Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ All For a Chance With You ❯ If You Love Someone..... ( Chapter 6 )

All For A Chance With You

by Lyeza

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters in CCS. All of them belongs to Clamp. The only character I own is Yazumi.

Hello, everyone. I guess this will be the chapter where we will find out what Sakura is going to say to Yazumi and what will happen next.

In the earlier chapters, I have not mentioned much about Yazumi; his feelings and attitude. He seemed like a mysterious, enigmatic nice guy who had captured Sakura's attention. There are reasons for that. In this chapter, however, I will be concentrating a little bit more on him.

To everyone who has reviewed this story, thank you very much. I'm really glad you enjoy it.

Just a few words to Springphirez: Thanks for reviewing and yes, I am on ff.net too. Due to the problems there, I intend to move my stories here gradually.

So, let's get on with our sixth chapter.............................

Chapter 6: If You Love Someone.....

In the park,

Sakura looked at Yazumi sadly. "Yazumi, there's something that I need to tell you first," Sakura started.

"What is it, Sakura?" Yazumi asked, already dreading what she was going to say to him. Somehow he knew, it was not good news for him.

"Yazumi......I.....I.............," she continued nervously.

"You what?" he asked gently.

"I....can't, uh that's it.........I don't know.....," Sakura stammered, rather unsure what to say to him.

"Just start from the beginning," he said.

Sakura looked down at her hands. "Not so long ago, when you just transferred here, I thought you are the most incredible guy I have ever known. At that time, I was sure I loved you," Sakura admitted.

Yazumi smiled at her words but he noticed the past tense she used when she said "I WAS sure I loved you". "She has changed her mind since then," he realised.

Sakura took a deep breath and continued, "Every time you smiled at me, I felt like the luckiest girl in the world. You are intelligent, funny, caring, thoughtful........................."

"But that wasn't enough, was it?" Yazumi interjected. He knew where this was leading too.

Sakura looked up at him in surprise. "Please don't take it the wrong way, Yazumi. You are a wonderful guy; the kind of guy any girl will love to have," Sakura amended. She knew she was beating around the bush but she had no idea how to say that her feelings for him had changed.

"Except you," Yazumi thought. He remained silent as he waited for Sakura to continue.

"I would have fallen in love with you have I not..............," Sakura's voice trailed off.

"Have you not fallen for someone else," Yazumi finished for her.

"You know?" Sakura asked, surprised.

"Its Syaoran, isn't it?" Yazumi asked.

Sakura looked down again.

Yazumi cupped his hand under her chin and pushed her head back slightly so that he could she could look at him. "Its alright, Sakura," Yazumi comforted her. Sakura stared at him searchingly.

"You probably have guessed that I love you. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. These few weeks that we have gotten to know each other more is something that I will always remember," Yazumi said.

A guilty look passed through Sakura's face. "I'm sorry," she whispered.

Yazumi smiled sadly. "Don't be. I am already grateful that we get a chance to be friends and I will treasure our friendship forever," he said soothingly.

"Thank you, Yazumi, for understanding," Sakura said as a tear slid down her eyes.

"You're welcome," Yazumi replied back. "Friends forever?" he asked.

Sakura nodded, her face brightening slightly. "Definitely," she said adamantly. "We are still doing our performance together, right?" she asked.

"Yes. We are going to put up the best performance ever," Yazumi promised.

"The best performance ever," Sakura repeated. Then she looked at her watch. "Oh, no! Its my turn to do dinner," she exclaimed. Turning to Yazumi, she said, "I have to go now. I'll see you on Monday in school, ok?"

Yazumi nodded. "Sure. Bye, Sakura," he said.

"Bye!" Sakura shouted back as she walked away.

Yazumi watched as she disappeared from his view and sighed. He had fallen for one of the most wonderful girl in the world but she loved someone else. He should have known from the very beginning that he did not stand a chance against the disgustingly perfect Syaoran. "At least, it seems to me that Syaoran might feel the same way for her," he reasoned as he recalled the times when Syaoran blushed around Sakura, glared at Yazumi every time Yazumi neared Sakura and casting Sakura wistful glances when she passed him. "I hope with all my heart that Syaoran and Sakura will be together.................no half of my heart," he amended for he half-wished Sakura was with him instead. "Its alright, I guess, if she's with Syaoran as long as she is happy. Syaoran better not break her heart or he will have to answer to me," he vowed. Then his shoulders drooped in resignation. He was miserable at being rejected. He had always rejected girls who had proclaimed their 'undying love' for him and now he got a taste of his own medicine; Just as he was about to bare his soul to the girl of his dreams, she rejected him. "It should not matter, I guess," he said. "For if you love a person, you must let her go if she's happy with someone else..............................."

