Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ ~Sanctus~ ❯ Bara no Shittsui (Disgraced Rose) ( Prologue )

Disclaim: every original character in this fiction belongs to CLAMP even though I may have altered the settings and their personalities. The plot and some of the characters are property of my imagination…. Therefore I am in no way responsible for any of the outcomes :P tough shit eh?

 

"…"-talkin

*~~~~~~~* -flash backs (in this chapter ill have a lot!)

::....:: thoughts.

/…/ thoughts/voices inside a chara's head but doesn't belong to him/her

*…*-action inside a conversation

Oh and I apologize for my grammar…and spelling since I am THE MISSPELLIN QUEEN! ::laughs evilly:: ::coughs:: ahem^^

~Enjoy the peek into the world of Chaos and Void… my mind…~

 

 

Prologue

Bara no Shittsui (Disgraced Rose)

…She was dragging her feet along what used to be her school about an hour ago…. She stopped and looked around with her soulless eyes shaded by darkness. This is not how it was supposed to end! This wasn't her town anymore… The people under the ruins of the buildings weren't the people she used to know anymore…

A long and mournful cry escaped her bright red lips.

"SHAORAN!!!" She was twisting her head left and right to see a glimpse of a certain someone she was praying would still be alive. She raised her eyes that used to be of a stunning emerald color and full of life until she opened that box….. Her small white hands turned into clenched fists as a demonic snarl tore from her throat. That box….. Aite…

 

She continued to stare at the magenta sky illuminated by the bloody moon and black stars. It began to rain…

She caught few drops of rain with her snowy hand and licked the red substance with the tip of her tongue.

"Chi…" An insane grin appeared on her deadly-pale face as she realized what the rain was made out of.

 

Her smirk turned to a thunderous laughter, except it wasn't laughter full of delight and cheerfulness that her friend, family and guardians used to hear all the time before 5 months ago…. This was a frantic, hopeless, dreadful laughter of a woman who lost everything she had because of him….

 

Her gaze shifted from her hand that was covered in drops of bloody rain to a near by sakura tree, perhaps the only unscathed thing that was still standing… She lifted her arm as the abrupt gust of air encircled her feet and pushed back her torn black trench coat revealing a tight black corset with red stripes along the side and russet cress-crossed laces tied on front, which didn't cover much of her pure white skin and a long black skirt made up of many layer of diverse material some of which were black and some were crimson. All of this was torn in some places and covered in blood and dirt.

 

Her whole body and mind was filled with sudden odium and insanity as she felt that same evil and devastatingly powerful energy for the second time this day trying to break free. But it was her who wanted to break free and run, run out of her filthy body and leave him and herself behind never looking back…

 

/You know you cannot escape me…Sakura.../ that awful cold voice echoed in her head, reminding her that she was trapped with no way out.

She tried to fight him with all the energy she had left, though she knew it was impossible and useless… she could never win against him…always surrendered…all those centuries ago...

He was the very reason of this hell that descended upon her peaceful town… but she also knew that she was the original cause to his arrival…the original sin…

 

She finally gave in and closed her tired eyes and let the energy gather around in her open hand which turned into a huge fire ball that was spinning around very fast.

/Throw it… Throw it, Sakura…my love… Destroy the last remaining thing that reminds you of him…DO IT! Then we can go back to the way things were. / The same voice was screaming inside her head.

She moved her outstretched arm down and aimed it for the tree.

Sudden flashes of sunny days and starry nights she spent under this very tree flashed in her mind blocking out that powerfully seductive voice.

 

*~~~~~~~*beginning of a flashback*~~~~~~~*

 

"Ah! Gomen nasai!"

The girl with short honey brown hair and dazzling emerald eyes kneeled down to pick her books up, as a boy same age with chestnut hair and chocolate eyes continued to apologize over and over again.

She looked up at him and smiled her angelic smile. The boy blushed.

"I'm Kinomoto Sakura. What's your name? "

"Li Shaoran…"

 

*~~~~~~~*end of a flashback as the next one starts*~~~~~~~*

 

Same girl was kneeling under the cherry tree with couple of her friends chattering excitedly and eating lunch.

"….he must be a genius no doubt! I'm telling you that math problem is not meant for a mere 5th grader!"

