Beyblade Fan Fiction ❯ Shattered Glass ❯ Recollections of a distorted mind ( Chapter 8 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Hi Everyone! I'm so so so bored, so I thought I'd write another chapter! Sorry my last one went on a bit, I'll try and make up for it! Anywho, to the story!

Chapter 8 - Recollections of a distorted mind.

`How old where you when they passed away?' Flynn asked gently.

`Almost six…and they didn't `Pass Away', they were murdered.'

The others looked on in shock.

`What happened?' Flynn asked.

Kai sighed, part of him wanted to run away so his secrets could remain behind locked doors, while another part wanted to scream, shout and tell them everything, he rubbed his eyes with his hands and decided what he was going to say.

`Okay…' he said, `well, I remember we were outside, my dad had given me Dranzer that morning so we were outside blading, trying her out.' He smiled faintly at the memory, `My dad let me win, but at the time I thought I actually beat him…' Tyson cut in without thinking `Was your dad a good blader?' Kai smiled, `He was world champion four years in a row' he said proudly, `I have no doubts he would have been again if he wasn't…' sadness filled his eyes, Rei put his hand on his shoulder.

`Please continue.' Flynn said gently, Kai nodded, `as I said, we were blading, and my mom came out with us to watch, but then a man appeared… there was a sort of air about him that I didn't like, he seemed to change the atmosphere around us, all cold and dark,' Kai shivered, `he had a mask on his face so I couldn't see who it was, and he was wearing these dark robes, he was saying something about going with him and becoming a success, I remember my mom was holding onto me real tight, and they both said I wasn't going with him, and he got mad and he…'

The memories flooded back, the images flashed in his mind, all the blood, and the sounds as vivid as they were at the time, the screams and the cries, some of pain, some of anguish and grief.

`Kai?' Rei shook him gently; Kai snapped out of his flashbacks and tried to brace himself for telling next part of his past experience, `and he…he pulled out a sword and he…' he couldn't carry on, his tears fell and he made a stabbing gesture with his hand, and the others knew exactly what he meant.

Rei embraced him, but let him cry, they all knew this is what he needed, to let it all out, when he calmed down Flynn asked him to carry on,

`I know this is hard, but it'll help you to let it out.'

Kai nodded he started again, his voice was shaky.

`I felt someone pull me away from my mom, I tried to struggle away from him, but he was too strong, and then I heard this thud…this horrible thud, I looked and I saw my dad, he was on the lying there dead on the floor, I tried to scream, but I just…I just couldn't, I couldn't take my eyes away from my father, but then I heard this screaming, this terrible screaming, and I realized it was my mom, I looked to see the man was going after her as well, she tried to run from him, but he caught her…' He broke down, and tried to finish through hysterical sobs `and he just hacked at her…even after she was dead he wouldn't stop…and I couldn't do anything to stop it.'

Rei's P.O.V

I couldn't believe it… my god; I can't believe he'd kept this to himself for so long.

My eyes filled with tears at watching him let out his pain, probably for the first time.

I felt numb, however I couldn't start to imagine the pain he must be feeling. I wrapped my arms around him and rocked him backwards and forwards; it was all I could do to offer him some form of comfort.

The others just sat and stared, we were all shocked at what we just heard, and I don't think any of us knew exactly what to do.

Flynn started to ask him questions again, `so what did he do to you afterwards Kai?' he asked, I gave him a look of disbelief, I couldn't believe he was still asking him questions, especially when he could see how much it was hurting him, I was about to tell him to leave him when Kai answered, god he was brave, `I remember I started to cry, and the man hit me and told me crying was for the weak…after that it's all a blank…I just remember waking up somewhere that wasn't home…and I found out that I wasn't even in the same country…' I looked at him confused; Flynn kept the questions coming `what country?' Kai seemed to ignore him, and looked towards myself and the rest of the team, `that's how I got to the abbey…' he buried his head in my shoulder.

Normal P.O.V

The Bladebreakers looked at Kai with wide eyes, `so this was how he had got there…' they all thought.

