Beyblade Fan Fiction ❯ The ways of life ❯ Chapter 4
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By: The Owner of the Jade Dranzer 
Anime/Manga: Beyblade Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Thriller / Suspense / Romance | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 09.09.2006 | Pages: 1 | Words: 5.0K | Visits: 621 | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: Beyblade Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Thriller / Suspense / Romance | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 09.09.2006 | Pages: 1 | Words: 5.0K | Visits: 621 | Status: Work In Progress
Disclaimer : Of course, I don't own Beyblade, but yeah, I do own my wierd ideas ;) Life would be hell without them. But hey guys, can I own Kai, please please pretty please ?
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Kai walked out of the camp door, angry and confused. Of course, he hadn't shown them how he had felt hearing Tyson, but he couldn't run from himself, could he ? After all, he had done whatever he could to save Tyson and Hilary from near death. And what did he get in return ? A rude remark from a guy, whom he thought of as his best friend, howsoever idiot he might be. A remark which pierced his cold mask and hurt his well - hidden heart. Actually, this feeling of being left out was getting heavy on him for some time now. Now, it had been just aggravated to great heights. They were all a team, and the others were friends too. But he couldn't say the same thing for himself. He didn't feel like he was considered as an inseparable part of the team, even though they did obey him, but it looked more due to the respect and awe he carried, rather than being friendship and trust. It was just as if they were putting up with him because they were a team and he was their captain, otherwise they wouldn't even give him a damn look.
For the first time in many years, he felt his heart tighten into a small ball. He felt like he had lost a lot in his life already. The time he had spent at the Abbey had forced him to cloak his emotions and feelings under a cold hearted appearance to the world. Rage swelt up inside him as his thoughts flew to the miserable years at the Abbey. Even though his memory had been wiped out before he had been able to get out of that dreadful place, he could still feel the tortures and anguish that place could give a person. It had been here where he had first learned to disguise his feelings, to put on an emotionless face, as most of the time, it helped much more than reacting out violently. And that's what his grandfather had taught him at a very early age, ' Love is for the weak ' and ' Friends is just the other name for traitors, people who appear friendly to you, but in reality, use you for their selfish purposes ; and when that's done, they disappear, leaving you all alone to suffer from the betrayal '. And he had believed it completely.
But when he had met the others, especially Tyson, he had realised that it was just the opposite. Love actually made you stronger, strong enough to face any situation, just for the one you love. He had understood the true meaning of team work and friendship, working with the Bladebreakers. The life he lived now started from Tyson and ended at him. He was the one who had made Kai understand the true sense of beyblading. He had helped him, unknown to himself, to bond an undying bond with Dranzer. Yet he still felt unwanted amongst them. However hard he tried, he wasn't able to push out this thought from his mind. He felt like... crying. A big lump was starting to form in his throat. He tried to block out the tears that were starting to prick his eyes. How could he cry ? He had been trained against all sorts of emotions by his grandfather. No, he couldn't cry. He was not supposed to cry. But as much as he tried to fight it, the more weaker he got.Finally, he wasn't able to control himself any more. He ran away from that place onto the high slopes, so that nobody would be able to see him cry. There, the tears went down his pale cheeks freely. This time, he didn't stop them. He couldn't. He was feeling just too helpless, too tired of the insensitive, uncaring world around him. He still ran wildly, into the deep forests, not caring about the scratches the sharp bushes made on his face and hands, not caring about anything. Right now, the only thing he wanted was... to feel wanted. By anything or anyone, it didn't really matter. All that mattered was that feeling of being wanted he was longing for. His mind felt like it would burst at any moment. He stopped by an old withering tree to lie down and rest.
" Control yourself, Kai. You shouldn't be weak. ", he muttered to himself. But his tears still didn't stop. They just flowed down as if they had been wanting to get out for years now and had been suppressed for a very long time. He threw himself down on the ground and buried his face in the soft forest grass. He stayed that way for some time, letting out all his welled up tears find a way out. Just then, he felt something soft nudging against his hair. He looked up and saw a wolf looking straight into his eyes.
He stumbled, taken aback by the sudden appearance. He carefully looked at it again. Now, he realised that it was just a baby wolf. A smile broke on his tear stained face and he moved forward to stroke the cute animal. The wolf rumbled quietly and looked upto him sweetly and contendedly. He collected it in his arms and started caressing it. It settled softly into his lap, licking his hand with its tongue. After a long time, Kai felt at peace, watching and caressing that young creature. It reminded him of his childhood, when he used to goof around with his sister and friends, when he and his sister used to be a constant headache for their parents for their pranks, for which they were famous throughout their place. His sister ! Aaah, he missed Keisha ! He missed her so much. She was just like his actual walking and talking diary. The same way he was for her. They were so open to each other about every thing, even if it was something they hid from their parents. But now, everything was over. His grandfather, Voltaire Hiwatari, had killed almost everybody that had been close to Kai. He had murdered his parents in front of his eyes, when he was just a seven year old kid, and had taken him and Keisha with him to the worst place Kai had ever seen, the Abbey. There, they were trained like soldiers, to take over the world by mastering the art of beyblading, and were punished brutally even at the smallest mistake. Keisha had stood against it, but was not able to do anything, as the power against her was just too great for her to overcome. Yet she had fought with every single breath she could muster up. And Kai never knew any of these things, as he was separated from his sister the very first day they had got to the Abbey. All he ever came to know was that his sister had revolted against Voltaire, but he had been able to ' deal ' with her without any problems. It was extremely well known throughout the Abbey what did ' dealt with ' meant. It meant his sister had been murdered cold bloodedly by his grandfather, just like he had done with his own son and his wife. That was the last day Kai had cried. After losing the person closest to him, he had steeled himself against every damn thing the Abbey could come out with. Thus, he was known throught the ranks of the hundreds of students of the Abbey as the ' warrior ', who had trained under Voltaire and had mastered his arts. The warrior, whose heart no plea or cry could pierce through, who was just the ideal student Voltaire had wanted. And he had got him. Kai had become completely inifferent to his surroundings the day he had come to know about his sister's death. The world had closed around him. Just, some days before he had everything a boy of his age could dream of, and now, he had lost all that, including Keisha.
