Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Dear Diary ❯ December ( Chapter 4 )
[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]
By: ~*§ugar*Plum*~ 
Tomoyo recovers slowly...
Anime/Manga: Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.31.2001 | Pages: 3 | Words: 1.4K | Visits: 368 | Status: Completed
Tomoyo recovers slowly...
Anime/Manga: Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.31.2001 | Pages: 3 | Words: 1.4K | Visits: 368 | Status: Completed
December 1st, 2003
Ok, I can't stand going to school or even practice because SHE'S with Eriol all the time! Eriol and I are slowly drifting apart. He's always with Pei Pei- or should I say Pee Pee. No, I shouldn't be making fun of her, but who cares? She's not going to read this or anything. I told Eriol that I'm thinking of dropping out of the musical. He asked me why, and I said "I just don't have the heart anymore." Isn't this just always my luck? 1st I loved Sakura. But she didn't love me that way. She loved Syaoran. I got over it because I saw how happy they were. Now, I love Eriol and he's with someone else. I'm left out in the cold again.
December 4, 2003
Lately, I've been crying, crying over Eriol. I was searching the Net for some love songs (they make me feel like there's hope!) and I came across this one song called Love This Way by Eden's Crush. It's a beautiful song. But, if you actually listen to the lyrics, it's makes you kinda want to be loved. Here are the lyrics:
I wanna run into someones arms
Lie on a bed of roses
I wanna feel just like Juliet
I wanna fall in love
I've got a feeling
Everybody wants someone to love
Somebody they can trust
Somebody they can touch
Everybody wants to give their heart away
Everybody needs a little tenderness
To feel understood
To feel passionate
Everybody wants to be in love this way
Everybody wants to be in love this way
I know I do what about you
I wanna be somebody's baby
I want to cry and still feel beautiful
Maybe I really just wanna be myself
I'm not the only one
I got a feeling
Everybody wants someone to love
Somebody they can trust
Somebody they can touch
Everybody wants to give their heart away
Everybody needs a little tenderness
To feel understood
To feel passionate
Everybody wants to be in love this way
Everybody wants to be in love this way
I know I do
What about you
I do I do doesn't everybody wanna give their heart away
I do I do doesn't everybody wanna be in love this way
Cause I do
I wanna feel like an angel
I want to fly on a beam of moonlight
I wanna see heaven from the inside
I wanna feel just like Juliet
Juliet Juliet
Isn't that sad? When I listen to it, I think of Eriol and I start to cry. If only he knew I loved him and he loved me back.
December 5th, 2003
Well, it's good to know he still cares about me cuz he asked me what was wrong. I didn't mean to, but I told him "Someone I love doesn't love me back." He thought that I was talking about Sakura, but I told him no. I think he know it's him. He convinced me to stay in the play. Even though he broke my heart, how could I resist him?
December 7, 2003
I don't know why I keep on doing this, but I found another song that makes me cry and think of him. It's called Emotion by Destiny's Child. Here are the lyrics:
It's over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
instead of me tonight?
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world
to hold me tight
Don't cha know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
I'm there at your side,
I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world
to hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Nobody left in this world
to hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
December 8, 2003
I know I'm being silly, but I'm still going to go to that meeting I set up with him on the 22nd. I just want to see if he'll come. If he does, it means that he's still willing to love another. Just the thought of it makes me feel better.
December 13th, 2003
Omigod! The presentation of the musical is in 2 weeks! The same day of the meeting... The musical is getting pretty intense. The play drives me nuts because the main characters are in love! I AM IN LOVE! But he loves someone else...
December 15, 2003
Holy shitters! 1 more week until I walk the plank! Actually, I'll only be doing that if he shows up. After school today, I went out for hot chocolate with Sakura and Syaoran. Guess who I saw there? Eriol and Pei Pei! They were sitting at a table laughing and stuff. I freaked out and ran home crying. He saw me... Sakura and Syaoran came after me. Sakura comforted me. Syaoran offered to beat him up, but I said no. I would never have him hurt.
December 16, 2003
I e-mailed Eriol again. I told him if he's still coming, he'd better meet me at 8:00 P.M. You know what's weird? I got an anonymous e-mail! This person told me to meet them at Penguin Park on the 22nd at 8:00 P.M. Someone loves me! It's the same time as when I find out if Eriol loves me! Dilemma!! I'll just go to mine. The other person isn't as important as Eriol.
December 18, 2003
I cried again. This time it was during class. I was thinking about the old times I had with Eriol. How used to joke around, hang out, talk to each other and hugged when we greeted and departed. Actually, it was Eriol who took me outside of the classroom to calm me down. I refused to tell him what was wrong with me. I just cried on his shoulder. I breathed in his scent. He smells really good! Feeling his warm arms comforting made me worse.
December 20, 2003
Today we had our last dress rehearsal for the musical. I could have died and gone to heaven. Eriol preformed so nicely! Everytime I looked into his dark eyes, I felt like melting. I don't know how I can survive until Friday.
December 21st, 2003
Something a little sad happened today. Pei Pei broke up with Eriol. She said that she knew that he cared for someone else. She wanted him to be happy, so that's why she's letting him go to that other person. I wonder who it is. I hope it's me! Probably isn't... he would have called by now...
December 22nd, 2003
All day at school, me and Eriol were really jumpy. I was really nervous for the meeting (It's 6:30 P.M.- I've already preformed the musical). He was probably nervous for the play. During the play, when he sang to me, it was like he meant for real what he was singing. The whole play was magical. Well, I've gotta go! I have to get ready for the meeting! Wish me luck!!