"I think so too Rika-chan! I should ask him for some tutoring" the girl with straight short hair and pair of big glasses laughed while offering some onigiri to her friend who had wavy short brown hair and dark gentle eyes.

"I don't know about you, Naoko-chan, but I think he's the cutest boy I've ever seen. Do you think all boys in Hong Kong are just as cute?" another girl with two braids and light brown eyes couldn't stop giggling.

"Why don't we ask Sakura-chan what she thinks about him, ne, Chiharu-chan?" The last girl who was sitting next to the girl she called as Sakura had long wavy lilac hair and a pair of calm cerulean eyes smiled courteously at her best friend who blushed intensely in return and shook her head.

"Chigaou! Don't you go and get any wrong ideas, Tomoyo-chan!"

Everyone laughed apart from Sakura who tried to conceal her crimson face.

"You guys…"

 

*~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~*

 

"So…all I have to do is remember all the properties of a parallelogram?" the same girl, Sakura who had shoulder-length hair now and looked somewhat older was sitting beneath the tree and holding a geometry textbook.

"Hai…if you memorize all of the properties you can easily use them for proofs and such." The boy, who sat next to her, bent down to look at the problem they were trying to solve.

"Arigatou, Li-kun!" She smiled brightly.

"No problem, Kinomoto-san. By the way, did you say you felt the presence of a Clow card again?

She nodded uneasily.

"Kero-chan said it might be involved in those odd incidents in cooking class."

"Oh! You mean that the rumors are true about the food magically turning sweet even if you put no sugar in it at all?"

"Yes…"

 

*~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~*

 

"Kinomoto! Stay back!"

The boy with chestnut hair wearing his green traditional Chinese robe drew his sword out and looked at Sakura who was facing him.

"Behind you!" Sakura cried as she saw "The Arrow" charge full speed at Shaoran who barely dogged dozen of electric arrows which she shot at the same time. He raised his blade above his head and called forth Lightning.

Sakura called for "The Wood" to prevent "Arrow" from moving, but it continued to shoot arrows and evaded every attack that the kids sent at her.

All of a sudden she vanished from their sight.

"Where's "Arrow"?" Sakura was just about to use "The Fly" when suddenly she felt a sharp pain in her right shoulder and she dropped her staff. She saw Shaoran shout and dash towards her.

"Sakura! Quick! Cast "Shield" to protect both of us."

She nod and quickly picked up the staff while releasing Shield over both of them.

Arrow continued to fire as many arrows as she could; luckily for them the Shield was strong enough to repeal all of them.

Shaoran fell on his knees drawing Sakura to him gently and examined her wound carefully.

"It's not too deep, but we need to treat it quickly…" he leaned her back against the cherry tree under which they were sitting and tore up his sleeve to use it as a bandage.

Sakura just stared at him, her eyes wide with disbelief and her face crimson.

"You called me…Sakura…."

"Eh?" he looked up, his face turning same color as Sakura's when he realized what he did.

"I…I hope you don't mind…." He flushed even more and bowed his head to hide his eyes.

"Not at all… Shaoran-kun…" she reached out to touch his arm and smiled merrily at him.

 

*~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~*

 

Sakura was weeping under the same tree. She hid her pale face in her hands while Shaoran just stood behind it not knowing what to do or say…

The full Moon shone down on them. The summer breeze caressed their sad faces.

He finally kneeled down by her and took her hands in his carefully pulling them away from her face.

"Sakura, please look at me.." there was a hint of beg and hope in his voice.

She raised her eyes full of tears and whispered so softly that he barely heard her.

"I just don't want you….to leave…"

Shaoran sighed sadly and enveloped his strong arms about her gently. He leaned in closer, his hand brushing a lock of her silky hair away from the ear as he whispered back.

"I promise I will come back in few months…"

Sakura threw her arms around his neck, hiding her wet face in his chest whilst he tenderly stroked her back.

"Shh…I'll come back as soon as I can..." he kissed the top of her head.

She fell asleep in his arms as the Moon poured down her soothing silver light on them.

 

*~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~*

 

She was running towards him with all the speed her small fragile body possessed.

He was standing under the same cherry tree where he left her a year ago.

Her, now waist long, hair swayed behind her freely and her brighter emerald eyes shone with bliss and endless happiness as she practically tackled him down to the ground.