"If you love a person, you must let her go if................."

The words he had read kept repeating in Syaoran's head. "I love Sakura. There is no doubt about that," he thought. "But what am I going to do about it?" he wondered.

"If you love a person, you must let her go if she's happy with someone else," he thought. "But shouldn't I fight for her?"

He recalled the words Eriol had said to him. "At least I will try to win her instead of just moping around pining for someone who is probably within my reach but too proud to even try," Eriol had said earlier on.

"Do I have a chance with Sakura?" he wondered. "Is that what Eriol is trying to imply? That Sakura might love me the way I love her?"

After a while, he straightened. "Maybe, I'll try to find out Sakura's true feelings for Yazumi. I will see if she truly loves Yazumi. If she does, I will.......I will let her....................go," his heart constricted at the thought. "But if all she feels for Yazumi is an infatuation and does not love Yazumi anymore, I will try and win her heart," he decided.

"Maybe I'll found out tomorrow when we go to the expo together," he decided. With that thought in mind, he decided to head for home as he contemplated on what to wear for their date....uh....usual outing tomorrow.

The next day,

"Oooh! Look at the bears," Sakura exclaimed when she saw a booth selling teddy bears. "I want to go and have a look," Sakura said to Syaoran.

Syaoran nodded. "Sure. You go ahead while I explore the booths around here," he said.

"Ok. I'll look for you later when I'm done," Sakura said as she walked over to the booth selling teddy bears.

Syaoran smiled as he watched her retreating back. "She is just so sweet and full of life," he thought. For the past hour, they had spent their time exploring the booths at the expo. The theme was hobbies where every booths sold things that people collected as hobbies. Syaoran looked around at the booths.

"Do you collect bottle caps, sir?" a man asked when Syaoran passed by a booth. Syaoran politely shook his head and continued to explore the booths nearby. Suddenly a booth caught his attention. He walked over to it. It was a booth selling hand-made hairclips.

"Hello," a girl greeted him when he approached the booth. "Are you looking for something for your girlfriend?" she asked.

Syaoran smiled as his mind drifted to Sakura. "My girlfriend....that's a promising thought," he thought. He looked at the hairclips. "Sakura might look nice with one of those," he thought again. He looked at the girl and said, "Yes, I'm thinking of buying a hairclip for Sakura."

"Oh! Her name is Sakura. Lucky girl," she said. "What is the colour of her hair?" she asked.

"Auburn," Syaoran answered, as he thought of Sakura's beautiful coppery hair.

"Hmm......I think this should do," the girl said as she handed Syaoran a green hairclip with cherry blossoms decorated on it.

Syaoran took it. "Perfect choice," he murmured. Then turning to the girl, he said, "Alright. I buy it."

Syaoran then paid for it and waited for the girl to wrap the hairclip.

"I'm sure she will love it," the girl said.

"I hope so," Syaoran said. He took it and just as he was about to walk away, Sakura ran up to him.

"Syaoran!" she called as she stood in front of him, slightly breathless.

"Want to go somewhere else?" Syaoran asked. Sakura nodded. "Come on, let's go," he said.

The girl who had sold the hairclips to him smiled and winked at Syaoran when he turned to her. "She's beautiful," the girl mouthed as she gave him a thumbs-up sign. Syaoran smiled at her and then turned and led Sakura away.

As they walked beside each other, Syaoran noticed that Sakura was carrying a paper bag with a bear inside. "You bought a teddy bear?" Syaoran asked.

"Yes," Sakura said excitedly. "Do you want to see it?" she asked as she pulled out the small bear for Syaoran to see.

"Its cute," Syaoran said as he looked at the bear Sakura held in her hands.

"I know. They say, if you give this bear to someone, it shows that you love the person," Sakura explained.

