Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Cardcaptors: Clow Reed's Mistake ❯ Cardcaptors: Rage's Decision-Ch.14 ( Chapter 14 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]
By Maurynna
Author's Note: Heh, heh,.....I know it's been a little while, and I'm sorry for that. Oh! and, I guess I should tell you who I'm going to be pairing with Sakura.....or should I? No, I figure, you're already angry enough with me, so, I'll tell you. Drum roll please........it's Li!!! Well, you hard core S+S fans got your wish. *sniff* Poor Rage. Now, one last thing, even though this has been decided, DO NOT expect it to happen right away, because I can guarantee you....it won't. I need time. 0.oa I'm not too good at this whole romance thing, at least, I don't think I am. *sigh* say bye-bye to my self confidence. ^_^ Well, I'll just have to gain it back now won't I? Well, read and enjoy!!!
Disclaimer: I do not own Cardcaptors, nor do I claim to. I am not getting paid for this so please do not sue me.
Cardcaptors: Rage's decision-Ch.14
Sakura planted her feet nervously. She had no desire to kill Rage at all, didn't want to, but she couldn't just stand there and do nothing,....for it was quite obvious Rage intended to fight. She just hoped he realized he didn't want to kill her either. The strange sense Sakura has been having about Rage is still there, and she would stake her life on it.
Rage unbuttoned the cuffs of his shirt and methodically rolled up each sleeve. "I'm rather pleased you found me," he said, amused, although, Sakura couldn't imagine why, "Are you planning to fight in that?" he asked suddenly.
Sakura looked down, confused, but she couldn't find anything wrong with her sky blue t-shirt and jean shorts. She saw movement out of the corner of her eye, and more out of reflex and blind luck rather than anything else, Sakura jerked to her right and rolled. After coming back to her feet, she looked over her shoulder, quickly, to see what had been coming towards her.
Rage stood where Sakura had been but moments before, an amused smile on his face, "Never lower your eyes to an enemy." he said quietly. Sakura stood up straight and couldn't help but glare at him. Rage laughed quietly, "What did you expect? Gun fire announcing the beginning of the duel?"
Sakura grumbled under her breath, "Would have been nice." she pulled out a Clow card. Something only to catch him, not harm him, Sakura thought. "Wood card! Release and dispel! Release!" Wood exploded out of the card and made it's way towards Rage. Sakura hoped to use to use Wood against Rage much the same way Yue had used it against her in the Final Judgement.
Rage's eyes sparkled and he smiled as Wood came towards him anticipating resistance, if he knew Wood. Wood rushed him and tried to wrap a branch around his arm, caging him. Rage moved nimbly out of Wood's way, and a safe distance from the encircling limb. In one smooth move, Rage had his sword unsheathed and in a backward arc, brought the gleaming blade down upon Wood. Wood shrieked in pain and anger as the blade imbedded itself in her branches. With a heave, Rage sliced through the rest of the limb and Wood let out another shriek as her branch thudded to the ground.
Sakura winced at the agonizing sound as it reverberated of of her bones. It was like she could feel the Wood card's pain as if it were her own. She made a quick decision, "Wood card! Return to your power, confined! Wood!" Wood immediately retreated back into it's seal. Sakura put the card away and stood tensely, trying to think which card she should use next,
Rage watched her thoughtfully, "You sent Wood against me,......how interesting," he commented. Sakura watched him warily. "So, you do not plan to kill me? only capture me? Why is that, I wonder? It would be far simpler to be rid of me. What is it you hope to accomplish?" he asked quietly, more to himself. He began circling her slowly, thinking, waiting for her answer.
Sakura shifted on her feet, trying to keep Rage in sight, "I don't want to kill anyone." she informed him heatedly. Her voice and expression both softened with her next statement, "Besides, I know I won't need to kill you."
Rage halted. "Is that so?" he asked, one eyebrow raised, "And why is that?"
Sakura shrugged nervously. She hadn't really meant to say that, but, now that she had, she might as well follow through, "I-I have this...feeling. I know killing you would be a big mistake. I feel as if I have to....keep you safe."
Rage looked like he was choking on something. "Keep me....safe?!"
Sakura nodded. "There's something about you, that just isn't right. There's something....good in you, I know it." she said quietly.