He had then trained hard, very hard, and had become the best blader of the Abbey. No beyblade escaped unscathed and undefeated if it ever came out against him. He virtually ruled the kids in there. Then one day, all of a sudden, he stumbled upon something his father had saved for him, which his grandfather had hid from him for so long. He found Dranzer in his grandfather's room. That day, his world changed again. The dark power which had engulfed him till of now was starting to evaporate. His mind started getting clearer and clearer, and he saw through his grandfather's plans pretty soon after that. He was able to run away, but not without getting every single memory of his childhood being wiped off his brain. He then led a gang of his own, named the Bladesharks. It was then that he had met Tyson, and later on, Ray and Max too. They had then formed a team, the Bladebreakers. It was with this team that he had learnt these little bits about his forgotten past, about his parents, his sister, and about himself. He had once fallen to the power of Black Dranzer, but after his team had helped him out of that, he had vowed never to stray ever again. This team had gone through may ups and downs, once even completely dismembered, but now they were back together again. And they were a very strong team. But now, all Kai wanted was to mingle with them and have a family again. A family which he could call as family, howsoever unlike it might be to his original family. Tears started to well up in his eyes again.
But he was again interrupted by the little wolf, as he snuggled in closer and let out a dull growl. " You really don't want me to cry, do you ? ", Kai asked it smilingly. It looked up into his eyes very sweetly, as if agreeing with his statement. He stroke it lovingly. " Thank you, my little friend. ", he said. He then wiped off his face with his sleeve, and looked at his watch. " Oh gosh, it's 3.30 already. Guess I cried for a long time. But I have understood one thing now. It's not weak to cry, to let your emotions flow out. Anyways, time to go back. ", he noted. He picked the baby wolf in his arms from his lap, and gently let it down on the ground. " Here you go. And thank you again. ", he said as he waved it goodbye. Then, he set back towards the camp, desperately hoping that they would be searching for him now, as he was so late, even though he used to disappear like this all the while. But this time, he wanted them to be looking for him, or at least, getting worried about his whereabouts. He gave a look in the direction of the camp and sighed. No, it didn't make sense hoping for such a thing. After all, it would appear just normal to them that he was out there all alone. Then it struck him.
It had been him all the while ! All that he had been thinking about his team was just... trash. Or at least very unlikely. Because, most probably, he was the reason why they used to keep their distances from him, as he always put on a cold appearance. And he had grown so accustomed to it, that he hadn't shed it off even in front of those whom he wished to be close to. " Oh great, I just feel even stupider than Tyson. And people call me a genius ! Seriously, why the heck didn't this fact strike me before ? ", he remorsed, scolding himself. " Fine, now I am gonna show them my true self, the actual Kai. ", he decided, as he ran down towards the camp, excited by this new discovery and its prospects.
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Tyson went out of the camp, remorseful. He had not meant to hurt Kai in any way. It had just been a sudden outburst at that small jest, which he had taken pretty seriously. Now that he went over it again, he realised that Kai had just been trying to have some fun. Was it wrong for him to do that ? Of course not, especially when Tyson himself enjoyed joking around with him so much. But then, he never had fired out at Tyson, right ? Usually he used to either just ignore him or if he found the joke really funny, he would simply silence Tyson by a witty one - liner, and then walk off. But never had he spit out at him.
Tyson started feeling very guilty. Kai was very special to him. He was the one due to whom Tyson had got his Dragoon and had understood what the actual beyblading world was like. And even though he did not show his biases, he definitely enjoyed the battles with Kai much more intensely than combating with any other blader, even his friends, Ray, Max or Daichi. He actually used to forget who or where he was when he battled him. It just seemed as if another dimension used to open up, especially reserved just for the two of them. He and Dragoon loved being there, and he knew Kai liked it too. And now that he thought of it, he realised that nobody knew what Kai was actually like as much as he did, because the Kai he had seen during their final match of the last world tournament was the actual Kai, the one without his mask, the one who bladed for the enjoyment and pleasure it brought.
And he was Tyson's closest friend, whether he himself felt it or not. He was the only person for whom Tyson would go to any lengths to win a battle. He was the source of constant confidence and support to him, in a beydish or out of it. Definitely, he had got his own ambitions, but Tyson knew it well that he would never do a thing that could harm him in any way. Tears came to his eyes as he thought of their days together, starting from the time when he had first met Kai and had got defeated damn easily. After that, it had been a constant struggle for him for the improvement of his game, but Kai had always been there whenever he needed him. Their team, the Bladebreakers, had been virtually invincible, as each one of them was very powerful and more importantly, they stuck out together in every situation. He remembered how Kai had trained him for his crucial match against Zeo, even when Kai himself was not in a stable condition, losing Dranzer to Zeo in the semifinal. And then, when the Bladebreakers had broken up, with each member joining their home teams, Kai was actually the one Tyson had wanted to fight with, initially because he had hurt him the most by deserting the Bladebreakers, but later because he wanted to prove himself to his former captain. And he knew it was the same with Kai too, the reason why he had left their team to join the Blitzkrieg Boys. To be able to fight against Tyson. He also knew that it was not because he had wanted to win the championships or any other lame excuse he had initially made, it was only for the pleasure of fighting out an intense beybattle with Tyson. And they both had got what they wanted, with Tyson getting the championship trophy and Kai getting his desired battle.
