its here." i threw the phone back in my purse and the car started off. but where am i going? i asked myself. a half an
hour or so passed and we pulled up to a big dome with hundreds of people outside of it. the driver turned around to look at
me.
"this is it ma'am." i gaped with my mouth open.
"what is todays date sir?" i asked. he thought for a minute then answered.
"april 14, 1888, why madaam." i sat there shocked then squealed with delight. i was in the eightys in Georgia, at a michael
jackson concert! jumping out of the car i said thank you then ran into the line. i looked down to see where we were suppose
to go and went to the front of the crowd. there he was! oh my gosh! he was walking down the isle! i was about to pee myself.
all of a sudden some girl pushed me with her elbow right in the stomach. i grimaced and grabbed my stomach. she was glaring
at me. the fat whore! she was like an elephant!
"move out of the way bitch!" was she talking to me? oh no-. but then michael was so close i didnt care he was about to pass
me in the golf cart! oof! i had the air knocked out of me and went flying forwards toward the ground. i landed on the side
of my right arm. it stung but it wasnt anything serious. i sat up and rubbed my arm. good no blood just a bruise. i didnt hit
the ground that badly. now where is that.. i looked up to find the fat cow that had been messing with me and noticed that
everyone was staring at me. well a lot of the people in front of me. well more like staring in my direction but above me. i
looked up and froze. Michael was standing right above me with a worried look on his face. he had gotten of the cart when he
saw me and came over to see if i was alright. he beant down to where his face was in my level. i was looking into his eyes
and i could hear his bodygaurds yelling for him. he hadnt looked at me yet but i was staring at his eyes. he grabbed my arm
to look at it.
"are you alright miss?" he asked me as he looked at me arm then grabbed my wrists and looked at me palms. do not ask me how i
wasnt freaking. he was so close. and his voice was so cute! he looked at me finally smiling but when our eyes connected his
smile faded and we sat there staring into each others' eyes. it was like a zap hit when we looked at each other. we had some
kind of connection right there. finally i couldn't take looking into those brown eyes on the ground as he leaned on his knees
so close to me. i cleared my throat.
"yes thank you." i said. my voice was steady and i was thankful for that. when i spoke it was like i snapped him out of deep
thought. he blinked a few times then smiled standing up and offering me his hand. i took it then he pulled me up into his
chest. again that electricity passed but now when we touched. i was leaning into his chest as he still held onto my hand. we
pulled away agonizingly slow then he spoke.
"i am so sorry that happened. did it hurt? are you hurt?" now he seemed anxious to make sure. he was looking at my arm again.
he cast his eyes up and into the crowd. "who did it? i'll make sure she is escorted out. sometimes fans get so hyped up they
do mean things." he was still searching the crowd. i shook my head at him and, to make sure, touched his shoulder. he turned
to look at me.
"its alright," i said dropping my hand. "dont send her back." then i turned. "ill kick her ass myself." i started towards
her but heard Micahel call for his gaurds and right before i reached her i was grabbed from behind by one of the big guys. i
started to wiggle away but another gaurd came and grabbed the girl escorting her out. i glared at her and she at me. the
gaurd took me over to the golf cart where Michael was. he was sitting there and the gaurd walked away when Micahel motioned
that it was ok.
"hop in." he sat motioning next to him. i crossed my arms and glared at the ground. he laughed then scooted over and grabbed
me pulling me in with him. i ended up landing in the seat. before i could try and get out he sped up. i sat staring over at
him and when he felt my eyes on him he took a glance at me. "what?" he said smiling again. i looked forward. ignoring him. i
couldnt believe how stubborn i was being i had always wanted to meet him and now that i could i was ignoring him! i was about
to say something but he beat me to it. " i'm sorry about that back there. i want to make it up to you by bringing you
backstage. if thats alright with you." i looked at him he looked positive about it. i didnt know what to say to that i mean
of course!
"well since i've never actually been to a concert of yours.. maybe i could spend half out there in front then backstage?" he
looked at me, awed.
"you've never been to a concert of mine? now i feel really bad you had to experience your first time like this. i am so sorry
how can i-" i started laughing so hard i was about to pee myself. i was crying, because i was laughing so hard. he looked at
me hard from the corner if his eyes. i shook my hand at him when he raised his eyebrow quizzically. "did i say something o-?"
i started laughing again.
"no, no, im alright *laugh laugh* its just *laugh* your to nice and your over here *laugh* thinking its your fault *laugh*
and im just making you feel worse." i took a big gulp of air finally calming down. "thank you." i said smiling at him. he
still looked a little confused but that was alright with me. we finally pulled up at the gate and i started to get off. he
grabbed my arm real fast and i felt that electricity intensify. he must've felt it too because he dropped his hand away real
fast.
