Alice In Wonderland Fan Fiction ❯ Twisted Fantasy ❯ Chapter Twenty Three ( Chapter 23 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Matthew sighed. "Okay," he said softly. "Is there anyway that I could go to Wonderland?"

Alice froze and hugged the notebook to her chest as if it were her rabbit. Never before had she thought of taking someone to Wonderland with her...or even if someone else was allowed to come. What would the Mad Hatter say? What would he do? Was she really willing to share her Wonderland with Matthew...even though she cared so much about him? It was her place, her special place. She pushed some hair behind her ear and sat down on the bed to rest her ankle.

"I don't really know...it just kind of happens when I go. Like when I'm really drugged up I just seem to fade from this world into that world. I don't really know if you are allowed to go...I would have to ask my Mad Hatter," she said softly.

"Well please ask him," he said softly. "I would like to see your world."

Alice looked down. If there was a way for him to pass through like her...would she so willingly let him go? She liked that she could have a whole world to her own, a place where even a handful of people wanted her and needed her.

She looked up at him and smiled. "I'll see what I can do."

He smiled at that. "I'm glad. Please, let me know what you find out the next time you go."

"Yes well...getting there is the hard part..."

He smirked at that. "Well, who knows. Maybe you'll find another drugged cookie."

"Let's hope I don't hit the ground like last time," she said. A drugged cookie...how unlikely. "I should return to my room before Mr. Cat starts looking for me." She handed him the notebook back. "Burn that...I don't need it falling in the wrong hands."

He looked at her, a curious expression on his face. "I will take care of it," he said. "Let me walk you back to your room."

She took his hand and leaned against him as she started to walk. "Does this change things...now that we have...you know?"

"It only changes them if you want them to change," he told her.

She did but of course she wouldn't say that. She couldn't tell him her heart’s desire when she knew it was only a fleeting dream. "What do you want?"

"I want you to tell me what you want," he smirked.

She stopped in the middle of the hallway and didn't bother to see if anyone was in the hall with them. She turned to him, looking up at his eyes with seriousness. "You," she stated simply and plain.

His hand reached over and caressed her cheek. "Then you shall have me, Alice."

Her hands went over his on her face as she looked up at him. There was more she wanted, so much more, but she was just fine settling for the minimum. She wasn't sure if this meant he was offering to be her boyfriend or if he was promising to be hers forever, but if he would have her, she would be his for as long as he wanted her. She would belong to him. At least...in this world. He leaned forward and kissed her, pulling her close to him while he tasted her. Afterward he quickly fixed his clothes and smoothed her gown before starting back for her room. It was a brief kiss and risky. Camera's covered the halls. Anyone in security could have seen them. Maybe that's why she loved it so much, because he willingly risked it all just for one single moment of passion. Passion with her.

Upon taking her to her room, he sat her down on the bed and once more ran his hand over her knee. "I forgot to give you pain medication," he frowned. "I'll be back with some."

She looked down at her knee. She hadn't really thought of the pain medication with everything else running in her mind. She just nodded to him and watched him walk out. Letting out a sigh as her stomach growled, she laid back and looked at her gray stone walls. Her room was nothing compared to the book filled room of Matthew's. His room felt like a real room with its curtains and un-barred windows.

"Who's ready for lunch?" Mr. Cat's whimsical voice floated into the room as he brought her a tray full of food. He stopped as he looked over her. Her gown had risen so that he could see her underwear. "Boxers? Where did you get boxers to wear?"

Alice sat up quickly and pushed her gown down, hiding the boxers. "I had to get a shower because of the blood...none of my panties were washed..." she said with a blush. She looked at the tray and licked her lips. Her hands reached out for it. "I'm starving."

He gave her the tray, reaching out he rubbed her cheeks. "You're blushing," he smirked. "Should I go wash your panties for you?"

She shook her head lightly. "No, these are comfortable enough," she said as she started shoving food in her mouth. It seemed like forever since she ate and really it had been. She didn't eat at all the day before and sleep most all of today away. She moaned as the food hit her empty stomach, it almost hurt but she didn't mind. Slowly, her hand moved over his as she chewed. "Thank you...for everything...for opening the door...for being there...for...for just being on my side," she whispered.