Now that they all were back again, Tyson had forgotten how he had struggled during the last year and how much had he missed Kai. Of course, he had missed them all, but it was Kai whom he had missed the most. And now, he hadn't even thought for a second before saying something so insulting to him. " Hn, do you really think before saying anything ? ", a voice spoke up inside him, a voice which sounded so similar to Kai. " I gotta find him ! ", Tyson decided, looking around.But he could not see a soul for miles around. " Oh boy, where did he go ? ", he exclaimed, " Well, it has been some time I have been reminiscing. So maybe, he's either gone too far for me to catch up with him or he's gonna come back soon, having spent time alone already. Okay, so how am I gonna find him out now ? Think Tyson, think ! Where does he usually go in such a situation ? "
" Boy, do you really follow me around, Tyson ? ", he heard a voice remark sarcastically from behind his back. He wheeled around to face the owner of that voice.
" Kai ! I knew you would be coming back soon now. ", he cried.
" Oh yeah ? Maybe that's what your weird statement meant ? ", Kai replied, still sarcastic.
" Kai, please, I am really sorry for whatever I said. I... I didn't mean to hurt you, buddy. ", Tyson desperately pleaded with his eyes fixed on the ground, " And so you can say anything you wanna say, coz I am gonna listen to without opening my mouth, okay ? Guess I deserve a good spanking from you after all that. "
" Hey, look who's thinking. Tyson, it really doesn't suit you to go all that serious, you know. ", Kai said, smiling. Tyson looked up in his amethyst eyes. He was surprised to see laughter in them, instead of the usual coldness.
" Uh... Kai ? You okay, buddy ? ", he stammered hesistantly.
Kai stared at him for a moment, and then walked upto him and gave him a warm and tight hug. Tyson was shocked. He had rarely seen Kai getting emotional. And this time, he didn't even know why it was so. But then, he felt the warmth which surrounded him, the warmth of a friend, and he hugged him back. Neither of them drew back. That hug meant so much to both of them. Finally, they had been able to let out all their emotions flow, and had sealed their friendship.
" Ummm... Is something up or have I missed a good moment ? ", they heard a voice crack in. They broke the hug and turned around to see Hiro with a wide smirk on his face. " Guess I interrupted at the wrong time. Carry on, guys. ", he smirked again, looking mischievously at their hands clutched together, a fact unknown to both of them. Their somewhat confused eyes followed Hiro's gaze down to their clasped hands, and it hit them both simultaneously. They quickly pulled out their hands of the interlock and glared at Hiro.
" Hiro ! Will you shut up ? ", Tyson shouted at his brother, who now laughing crazily.
" Umm... let's see... Why should I ? ", Hiro frowned, continuing, " Wait till I tell the others ! ", as he jogged back to the camp.Kai was eyeing the retreating bluenette with a weird expression. Seriously, Hiro wasn't much different from Tyson when he did such things. Both were... bakas.
" Come on, let's get in before the idiot of your brother goes insane with his fancies. ", Kai remarked to a still staring insanely Tyson.
" Uhh... yeah, let's go. It'll be very good for him if he keeps his mouth shut, otherwise I am gonna bang him real hard. ", Tyson replied.
" Out ? or... in ? ", Kai asked, smirking.
" Kai ! Cut it out ! Seriously, I liked the cold Kai much more ! At least, he didn't used to get such weird ideas ! ", Tyson retorted.
" But couldn't it be that he never spoke them out ? ", came the reply. Tyson turned around to stare at his friend.
" You are kidding, ain't you ? ", he asked, unnerved.
Kai looked at him. " What do you think ? ", he said in a serious tone.
Tyson did an anime sweat drop. " I... I don't know ! ", he managed to stammer out.
" Of course, I am ! Haha, just look at your face, buddy. All pale ! ", Kai laughed.
Tyson stared at him. Kai ? Laughing freely ? Boy ! He was so different from what he put up.
" Come on, hurry up now. Or the others would be freaking out as soon as your crazy brother tells them his fantasies. ", Kai's voice cut through his thoughts.
" Oh no ! I forgot about that ! Ohh... let's run to the camp. ", Tyson cried out, " Shit ! Hilary's there too ! "
" Hilary ? ", Kai frowned.
" Umm... did I say Hilary ? Oh... it's nothing, Kai. Don't stare at me like that ! ", Tyson stuttered.
" You like her ? ", Kai asked, in a matter-of-fact tone, looking straight into the chestnut brown eyes.
" Wha... nn..no, Kai ! O..Of course, not ! ", Tyson stammered, hurrying upto the camp to avoid any more conversation with his captain.
Kai watched as the navy haired boy backed out to the camp. He smiled. Tyson was real bad when it came to hide things. Maybe he should take some training from him if he wanted to hide that from Hilary for long. Because if he didn't, Kai knew for sure that Hilary would definitely find it out by herself pretty soon. But he could not understand why Tyson did not want her to know as they both made a really good couple, given their devotion to each other and the way they stuck together in the toughest situations, even though they blew up at each other at every damn single opportunity they could get. And he knew that Hilary was the only person for whom Tyson cared more than Dragoon ; not Hiro, not any of his other teammates, not even Kai himself, it was always Hilary.