Rage stood stock still as he stared at her, his sword hanging at his side, apparently forgotten. Love stood off to the side near Li, Kero, and Madison, with one hand covering his face, shaking his head slightly. Li and Kero both had disapproving looks on their faces, but there was shock in their eyes. Neither could actually believe what Sakura had just said. Madison had her face carefully glued to her cam corder, not wanting to miss what was going to happen next.
Sakura stood waiting for Rage to make a move. She became a bit worried when he continued to just stand there, staring at her. Well, he wasn't exactly staring at her, more like, through her. His gaze was fixed on her face, but his attention seemed to be somewhere else. His iris' were dilated and his eyes distant. Sakura wondered what he was thinking.
All of a sudden, Rage blinked. His winter eyes filled with ice and his expression became intense. "Safe? You think I'm safe?" he asked quietly.
Sakura stared at him. He really was making a habit of having mood swings, "Umm...." Sakura said nervously, "Sort of, it's hard to explain...."
"You think there is something good in me? That I will not harm you, mayhaps?" Rage's voice rose. "That you can trust me? Is that it?" he growled low in his throat as he pointed his sword towards Sakura, "Never again! Those days have long since past. I owe you nothing! You owe me!" he sprang at her, dead set on ending this now.
"Jump card!" Sakura cried desperately. Little white wings appeared on her shoes and she took off into the air. She wondered what she could have possibly said that could have set Rage off.
She landed lightly in the willow tree and turned to face him. She eeped in surprise and jumped out of the tree quickly, narrowly avoiding the edge of Rage's blade as it sliced through the branch she had been standing on. Apparently, she wasn't the only one who could jump so high. She landed ungracefully on her back on the ground, just happy she hadn't broken her spine. With a groan she peeled herself up and of of the ground. She crouched low with her Clow wand held defensively in front of her,
"Earth card! Release and dispel!" she called out as Rage landed a few feet away from her.
The ground began to shake violently and Li and Madison grabbed onto nearby trees to keep from falling. Kero, who was in the air, had no such problems, but he could feel Earth's power vibrating through his bones. Love just picked his feet up off of the ground and sat cross-legged, on air, with his hands under his chin.
Rage planted his feet and held his ground the best he could. Not quite sure what Sakura was planning, he glanced at her, but he could pick up nothing from her facial expression but determination. He began to feel that pull towards her again and ruthlessly suppressed it, converting and using it to fuel his anger. He took a step forward, as best he could, toward Sakura. The ground in front of him suddenly exploded upwards, blocking Sakura from view, and he stood there shocked for a moment before he realized what was going on. He turned quickly, trying to make his escape, but another wall of Earth exploded behind him, rising up into the air, and then to his right and his left, until he was completely surrounded.
The shaking stopped and Li and Madison carefully untangled themselves from the tree trunks they had been holding onto. They both stared at the prison of Earth for a moment before turning their gazes-and, in Madison's case, her cam corder-to Sakura. Realizing she had won, Li let the first hint of a smile grace his lips in her didn't know how long. Kero began leaping up and down in the air, cheering, "You did it! You did it!" over and over again. He stopped suddenly though as rational thought returned to him. "Go ahead, Sakura! Seal him!!" Kero advised cheerfully. He was extremely proud that HIS mistress had sealed Rage.
Sakura looked away from the wall of earth and glanced at Kero. She raised her Clow wand hesitantly. She hoped Rage hadn't been hurt. Sakura glanced sideways again, suddenly uneasy. Love just sat there staring at Rage's imprisonment, a smile playing about his lips. Wasn't he the least bit worried? Sakura figured Rage and Love must at least be able to tolerate each other, otherwise, they wouldn't have been together when she had gotten here,.....so why wasn't Love doing anything?
That's when she felt it, a steady building of a card's energy. Sakura looked at Love quickly, but when he found she was watching him, he just smiled and then went back to watching Earth.
It wasn't him.
Sakura looked back at Earth quickly, and felt another sort of vibration. That's when the cold hit her and her eyes widened. If Rage was generating enough cold to be felt on the other side of six feet of solid earth.....then how cold was it in there? With a sudden sense of urgency, Sakura lifted her Clow wand, "Rage card! Return to your-"
The wall nearest to her exploded outward, little chips of frozen earth flying about her. Sakura hit the ground with a cry and covered her head with her hands as the brittle chips rained down upon her. Kero ducked behind a tree and Li ran to Madison and threw a wind shield around them both, protected. Love continued to sit, but a slight, pinkish colouring surrounded him and none of the frozen pieces of Earth touched him.
