Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Ichiban ❯ Sakura, Syaoran and a four leaf clover ( Chapter 1 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

Disclaimer: CCS is not owned by me but by the lovely ladies of CLAMP.

This story was inspired by the manga and a dash of a doujinshi I read so long ago that I forgot the name of it now. It was cute and sweet. Ichiban means "number one" or "Most" or "best" or any other words that come close to that. This word is present in Card Captor Sakura a lot. And it's such a very sweet word isn't it?
*Mushy, mushy, mushy*


~Ichiban~

Sometimes when I think of you so far away, I remember the times when you were
still here. I always wished that I realized it sooner. Your feelings for me and my
feelings for you. I was so naive and so clueless. Everyone saw, except for me and I
still feel so bad about that. But I'm glad. I'm so glad that I told you how I felt finally
although you had to go away so soon.

My heart hurt so much when I realized that you had to leave. And I cried because I
was afraid I would never see you again. That was so hard for me to take. No. It was
too painful.

"I'm going back to Hong Kong..." Those were your words.. And those were the
words that broke my heart.

But it was because of Tomoyo-chan and everyone else that made me realize that it
won't be the end for you and me. If we believed in our feelings and I really do
believe in them. That's why I know, no matter how long it will take, I know you will
come back and I will be here waiting. Forever.

Your phone calls and letters always make me smile you know that? I like listening to
you talk about your training and about school. And then you listen to me talk on
and on about Tomoyo-chan and everyone, oniichan and my awful understanding of
math.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bore you. It's just that I really, REALLY hate math.
Polygons, A+X=24, quadratic angles... I'm going crazy..."

"You're still having Math problems, huh?" you asked concerned.

"It's ok though, Oniichan helps me. Although he has no patience." I paused,
thinking. "You know, he reminds me of you..."

There was a sound of shock in your line. "Ehhh... If he hears you saying that, he'll
have a fit. Then he'll yell something about me being some Gaki and asks why you're
still talking to me."

I laughed. "You know, he probably will say that."

"But it's not as bad as carrying a big old Chinese dictionary just to read a Japanese
text book.... But Sakura... I won't mind carrying my dictionary again. It's not so
heavy."

I smile. You always manage to make me smile during the moments I feel like
crying. And I was going to cry because I knew the phone call was going to end
sooner or later.

"Be genki as ever, OK?" you said to me.

"Of course," I said.

"I miss you Sakura. Daisuki."

"Daisuki..."

I listened to the dialtone for a moment after we said our good-byes. I wished that
you were here so we can talk forever and as I put the phone down, I think about more memories of back then. Of you and everyone when we were still going to Tomoeda Elementary. Those years were fun, weren't they?

An unexpected thing happened one morning you know. It was afternoon actually.
Tomoyo-chan and I were looking at a poster of a dance they were holding for all the
newcomers of Tomoeda Jr. High.

"A dance Sakura-chan. It'll be fun. Naoko-chan and Chiharu-chan said they were
going too. What do you think?"

I agreed. It might be fun. I've never been to a dance before. I was planning to go
with Tomoyo-chan and Naoko-chan but something happened.

On my way home, I decided to stop by at the Penguin park. I don't know why.
Maybe just for memory's sake I guess.

"Kinomoto..." I was startled at first. I was so lost in my own thoughts that I didn't
even notice that someone else was there with me.

"Tsukada-kun?" I was surprised. He lived in the opposite direction from me.
Tsukada Kyoichi. Do you remember him? He used to be in our 5th grade class.

"I tried to catch up with you and I called to you but you didn't seem to hear me."
He said.

"Oh... I'm sorry. I guess I was just thinking too much." I smiled at him and he
smiled back.

He shook his head. "No it's OK." For awhile he didn't say anything. But he looked at
me and said something I've never expected. "Kinomoto, will you go to the dance
with me?"

It took a while for me to register it. Tsukada Kyoichi-kun. He is a really nice person.
He said those words so sincerely and so honest. He asked me if I can be his girlfriend. He said he likes me... But I couldn't.

"I'm sorry Tsukada-kun..." The last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt anyone. And
though he was smiling I can tell from his eyes I did hurt him a little bit. "I already
like someone else... I..."

"I completely understand. It didn't hurt to try.... That person is very lucky. Will he
be going to the dance with you?"

I shook my head. "He lives far away for now. Though sometimes I wish he was
here..." I shook my head again. "I'm sorry, I had no reason to tell you that."

"It's all right," he said to me. "Will you still be at the dance though? With
Daidouji-tachi?"

"I don't know... Maybe"

"It'll be fun..."

"Yeah..."

"Well, if you do go, even if I'm not the one you like... Will you still save a dance for
me?"

I nodded. Dancing with someone else won't be so bad will it?

"I really wish you can come with us, Syaoran-kun," I said to you over the phone.
"The theme is called 'Fairytales'. So you're supposed to dress up as someone who
lived Happily Ever After."

"I'm pretty sure Daidouji already has a costume made up for you..." You laughed.

For some reason that made me sad. "I don't think I will go."

You sounded concerned. "What? Why?"

"I just wish you were here to dance with me, Syaoran-kun...." I surprised myself.
Did I just say that? I blinked away some tears that were about to fall. Why was I
about to cry, out of all things?

"Sakura, are you OK? Sakura..."

"Syaoran-kun, I'm sorry. I'm OK... I think I'm being selfish. I know you can't be
here right now..." I hesitated to say anything more. "Ummm, I think Otousan is
calling me..." I lied. "I'll talk to you later OK? I miss you."

"Me too, Sakura..."

