Bleach Fan Fiction ❯ Seireitei Monogatari ❯ Twilight Affair ( Chapter 93 )

Title: Twilight Affair

Pairings: Kisuke/Izuru

Rating: M

Warnings: Mild Yaoi

Words: 826

Description: For Infernum, who wanted Urahara/Kira. He's pretty happy right now, Izuru thinks, and that's all that really matters.

 

 

Izuru thinks it is because they are so different and yet so similar all the same. It's something he can't really explain if someone were to ask him. But he can see it. He can taste and feel it.

 

It might be why he's fallen for a man like Urahara Kisuke, exiled from Soul Society, with hidden motives that no one really knows. He loves the feeling of Kisuke's fingers on his skin, always soft and gentle, meticulous. They seem to know without asking what he likes and what he wants, bringing him nothing but pleasure.

 

The gleam in those gray-green eyes once they are finally revealed from their usual shadows are simply entrancing. It is one of Izuru's habits to cup Kisuke's face with his hands, brushing back that pale blond hair and kissing his lover. He likes to think that Kisuke enjoys that gentleness. He certainly smiles every time, murmuring something that Izuru never really understands but loves to hear anyway.

 

He thinks that Kisuke is brilliant because the man really is. He can create anything, and he is literally brimming with ideas. They lay together at night, Izuru's head on the man's chest, and he simply listens to him talk. Kisuke will go into detail, will explain each and every invention. Izuru rarely understands, but he knows eventually they will come into being. All he has to do is wait.

 

He likes how Kisuke can be both serious and playful, knowing when each part of himself suits the situation. He finds it amusing how much Kisuke teases Kurosaki-kun, but he also knows how deeply his lover cares for the substitute Shinigami. Kurosaki-kun is like a son to Kisuke, and deep inside, Izuru realizes that a part of Kisuke feels guilty for what he has forced upon the boy, for the path he's set Kurosaki-kun on.

 

There is a sense of honor in Kisuke, one that doesn't immediately show. He has been exiled from his home, sent away from family and friends, and yet, he still answers Yamamoto-soutaichou, still helps the Shinigami. He is still there when Soul Society needs him, and Izuru finds that admirable.

 

But there is also a deep sadness in Kisuke, and Izuru isn't sure why. It is some secret that his lover is hiding from him, so deep that Izuru is a bit afraid to find out. It is something so seeded that he fears he won't be able to pull out the roots on his own. He is waiting for Kisuke to tell himself because the hurt is obviously old and still painful.

 

Izuru wants to be the one who can heal that pain, so he waits… he waits until Kisuke is ready. Until then, he soothes over the hurting memories with gentle kisses and big smiles. Kisuke has always said that he loves Izuru-chan's smiling face the most, to see happiness reflected in big blue eyes.

 

They don't have a lot of time to spend together, being that Kisuke has to stay in Karakura and Izuru's duties in Soul Society require a great deal of his attention. It is somewhat distressing to the both of them, so the moments they do have are cherished.

 

There is nothing that lifts Izuru's spirits more than the sound of familiar geta clacking against polished floors or the sight of a ridiculous green and white striped hat. He's tried to get Kisuke to switch to something a bit more fashionable, but the look in his lover's eyes at the time instantly made him change his mind. It means more than just a hat… that much Izuru can see.

 

It's easy for Izuru to forget about the war and the traitors when he's with Kisuke, easy to forget that he has been betrayed by the captain he looked up to. By the captain he might have had more than just a little crush on.

 

With Kisuke's arms around him, he feels stronger, and it becomes easier to let go. He realizes that his obsession might have been unhealthy, that he had somehow lost himself in Ichimaru's presence along the way. But now, bit by bit, he is finding what it means to be Kira Izuru again.

 

He has Kisuke to thank for that, Kisuke who refused to even accept him until he found his own strength. It had seemed so harsh then to Izuru, who had put all his courage into the confession only to be turned away. But he understands now why Kisuke had done that, and he's grateful for it.

 

It's opened the way for them to be together, and he enjoys that the most. It's freeing to have distanced himself from his fixation on Ichimaru-taichou, to move on from that time in his life.

 

He can't help but wonder if there's any way he could be happier.

 

And then, he thinks that it doesn't really matter because he's pretty damn happy right now, and that's really all he wants.

 

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