Sakura lifted her head off of the ground slowly. She looked at her poor Earth, scattered all over the ground, everywhere! frozen and lifeless. The fine wall it had been was now reduced to a few jagged pieces, sticking up but a foot from the ground, and in the center of these, was Rage. Sakura swallowed, and prayed to God she hadn't just signed her own death warrant.
Rage stood, a cold, thin, white mist surrounding him and leeching out, covering the trees and ground with frost as it went. His face was hard, blank, expressionless, but his eyes,...his eyes were what scared Sakura the most. They were the most chilling thing she had ever seen, and at the same time, they were burning hot. Sakura didn't take the time to wonder at the contradiction as those two burning blue eyes focused on her and her soul nearly froze. Somewhere behind her, she heard Love tsk and murmur quietly, "Now you've done it, you've gone and pissed him off." and Sakura didn't need that little statement to realize she was in serious trouble,
And then Rage was coming at her, quickly and resolutely, his sword coated in ice. Sakura stumbled to her feet, her eyes still locked with his, ignoring the throbbing in her arms from the dozens of tiny cuts and trails of blood that slowly seeped out and trailed down her arm. She didn't know what to think of that sense of hers now, it sure had gotten her into a pickle, and she figured if, by some miracle, she got out of this, that Rage was just about mad enough to to kill something else. She took out a Clow card. Maybe, maybe she still didn't have to hurt him, maybe, she could talk some sense into him? Yeah, and she knew how well that worked the last time. Okay, she'd....just have to buy some time, until she could think of something. She could do it, she could pull it off. Sakura whimpered silently.
"Sword card! Release and dispel! Sword card!" the tip of her Clow wand transformed into a sword point.
"No! Not a sword, Sakura! Anything but a sword!!" Kero cried out.
But there was nothing she could do about it as Rage reached her and immediately engaged her in combat. What happened in the next five minutes, was the most terrifying, exhausting thing Sakura had ever had to do in her life. Each time Rage hit her sword, her whole arm went numb for a few seconds and she felt like crying out. But she didn't, and each time Rage beat her back her arm just kept getting weaker and weaker. Even when Sakura stopped defending and went on the attack, she couldn't manage to get through Rage's defense.
With a mighty lunge, Rage hit the Clow wand once again, and sent it flying right out of her hands. The force of the blow sent Sakura flying flat on her back.
"SAKURA!!" Li stepped forward, every instinct in his body cried out to help her. It didn't matter about the fight they had before. He would BEG her forgiveness if only she would live! However....he found his way blocked.
Love stood with his arms crossed, his expression more serious than usual, but he still had that 'devil may care' look about him, "I thought we had a deal?" he asked mildly.
Li glared at him. "Screw the deal, I never agreed to it in the first place.....I have to help her."
Love tilted his head sideways and his eyes got a strange, distant look, like there was something about Li that he just couldn't figure out. "Now, going over there would just result in you getting killed anyways, so what's the point? Besides," he said quietly, "If you go over there, I'll have to join in, too. Do you really think you can handle two of us?"
Li was becoming desperate. He had to save her, she meant everything to him. If he had to risk his life to save hers, then so be it. With that thought, he brushed roughly past Love.
Love's hand shot out and gripped Li's elbow. Li's eyes snapped up to Love's and found that Love's full attention was already focused on him. His eyes still had that strange look to them and Li, finding that he couldn't break free or tear his gaze from Love's, became uneasy with the intensity coming from this card. In a way, it was almost as bad as Rage was when he got that intense look.
Suddenly, Love's eyes returned to normal and he eyed Li with great interest. "You love her." he stated.
Li had no idea how he had known, but there was something in the way Love said it, like he was pleasantly surprised and greatly amused about something, that had him bristling. "So?" Li gritted out.
Love smiled. Before Li quite knew what happened, he found himself incased in some sort of pink bubble. He floated a few feet off the ground and stopped. Realizing he was trapped, he beat desperately on the bubble and even tried using his sword to pierce it, but no matter what he did, he couldn't break through. "Please!" he cried, looking down at Love who was looking up at him. "Please! I have to help her. Don't take her from me!" he didn't care that he was begging, he would have done, said, anything to get out of the bubble.