"Indeed," Syaoran said carefully. Observing her, he asked, "Are you going to give it to Yazumi?"

"Uh...huhh...," Sakura managed as she put it back in the bag.

Syaoran's heart fell when he noticed Sakura was blushing. "She is going to give it to Yazumi," he thought disappointedly. Little did he know that Sakura was thinking about him when she bought the bear.

"I don't love, Yazumi," Sakura thought. "I thought to give it to Syaoran." She stole a glance at Syaoran who was staring straight ahead, his expression hard. "What will he do if he I tell him that I don't love Yazumi and I love him instead?" she wondered. Her imagination was coming up with many possibilities. "What if Syaoran laughed at me or even worst pretend he did not understand and brush it aside callously?" she imagined, cringing at the possibility. "Not yet. I can't tell him yet," she decided. She knew this could not go on for long. Whether they liked it or not, their relationship had changed and Sakura knew they could never return to the way they used to be.

In front of Sakura's house,

"I have always enjoyed our outing," Sakura said as she walked to the door.

"Me too," Syaoran said. "Sakura, I've bought something for you at the expo just now," he said, taking out a small package.

"Hoe?" Sakura exclaimed, surprised.

"Here," he said, handing her the gift.

Sakura took the gift and looked at him. "Can I open now?" she asked.

"Sure," Syaoran answered nervously, unsure what kind of reaction he would get from her. "Its not expensive. Will she like it?" he wondered.

Sakura opened the box and squealed with delight. "Its beautiful," she said happily, her eyes shining with gratitude. "Thank you so much, Syaoran. You are such a wonderful friend," she said as she hugged him.

Syaoran hugged her back. "I'm glad you like it," he murmured.

Sakura tried to take a step back but she realised that Syaoran had still not relinquished his hold on her. Sakura's face turned into a deep shade of red. "Uh... Syaoran," she began but stopped as her eyes met his. "I'm falling for him so deeply that it scares me," she thought. She had never felt so strongly for another person beside her family before.

"Sakura," Syaoran murmured as he closed the gap between their face.

"He's going to kiss me," Sakura thought wildly, her heart hammering with excitement as she lifted her head higher.

Suddenly they heard Touya's voice. Both jumped back guiltily. "Kaijuu, are you back? Is that you outside?" Touya's voice was heard from inside the house.

"Uh, I guess I better go now," Syaoran said awkwardly and quickly left. Sakura watched as he walked away.

"That was close. I almost kiss him just now," she muttered.

Touya opened the door. "I know it's you," he said triumphantly.

Sakura forced a smile and entered, her mind still reeling from the almost kiss.

"I hope its not a guy you are thinking about," Touya remarked as he observed his sister.

Sakura looked at him in surprise. "Judging from that lovesick look on your face, I definitely think you are thinking about a guy," Touya added. "Could it be that gaki?" he wondered aloud though it was more of a guess.

He did not expect Sakura's reaction though. She blushed so brightly that he thought her face might explode any second from that kind of pressure. Sakura opened her mouth to protest but nothing came out. In the end, she mumbled something about having to do homework and ran up.

Touya sighed as he sank onto the sofa. "Too bad there's no spell to prevent your sister from growing up," he thought.

Monday morning,

Sakura was sitting under a tree as she contemplated on her feelings for Syaoran. "Should I tell him?" she wondered. "What if he rejected me? What if my confession affects my friendship with him?"

"Mind if I join you?" a voice interrupted her thoughts. Sakura looked up and saw Yazumi smiling down at her.

"No, I don't mind," she answered, gesturing for him to sit beside her.

"You look so troubled today," he said.

Sakura smiled weakly but did not answer. For a while, they just sat quietly beside each other enjoying the breeze.

"That's a nice hairclip you're wearing," Yazumi complimented.

Sakura fingered the clip on her hair absently. "Yes. Syaoran bought it for me," Sakura answered.

Yazumi sighed at the answer. "Have you told him how you feel yet?" Yazumi asked.

"Tell him what?" Sakura asked, feigning ignorance.

"That you love him, of course," Yazumi said.

"Why would I want to tell him?" she countered.

"Because you lo......love...him and he loves you," Yazumi said, it still hurt him to know that Sakura loved someone else.