"sorry." he muttered under his breath i turned back around. i could tell he wanted to say something. i sat back down, finally
able to really see him now as he stared back at me.
"yes?" i said, ignoring the growing noise. he sighed and ran his hand through his hair. he rested his hands on his lap and
turned to look at me.
"what is your name?" oh ya i forgot to tell him that. i smiled pushing my hand towards him.
"emily. emily ines messa." he took my hand in his and we smiled at each other as we shook each other's hand. when we stopped
he asked.
"hispanic?" i nodded.
"partly." he smiled.
"cool.. so will you stay afterwards so we can.. talk?" he really didnt know what to say. so he wouldnt feel bad i answered
right away.
"i'd love to. but i thought you didnt intereact with fans?" he laughed.
"i wouldnt really call you a fan. i mean a normal fan would be screaming and crying and clinging to me. but you arent your..
well normal.. i lo- i mean i like that about you, i feel normal atleast. your no one famous just a normal person and that is
awesome." i couldnt believe my ears at first it sounded like he was going to say he loved that about me but i couldnt get my
crazy hopes up.
"we have to go Mr. Jackson." a gaurd said coming up to the golf cart. he nodded and grabbed my hand.
"lets go. i dont want to be late." he said making me laugh.

the concert had been amazing. i mean ya in normal time i had looked them up a lot and watched them but being there and seeing
him perform live was just, amazing. when the intermediate came he came off of stage and brought me back with him. i could
feel the glares of all the girls boring into my back. when he brought me back we all had drinks and snacks and he led me off
into a secluded area where we sat there for the remaining mintutes, talking.
"so are you enjoying it so far?" he asked sipping from his cup. i nodded. not able to talk with all the food in my mouth. he
laughed reaching his hand up to wipe away something from the corner of my mouth. i froze as his fingers slid across my lips
afterwards as his hand fell from my face. his eyes were still on my lips and clearing my mouth of food i took a big gulp of
water. right when i lowered the cup he spoke in a husky tone to me. "when we first looked each other in the eyes did you feel
something.. like.. something electrical?" my eyes widened. so he had felt it too? his fingers came back up to my face. "i do
know i shouldnt be feeling this but it was like my soul has known you for life because when i first saw you and touched you
it was like electricity just coursed through me. please tell me you felt it too. and truthfully." i closed my eyes as his
fingers traced my face.
"i did too but i didnt think it was-" when i said those words i opened my eyes and saw the look in his face. before i could
finish my sentence he grabbed my face in between his large hands and angled my face upwards so i could meet him. his lips
fell upon mine and my whole body was flooded with the sensation. this felt so right and so i pushed myself into him. it had
to be right because i now how he was and he was not the type of guy to do this. we stood there kissing and his hands fell to
my hips. i incircled my hands around his neck and he put his around my waist. i felt his tongue on my lips and without a
second thought let him in. he explored my mouth and i moaned as his tongue stroked mine. my hands were in his hair holding
him to me and i could feel how sweaty he was from singing. i liked it. we broke apart for air and stared into each other's
eyes. the kiss had been loving but at the same time passionette. i pulled away thinking he was going to be revolted by what
he had done but he grabbed me and pulled me into an embrace.
"dont go away from me now. i've finally found someone i want to be with dont go away...please." i rested my cheek on his
shoulder and sighed embracing him back. his strong arms were around my shoulders and i could feel his heartbeat agianst me.
i pulled back to look into this eyes.
"this cant be its too fast." he smiled.
"no it is not. my dad proposed to my mom within 3 weeks and they are still happily married. we cant kiss within 3 hours? im
sure when you have been on dates you kissed the first time. arent i right? because it sure seems like you know how to." i
shook my head.
"still this might just be lust or something i mean we could just be physically attracted.." he grabbed my face and made me
look at him.
"do you really think we would have these feelings if we were just physically attracted? when i saw you the first time i was
just trying to be nice. but when i first looked into your eyes it was like the hole in me was filled. ive never felt this for
any woman, and trust me. ive lusted for woman." i bit my lip and tried to figure this out. he turned around to respond to
something i hadnt heard. he turned back with a confused look on his face. "the intermission is almost over. please stay so we
can figure this out with each other." i was about to protest but we kissed me so tenderly. it was a quick little kiss but it
removed any doubt of lust being about this. "please." he whispered. one last little kiss of tenderness then he let me go,
gazed into my eyes to make sure i stayed, then walked out onto stage.