Love continued to look up at him and a hint of sadness creeped into his eyes as he looked at the distressed warrior. "I am sorry, I cannot. I would never betray Rage, but do not worry," he said, turning away to watch the battle, "Everything will turn out just fine." he murmured, almost too quiet for Li to hear.
But he had, and he eyed Love strangely, unable to figure out what he meant by that. Of course things weren't going to turn out alright, Sakura was going to die, and so was he.
Meanwhile, Sakura hadn't had time to wonder what happened to Li after he had cried out, because Rage's sword was coming towards her fast, and she rolled to the right, narrowly evading the sword as it thrust into the ground spreading frost outwards from it. Without looking back, she half crawled, half stumbled towards her Clow wand, going as fast as she could. She was just inches from it now and she thought she had made it, but it was quickly swiped out of the way by Rage's boot. Sakura looked up at him, and came face to face with his blade. She fell back onto to her back again, knowing that there was no way out. She lay flat, staring up into his rage filled eyes, and wondered, how she could have been so horribly wrong. Well, there was no sense worrying about it now,... huh, she wouldn't have to worry about anything in a few moments. But there was one thing that nagged at her, even now,
Sakura narrowed her eyes and tried to look as menacing and as intimidating as she could. In nothing more than a hissed whisper, Sakura gritted out, "Leave Li, and Kero, and Madison out of this. After you kill me, you won't have anything to worry about and your revenge will have been taken care of," with her eyes shooting off sparks, Sakura narrowed her eyes even further, "If you hurt them, if you harm one hair on their heads, I will come back and haunt you from my grave. You will never be rid of me." with that said, she continued to glare at him for a moment more, then she abruptly closed her eyes and said, "Do it, get it over with."
Rage stood, staring down at Clow Reed's descendant, and had every intention of doing exactly what she said, but,....he couldn't seem to get his sword to move. He continued to stare at her, her little speech replaying itself over in his mind. He couldn't help but mentally smile. Sakura seemed to be as even tempered and sweet as a person got, however, when her friends were suffering, or if there was a chance that they might be in danger, she came on like a wild cat, hissing and clawing. And the look in her eyes could rival that of Death's itself. There was something about her, something so....pure, and no matter how he tried to convince himself that no one could be that righteous, that green-eyed gaze came back to haunt him. Rage's sword arm began to waver ever so slightly and he stared. Never had anything like this befallen him before, and he couldn't understand it.
Sakura opened her eyes, wondering why she wasn't dead yet. She looked up and found Rage staring at her. There was something unnerving about his stare, something new that had never bothered her before. It was like...it was like there was some sort of caticlismic struggle going on within himself. A new hope began to build inside Sakura. Maybe, just maybe, she hadn't been wrong after all.
Rage took one look into those shining eyes and was lost. "I can't do it." he whispered, half amazed, half dejected. He dropped his sword to his side.
Love, the only one who had heard Rage's confession, smiled gently. Seeing Rage's sword drop, Li was flooded with relief. He didn't realize it, but a single tear escaped his eye. Kero and Madison let out relieved sighs.
Sakura stood up on shaky legs. She glanced at Rage who had his head bowed, she couldn't see his face. "Rage?" she asked quietly.
Rage's head snapped up. He made a quick, split decision,.....he could either reveal his feelings, announce that he would never hurt her and join her, or! ....he could leave now, and without any reason to fight her, never see her again. Both possibilities were quite out of the question, so he made up a third,
His face regained it's icy quality and his eyes went blank, revealing nothing. His voice, when he spoke, was slightly raised, "That was absolutely pitiful." he said, putting as much contempt into his voice as he could manage. Sakura blinked, surprised, she hadn't expected this, "You are no challenge to me, why did you not use your sorcery? Why did you not do everything in your power to stop me?!" why couldn't you let me kill you?!
Sakura stared at him for a moment. "What powers? I don't have any sorcery, I only have the Clow cards." she said quietly, his line of questioning completely confusing her.
Rage's eyes widened for a moment. "You do not know how to use Magic? Real Magic?" he asked incredulously.
Sakura shook her head. "I don't have any Magic inside me." she ducked her head a bit with her next statement, "I've never been able to use any Magic, not even when Kero tried to help me." she said dejectedly.
