Author T: Seme - the so called "male" role, the one on top, the aggressor. Opposed to the "uke" or the submissive role. SEME. Remember that. SEME. Male Role. SEME.

A Seme's Dilemma

I love To-ya. I love him very very much… but I just don't want to see him today.

I walked down the corridor, looking at my feet, hoping that To-ya won't notice me.

"Yuki! Hey!"

His familiar voice sent shivers down my spine, but it wasn't the pleasant shivers of joy that I usually experience. I turned around slowly, placing a well-practiced smile on my lips.

"Ohayo, To-ya kun!" I answered, smiling gleefully. He eyed me curiously, his dark cerulean eyes looking at me, as if searching my soul. He looked around, and when he was sure that we were truly alone, caught my waist in his arm possessively.

"Is something the matter, koi?"

Huge sweatdrops formed on my forehead. I hope he didn't see them…

"No, nothing, To-ya koi…" I tried to say it pleasantly, but even I heard the catch in my voice. To-ya's eyebrows rose unconsciously, and I blushed at how obvious my lie was. He noticed my discomfort and promptly withdrew his hand.

He leaned against me that whatever he might tell me was safe between us alone. "Yuki. If you don't want to, I won't force you," he whispered, his breath warm against the back of my neck. I felt the hotness of a blush on my cheeks and I immediately shook my head.

"It's not that I don't want to…" I tried to clear my head of conflicting thoughts. Tonight will be a milestone for both of us… and… and…

"Yukito…"

I knew that he was about to tell me to forget it, but…

"No! Tonight, we're going to do it! And my turn to be se~"

Suddenly, I couldn't breath as his huge hands suddenly clamped into my mouth, just when a huge throng of our classmates appeared in the corner. We smiled stupidly as they eyed me, really waiting for me to finish what I was saying. I was not so innocent that I haven't heard the rumors flying around the school… not that they weren't true… but I'm not about to fan it either!

"~eerious… we're late with our project!"

A long sigh of relief from our classmates, and they passed us by.

To-ya gave me an angry scowl, not that I can't blame him. Usually, I would just let it slip, and give him a sappy smile. But we came so close to being found out. Because of my big mouth!

"It's still on, To-ya," I whispered and gently placed a palm on his cheeks.

* * *

That night, To-ya stayed over my house.

We were silent as we prepared dinner. He was adamant that we make the food ourselves, and not buy the more easily accessible instant food in the supermarket. He said that we could do a better job ourselves.

"Ow!"

My eyes widened as blood spurted from my finger. My hand slipped on the knife, and instead of chopping off the shrimp's whiskers, nicked my left thumb instead. Instinctively, I tried to staunch the blood, wrapping my poor thumb in my handkerchief and hoping against hope that To-ya koi didn't hear me… Demo…

"Yuki?! What is it?"

His eyes widened as he saw the blood on my handkerchief. "Ch…" he put my thumb in his mouth to staunch the blood, furrowing his brow as he did so. The breath caught in my throat as his tongue gently licked the wound, going around the flesh in circles.

"Koi, daijobu?" he asked worriedly as he took out my wet thumb from his lips. I gasped as he licked it one last time to make sure that it was properly taken cared of. He smiled as he saw me blush. "Yuki, I think you better take your sweet self to the bed room. Let me take care of all of this, ne?"

"Demo, To-ya…"

"Go. I don't want you to kill yourself in your own kitchen!" he laughed as he gently but firmly pushed me away. I wasn't weak, even if my slight frame suggested so. But he was bigger and stronger than me, so it didn't take long before I found myself on the other side of the kitchen door. He slammed the door immediately, and locked it.

"To-ya…!"

"Just wait for me in the bedroom! I'll be there in a sec!"

My heart thumped in anticipation and dread as I remembered our plan for tonight. My wet finger served as a reminder that it would be both painful and pleasurable at the same time. What's scary was I'll determine if To-ya koi got to experience the pleasurable part. Waaah! Why did I agree to this? I don't know how to be seme!