His mind flew back to the time when Tyson and Kenny had first brought Hilary to their training camp. Even though Tyson had introduced her rather harshly, still his eyes betrayed his thoughts very easily to Kai. He definitely pretended to be, or sometimes, even got pretty annoyed by her, but whenever he talked about her, his eyes and voice became very soft and caring. Kai remembered when the Psychics had kidnapped Kenny and Hilary, Tyson had been so tensed to rescue them back. Of course, everybody was quite worried, including Kai himself, as he did care for them, inspite of himself. But Tyson, well, he was frantic, and Kai knew it was more for Hilary than Kenny, as he hadn't calmed down even a bit after they had saved Kenny successfully. And the way he had reacted when they had finally got out of that maze of a place, rescuing Hilary in the way back, it plainly showed his worry for them and his happiness in being able to be with them again.After all, Hilary had always been there to support him, even when they all had left him, breaking up the Bladebreakers, to be able to battle with each other in the World championship tournament. And she was the only person, other than Kai himself, in whom Tyson didn't hesitate to confide in everything he felt, whether it be unbound joy or overwhelming sadness. So, it came as no surprise to Kai that his best friend was finally admitting his love for her. In fact, he was happy that Tyson had gathered all his feelings and understood them at last. It was just like him to hide his emotions from others, in a pathetic way, if Kai's experience was anything to go by, and then torrent them out in an overwhelming manner when he could not stand it any longer himself. One of the initial habits Kai had liked about him. He was just so unpredictable, and yet, very much predictable at the same time. And to figure him out and get things out of him, which he himself did not want to let out, was a very satisfactory source of amusement for the sharp eyed captain.
As his thoughts flew back to Tyson again, he felt a sharp pang in his heart. A pang of utter happiness and joy at having got united with the person he cared the most about in this world ultimately. A feeling he had forgotten to such an extent that it struck him as a jab today. But this was a pain he was willing to suffer in return of all that it brought. He unconsciously smiled again. And felt good about having done that. " Really, I had forgotten what a carefree smile felt like. Guess I should do that pretty many more ! Hmm... ", he muttered, coherent and audible to himself only. Or so he thought...
" Nice to see you like this, master. "
" Dranzer ! Where did you come from ? ', Kai exclaimed, shaken out of oneirism.
" Seriously master, just coz I am a bit late from my talk with Dragoon doesn't mean you start acting as a stranger to me ! "
" A bit late, huh ? Anyways, it's okay. Sorry, I gave a start like that... I was just thinking... ", replied Kai.
" Hmm... I am starting to feel jealous of that little wolf now. How did it do this in just some few hours, when I was not able to do the same in these many years ? "
" Uhh... what are you talking about ? I'm not getting you clearly. ", Kai asked, with his brows forming a frown.
" What am I talking about ? Look at yourself, master. So much changed. Where's your mask, huh ? "
" Oh.. that ! Come on, Dranzer, I have just decided to discard it at last. But you don't sound very happy about it ! ", answered Kai, in a skeptical tone, hearing his bitbeast's remark at the change.
" Oh no ! Don't get me wrong, master ! I am as happy as a bitbeast can be, it's just that I was neither able to bring around the conversion nor was I around when it was happening, so... I'm feeling a bit down. "
" Hey, it does not matter at all to me that you weren't there to help me. You know what, Dranzer ? You are the only reason that I am what I am. If you hadn't supported me long back, I surely would have been a beyblading assassin today, completely overpowered by the darkness of the Black Dranzer. I actually owe my freedom to you. Sorry, I know I should have said this much before, but I guess it's still not late. Thank you, Dranzer, thank you for all that you have done for me, thank you for always being there for me and thank you for all your support. I just don't and can't imagine what my life would have been without you. ", Kai said, almost overwhelming himself by his touching speech. " And thank you for coming back now, I was really starting to miss you. I'll definitely need your help in getting out of my cold hearted mould. ", he continued.
" Master ! I..I can't find words to express myself. But I can definitely say one thing - you are always welcome, master, always. "
Kai's violet amethyst eyes met his bitbeast's fiery golden ones. There were tears in both of their eyes. Tears of gratitude and of joy. Happiness was seeping in through all openings for Kai. This was surely one of the happiest moments of his otherwise terribly messed up life.
" Hey, fine now, let's not get too sentimental. You know how much I hate that. ", he said, wiping off his eyes on his sleeve.
" Heh, you sure need to learn a lot many things before you are able to become like the people around you with the first thing being sentimentality is not weak. Understand that, master ? And hey, who was the first one to get senti, huh ? You know what, you said ' thank you ' about something like five times. Oh yeah, I counted that, after all, you don't get to see the great Kai Hiwatari say things like ' sorry ' and ' thank you ' to you everyday, right master ? "
" Dranzer ! "
" Oops, guess I chose the wrong leg to pull, is it master ? "
Kai stared at the pheonix for a moment. Then he slowly said, " No... and yeah, you are right ! I gotta change. " He smiled. Great ! Now, he was loving this feeling he got every time he smiled. He continued, " And you don't have to call me master, okay ? Just call me Kai. Just be my friend, Dranzer. "
" Ohh... Kai ! I... I am just so happy. I'd better go now, can't let you see me shedding tears. Goodbye, master... oh sorry, i mean, Kai. But yes, I'll always be there whenever you need me. "
" Thanks once again, Dranzer. Yeah, I know that makes the count six. Oh by the way, I forgot to ask, how did you know about that wolf ? "
" Oh, I always know. I always know where you go or what you do. That is what a bitbeast's supposed to do. To be with its master forever. Okay, am out now. "
Kai looked down at his blue golden beyblade. " And I promise that I'll always be there for you too. "
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Okies, so this is the last chapter I am uploading for now. I am still working on the 5th chapter. So, c ya guys later armed with another chappie. And hey, don't forget to review ! Please !And yeah, this is to thank all those who have reviewed this fic, either here or at fanfiction.net or or at the orkut comm. Thanks a lot all of you guys, you gave me hope that I am not the only one out here who has an abnormal mind...
