Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Contrast ❯ Chapter 5 ( Chapter 5 )

Hazaa!! I wrote this in ONE DAY!!! Actually, two hours. WOW!!! Well here it is. In this chapter there may be material not suitable for children under the age of 14. It is not a lemon or anything, but it is a graphic scene. Just be prepared but don't worry, it's not that bad.

ON WITH THE STORY!!!

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Th e hot water of the shower was like a baptism washing away all her demons. The water left tear like trails all along her body. She was crying, but her eyes held nor slipped any tears. Her soul was crying and was using the water as it's tears. The steady rock beat of Linkin Park's 'Easier To Run ' flowed through the room like the smoke lifting toward the sky.

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Today had been the day. The day so much had happened. The day that changed her into the young women she was. Today was the day she had lost the most important things in her life. Her family and her virginity. "I was ready today. I had everything so planned out with such great detail. I was ready. I had everything. I had the sad atmosphere, the secluded place to do it, and the long knife ready to end my miserable life." Sakura ran her hands through her wet hair. Her body shifted as she leaned her head against the chilled wall of the shower, thinking back. Replaying the nightmarish scene.

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played

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It was dark out. The stars had already greeted the night sky and the moon adored everything it touched. The air was thick and humid during the day but now it was perfect; not to hot but not to cold. No one was out in this part of town. Either they were in their homes in bed or out at a night club going crazy.

A young girl was walking home. Her hair was up in a high pony tail leaving the long locks of silky auburn hair flow freely. Her black T-shirt was tight, fitting to her natural curves. The shirt stopped just above the girls navel exposing her perfect abs and perfectly smooth skin. Her light blue jeans swished with every move of her legs. As if matching her outfit, her jeans were tight and clung to the shape of her body. Her high healed boots clicked as they made contact to the hard concrete.

She was loved being out at night. The sky and the stillness made the atmosphere so calming and serene. It gave her a type of high and made her feel powerful. She loved everything about the night. But she didn't know that along with a calm the night can also bring a great danger.

The girl walked along listening to the echo of her heels when she heard a crash coming from the ally behind her. Her emerald eyes flickered about looking for the origin of the sound. Her heart skipped a beat as yet again a crash came but this time the crash was not metallic sound but one of flesh hitting the ground.

Sakura was jumped upon and pushed into the ground. A high pitched scream reverberated throughout the area.

"Oh Sakura, don't yell so loud. Some one might hear." the attacked spoke. The voice was very familiar to Sakura and she knew instantly who it was. It was the one person in the world she didn't want it to be.

"Please Seiko, let me go. I don't want to play games anymore." Sakura replied to her former boyfriend. They had been in love. They were the king and queen of their school even though they were just juniors. Sakura thought he was so perfect, until he wanted to go a little farther in their relationship and began top pressure her into sex.

This wasn't the first time Seiko had sneaked up on her but he had never struck her to the ground, until now.

Seiko grabbed Sakura's pony tail an yanked her head back making Sakura cry out once again. His free hand roamed along her body, searching every curve and detail. His hand ran free a cross her body until it landed upon one of Sakura's breasts. There it stayed and squeezed hard.

Sakura was surprised and winced in pain as he squeezed and pulled, molding her breast in his hand. "Seiko stop. Get off of me, please, Seiko. Don't do this." Sakura begged as she felt his body pressure lift off her. She thought she was free until she felt the pull of her hair and got up.

Seiko's arm wrapped around her waist as the hand that grasped the pony tail let it go and covered her mouth.

"I'll show you want you would have had if you had just let me love you the way I wanted to." Seiko then picked her up and pulled her into the ally.

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(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)

(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)

(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)

Sakura punched the wall as the memory of him touching her, feeling her, violating her, speed across her mind. Real salty tears ran down her face as her memory came to the part where she woke up in the hospital room, Charley next to her and the doctor telling her she was pregnant.

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" Sakura screamed as she again punched the wall remembering how she was so afraid, so weak, and SO stupid. She remembered how she waited in the clinic waiting for the doctor to get rid of the child conceived through her humiliation. She remembered how she saw the small fetus leave her body and fall into the doctors hands. She remembered going home and cutting her arm from wrist to elbow then watching as the blood ran freely down her arm.

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

"I should have done it. I should have just ended everything right then and there. I should have cut off every piece of skin that ass hole touched. I should have fought back. I should have done something instead of just crying like a pussy." Sakura scolded herself as she scratched at her arms. The feeling of his touch still remained with her and would always. She wished she could get rid of that feeling, even if it meant getting rid of the skin that was infected.

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past

Sakura moved to the corner of the shower. The corner was getting just a little of the water so she wasn't completely out of it. She turned her back to the wall and sank against the cold wall. She curled up as she pulled her legs to her chest and folded her arms around them. She was crying so hard that it looked like she was still under the water having it's droplets fall upon her face.

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

She thought about how after that one moment she for ever changed. She became cold to the world, hating it for taking so much from her. Hating it for having put her through much. Hating it because it hated her. She would never again smile at a stranger in the hall. She would never again be the cheerful sweet cheerleader caption she once was. She would never again have any of the same friends nor the same personality. She was not herself anymore, she was reborn anew.

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change

Sakura looked at the faucet pouring out the hot water onto the ground. Her body was beginning to shiver because of the chill of the tile. Every inch of her skin had goose bumps. She got up and stared at the wall. She was numb, the way she liked it. She didn't feel she was just there and it was better.