* * *

I'm still blushing as I undressed and hid under the blankets. Then I suddenly realized that I was supposed to wait for To-ya… then as I went to dress again, I grew afraid that he might see me naked, so I hid again… then… oh heck… I'm so nervous…

"Koikoikoikoikoi…"

"Wah!"

I was so nervous that I didn't notice him come in! I smiled shyly. The bed sagged beneath To-ya's weight as he sat beside me. On his lap were the most delicious looking maki I ever laid eyes on!

"Wah!" My nervousness turned to anticipation, and my stomach grumbled too. I caught a glimpse of a smile on To-ya's lips as he shook his head, muttering, 'You mean, you like food better than me, koi?"

I was already delicately eating the maki at 25 pieces per minute… n.n To-ya makes the best sushi. I picked up one and fed it to him. To-ya laughed, closed his eyes and munched away.

"I also made some red iced tea for you, koi."

So that's what that weird-looking juice was. I was about to take a sip on the straw he offered me when he suddenly took it back.

"Wait… that's the first time I made that. Let me try it first."

I pouted. It's not fair for To-ya to bait me like that. But it's only for a while as the juice met his standards, and he crinkled his nose and smiled. "You'll like this, Yuki koi!"

"There's really no need to do that To-ya… I'll like whatever you give me," I suddenly said without thinking. A blush appeared on To-ya's cheeks, and I suddenly realized what I just said! "W-wait! I… You know… I don't mean…" I stuttered as my koi grew amused at my shyness. Nothing's really changed with me… I'm still shy around these things. Were it not for To-ya, our relationship wouldn't have gone to the next level… "Y-you know what I mean koi," I muttered and sank beneath the blankets, hiding my red as a tomato face.

I heard To-ya chuckle and a slight 'clink' of the plates.

"Bun, my surprise's still not finished. Don't you like to have… ice cream?"

Ice cream?

"Ice cream!" I exclaimed in delight and came out of my burrow. I was so excited and not thinking that I bumped my head on To-ya's hands, sending my delicious ice cream spilling on me and the sheets! "Oh no!" I looked at To-ya dejectedly… my precious ice cream, and I was so looking forward to it! Sniff. Y.Y "I'm sorry To-ya… wait… I'll just get a towel and clean up… oka~"

"Wait… Yuki…"

"Ne?"

There was a deep glow in To-ya's blue eyes as he closed the gap between us. He sat on my feet, and began pinning me down.

"To-ya… what… don't you want me to clean up first?"

But instead of answering, he just held my eyes, and I was unable to look down as his hand suddenly slipped between us. My eyes widened as I realized that he was spreading the ice cream on my torso… his hands took the smooth cream and smeared it on my chest, going around in circles.

"Ah… To-ya… you said I was gonna be the seme?" I mumbled, not really meaning it. I was unable to do anything as his other hand took both my hands out of the way. My chest was exposed to his wiles. He spread the cream slowly, almost teasingly…

"You're naked already, Yuki? You didn't wait for me?" he asked as he felt for me under the sheets. I was unable to say anything as he slowly moved his crotch around mine. "Hmm… and you're getting hard so fast, honey?"

To-ya finally slid down, deliberately making me feel all of his body. I stifled a gasp as he began nibbling my neck… oh… that's so good… I inched my head sideways, wanting more of To-ya's tongue on me. His tongue suckled slightly on the join, and I moaned in pleasure. There was a heat in To-ya's groin as he moved slightly against me. He must be incredibly hard by now… I wanted to open his zipper and let him loose… I wanted to touch him and drive him crazy…

I struggled to get up, but To-ya refused to let me.