----------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------
That's it for now! I'll write the last part tomorrow!
Ok, I can't stand going to school or even practice because SHE'S with Eriol all the time! Eriol and I are slowly drifting apart. He's always with Pei Pei- or should I say Pee Pee. No, I shouldn't be making fun of her, but who cares? She's not going to read this or anything. I told Eriol that I'm thinking of dropping out of the musical. He asked me why, and I said "I just don't have the heart anymore." Isn't this just always my luck? 1st I loved Sakura. But she didn't love me that way. She loved Syaoran. I got over it because I saw how happy they were. Now, I love Eriol and he's with someone else. I'm left out in the cold again.
December 4, 2003
Lately, I've been crying, crying over Eriol. I was searching the Net for some love songs (they make me feel like there's hope!) and I came across this one song called Love This Way by Eden's Crush. It's a beautiful song. But, if you actually listen to the lyrics, it's makes you kinda want to be loved. Here are the lyrics:
I wanna run into someones arms
Lie on a bed of roses
I wanna feel just like Juliet
I wanna fall in love
I've got a feeling
Everybody wants someone to love
Somebody they can trust
Somebody they can touch
Everybody wants to give their heart away
Everybody needs a little tenderness
To feel understood
To feel passionate
Everybody wants to be in love this way
Everybody wants to be in love this way
I know I do what about you
I wanna be somebody's baby
I want to cry and still feel beautiful
Maybe I really just wanna be myself
I'm not the only one
I got a feeling
Everybody wants someone to love
Somebody they can trust
Somebody they can touch
Everybody wants to give their heart away
Everybody needs a little tenderness
To feel understood
To feel passionate
Everybody wants to be in love this way
Everybody wants to be in love this way
I know I do
What about you
I do I do doesn't everybody wanna give their heart away
I do I do doesn't everybody wanna be in love this way
Cause I do
I wanna feel like an angel
I want to fly on a beam of moonlight
I wanna see heaven from the inside
I wanna feel just like Juliet
Juliet Juliet
Isn't that sad? When I listen to it, I think of Eriol and I start to cry. If only he knew I loved him and he loved me back.
December 5th, 2003
Well, it's good to know he still cares about me cuz he asked me what was wrong. I didn't mean to, but I told him "Someone I love doesn't love me back." He thought that I was talking about Sakura, but I told him no. I think he know it's him. He convinced me to stay in the play. Even though he broke my heart, how could I resist him?
December 7, 2003
I don't know why I keep on doing this, but I found another song that makes me cry and think of him. It's called Emotion by Destiny's Child. Here are the lyrics:
It's over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
instead of me tonight?
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world
to hold me tight
Don't cha know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
I'm there at your side,
I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world
to hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Nobody left in this world
to hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
December 8, 2003
I know I'm being silly, but I'm still going to go to that meeting I set up with him on the 22nd. I just want to see if he'll come. If he does, it means that he's still willing to love another. Just the thought of it makes me feel better.
December 13th, 2003
Omigod! The presentation of the musical is in 2 weeks! The same day of the meeting... The musical is getting pretty intense. The play drives me nuts because the main characters are in love! I AM IN LOVE! But he loves someone else...
December 15, 2003
Holy shitters! 1 more week until I walk the plank! Actually, I'll only be doing that if he shows up. After school today, I went out for hot chocolate with Sakura and Syaoran. Guess who I saw there? Eriol and Pei Pei! They were sitting at a table laughing and stuff. I freaked out and ran home crying. He saw me... Sakura and Syaoran came after me. Sakura comforted me. Syaoran offered to beat him up, but I said no. I would never have him hurt.
December 16, 2003
I e-mailed Eriol again. I told him if he's still coming, he'd better meet me at 8:00 P.M. You know what's weird? I got an anonymous e-mail! This person told me to meet them at Penguin Park on the 22nd at 8:00 P.M. Someone loves me! It's the same time as when I find out if Eriol loves me! Dilemma!! I'll just go to mine. The other person isn't as important as Eriol.
December 18, 2003
I cried again. This time it was during class. I was thinking about the old times I had with Eriol. How used to joke around, hang out, talk to each other and hugged when we greeted and departed. Actually, it was Eriol who took me outside of the classroom to calm me down. I refused to tell him what was wrong with me. I just cried on his shoulder. I breathed in his scent. He smells really good! Feeling his warm arms comforting made me worse.
December 20, 2003
Today we had our last dress rehearsal for the musical. I could have died and gone to heaven. Eriol preformed so nicely! Everytime I looked into his dark eyes, I felt like melting. I don't know how I can survive until Friday.
December 21st, 2003
Something a little sad happened today. Pei Pei broke up with Eriol. She said that she knew that he cared for someone else. She wanted him to be happy, so that's why she's letting him go to that other person. I wonder who it is. I hope it's me! Probably isn't... he would have called by now...
December 22nd, 2003
All day at school, me and Eriol were really jumpy. I was really nervous for the meeting (It's 6:30 P.M.- I've already preformed the musical). He was probably nervous for the play. During the play, when he sang to me, it was like he meant for real what he was singing. The whole play was magical. Well, I've gotta go! I have to get ready for the meeting! Wish me luck!!
----------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------
That's it for now! I'll write the last part tomorrow!