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Kai walked out of the camp door, angry and confused. Of course, he hadn't shown them how he had felt hearing Tyson, but he couldn't run from himself, could he ? After all, he had done whatever he could to save Tyson and Hilary from near death. And what did he get in return ? A rude remark from a guy, whom he thought of as his best friend, howsoever idiot he might be. A remark which pierced his cold mask and hurt his well - hidden heart. Actually, this feeling of being left out was getting heavy on him for some time now. Now, it had been just aggravated to great heights. They were all a team, and the others were friends too. But he couldn't say the same thing for himself. He didn't feel like he was considered as an inseparable part of the team, even though they did obey him, but it looked more due to the respect and awe he carried, rather than being friendship and trust. It was just as if they were putting up with him because they were a team and he was their captain, otherwise they wouldn't even give him a damn look.
For the first time in many years, he felt his heart tighten into a small ball. He felt like he had lost a lot in his life already. The time he had spent at the Abbey had forced him to cloak his emotions and feelings under a cold hearted appearance to the world. Rage swelt up inside him as his thoughts flew to the miserable years at the Abbey. Even though his memory had been wiped out before he had been able to get out of that dreadful place, he could still feel the tortures and anguish that place could give a person. It had been here where he had first learned to disguise his feelings, to put on an emotionless face, as most of the time, it helped much more than reacting out violently. And that's what his grandfather had taught him at a very early age, ' Love is for the weak ' and ' Friends is just the other name for traitors, people who appear friendly to you, but in reality, use you for their selfish purposes ; and when that's done, they disappear, leaving you all alone to suffer from the betrayal '. And he had believed it completely.
But when he had met the others, especially Tyson, he had realised that it was just the opposite. Love actually made you stronger, strong enough to face any situation, just for the one you love. He had understood the true meaning of team work and friendship, working with the Bladebreakers. The life he lived now started from Tyson and ended at him. He was the one who had made Kai understand the true sense of beyblading. He had helped him, unknown to himself, to bond an undying bond with Dranzer. Yet he still felt unwanted amongst them. However hard he tried, he wasn't able to push out this thought from his mind. He felt like... crying. A big lump was starting to form in his throat. He tried to block out the tears that were starting to prick his eyes. How could he cry ? He had been trained against all sorts of emotions by his grandfather. No, he couldn't cry. He was not supposed to cry. But as much as he tried to fight it, the more weaker he got.Finally, he wasn't able to control himself any more. He ran away from that place onto the high slopes, so that nobody would be able to see him cry. There, the tears went down his pale cheeks freely. This time, he didn't stop them. He couldn't. He was feeling just too helpless, too tired of the insensitive, uncaring world around him. He still ran wildly, into the deep forests, not caring about the scratches the sharp bushes made on his face and hands, not caring about anything. Right now, the only thing he wanted was... to feel wanted. By anything or anyone, it didn't really matter. All that mattered was that feeling of being wanted he was longing for. His mind felt like it would burst at any moment. He stopped by an old withering tree to lie down and rest.
" Control yourself, Kai. You shouldn't be weak. ", he muttered to himself. But his tears still didn't stop. They just flowed down as if they had been wanting to get out for years now and had been suppressed for a very long time. He threw himself down on the ground and buried his face in the soft forest grass. He stayed that way for some time, letting out all his welled up tears find a way out. Just then, he felt something soft nudging against his hair. He looked up and saw a wolf looking straight into his eyes.
He stumbled, taken aback by the sudden appearance. He carefully looked at it again. Now, he realised that it was just a baby wolf. A smile broke on his tear stained face and he moved forward to stroke the cute animal. The wolf rumbled quietly and looked upto him sweetly and contendedly. He collected it in his arms and started caressing it. It settled softly into his lap, licking his hand with its tongue. After a long time, Kai felt at peace, watching and caressing that young creature. It reminded him of his childhood, when he used to goof around with his sister and friends, when he and his sister used to be a constant headache for their parents for their pranks, for which they were famous throughout their place. His sister ! Aaah, he missed Keisha ! He missed her so much. She was just like his actual walking and talking diary. The same way he was for her. They were so open to each other about every thing, even if it was something they hid from their parents. But now, everything was over. His grandfather, Voltaire Hiwatari, had killed almost everybody that had been close to Kai. He had murdered his parents in front of his eyes, when he was just a seven year old kid, and had taken him and Keisha with him to the worst place Kai had ever seen, the Abbey. There, they were trained like soldiers, to take over the world by mastering the art of beyblading, and were punished brutally even at the smallest mistake. Keisha had stood against it, but was not able to do anything, as the power against her was just too great for her to overcome. Yet she had fought with every single breath she could muster up. And Kai never knew any of these things, as he was separated from his sister the very first day they had got to the Abbey. All he ever came to know was that his sister had revolted against Voltaire, but he had been able to ' deal ' with her without any problems. It was extremely well known throughout the Abbey what did ' dealt with ' meant. It meant his sister had been murdered cold bloodedly by his grandfather, just like he had done with his own son and his wife. That was the last day Kai had cried. After losing the person closest to him, he had steeled himself against every damn thing the Abbey could come out with. Thus, he was known throught the ranks of the hundreds of students of the Abbey as the ' warrior ', who had trained under Voltaire and had mastered his arts. The warrior, whose heart no plea or cry could pierce through, who was just the ideal student Voltaire had wanted. And he had got him. Kai had become completely inifferent to his surroundings the day he had come to know about his sister's death. The world had closed around him. Just, some days before he had everything a boy of his age could dream of, and now, he had lost all that, including Keisha.
