Beyblade Fan Fiction ❯ A Slayed Angel ❯ Chapter 8

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

Tala understood what he was doing was wrong, but after spying
on Kai and reading the letters to that girl Natalie, he had to learn
more about Nattie's friend Neca. Ever since he first started to
read about her, she just stunned him, he'd never heard about, seen
or even met a girl like her before. So now when ever he had a little
spare time from training for the up coming battle, he'd alway be found
here talking to her. Unlike Kai Tala didn't wait before talk to her and he
found her to be a worthy fighter, granted it was with words but still.
Tala shook himself from his thoughts to read the entry she had posted the
night before.
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Okay it's only fair to warn you I've been thinking alot about
death in the past few months, ever since my friend Jessie tried
to kill herself that is. Well I've thought it over and it just seems
to me that there's all kinds of ways to to make your life unlivable
even let someone else do it for you, yet everyone seem in such a
big hurry to live, why? I mean does your life really mean that much,
is it so importent to live, yet so boring to die? I want to know what
dying is like, is there a big light at the end of a long tunnel? are there
angels singing in the clouds? or is it something else all together?
I want to know, yet it seems the only way to do that is to die myself,
I don't have a problem with that myself, in fact if I could I would die tonight, but for some unknown reason, someone wants me to live,
'bummer'. I mean everyone else when Jessie tried to kill herself
were really mad at her they fussed and yelled and got so mad they
sent her to a mental ward for a few weeks, yet I wasn't mad at her
and she said that helped, really I just wanted to know why and
how could you work up enough courge to do something like that,
People always say that suicide is for cowards. That doesn't really
bother me much. But doesn't anyone take into consideration that
it takes courage to kill your-self. Yes, suicide may be the cowards
way out, but it is only cowardly, because suicide is like running
from all your problems. Mainly running from life itself, since life
inflicted so much pain on those few individuals. I mean, I myself
think it's kinda brave to not care enough about other people to just
up and leave like that, and know they'll never see you again yet
also to know you had to do it to please yourself just once. Is that
to much to ask? in a world where all you ever feel is pain, and
heartache, sorrow, and lonelyness, aren't you allow for once in
that life to be happy? to do something for yourself that nobody
else could do for you? It's a release of sorts a release from everything
that's ever gone wrong in you life, as the words go in one of my
favorite fan fics. 'You can never run from your problems, they'll
always be there, but at least in a way you can work through them.
But pain is something that never goes away it will follow you through
out your life only stopping when you take your last breath, then finally smiling
and telling you good-bye, it's why so many people die with a
smile on their face, because they've finally gone somewhere, where
even pain fears to thread.' I think that's true I mean you hear that in
hell you'll burn foreven and it will never stop, but it never say's
anything about pain. I for one am sick of people looking at one of
MY Best Friends as if she's some loser, or a piece of glass, she's not,
she's better now and no one should treat her different just because,
she had to do something like try and kill herself to get the help she
couldn't get from Adults while healthly. So while I know everyone is
most likely staring at their screen going what the hell? I'm going to sign
off, oh don't worry I won't kill myself, I'm not strong or brave enough
to do that I'm just gonna go lay down before I have to get up in the morning. So bye
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Tala understood her even more he could easily see her point,
he started to write her a letter, she had sent one to him stating she'd
be in Russia soon, if so then wanted to meet her. He finished his letter
and signed off just then he heard foot steps coming down the hall and
quickly shut the computer down, he breathed a sigh of relief as he headed
off to train, all the while thinking, <soon Neca, soon you will be mine, and
I will make your pain go away> he smirked at the idea all day long.
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Okay so sorry about that but my friend Nattie only likes Kai,
whle I on the other hand like both Kai and Tala, so in this story she
got Kai and I got Tala. So if no one like please tell me I don't mind flames
they make nice danceing light.