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Confront the pain when you want but don't let it confront you. This was a saying she always said to herself when she felt like she was going to get hurt and would turn on bitch mood. Hide the pain inside and don't talk about it. It was a way of protecting herself from the world and the world from her.

It's easier to run
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made)
It's easier to go
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

A knock on the door awoke her back to the real world. Sakura turned to the wall again and gave it one more punch making it dent to tiles. It cut her knuckles open , along with probably breaking a few.

"Sakura, are you alright." It was Charley. How long had she been in there. She had lost all grasp on time. She always did around this time. The hands moved to the two knobs and twisted them making the water come to a halt.

"I'm great Charley, just trying to get clean. I'll be out in a min." Sakura then pulled the shower curtain open to reveal a steam filled room. She looked about for a moment until she found a towel. She ran the gruff towel along her silk skin removing any moisture left on her.

She opened the bathroom door and found that Charley had gone leaving her room empty. She walked toward her dresser and pulled out a pair of baggy black pants and a black wife beater. She knew Charley was going to need her to work tonight and was not really sure if she wanted too. She also knew she would feel better if she did work so she dried her hair a little with the discarded towel and walked out of her room.

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Syaor an looked around the room given to him. It was comfortable. It was not huge like his room but was not so tiny that it was uncomfortable. It was alright. It had a bed with simple white sheets, a night stand with a lamp and an alarm clock, along with a dresser and television on top.

Syaoran went to the bed and found a pair of green pajama pants with a white wife beater. On it was a note that read "Complements of Sakura. Don't tell her though. Charley." Syaoran was ready to get out of his wet clothes so he walked out of the room and down the hall to the bath room. He entered it and heard music through the walls.

Hmmm I must be over the bar, he thought as he took his clothes off and turned the water on. As he waited for the water to heat up he heard a loud scream that sounded like a women. He was alarmed by it but remembered the T.V. down stairs and just thought it was a movie. Nothing was going to ruin his shower. He needed to clam down and think.

What did he have to think about. Well I'll give you three guesses and the first three don't count. That's right, the troubled rouge. She was so different then all the other girls he knew, especially his girlfriend.

He's not saying that Ka it's great but she is just so…..so…..annoying lately. She's been obsessed with the fact that he made her go to his car when they first meet Sakura. She has been questioning him so much lately that he is just happy to get away. I hope she doesn't call tonight.

Then he thought about calling his house and telling them what happened and where he is so they don't go crazy and call the cops. That would be bad.

He finished up his shower and changed into the clothes provided. He walked out of the bathroom and no more then tow steps later he almost ran into the beautiful girl who he was just thinking about.

"Hey" she greeted him in a dull tone. She seemed different, more distant then before but who was he to judge her. He barely knew her.

"Hey" he replied right back. He watched as she gave him a once over, studying his clothes.

"Where'd you get those?" she asked as she looked deep into his eyes. Those beautiful amber eyes that held so many secrets. They where the windows to his soul and he made sure that the window was always shut, just like her.

"Had 'em in the car." he stated. She nodded her head in approval of the answer and began to walk away. He followed as they both silently walked down the hall. Neither tried to think of the other but failed every time.

"So" Sakura spoke up as she walked, eyes down toward the down. "You happy with your room?" She thought that was lame to say but didn't know what else to say. She didn't think they had much in common. Him being a jock and she being a rouge loner.

Syaoran looked at her, but she saw something in his eyes that she rarely saw from some one of his social group. She saw that he saw her as an equal and that made her feel so much better. It lifted the tension that was unwarily between them.

"yeah, it's great." Syaoran said as they began to reach the stairs that led down to the bar. Sakura shook her head up and down as she stared straight ahead. Syaoran watched her and wondered what she was like. "So, um, what do you like to do at night?"

Sakura thought the question was odd and didn't sound right but she knew what he meant and smiled at that. A true, rare smile that was only shown to those privileged to see it. Syaoran, indeed, felt privileged for it was an amazing smile.

"Well, I usually work at the bar right about now. If you want you can hang out and order a drink or two. Or, if you feel up to it, you can work it." Sakura looked at him wanting him to stay around her. Wait, she wanted what? man Sakura, your goin' crazy girl. Sakura stared at him and he looked at her. Before they knew it they had stopped at the top of the stairs and were just looking at each other.

Syaoran smiled, something rare for him to do as well. "I think I'll just watch you and talk with you a bit, if that's ok with you."

Sakura nodded and they walked down the stairs, a new bond growing.

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A man stood in the see of faces at the smoky bar. His eyes stayed glued on the girl that was serving drinks to men and women twice her age. The smile that was spread across her face seemed to hold no end. The fits of laughter made memories resurface just like he thought they would.

He had been looking for her for some time now. He had fallowed her tracks making sure that she was happy where ever she went. He wanted his Sakura happy. His baby sister.

Author Note: Hohohohohohohoho *Laughs Evilly* I wonder who that could be. Hehehe. I would like everyone to know that I LOVE throwing things in that no one would ever think would just come up at that point so I had to put this in. Also I would like to thank all the people who helped me get out of my stupid writers block. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! Hope you liked the chapter.

Also I hope you guys liked the little view into Sakura. Yeah she had a hard life but it gets better, I hope. I also hope that none of you were offended by it. I don't know what people get offended by now a days because I have such open friends and I just am not offended by much so if you are offended I AM SORRY!! It was just something that happened in Sakura's life that had to be told.

Much love to ya.

LoveangelLi flying away.