He had then trained hard, very hard, and had become the best blader of the Abbey. No beyblade escaped unscathed and undefeated if it ever came out against him. He virtually ruled the kids in there. Then one day, all of a sudden, he stumbled upon something his father had saved for him, which his grandfather had hid from him for so long. He found Dranzer in his grandfather's room. That day, his world changed again. The dark power which had engulfed him till of now was starting to evaporate. His mind started getting clearer and clearer, and he saw through his grandfather's plans pretty soon after that. He was able to run away, but not without getting every single memory of his childhood being wiped off his brain. He then led a gang of his own, named the Bladesharks. It was then that he had met Tyson, and later on, Ray and Max too. They had then formed a team, the Bladebreakers. It was with this team that he had learnt these little bits about his forgotten past, about his parents, his sister, and about himself. He had once fallen to the power of Black Dranzer, but after his team had helped him out of that, he had vowed never to stray ever again. This team had gone through may ups and downs, once even completely dismembered, but now they were back together again. And they were a very strong team. But now, all Kai wanted was to mingle with them and have a family again. A family which he could call as family, howsoever unlike it might be to his original family. Tears started to well up in his eyes again.
But he was again interrupted by the little wolf, as he snuggled in closer and let out a dull growl. " You really don't want me to cry, do you ? ", Kai asked it smilingly. It looked up into his eyes very sweetly, as if agreeing with his statement. He stroke it lovingly. " Thank you, my little friend. ", he said. He then wiped off his face with his sleeve, and looked at his watch. " Oh gosh, it's 3.30 already. Guess I cried for a long time. But I have understood one thing now. It's not weak to cry, to let your emotions flow out. Anyways, time to go back. ", he noted. He picked the baby wolf in his arms from his lap, and gently let it down on the ground. " Here you go. And thank you again. ", he said as he waved it goodbye. Then, he set back towards the camp, desperately hoping that they would be searching for him now, as he was so late, even though he used to disappear like this all the while. But this time, he wanted them to be looking for him, or at least, getting worried about his whereabouts. He gave a look in the direction of the camp and sighed. No, it didn't make sense hoping for such a thing. After all, it would appear just normal to them that he was out there all alone. Then it struck him.
It had been him all the while ! All that he had been thinking about his team was just... trash. Or at least very unlikely. Because, most probably, he was the reason why they used to keep their distances from him, as he always put on a cold appearance. And he had grown so accustomed to it, that he hadn't shed it off even in front of those whom he wished to be close to. " Oh great, I just feel even stupider than Tyson. And people call me a genius ! Seriously, why the heck didn't this fact strike me before ? ", he remorsed, scolding himself. " Fine, now I am gonna show them my true self, the actual Kai. ", he decided, as he ran down towards the camp, excited by this new discovery and its prospects.
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Tyson went out of the camp, remorseful. He had not meant to hurt Kai in any way. It had just been a sudden outburst at that small jest, which he had taken pretty seriously. Now that he went over it again, he realised that Kai had just been trying to have some fun. Was it wrong for him to do that ? Of course not, especially when Tyson himself enjoyed joking around with him so much. But then, he never had fired out at Tyson, right ? Usually he used to either just ignore him or if he found the joke really funny, he would simply silence Tyson by a witty one - liner, and then walk off. But never had he spit out at him.
Tyson started feeling very guilty. Kai was very special to him. He was the one due to whom Tyson had got his Dragoon and had understood what the actual beyblading world was like. And even though he did not show his biases, he definitely enjoyed the battles with Kai much more intensely than combating with any other blader, even his friends, Ray, Max or Daichi. He actually used to forget who or where he was when he battled him. It just seemed as if another dimension used to open up, especially reserved just for the two of them. He and Dragoon loved being there, and he knew Kai liked it too. And now that he thought of it, he realised that nobody knew what Kai was actually like as much as he did, because the Kai he had seen during their final match of the last world tournament was the actual Kai, the one without his mask, the one who bladed for the enjoyment and pleasure it brought.
And he was Tyson's closest friend, whether he himself felt it or not. He was the only person for whom Tyson would go to any lengths to win a battle. He was the source of constant confidence and support to him, in a beydish or out of it. Definitely, he had got his own ambitions, but Tyson knew it well that he would never do a thing that could harm him in any way. Tears came to his eyes as he thought of their days together, starting from the time when he had first met Kai and had got defeated damn easily. After that, it had been a constant struggle for him for the improvement of his game, but Kai had always been there whenever he needed him. Their team, the Bladebreakers, had been virtually invincible, as each one of them was very powerful and more importantly, they stuck out together in every situation. He remembered how Kai had trained him for his crucial match against Zeo, even when Kai himself was not in a stable condition, losing Dranzer to Zeo in the semifinal. And then, when the Bladebreakers had broken up, with each member joining their home teams, Kai was actually the one Tyson had wanted to fight with, initially because he had hurt him the most by deserting the Bladebreakers, but later because he wanted to prove himself to his former captain. And he knew it was the same with Kai too, the reason why he had left their team to join the Blitzkrieg Boys. To be able to fight against Tyson. He also knew that it was not because he had wanted to win the championships or any other lame excuse he had initially made, it was only for the pleasure of fighting out an intense beybattle with Tyson. And they both had got what they wanted, with Tyson getting the championship trophy and Kai getting his desired battle.