I think you were about to say something but I didn't want to hear it. I couldn't hear
it. Or else I'd cry. I just feel lonely. Can a 13 year old feel lonely without her friend?
The one she loves most? Yes, I think so. It's almost been two years and 4 months.

You called me the next day and told me not to get sad. And I denied that I was.

"Do you remember that story Yamazaki told us about that four leaf clover? That if
you find one it will bring happiness..."

"And we all decided to look for one all over the school grounds." I finished for you.

"Yeah..."

Yes, I remembered that day. I remembered a lot of things concerning you and me.
Why was I so completely clueless?

That day, Tomoyo-chan and I were looking for four leaf clovers and I was planning
to give it to Yukito-san. Ha. I was still so fascinated with Yukito-san then. But, I saw
you... And you were looking for one too but with no luck. So I gave you mine. I
remember that clearly now. You were so surprised Syaoran-kun. And you were
blushing.

And then the next day you came over to my house to give it back to me. "I don't want it," you told me. "It's yours. I can't keep it." I started to cry. Did you hate me that much? "You keep it safe..." You told me before running away.

I cried more you know. Why would you give it back to me? Later on though, I
realized why. Why you did that. That story Yamazaki-kun was talking about. It said
that if you find a four leaf clover and keep it safe you will be happy forever and you
wanted me to be happy. Tomoyo-chan told me that when you wish on it before its
green color fades, your wish will come true. Do you think that's true?

"I wanted you to be happy forever, Sakura and I still do." You said.

I opened the book I kept that clover I found. I already made my wish
and its green color already faded. Someday, that wish will come true. I feel it.
Almost like I feel those auras.

"Sakura-chan, I made the perfect costume for you. Just for the dance."
Tomoyo-chan said with a happy sigh and sparkling eyes. "Oh, it will be so kawaii! I
haven't said those words in so long." Tomoyo-chan sighed again and handed me a
pale blue dress with lace and ruffles and tulle and a train to boot. But despite that
description, it was a beautiful dress. "It's Aurora-hime from Sleeping Beauty..." She
added with more sparkles from her eyes. "I'm so happy that I can dress up the
kawaii Sakura again."

I sighed. I guess some thing's never change, huh? "Thank-you Tomoyo-chan. It's
beautiful. But... but I'm not sure I want to go."

"But Sakura-chan, you have to go. None of us have been to a dance before and you
look so kawaii and Li-kun said that he always wants you to be happy. And I
guarantee that you will be happy if you come. I'm almost positive about it. And
Naoko-chan and Chiharu-chan will be disappointed if you don't come."

Ahh... so Tomoyo-chan convinced me to go and you know what? I did have fun. I
didn't feel so sad. I danced with Tsukada-kun because I promised him and even
Yamazaki-kun too. Did you know? Did I tell you? He dressed up as Snow White
while Chiharu-chan was the Prince. It was so funny. It almost reminded me of that
play we did in 5th grade. You were Aurora-hime then. You looked so kawaii. But
then... but then.. could it be? I felt an aura. I felt your aura. But I knew it was just
my imagination. I just missed you too much. Even when I'm happy Syaoran-kun, I
will still be sad sometimes because you're not beside me. But that aura... I felt it at
the dance. I felt it when Tomoyo-chan and I walked home. I felt it when she said
good-bye and we parted.

"Sakura-chan, you don't know how much I want to have my camera with me now.
But I made a promise..." And with that, she giggled and as if by magic a limo was
there to pick her up.

Tomoyo-chan, I don't think she will ever change. And I hope she never will.

But your aura Syaoran-kun, it was so strong. My heart felt so at ease. I didn't know
why I took that detour to the park that night. Maybe it was for those good old
memories sake again. I didn't even realize... No wonder...

I couldn't make myself believe it at first. It can't be... My heart skipped.

"Syaoran-kun?" It was all I could muster. There you were. Standing by the Penguin
slide wearing a Prince costume.

"I'm sorry I couldn't make it to the dance. My flight got delayed. I... I.."

I was so happy I ran to you and hugged you and I didn't even make you finish.
"Syaoran-kun... Why?"

"Because the last thing I ever want to do is make you sad. And you sounded lonely
Sakura. That's why I'm here."

I couldn't believe it. It was you. It was actually you. You were still the same. With
hair as messy as always and those familiar eyes, that smile. It was you. My friend...
The one I love most of all.

"I'm so happy to see you again, Sakura." You said as we separated from our hug.
You held out your hand to me. "Now, how about a dance, my Hime?"

We danced. It was so nice. So perfect. Even without music it really did feel like a
fairytale. "I'm so happy to see you again too, Syaoran-kun."

"You know, you look a lot better as Aurora-hime than I ever will. I don't think I'll
ever forget that horrible play." There was laughter in you voice. I missed that voice.

You were only with me for a day but you made me realize that loneliness should
never surpass happiness. I felt like a new person. I will always miss you and some
days I will be sad but more than likely because of you and because of everyone I
will be happy.

"When I come back again, I will stay for good." You said before you stepped foot on
that bus to get to the airport. "I promise."

I hugged the Syaoran bear you gave me and smiled. "And I will wait," I answered.

"I...I..." you started to say. Your face began to turn crimson, Syaoran-kun. You will
never change too. And because of that... "I love you Sakura... You are the one that
I will always love best." You made my heart skip again when you kissed me. My
first kiss. It was a soft kiss. A nice kiss. "Sakura... you should always smile and
never change. I'll call you when I get back, OK? I miss you already." Your face
turned crimson again and you went inside the bus.

Syaoran-kun, I hope you always smile too. And don't ever change. Your scowl, your
glares with my brother, your kind nature. Your red face... because of that and
because of everything... "I love you too Syaoran-kun!" I called, as the your bus
drove away.

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