Bleach Fan Fiction ❯ Lessons to Learn ❯ Dry Eyes ( Chapter 3 )
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By: OrangeFuu 
Matsumoto thinks about Gin.
Anime/Manga: Bleach Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Comedy | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.28.2008 | Pages: 1 | Words: 438 | Visits: 167 | Status: Completed
Matsumoto thinks about Gin.
Anime/Manga: Bleach Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Comedy | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.28.2008 | Pages: 1 | Words: 438 | Visits: 167 | Status: Completed
AN: Very short, I know. But this has been sitting in my computer for a pretty long time, so I figured I'd get it out there. More coming soon since I'm on an updating spree of all my fics. Enjoy. By the way, this is Matsumoto musing about Gin.
It still hurts when I see them together. I know that it shouldn't, but it does. It's my own fault he got away, but still... it hurts.
Gin and I used to be together, and really, those were the best six months of my life. He made me so happy... but I guess that at the time, I wasn't happy enough. I was such a whore then, but looking back, I realize that I wanted so much but willing to give so little. I was such a bitch, and it's all my fault that I drove him away and that I'm alone now.
Really, did Kenpachi actually mean that much to me, anyway? I mean, the sex was great... really great... but was it worth it? My cheating ways cost me Gin, so I guess it wasn't. Now, I could blame Kenpachi for helping me cheat, but the truth is, I lied and told him me and Gin broke up. So now I'm a liar, too.
When Gin left me, I told him I didn't care. But in actuality, my heart broke. In tiny, little pieces. They were the most miniscule fragments that could be seen by the human eye. But I only have myself to condemn. It's my fault that the love of my life is with a woman whom he now loves more than me. It's all my fault. I'm such an idiot.
Now when I see them laughing together, my heart aches. Those grins he gives her used to be for me. Damn that Fong. True, I'd never say that to her face, because she'd kill me (probably quite literally), but I think it. She's a lucky gal. Bitch.
But I'll be fine. I'm starting to move on. I know that he's happy now, even if it's not with me. How he manages to get her to crack a smile is beyond me. He has a gift. A gift that is no longer for me. I'll miss him, but I won't cry anymore.
I won't.
AN: Yeah. There it is. More coming soon, I promise.
Dry Eyes
Message: Sorrow not over what is lost forever.It still hurts when I see them together. I know that it shouldn't, but it does. It's my own fault he got away, but still... it hurts.
Gin and I used to be together, and really, those were the best six months of my life. He made me so happy... but I guess that at the time, I wasn't happy enough. I was such a whore then, but looking back, I realize that I wanted so much but willing to give so little. I was such a bitch, and it's all my fault that I drove him away and that I'm alone now.
Really, did Kenpachi actually mean that much to me, anyway? I mean, the sex was great... really great... but was it worth it? My cheating ways cost me Gin, so I guess it wasn't. Now, I could blame Kenpachi for helping me cheat, but the truth is, I lied and told him me and Gin broke up. So now I'm a liar, too.
When Gin left me, I told him I didn't care. But in actuality, my heart broke. In tiny, little pieces. They were the most miniscule fragments that could be seen by the human eye. But I only have myself to condemn. It's my fault that the love of my life is with a woman whom he now loves more than me. It's all my fault. I'm such an idiot.
Now when I see them laughing together, my heart aches. Those grins he gives her used to be for me. Damn that Fong. True, I'd never say that to her face, because she'd kill me (probably quite literally), but I think it. She's a lucky gal. Bitch.
But I'll be fine. I'm starting to move on. I know that he's happy now, even if it's not with me. How he manages to get her to crack a smile is beyond me. He has a gift. A gift that is no longer for me. I'll miss him, but I won't cry anymore.
I won't.
AN: Yeah. There it is. More coming soon, I promise.