Now that they all were back again, Tyson had forgotten how he had struggled during the last year and how much had he missed Kai. Of course, he had missed them all, but it was Kai whom he had missed the most. And now, he hadn't even thought for a second before saying something so insulting to him. " Hn, do you really think before saying anything ? ", a voice spoke up inside him, a voice which sounded so similar to Kai. " I gotta find him ! ", Tyson decided, looking around.But he could not see a soul for miles around. " Oh boy, where did he go ? ", he exclaimed, " Well, it has been some time I have been reminiscing. So maybe, he's either gone too far for me to catch up with him or he's gonna come back soon, having spent time alone already. Okay, so how am I gonna find him out now ? Think Tyson, think ! Where does he usually go in such a situation ? "
" Boy, do you really follow me around, Tyson ? ", he heard a voice remark sarcastically from behind his back. He wheeled around to face the owner of that voice.
" Kai ! I knew you would be coming back soon now. ", he cried.
" Oh yeah ? Maybe that's what your weird statement meant ? ", Kai replied, still sarcastic.
" Kai, please, I am really sorry for whatever I said. I... I didn't mean to hurt you, buddy. ", Tyson desperately pleaded with his eyes fixed on the ground, " And so you can say anything you wanna say, coz I am gonna listen to without opening my mouth, okay ? Guess I deserve a good spanking from you after all that. "
" Hey, look who's thinking. Tyson, it really doesn't suit you to go all that serious, you know. ", Kai said, smiling. Tyson looked up in his amethyst eyes. He was surprised to see laughter in them, instead of the usual coldness.
" Uh... Kai ? You okay, buddy ? ", he stammered hesistantly.
Kai stared at him for a moment, and then walked upto him and gave him a warm and tight hug. Tyson was shocked. He had rarely seen Kai getting emotional. And this time, he didn't even know why it was so. But then, he felt the warmth which surrounded him, the warmth of a friend, and he hugged him back. Neither of them drew back. That hug meant so much to both of them. Finally, they had been able to let out all their emotions flow, and had sealed their friendship.
" Ummm... Is something up or have I missed a good moment ? ", they heard a voice crack in. They broke the hug and turned around to see Hiro with a wide smirk on his face. " Guess I interrupted at the wrong time. Carry on, guys. ", he smirked again, looking mischievously at their hands clutched together, a fact unknown to both of them. Their somewhat confused eyes followed Hiro's gaze down to their clasped hands, and it hit them both simultaneously. They quickly pulled out their hands of the interlock and glared at Hiro.
" Hiro ! Will you shut up ? ", Tyson shouted at his brother, who now laughing crazily.
" Umm... let's see... Why should I ? ", Hiro frowned, continuing, " Wait till I tell the others ! ", as he jogged back to the camp.Kai was eyeing the retreating bluenette with a weird expression. Seriously, Hiro wasn't much different from Tyson when he did such things. Both were... bakas.
" Come on, let's get in before the idiot of your brother goes insane with his fancies. ", Kai remarked to a still staring insanely Tyson.
" Uhh... yeah, let's go. It'll be very good for him if he keeps his mouth shut, otherwise I am gonna bang him real hard. ", Tyson replied.
" Out ? or... in ? ", Kai asked, smirking.
" Kai ! Cut it out ! Seriously, I liked the cold Kai much more ! At least, he didn't used to get such weird ideas ! ", Tyson retorted.
" But couldn't it be that he never spoke them out ? ", came the reply. Tyson turned around to stare at his friend.
" You are kidding, ain't you ? ", he asked, unnerved.
Kai looked at him. " What do you think ? ", he said in a serious tone.
Tyson did an anime sweat drop. " I... I don't know ! ", he managed to stammer out.
" Of course, I am ! Haha, just look at your face, buddy. All pale ! ", Kai laughed.
Tyson stared at him. Kai ? Laughing freely ? Boy ! He was so different from what he put up.
" Come on, hurry up now. Or the others would be freaking out as soon as your crazy brother tells them his fantasies. ", Kai's voice cut through his thoughts.
" Oh no ! I forgot about that ! Ohh... let's run to the camp. ", Tyson cried out, " Shit ! Hilary's there too ! "
" Hilary ? ", Kai frowned.
" Umm... did I say Hilary ? Oh... it's nothing, Kai. Don't stare at me like that ! ", Tyson stuttered.
" You like her ? ", Kai asked, in a matter-of-fact tone, looking straight into the chestnut brown eyes.
" Wha... nn..no, Kai ! O..Of course, not ! ", Tyson stammered, hurrying upto the camp to avoid any more conversation with his captain.
Kai watched as the navy haired boy backed out to the camp. He smiled. Tyson was real bad when it came to hide things. Maybe he should take some training from him if he wanted to hide that from Hilary for long. Because if he didn't, Kai knew for sure that Hilary would definitely find it out by herself pretty soon. But he could not understand why Tyson did not want her to know as they both made a really good couple, given their devotion to each other and the way they stuck together in the toughest situations, even though they blew up at each other at every damn single opportunity they could get. And he knew that Hilary was the only person for whom Tyson cared more than Dragoon ; not Hiro, not any of his other teammates, not even Kai himself, it was always Hilary.