He smiled brightly at this. "No worries! It's what I do," he said with a wink.

She smiled and took another bite, her cheeks looked like chipmunk cheeks as she shoved food in. Half of it she didn't other chewing. "I'm happy you didn't get in trouble with the director before he left. Then again, he really wouldn't be able to say much with Mr. Hatter promising to tell everyone what he did."

Mr. Cat hesitated but nodded. "Yes. Last night was a fiasco! Matthew came in carrying you, everyone was freaking out. The Director grabbed his stuff and left. It was just awful."

She put the tray aside after finishing it and held a cookie in her hand with some milk. "I don't really remember what happened. Mr. Hatter said I most likely got some of the drug in my system because I swore I saw him kill the director." She laughed lightly at this and bit the cookie then drank some milk. "Can you believe I actually thought I saw him stab the director? It must have been a very strong drug."

Mr. Cat chuckled as he played with her hair. "Matthew? Really? Yes, you most certainly were under the effects of some sort of drug."

"I wouldn't let him touch me at first and I actually said that if he did I would scream," she said as she took another bite. "It took him a moment to convince me it wasn't real. But..." She put the glass down and the cookie down as she stared at the ground, her eyes narrowing as if she was thinking hard. "His eyes...the way I thought his eyes looked...it was so haunting. I don't know why, but just because of the way I had thought he looked made it seem so real. I will never forget that look. I had never before seen someone so...mad..." she whispered.

He stroked her arm soothingly. "Trust me, you haven't seen some of our patients," he assured her. "There are plenty of them that are mad."

She looked over at him. If there were patients like that living in the same building as her, then she was grateful that the institution kept her separated from the rest of them. She wasn't allowed to do the group things with them anymore because she had once been violent, but now she wondered if it was because they were too violent for someone as young and as small as her to be around. She laid her head in his lap as he played with her hair. "I wish I knew where you lived, Mr. Cat...I would have ran to your house yesterday."

He smiled at that. "I would have enjoyed having you as a guest. We could have parties. Play dress up. Go shopping. It would have been fun."

She felt tears well up in her eyes. "I don't know what any of that is like..." she whispered. "Not anymore..."

He frowned at this. "Tomorrow, I'm going to bring you a dress and make up," he told her. "We're going to get you all dolled up."

She sat up and looked at him. "What for? I can't go anywhere to show anyone."

He smiled. "You leave that to me." Looking at her, he tried to take her measurements. "You're about a B, maybe a C."

She cupped her breasts. "I don't know..." she said. She removed her hands. "You can check if you want." She moved closer to him so he could try.

He reached out and took hold of her breasts, lifting them up, trying to measure. After squeezing them for a few seconds, he shrugged. "I'll bring two bras and we'll see which fits better."

Alice winced a bit as his hands cupped her. She had forgotten about the bite marks and bruising. When he pulled back, she squealed and hugged him closely. "I'm so excited!" She couldn't remember the last time she was allowed to wear real clothes.

"I'm excited too!" He laughed as he hugged her. "I couldn't help but notice the look of pain. Are your breasts tender?"

She pulled back, a blush spreading across her face. "No! Don't be silly!" she laughed lightly.

He frowned, reaching out he groped her breast, watching her wince. "You're lying, Alice. You never lie to me."

She moved his hands from her. "I fell in the woods yesterday and they got bruised...it's nothing..." She hated lying to him. She hated it so much. She wanted to tell him the truth but she wasn't sure if Matthew would approve. She just hoped he wouldn't ask to take her gown off. Where was Matthew!?!

"Well let me look at it," he said, wanting to make sure she was okay.

"They're ok, honestly," she insisted.

He frowned. "Alice, let me see them. You could have broken a rib!"

Alice couldn't fight with him. He would only over power her and force the gown off her. He had done it before when she was into cutting herself. Slowly, she lifted the gown over her head. "It's not what it looks like," she said softly and bit her lip.