"But To-ya…"

"Shhh… Yuki… Just let me…"

I relaxed beneath his feather-light kisses. His lips traveled from my neck to my chest. Again, he explored my skin with his tongue. My sex hardened as I waited in anticipation for him to kiss my…

"Ahhh…"

To-ya suckled softly, his lips forming a tight well on my nipples. I don't understand how he makes me feel so good just by doing that. He swirled his tongue briskly as he suckled, drawing another response from my groin… his other hand traveled to my other breast, and locked on, gently teasing the tip and making it as hard as its brother. Time seemed to stop as he immersed me in pleasure. Thoughts disappeared and it was just his lips and me. Just when I think I can't take it anymore, he changed places and began suckling the other breast. I moaned in delight as he moved his tongue sideways and up, randomly doing whatever he wanted. I couldn't anticipate what he was going to do next. I moaned louder as he suckled harder. His hips moved against me more deliberately, and even through the sheets, I could feel his hardening sex. I pushed against him, wanting to feel more… waiting to feel more…

To-ya moaned as he paused to take a breath. His face was flushed as well. He licked his lips sensuously as his eyes devoured my naked torso.

"Yuki flavored ice cream is my favorite from now on!" He straddled me on the hips, and his eyes traveled on the angle between us.

"Tooouuuyaaa…" I whimpered, "You're making me embarrassed!"

I was now flat on my back on the bed, the blankets were disheveled and everywhere… but there's a definite crease on the sheets where there shouldn't be. He saw this. I saw him sprout horns, so he definitely knew that I was… I was…

"I'm making you embarrassed?" he smiled evilly. His lips tilted uncharacteristically as he slid even lower. I looked down, but I couldn't see his face. His ebony hair was hiding it as perfectly as any shadow. "I haven't even…" he whispered and blew on my crotch, "…begun yet."

I blushed as I realized what he intended to do. He licked my sex, which was underneath the sheets. He licked it so sexily and so devoutly, as if there was no cloth between us.

"To-ya… no…" I sat up. Flat on my back, I couldn't bear the pleasure. I leaned on one hand to steady me, and I half-sat on, half stretched my legs… all the while as To-ya played with my sex. Obviously, he didn't listen. He even opened my thighs wider, massaging my crotch to make me relax. I couldn't do anything… obediently, I gave in to him, spreading open my legs and allowing him more access. My sex was now apparent beneath the sheets, its length outlined by the cloth. To-ya kissed the sides and the tip slowly, wetting the cloth until I couldn't figure if that patch of wetness was my fault or his.

He paused and blew on the tip, my imagination as potent as reality and I moved against his lips, wanting him to envelop me totally… totally in the tight cavern of his mouth… his tongue swirling around my sex, sucking. Sucking hard. I want him to do that. I placed my hands on his neck, and showed him that I wanted it…

But again, he declined. He stopped and suddenly kissed me on the lips. The surprise was so much that I almost fell on my back. Yet To-ya caught me, his strong hands went around me as he pulled me to him. Straddling me gently, he waited for me to adjust my legs. His mouth tasted like ice cream… his tongue played against me, and I met his challenge, drawing him to my mouth and sucking him. To-ya koi sensuously lifted his hips as I sucked and paused, sucked and paused and sucked his tongue.

I want to do that to you, or you me…I wanted to tell him.

The heat between us was becoming unbearable. To-ya's damp clothes enshrouded his body so tightly, leaving little for the imagination. His nipples were hard and waiting peaks on his chest, and his sex was tense and erect.

"To-ya… To-ya… do it…"

I moaned, begging him to finish it. But he just continued kissing me, as if he didn't hear me. His hands massaged the back of my neck, then went through my hair as he went closer.

"To-ya?"

I felt him move his legs on my side. I felt his crotch move up and down on me. I felt his sex waiting and throbbing between us.

I broke the kiss, and looked at To-ya… he was breathing so hard, and he was so flushed, and I could see that he was as lost as I… and he wanted it as much as I… but he didn't want to finish it himself. He wanted me to do it.