Shaoran laughed with her and said.

"I've missed you so much Sakura"

"As I missed you!" she gave him a kiss on the cheek and blushed.

 

*~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~*

 

The gang was caught by the storm released by Eriol.

Tomoyo backed away while videotaping her two best friends like crazy.

Sakura changed the Stormy into Sakura card and cancelled Eriol's magic. Shaoran run up to her smiling.

"Eight more cards and you're done!"

She smiled back and nodded.

 

*~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~*

 

***the three following flashes are of Sakura fighting Eriol and changing Light and Dark. Next Shaoran tells her he loves her. Lastly, Shaoran tells Sakura he has to go back to H.K. for two years. This is the flash of them fighting Void (my favorite card btw next to Wood and Mirror) and Sakura's confession***

 

*~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~*

 

She was preparing to jump over the huge gap created by the Void.

Shaoran yelled.

"No! Don't do it! Let's wait for things to get back to normal!"

She laughed.

"Silly! I cant… *she took a step back* wait…*she jumped up* any longer!!!"

She was soaring through the air and finally landed in his arms. He hugged her to him and gave her a soft peck on the cheek.

 

*~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~* (Flashes are spinning faster now becoming a blur)

 

The two of them being 16 years old sitting under their favorite sakura tree in the old schoolyard. Sakura's head rested against Shaoran lap while his back was pressed against the trunk of the tree. He brushed the few strings of her soft locks away from her face when she looked up at him and smiled gently. The boy leaned down and brushed his lips against her soft ones. Sakura's arms went up to wrap themselves around his neck as she kissed him back with arousing passion. In return, Shaoran shifted her body off his leg and laid her on the grass, lowering himself in the process, never parting from the kiss.

 

*~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~*

 

Meanwhile present time Sakura was on her knees, her head and heart overwhelmed with all these memories and feelings as fresh as if she was back in those days.

She shrieked her voice full of anguish and desolation as the next image floated up in her mind. This one happened very recently, only five months ago.

 

She saw her 19-year-old self tearing up a letter from Shaoran and kicking the same tree in fury. Her aura was extremely powerful and balanced now due to all the intensive training each day, but it certainly lost its ignorance, innocence and light. It was as if she was already remembering.

 

*~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~*

 

She began to shake violently as the voice in her head began to cackle frantically. Her true name was carried on the wind that reeked of the past.

 

The entire area shuddered after few minutes and an enormous wave of force was released along with streams of vivid light from Sakura's body. The light began to devour everything around her gradually. In the matter of minutes, the whole Earth was enveloped in this intense light.

It was a void, except instead of darkness there was light everywhere; the infinite ocean of white.

Sakura was slowly drifting in the heart of all this. There was no more ground, no more sky, just nothingness…

Her eyes were closed, her garments torn here and there. Her face expressionless and vacant like her mind with possibly only one thought, which was hovering about in nothingness just like her…

::Why did this happen..? …why didn't I resist…?::

Something told her to return to that crucial day, when she saw Shaoran with another girl.

A/n: I revised some stuff… I found out that some hints did not match my now prime idea that I developed over these past oh I dunno 4-something years..wow…I been holding this ficcy in the back of my mind for so long..chewing it over …never getting to it fully…I mean I pretty much know where I wana go….im such a hornball honestly…originally this was gonna be mostly about sakura and shaoran…but its DEMIEN TIME MWHAHAHAH kinda mary sueish..the whole thing…*finds a rope to hang herself with* uuh and I realize none of what I just typed makes sense but like I said welcome to the world of chaos…my mind…all in all hope this wasn't so bad..i got rid of really lame stuff…boy was I lame…*hangs her self* still is^^ \m/

And the credit for the unexpecting development of sakura's character (it's a suprrrrrissssssse) goes to yet another sexy song “agnus dei” by my lovable crimson haired french angel Mylene Farmer. Miserere nobis.. So I figured since im most likely will run out of lines from “Sanctus” to use for the chapter's titles im going to include some from “Agnus Dei”.

So see ya whenever my muse decides to come back….that..slut…. ehehehehhe hope she didn't hear that… thanx again and goood night!!! (original a/n…good times)

 

With much love for all you readers and writers,

 

~Lilith~