His mind flew back to the time when Tyson and Kenny had first brought Hilary to their training camp. Even though Tyson had introduced her rather harshly, still his eyes betrayed his thoughts very easily to Kai. He definitely pretended to be, or sometimes, even got pretty annoyed by her, but whenever he talked about her, his eyes and voice became very soft and caring. Kai remembered when the Psychics had kidnapped Kenny and Hilary, Tyson had been so tensed to rescue them back. Of course, everybody was quite worried, including Kai himself, as he did care for them, inspite of himself. But Tyson, well, he was frantic, and Kai knew it was more for Hilary than Kenny, as he hadn't calmed down even a bit after they had saved Kenny successfully. And the way he had reacted when they had finally got out of that maze of a place, rescuing Hilary in the way back, it plainly showed his worry for them and his happiness in being able to be with them again.After all, Hilary had always been there to support him, even when they all had left him, breaking up the Bladebreakers, to be able to battle with each other in the World championship tournament. And she was the only person, other than Kai himself, in whom Tyson didn't hesitate to confide in everything he felt, whether it be unbound joy or overwhelming sadness. So, it came as no surprise to Kai that his best friend was finally admitting his love for her. In fact, he was happy that Tyson had gathered all his feelings and understood them at last. It was just like him to hide his emotions from others, in a pathetic way, if Kai's experience was anything to go by, and then torrent them out in an overwhelming manner when he could not stand it any longer himself. One of the initial habits Kai had liked about him. He was just so unpredictable, and yet, very much predictable at the same time. And to figure him out and get things out of him, which he himself did not want to let out, was a very satisfactory source of amusement for the sharp eyed captain.
As his thoughts flew back to Tyson again, he felt a sharp pang in his heart. A pang of utter happiness and joy at having got united with the person he cared the most about in this world ultimately. A feeling he had forgotten to such an extent that it struck him as a jab today. But this was a pain he was willing to suffer in return of all that it brought. He unconsciously smiled again. And felt good about having done that. " Really, I had forgotten what a carefree smile felt like. Guess I should do that pretty many more ! Hmm... ", he muttered, coherent and audible to himself only. Or so he thought...
" Nice to see you like this, master. "
" Dranzer ! Where did you come from ? ', Kai exclaimed, shaken out of oneirism.
" Seriously master, just coz I am a bit late from my talk with Dragoon doesn't mean you start acting as a stranger to me ! "
" A bit late, huh ? Anyways, it's okay. Sorry, I gave a start like that... I was just thinking... ", replied Kai.
" Hmm... I am starting to feel jealous of that little wolf now. How did it do this in just some few hours, when I was not able to do the same in these many years ? "
" Uhh... what are you talking about ? I'm not getting you clearly. ", Kai asked, with his brows forming a frown.
" What am I talking about ? Look at yourself, master. So much changed. Where's your mask, huh ? "
" Oh.. that ! Come on, Dranzer, I have just decided to discard it at last. But you don't sound very happy about it ! ", answered Kai, in a skeptical tone, hearing his bitbeast's remark at the change.
" Oh no ! Don't get me wrong, master ! I am as happy as a bitbeast can be, it's just that I was neither able to bring around the conversion nor was I around when it was happening, so... I'm feeling a bit down. "
" Hey, it does not matter at all to me that you weren't there to help me. You know what, Dranzer ? You are the only reason that I am what I am. If you hadn't supported me long back, I surely would have been a beyblading assassin today, completely overpowered by the darkness of the Black Dranzer. I actually owe my freedom to you. Sorry, I know I should have said this much before, but I guess it's still not late. Thank you, Dranzer, thank you for all that you have done for me, thank you for always being there for me and thank you for all your support. I just don't and can't imagine what my life would have been without you. ", Kai said, almost overwhelming himself by his touching speech. " And thank you for coming back now, I was really starting to miss you. I'll definitely need your help in getting out of my cold hearted mould. ", he continued.
" Master ! I..I can't find words to express myself. But I can definitely say one thing - you are always welcome, master, always. "
Kai's violet amethyst eyes met his bitbeast's fiery golden ones. There were tears in both of their eyes. Tears of gratitude and of joy. Happiness was seeping in through all openings for Kai. This was surely one of the happiest moments of his otherwise terribly messed up life.
" Hey, fine now, let's not get too sentimental. You know how much I hate that. ", he said, wiping off his eyes on his sleeve.
" Heh, you sure need to learn a lot many things before you are able to become like the people around you with the first thing being sentimentality is not weak. Understand that, master ? And hey, who was the first one to get senti, huh ? You know what, you said ' thank you ' about something like five times. Oh yeah, I counted that, after all, you don't get to see the great Kai Hiwatari say things like ' sorry ' and ' thank you ' to you everyday, right master ? "
" Dranzer ! "
" Oops, guess I chose the wrong leg to pull, is it master ? "
Kai stared at the pheonix for a moment. Then he slowly said, " No... and yeah, you are right ! I gotta change. " He smiled. Great ! Now, he was loving this feeling he got every time he smiled. He continued, " And you don't have to call me master, okay ? Just call me Kai. Just be my friend, Dranzer. "
" Ohh... Kai ! I... I am just so happy. I'd better go now, can't let you see me shedding tears. Goodbye, master... oh sorry, i mean, Kai. But yes, I'll always be there whenever you need me. "
" Thanks once again, Dranzer. Yeah, I know that makes the count six. Oh by the way, I forgot to ask, how did you know about that wolf ? "
" Oh, I always know. I always know where you go or what you do. That is what a bitbeast's supposed to do. To be with its master forever. Okay, am out now. "
Kai looked down at his blue golden beyblade. " And I promise that I'll always be there for you too. "
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Okies, so this is the last chapter I am uploading for now. I am still working on the 5th chapter. So, c ya guys later armed with another chappie. And hey, don't forget to review ! Please !And yeah, this is to thank all those who have reviewed this fic, either here or at fanfiction.net or or at the orkut comm. Thanks a lot all of you guys, you gave me hope that I am not the only one out here who has an abnormal mind...