Rage just stood there, but a plan quickly began forming inside of his head. He assumed his mask once again and replied sharply, "As I said, you are pitiful," Sakura's head snapped up. "You were not worthy enough for me to finish off. You will not be any trouble in the future." he turned as if to leave.
Sakura frowned at him, "You're just going to leave me here? No revenge, no getting back at Clow Reed? Why?" she asked suspiciously.
Rage smirked a bit, seeing she was hooked. He quickly covered up the slip though as he turned to face her, "Why would I need to finish you off? It goes against my honour to defeat a one such as you when you are too weak to even scratch me."
Sakura glared at him, "I'll scratch you alright," she muttered under her breath.
"However," Rage said suddenly, as if something had just occurred to him. Sakura eyed him warily. "If you knew how to use your Magic that you inherited from....Clow Reed," he seemed to have trouble saying the sorcerer's name, "then you would be much more of a challenge." he said reasonably.
Sakura crossed her arms in front of her chest, then uncrossed them again as sharp stabs of pain laced through her arms, "Well," she replied tartly, "We know that'll never happen."
Rage tilted his head to the side. "Is that so?" he nodded towards Li who was still in the bubble, looking furious. "He can use his Magic, he is a descendant of Clow Reed. So why can't you use Magic?" he studied her. "It's there, inside you, whether you know it or not." he stopped and looked as if he was thinking over something important, then, "I can teach you." he said quietly.
"NO!!" Li and Kero both yelled.
Sakura ignored them and studied Rage's expression, even though she couldn't make anything out. Could he really do that? Could he really teach me how to use Magic? Ever since she had met Li and seen how he could tap into his Magic the way real sorcerer's did and use spells, Sakura had always been envious of him. It hurt whenever she saw him use his powers, knowing that she had none of her own. Sure, she may be the only one who can seal and control the Clow cards, she may be Mistress of the cards, but, she had always been convinced that was just a quirk anyways. Come on, if she was really meant to be the Clow Mistress, why couldn't she use any other Magic?
Sakura looked into Rage's eyes, trying to see a lie if it was there, "You can really teach me? You can teach me how to use my powers?" she asked hopefully.
Rage could have let out a cry for joy....he had her. What he had said hadn't been a lie, he really could teach her, well, he could teach her as much as she was willing to learn. Clow Reed, when he had taught the thirteen of them how to use Magic, had said that "Only you, can teach yourself the art of Magic. It is inside you, and no none else. But, you can be...guided along the way." so, he would guide her as much he could, and take lessons from what the sorcerer told him. Hmm,....whoever thought I'd want to remember anything he had ever told me. And of course, there were two added bonuses,....1) if he could teach Sakura anything, it would help when she battled the other cards and she would have a greater chance of surviving-which was great in his book-and 2) what he had been going for in the first place, a chance to spend time with the lovely sorceress without having to fight her and pretend he wanted to kill her.
"Yes," he said, "I can teach you."
Sakura searched his eyes for a moment, trying to decipher if he was lying or not, but all she saw was truth. Sakura allowed herself to smile hesitantly. "Okay, deal." she held out her hand.
Rage grasped it firmly and finally let a smile loose. To keep up his charade, though, he tightened his hold and put steel into his eyes, "When I judge you worthy enough, we shall fight again."
Sakura smiled ruefully. "Now, I knew you'd say that." she realized, though, that she wasn't the least bit frightened. She removed her hand from Rage's and wondered why, but she couldn't find an answer. She looked over her shoulder at the gang, a smile ready, but the smile was forgotten as she blinked owlishly before her eyes widened to the size of saucers.
There was Li, floating four feet above the ground, encased in a bubble, looking furious. She glanced at Love to find him smirking slightly and watching her. She frowned at him. "Would you put him down?" not realizing how stern she looked.
Love held up his hands defensively. "Okay! Okay! No need to get huffy!" Sakura did huff at that statement. Love fought down a grin. "Your wish is my command, My Lady." Love snapped a finger and the bubble disappeared. Li tumbled to the ground unceremoniously. Sakura glared at Love. He smirked back. "You didn't say how you wanted wanted him down."
