Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ A Strange Kind of Love ❯ In the beginning ( Chapter 1 )

Summary: We were just friends, friends not allowed to love one another. "How long will this be?" she breathed. "Until we lose interest, or we find someone to be with, or we become emotionally attached" he replied simply. We promised not to fall in love... I broke that promise even though it was forbidden, just to stay by his side.

Disclaimer: I do not own Card Captor Sakura, but the story is mine

 

Chapter 1

In the beginning

 

 

There was an awkward silence.

“Syao-“

“Sak-“ both teens spoke at the same time.

They glanced at each other silently and looked away again.

 

“Saku,” Syao started. “Are you sure about this? Because we don't have to-“

 

As he spoke Saku starred at him and gave a nervous laugh interrupting him.

 

“Were you not the one who wanted to do this? Were you not the one who initiated this?” she stated feeling both frustrated and relieved at the same time. “Alright, well if you don't want to maybe I should leave…” she picked up her bag and got up.

 

“I want to…” broke the silence. Saku froze on the spot with her back facing Syao. “…very much, but I want to make sure that you're fine… because I don't know… I might not be able to control myself…” the last part was barley audible.

 

She shivered at the last statement, unsure if she was nervous or if it was a tingle of excitement.

 

He saw this and what he spoke only confirmed what he felt. She hesitated speechless.

 

“You want to too. I know you do. How many of those late night conversations have we had? How many times have we discussed-“

 

“Alright, I'll stay. As I've said before though, we are not going-“

 

“Yeah, I know. And this is not emotional…if it becomes so…-“

 

“We'll stop. Yes, you've made that clear on several occasions.”

 

Silence filled the room.

 

Saku stood still becoming lost in her thoughts, battling her conscience.

`Should I be doing this? What would others think?'

`No this isn't about others this is about you. For once I want to be selfish; for once this is what I want. He wants to, too, be he's on a whole other level of need. I'm not ready to do all of what he wants… I'm scared of the risks… I'm not confident that I can stop this either…'

`But you like - `

`No, no you don't- besides you already know that all he wants is something physical. Can you handle it? Can you hold back your own emotions?'

`Yes I can.'

`But you're already emotionally involved. How'd you become such a submissive idiot? Yeah you like him admit it, you're only doing all this because of that.'

`No I'm not. You're me; you know how I feel on this. This for once is all me, and it just happened to be him. That's all!'

 

Syao continued to stare at Saku's back. It was funny to think that Saku was speechless, she was a quite one, but when it cam to school or something serious she always had something to say. She could really chew someone head off if she wanted to. This however, he could tell she was deep in thought, and that she was slowly giving in. It didn't matter too much to him though. So long as he could get what he wanted. What he needed.

 

He was the goof, though every so often told by Saku that he's got more the `nice guy' image. But back then he remembered telling, warning her that he wasn't'. He was mean, as she would shortly learn…Then again what did it matter? This was just for fun.

 

Saku shifted slightly.

 

Any minute now… then he grinned, grinned as the thought came back to him, the thought of her giving in to him. An uptight Saku, who at times appeared aloof and naive when it came to men. This gave a large start to his hormones; after all he was a teen.

 

She had been quiet for too long. All he could think of now was how to make her squirm and submit. Make her cry out for him. These thoughts filled his mind as he approached her slowly.

 

“Saku” he called quietly, but she was too deep in thought to notice.

 

“Sak” he said a little louder.

 

She hadn't noticed him.

 

That only lasted until he was standing right behind her, half a head taller than her slim 5 “6 frame. He readied himself for her signature move, for when snuck up on her from behind.

 

Finally snapping out of it, Saku became aware that Syao's presence was close, really close, and she could feel his breath behind her. She shivered again, and became startled at the realization of how close he had gotten. She never let her guard down and no one ever gets that close with out her knowing. Her body acted on instinct, and she turned ready to either slap or punch him out.

 

A lot of creeps had snuck up on her like that before, but since she knew that it was Syao, she tried to stop herself.

 

*SLAP* it echoed through the empty house.

 

Skin touched skin but it was not a hand on face. It was hand to wrist.

 

Syao had seen her in action enough times to know how she'd react to being surprised like that, so he readied himself, so as she turned he grabbed her wrist, causing the slapping sound.

 

She looked up and into his deep chocolate coloured eyes. They were not the ones she knew. These eyes were filled with desperation, and of need.

 

He looked down into her bright unique emerald couloured eyes, noting the mix of surprise, uncertainty and defiance.

 

To them these thoughts seemed to last forever. In reality it was mere seconds.

 

Sent back to reality, Saku attempted to release her wrist from Syao's grasp. Which was the one thing that triggered the events that followed. Instead of simply letting go, he tightened his grip and forced her against the nearest wall. Then he began to kiss her aggressively.

 

Dazed she could do nothing but let it happen, let him steal her first kiss.

 

 

That afternoon was to be the first of several secret, brief but intense sessions together over a short but passionate summer. It was their secret summer affair.

 

Things didn't last as summer ended and fall began. A new season brought about many new changes. That summer was also their high school graduation summer, and this fall meant many new beginnings.

 

Finally they spent their last summer afternoon together.

“So this is it…” she trailed off walking out the door and turning to face him.

“Yeah…” he looked to the ground avoiding her face, and the question that likely resided there. `What now?'

Knowing that he didn't want to talk about it, she made the first move. She approached him. “Well…”

She stood on the balls of her feet, threw her arms around his neck and pulled him into a deep heartfelt passionate kiss, not caring if anyone saw. And then she pulled away and forced a smile.

 

“I'll se you around…” and turned and walked off.

 

She walked away slowly. She had put everything into that last kiss, all her feelings. She knew tears would come.

 

Syao stood in his door way as he watched her walk away still stunned by what she did. Then he called out after her.

 

“If, if you're ever ready, and you want to…. Well you can call me!”

 

She had to laugh at this, this sudden outburst after being ever so careful and secretive all summer. Tears had already come pouring down, but she thought she was far enough away so that he couldn't see.

 

“Why do I have to call you? Make me seem like a tramp! You call me!” He heard her give another small laugh.

 

“When we're 21!” he blurted out rather uncooly. “If things don't work out, if we don't end up talking to each other, if-“

 

She stopped walking. “For your 21st birthday. The place we discussed.” She interrupted him.

 

It was sunny. And he could see the sparkling gleams reflecting off her face. He realized she was crying.

 

She turned and began walking again, wanting to turn and run back to him, but instead quickened the pace forward, eventually becoming a light jog. Then finally she ran all the way home, tears falling, but smiling at the small promise.

 

He stood at his door watching as her silhouette disappeared. He had done so many times that summer, but today he stood there long after wondering if her really would ever see her around here again, he sighed seeing the image of her teary smiling face etched in his mind.

 

 

 

Authors Note:

So I don't plan to continue this unless there are people actually interested in finding out more. This chapter really doesn't say much, nor does the prologue, but I plan to put up the `real' chapter 1 soon. Please review and tell me what you think, it will help me decide if I should continue or not.