"He loves me?" Sakura repeated dubiously.

Yazumi nodded. "He loves you," Yazumi said adamantly.

"Maybe as a friend," Sakura muttered as she looked away.

"No, he loves you," Yazumi said. Sakura turned to look at him, surprised by his words. "Tell him how you feel, Sakura or he will never know," he urged. He knew if he was selfish he could just say the opposite thing and break Sakura's heart. Then he would get a chance to be with her. "But love is not selfish," he reminded himself.

"Go and tell him. I can assure you, he will love to hear that from you," he said to Sakura.

"You think so?" Sakura asked, her eyes shining with hope.

"I'm very sure," Yazumi said, knowing that with every word he said, he was blewing any of his chances with Sakura as he encouraged her to go for Syaoran. He added, "If you love a person, you must tell him how you feel," he said philosophically.

"Alright. I shall tell him after school," Sakura said. Then she hugged Yazumi and whispered, "Thank you for everything you have done for me considering how unfair I might have been to you."

Yazumi hugged her back and said, "You were never unfair to me and I will do anything to ensure that you're happy." Then he added silently, "Even if I have to give you up to someone else."

"You're a wonderful friend," Sakura said.

Meanwhile,

Syaoran had just finished doing errand for his teacher and was now looking for Sakura. He had wasted too much time wondering whether she might love him and decided to take action. He was going to ask her if she still has feelings for Yazumi. If she does, he will promise to help her anyway he can but if she don't....................then maybe, he can confess his feelings for her.

When he entered the cafeteria, he saw only Eriol and Tomoyo. He approached them and asked, "Do you know where Sakura is?"

Both shook their heads. "Maybe she's outside sitting under her favourite tree?" Tomoyo suggested. "She sometimes go there when she needs time to think."

"Thanks, Tomoyo. I'll just look for her there," he decided as he practically rushed out.

"Hopefully, Sakura's there," he said.

Unfortunately for him, he realised that Sakura was not alone; Yazumi was with her. "They seemed to be talking about something very serious," he realised. "I wonder what they are talking about?" As Syaoran watched with horror, Sakura then moved closer to Yazumi and hugged him tightly. It was then he felt as if someone had viciously yanked at his heart and stepped on it. "Sakura....," he whispered, unshed tears stung his eyes. His vision clouded, he quickly turned away and left the scene, feeling more empty than ever before.

During class,

"What is wrong with Syaoran?" Sakura wondered. He might have been acting weirdly lately but this afternoon, he was behaving totally strange. He looked very depressed and glowered at everyone who came even within one metre radius of him. When she asked him what was bothering him, he just looked away and curtly denied that anything was wrong. "I'll talk to him after school and tell him how I feel," she decided.

Meanwhile, Syaoran was trying hard to erase the image of Yazumi and Sakura hugging though he was failing miserably.

"She's happy with Yazumi," he concluded. "If I truly love Sakura, I will want her to be happy and if its Yazumi who makes her happy, I guess I have to give her up," he decided, his heart breaking just at the thought of that.

"You've had your chance for years Syaoran but you blew it. Now, its too late," his mind chastised. "So you better live with it," he told himself dreadfully.

"Its no use fighting for her and make her even more confused. I might even ruin my friendship with her in the process," he reasoned. Syaoran stole a glance at Yazumi, who was busy copying whatever the teacher wrote on the whiteboard. "At least, he's not a jerk," he thought.

Syaoran sighed. "I wish Sakura loves me just as I love her," he muttered. "But if you love a person, you must let the person go if she's happy with someone else."

After class,

Sakura turned to Syaoran and asked nervously, "Can I talk to you for a while, Syaoran?"

Syaoran looked at her. He was surprised that she wanted to talk to him. For a while, hope spread through him but he squelched it immediately. "Maybe she just wants to tell me that she and Yazumi are going out and wants to thank me for everything I have done for her," he thought pessimistically. The more he thought about it, the more sure he was that that's the case. He nodded and followed Sakura out of the classroom.

Once she was sure that they had enough privacy, Sakura turned to him and said, "Syaoran, there is something that I want you to know," she began. She was just about to continue when Syaoran stopped her and said, "Wait! There's something that I want to tell you first."