Sakura was about to tell him just what she thought of that, when both Rage and Love's heads snapped upwards. Sakura looked back and forth between the two of them, wondering what had their hair standing on end. She glanced in the direction they were looking at, but all she saw were a bunch of trees. "What's going on?" she asked warily.
Rage didn't move but Love glanced in her direction. "Someone's coming, someone powerful." and he turned back to continue watching the trees.
Li stiffened and held his sword at the ready. No! We'd just gotten out of one mess, sort of, and now we've got something else to deal with!? I don't think my heart could take another show of danger towards Sakura again.
Sakura glanced back apprehensively. Was it another Clow card? What would Rage and Love's reactions be if it was. Would they aid the card? or turn and leave? Sakura waited.
Suddenly, footsteps could be heard, coming quite rapidly towards them. Madison switched her view to the trees, wondering who was coming. Kero tensed until his tail was sticking straight out, but then his ears twitched and he seemed to be focusing on something. Then the tension drained out of him and he folded his arms over his chest and smirked. He looked like the cat that had swallowed the canary. He waited as well.
The footsteps kept getting closer and closer and Sakura's heartbeat kept getting faster and faster. Whoever it was was indeed running, sprinting more like, and it was quite obvious that he/she was coming here.
At that moment, the person broke the tree line and came to a skidding halt. Sakura couldn't believe her eyes. "Yukito?!"
Yukito stood rooted in place as he took in everything around him. He looked positively harried. His shirt was on backwards and inside out, and his pants were wrinkled beyond recognition. Whatever had drove him out of the hotel, it had been something big. And Sakura had a dreadful feeling she knew exactly what it was as she saw something flickering behind Yukito's eyes. He took in the Clow cards, Sakura's Clow wand lying on the ground out of her reach, Rage's scowl, and finally the scratches on Sakura's arms. That's when the light began to engulf him and the wings surrounded his form.
"Yukito! Wait!!" Sakura yelled, knowing that this wasn't good. But too late, the wings parted and out stepped Yue. He looked rather pale(well doesn't he always? ^_~) and Sakura attributed it to the fact that he had changed without the spell from her that enabled him to. Worse, he had a sword in his hand that gave off a blinding white radiance if looked at too long. Sakura had no idea where it had come from, but she didn't think circumstances could get any worse.
Rage took a step back and looked just about as shocked as Sakura had ever seen him. "Yue." he whispered, something unknown stirring in his eyes.
Yue raised his sword and pointed it at Rage. But he didn't say anything as he stared at Rage. Something invisible, and feathery soft, picked Sakura up and moved her out of the way. She was set down near Madison. She tried to run back and explain that there was nothing to worry about now, but her feet wouldn't move. She watched in trepidation as Yue spread his wings fully and took a fighting stance,
"I am sorry, Rage, but I must protect my Mistress." he said, no emotion in his voice whatsoever, but his eyes seemed unbearably sorrowful.
Love stepped forward and towards Rage, his face set in an angry expression, all traces of playfulness gone. But Rage held up his right hand without looking in Love's direction, and Love froze in his tracks, looking incredulous. But he backed off.
Rage lifted his sword and took his own fighting stance. "I understand, Yue." and that was all he said.
Sakura watched as they squared off and hoped to God they didn't kill each other. Sakura had never seen Yue fight like this, hell, she'd never even seen him with a sword in his hand before, but from what Kero told her, this was not going to be like it was when she fought Rage, even though she had used the Sword card to aid her. No, this was going to be much worse.
Kero came over and floated by her head, watching the scene with intense eyes and a smile on his face. "Now we'll see. Now, Rage just might permanently done plaguing the world."
Sakura looked at him in horror, but he didn't see her, he was so focused on what was about to take place. She looked back at the two, one an angel from heaven, and the other possibly from hell. No matter what Rage had done, to her or anybody else, she wasn't going to let him be hurt this day. And besides, it might not be Yue that is victorious, Rage might cut him to pieces. Sakura couldn't that that happen either. No matter what.....she was going to stop this.
To be continued...
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;P Another cliffhanger, I must be addicted to them or something. Anyways, in the next chapter, we get to see some things I've been meaning to wrap up. I can't tell you what they are...because that would ruin it and you'd know how things between Rage and Yue would turn out. I would have put the next stuff in this chapter, but, if I had, it would have been a really, really, long chapter, and I didn't have time for that. So, until then!