Rei looked to see Flynn looking confused, so he tried to explain about the abbey so Kai didn't have to, `Kai was trained to beyblade in Balkov Abbey in Moscow, from what we know it wasn't a nice place…' he was cut off by Kai, `that's an understatement, it's like living in a nightmare, only it's real.'

`What do you mean `living in a nightmare'? What happened there?'

Kai's grief was replaced by bitterness, `they played on our fears, it was the worst for the best of us, especially me, seeing as I was the grandson of Biovolt's leader, we were trained hard, and if we showed any sign of weakness we were punished, usually by using our fears, I don't know how they did it, but they found what it was that scared you the most and used it against you…sometimes it was far worse punishment.'

`What did they do to you?' Flynn asked.

`Let's just say I've seen things most people will never see, and I've gone through things you wouldn't have even thought possible. However, some of the lighter punishments were things like sleep deprivation, starvation, beatings, infact they had rooms set up with torture equipment.'

Everyone in the room had a look of horror on their face as they absorbed Kai's information.

Flynn knew that it was best to leave things for now, he scribbled a few more notes down on his clipboard and put his hand on Kai's shoulder, `I think we should leave it there for today…you did well Kai, it takes a lot to share those kinds of experiences with people.' He turned and left.

Kai let out a sigh of relief, he wasn't sure if he felt better now he'd told, or worse, all he wanted now was to go home.

Dr Myers was still in the room, reading Kai's stats, so he made no hesitation in asking him `Hey, when can leave here?' Dr Myers turned round to face him `Well I'm just waiting for a few more test results to come back, but the ones I've had so far are looking good, so not too long I should think.'

`Hn.' Came Kai's reply, Dr Myers sat down by the bed.

`Kai, when you leave here, we are going to ask you to come for sessions with Dr. Yates.' Kai looked over at him with worry in his eyes.

`Sorry doc, I don't think so…' he was cut off by someone in the doorway, it was Mr. Dickinson, `I'm sorry Kai but I'm afraid you're going to have to.'

Kai looked up at him, `I'm not going to have some guy who knows nothing about me poking around in my private life, what I said just now is already far too much I-'

Mr. Dickinson cut him short `then why did you tell him hmm?' Kai looked down at the bed, avoiding eye contact with everyone, he didn't know why he'd told them, they all could see this, Mr. Dickinson spoke again, `I know it's difficult for you Kai, but it's about time you learned to accept help when you need it instead of shutting yourself away from everyone,'

Kai was starting to feel annoyed `can't they see I don't need their help? I can cope on my own.' He thought, and let his annoyance be known.

`How long is it going to take you all to realize? I can cope fine on my own! I don't need anybody snooping around in my affairs trying to find problems, I know I've just shown my weaknesses to you but that doesn't mean I can't handle it, for the last time, I. don't. Need. Your. Help!'

Rei felt his own anger begin to rise.

`Cope fine on your own huh? Well if you're coping so well then would you care to explain these?' he grabbed Kai's arm and pulled the sleeve up to show the red lacerations printed all over his wrists.

Kai tried to pull away from Rei, but he was gripping too hard.

`And if you're coping so well alone, why the hell are you here Kai? And what about me? If you're so fine alone, you don't need me anymore do you!?' everyone was staring at Rei wide-eyed, they knew he was right, but they never thought he'd be so upfront and forceful.

Kai looked away from him, not able to look him in the face, `I never said that…' he said quietly `Yeah, well you may as well have done.' Kai shook his head `I never meant that, I never said I wanted to be alone, I just…I.' Tears welled up in his eyes.

Rei tried to get Kai to look him in the face, but he wouldn't, so he pushed him down on the bed and lay on top of him, pinning his arms down to the bed and making it impossible to avoid eye contact.

`Damnit Kai, when are you going to learn, your grandfather isn't here anymore, he's gone and he's never going to be in your life again, you don't have to be so perfect anymore, your allowed to make mistakes, and your allowed to have feelings, and most importantly, you're allowed help, and as your friends we want to give it to you.'