His eyes widened as he took in her bruised chest. "And just what else is this suppose to look like?" he asked, his fingers danced over the bite marks as he looked at her.

"I...got...bit..." she said slowly. She wasn't a good liar. "By...my rabbit?" As if stuffed animals could bite!? She looked over her at her rabbit, completely innocent.

"And was the rabbit wearing a doctor's coat at the time?"

"Yes...wait no...that's right...the answer is no."

He frowned and poked her in the breast. "Alice, who did this to you?"

Alice winced again. "Stop it," she said and covered herself with her hands. "No one."

"No one doesn't leave bruises and bite marks!" He stopped as he looked down at her. "Did someone have sex with you?"

She blushed again as she grabbed her gown. "Don't say such things..."

His eyes widened. "You did! You had sex!"

Alice covered his mouth. "Shut it! Do you want to get me in trouble!?" she said quickly. "Please, don't tell anyone. Just pretend this conversation never happened." Where is MATTHEW!?!

"How can I pretend? Who did you have sex with? Did you want to have sex with them? Did you enjoy it?"

Alice covered her ears. "I don't want to hear anymore! Just drop it!" she insisted. Once more she grabbed her gown. "I didn't do anything wrong! And neither did the other person! Nothing bad happened!"

"I didn't say that anything bad happened. Sex is a wonderful thing. It's, well it's great!" he told her. "I just want to make certain that the sex was consensual."

Alice turned from him, blushing madly now as she put her gown back on. "Yes, it was. Now just leave before I die of embarrassment."

"No way!" he said. "I want all the details! Who was it with? Did you enjoy it?"

She covered her ears again. "La la la la la! I'm not listening!"

"Well, I'm certain that Matthew will listen," he teased.

Alice's hands dropped. "You can't say anything to him."

"Why not? He's your doctor. He should know if you've been sexually active."

"But not with someone that's from here!"

"Well, who was it that you gave your womanhood to?"

"The Mad Hatter," she said. "And I lost my virginity a while back...you know this..."

"You lost it, yes, but this time you gave what you have," he told her. "And you gave it to Matthew of all people."

"I didn't say that!" she said shaking her head quickly.

"Yes you did," he grinned. "You said the Mad Hatter. That's Matthew. Not to mention I'm pretty sure I could match those bite marks to his teeth; and just look at how you're blushing!"

She placed her hand on her cheeks, feeling the burn. "I meant the Mad Hatter in Wonderland..."

"Sure you did. That's the reason you're blushing and have goose bumps. Face it, you're a terrible liar, Alice and you're in sooooo much trouble if anyone finds out."

She sighed. "I know..." she whispered. "But I can't help it...I'm addicted to him..."

"Addicted to him?" He smiled, patting the spot beside him so she would relax. "How so?"

She laid her head in his lap again. "Every time I see him I can't help but feel all fuzzy inside. And when we kiss it's like a million stars burst around us. He sets my skin on fire and when he's not around he's all I can think about." She looked up at him. "Oh, Mr. Cat, I love him so very much."

He stroked her hair. She was in over her head with all of this. "You love Matthew?"

She covered her face with her hands on nodded. "I just don't know how it happened. It was all so fast. One minute I was throwing shoes at him and the next I was on top of him!" She removed her hands and looked up at him. "And the worst part of it is that I love the Mad Hatter in Wonderland as well...my heart is so very torn."

He stroked her cheeks, moving some hair behind her ear. "Who do you enjoy being with more?"

"I enjoy both of them. When I'm in Wonderland, I'm so very happy to be with the Mad Hatter. I never want to leave, and yet, when I'm here, I'm so happy to be with Mr. Hatter that it's hard to breathe sometimes. The Mad Hatter in Wonderland wants me to belong only to him...I don't know what to tell him..."

"Well, Alice, who do you wish to be with for the rest of your life?"

She thought a long moment. For a while it was just silent in her room. "I...don't know...I want them both."