"There's something that you want to tell me?" Sakura asked, surprised.

Syaoran nodded. He took a deep breath and said, "I......I want to wish you well with Yazumi."

"Huh?" Sakura managed, clearly unsure how to react to that.

Syaoran then continued, "I am happy that you and Yazumi are together. Both of you belong to each other," he lied.

"But....," Sakura protested but Syaoran cut in.

"I guess now that you have Yazumi, things are going to be different between us. You will spend more time with him and probably has much less time for me," he said, although it pained him to do so. Had he not been too caught up with his own feelings, he could have noticed the hurt and pain in Sakura's eyes. "Its fine with me. I'm glad that you like Yazumi. I must admit, I think its great," he continued. "You should get yourself a boyfriend by now and Yazumi seems to be a perfect choice. He's nice, smart, handsome and I'm sure he will treat you well."

"What the heck?" Sakura thought. "Is there more?" she asked coolly as she dug her into her bag for something.

"I guess, that's it," Syaoran finished, looking at her closely. "We will still be friends, ok? Though we probably might not be as close as we were before," he asked.

"I guess," Sakura said hollowly.

"So what do you want to say to me?" he asked.

"Nothing of significance anymore," Sakura replied curtly. She dug out the bear she had bought a few days ago at the expo and gave him. Syaoran looked at her questioningly.

"This is meant for you," Sakura said.

Syaoran took the bear uncertainly. "For me?" he asked.

"Yes, for you," she said, trying to control the tears that was threatening to fall down her cheeks. "Goodbye, Syaoran," she whispered as she ran away.

Syaoran stared at the bear Sakura had given him. He did not understand why Sakura had given it to him. He remembered what she had said to him at the expo. "They say, if you give the bear to someone, it shows that you love the person," she had said. Confused, he walked away. "I have done the correct thing," he reminded himself as he thought about the speech that he had given her. "But why do I feel that I have done something wrong?" he wondered. Then he shook his head and said, "I'm getting too emotional. I think I better go and have a game of basketball to clear my mind." With that thought in mind, he left for the basketball court.

Meanwhile, Sakura was sitting at the bus stop, crying uncontrollably. She was on the verge of confessing her feelings to Syaoran but Syaoran had callously informed her how happy he was that she was with Yazumi (and she and Yazumi were not even going out). "Baka," she muttered. Suddenly she realised that someone had sat beside her.

"Sakura? What's wrong?" the person asked.

Sakura looked up and saw Yazumi. "You lied to me!" she shouted. "He does not love me," Sakura said.

"What are you talking about?" Yazumi asked, confused.

"Syaoran. You told me he loves me but its not true," Sakura cried. "He even tell me how happy he is that I have fallen for you."

"He said that?" Yazumi asked, clearly surprised.

Sakura nodded.

"It can't be. I am sure he loves you," Yazumi whispered, feeling Sakura's pain.

"Then you are wrong," Sakura said as she started telling him what had happened immediately after class.

"I'm sorry, Sakura," Yazumi said once she had finished.

"No, its fine," Sakura answered.

"Do you want me to walk you home?" he offered.

"No. I'm fine, really," she said adamantly.

"Are you sure?" he asked.

Sakura nodded.

"Alright then. Take care, Sakura," he said and watched as she left.

Then his face hardened as he turned back to the school. There was one person he was determined to find.

At the basketball court,

Syaoran was playing basketball with Eriol, trying to get his mind off Sakura, when he heard someone called his name. He stopped and turned. To his surprise, he saw Yazumi stalked over to him with a thunderous expression on his face. "Why is he so angry?" he wondered.

"Yazumi, what's up?" he asked pleasantly though he was slightly apprehensive by the expression on Yazumi's face.

"How could you hurt the very girl you love, especially since she loves you?" Yazumi shouted angrily.

"The girl I love? Sakura?" Syaoran asked confused.

"Yes, Sakura. How could you treat a girl who loves you like that?" he shouted.

"She loves me?" Syaoran repeated. "But I thought she loves you?" Syaoran asked confused.

To be continued.................................................................. ............................................

Will Syaoran realise his major blunder? What will happen when he finds out Sakura's true feelings for him? Will he get her back?

Stay tuned for the next chapter.