A stray tear ran down Kai's face, Rei's little speech had really spoken to him, and made him realize, like it or not he was going to have to let them into his life, but he wouldn't be able to change instantly.

`I know Rei, but please try to understand I can't change overnight, I've never had to depend on other people before, and to be honest I'm don't know how I'm going to do it…' Rei smiled and kissed the tear away, `don't worry, we'll all help you, that's what were for.'

He peeled himself off Kai, he looked around the room and remembered Mr. Dickinson was there, a fearful look dawned over his face, Kai noticed this `Rei what's wrong?' he followed his gaze to Mr. Dickinson and it hit him, `oh god…he knows…'

Mr. Dickinson chuckled when he saw the scared looks on the young boy's faces, `seems like I'm in need of a team update hmm?' Tyson and Max stifled their laughter as they saw their friend's faces turn cherry red, `Your not mad are you Mr. D?' Rei asked Mr. Dickinson chuckled again, `No, of course not, I'm not so naïve to think love only applies between men and women.' Kai and Rei smiled and looked at each other with relief.

There was a knock at the door; Kai was starting to get very sick of that sound, it was Dr. Myers, `Good news and Bad news guys, good news is Kai's test results all came out well, so we can let you go later today.' They were all very happy to hear this.

`Bad news…well I think I should talk to you privately Kai…'

Kai rested his head against Rei's shoulder, `Nah, they'll find a way of finding out what it is anyway, so you may as well just tell us all.'

`Very well.' Said Dr. Myers, `Dr. Yates, myself and some other doctors feel that you may have a serious case of depression Kai, this can be treated through medication but you also need to have an input, which will involve further sessions with Dr. Yates, are you okay with that?'

Kai looked up at Rei, he still didn't want to go to these sessions, Rei knew what he was thinking, he nodded and kissed him on the cheek, `Yeah, that's fine' he said in a forced voice, Rei hugged him tighter, he knew he would be for the best.

`Excellent, now, I know you don't like hospitals, so I can try to arrange for Dr. Yates to come to you, would that make it easier for you?'

Kai nodded; `Would I have to be on my own with him?' he asked and held onto Rei tighter, Dr. Myers smiled,

`No, you can have Rei or someone else with you if it makes you more comfortable.' Kai smiled faintly `At least I don't have to go it alone…like I usually do…like I usually want to…' he thought.

`So when can he leave Doc?' Rei asked keenly, he wanted him to be at home more than Kai did. `I just need to wait for Kai's prescriptions to come through and he can leave.' Kai looked up, `Prescriptions?' Dr. Myers nodded, `Yes, I did say you would need medication.' Kai stiffened `What kind of medication' `god, please, no more needles!' he screamed in his head.

`Don't worry, they are just some anti-depressant pills, they are perfectly safe, might cause a few side effects such as nausea, drowsiness, headaches, but they should wear off few weeks after taking them, okay?'

Kai nodded, and watched the doctor leave.

Rei's P.O.V

An hour later, Kai was packed and ready to go.

Tyson, Max and Kenny had gone home early, they said they had something important to sort out, but I knew they were up to something, I heard them talking earlier when Kai was asleep, what it is I don't know.

Kai was getting impatient, so was I come to think of it, I just wanted him to be home, with me and the guys, but mostly me.

There was finally a knock at the door, and for once Kai was happy to hear it, Dr. Myers appeared in the doorway, he told us that Dr. Yates (why he didn't just call him Flynn like the rest of us I don't know.) would be coming to our apartment every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday afternoon, Kai didn't look too happy about it, but I know he'll benefit from it.

He finally gave us a paper bag, which contained Kai's pills, gave us the usual instructions, and we were finally allowed to leave, we thanked him and left, it must have taken us 10 seconds to get out of there.

Chapter 8 done! I think I may have babbled again… please review and tell me if I am, some pointers would be good as well if you could!

More Rei/Kai in chapters from now on!

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