I was gonna be seme… and To-ya… To-ya was helping me…

"Yuki…"

His eyes were so dark and intense as he whispered my name. His lips were half-opened as he waited for me.

"To-ya koi…" I closed my eyes as I kissed him deeply, as deep as we both wanted. I didn't feel any nervousness anymore. It's still To-ya and me. The same 'We'. Being on top didn't change anything… but it did feel different to have To-ya so submissive.

I laid him on his back as I kissed him, just tasting his lips, roaming my hands on his sweat-soaked shirt.

Now on his back, it was my turn to tease him. Through his clothes, I kissed his nipples. His flesh hardened even more as I sucked harder and my hand traveled to his crotch. My fingers knew what koi wanted. I traced his entire length, and went up and down on him, preparing him for what was to come.

He moaned deeper, the sweat on his brow slid down his temples as he pushed against me. Sucking his nipples, teasing his crotch… it was a two-way assault that I knew would torture him.

He was biting his lips, and panting hard when I was done with him. He looked lost when I paused what I was doing. "W-what…" he began to ask.

"Take off your clothes To-ya. Turn off the lights and take off your clothes."

He steeled himself to obey. It was hard for us both, to stop in the middle of it all. He always teased me about always wanting to do it with the lights out, but… I don't think he's in the position to argue tonight. I watched my koi get up and reach for the switch. The room was immersed in darkness after the click.

He snuggled against me again, and I straddled him as soon as he's settled. Before he could take off hid clothes though, I turned on the reading lamp on the bedside table. To-ya looked surprised, but he realized soon that it was part of what I wanted.

Smiling, he took off his shirt slowly, making sure that I got a full view of his chest. His mocha-cream skin looked so delicious… that I couldn't resist taking my taste of them. He tasted every bit like a man, salty and spicy, with a hint of the spilled ice cream.

"Hmm… To-ya ice cream," I muttered as I licked my lips like a cat that stole the cream.

I knelt a little to let him take off his pants. There was a slight shuffling, but the pants, the boxers and the briefs were all off in a jiffy. Now there was no barrier between us. To-ya looked more aroused with all his clothes off, and I think his plans of helping me, got a little too out of hand, coz now, he was more on the brink than me.

Gently, I straddled him again, wanting to feel all of him.

He moaned as our sexes touched, our bodies shared each other's heat and multiplied everything almost unbearably. To-ya's hands slithered behind me and kneaded my buttocks, urging me to go on.

But I had to taste him first, taste my koi all over, feel him all over, feel him move beneath me, feel his thighs on my side, feel his lips on my chest, feel him. Everything we did seemed so new… his sex throbbed against my stomach as I bucked against him. To-ya moaned louder when my sex rubbed against him. And that's when I knew that it's time.

"To-ya… are you sure you want to do this?" I asked. His darkened orbs and half-trembling lips were all the answers I need. I took the lube beneath the pillows and spread it on my fingers. He opened his thighs wider, giving me a full view of himself. Seeing him so ready, so feverish, just made me want to delve in him…

But I didn't want to hurt him… I wanted to be as gentle with him as he was gentle with me. With all my self-control, I pushed myself up and kissed him on the lips while my fingers searched below. To-ya's embrace tightened as I entered him. My finger slipped easily because of the lube, and I was delighted that To-ya seemed to enjoy the sensation.

"Yuki… give me the lube, too…" he whispered. I didn't get it at first, but as he began spreading the emulsion on my sex, I understood… but it was excruciatingly pleasurable…

He moaned and didn't kiss me back as he and I bucked together and he became lost in the unique pleasure that he was experiencing for the first time. I reached deeper, and finally found that special spot.

"Ahngh!" His breath caught in his throat as I pushed harder. There was a crease on his brows, and I became half-afraid that I must've hurt him… But he dispelled my fear almost immediately. "Yu…Yuki… more…" he whimpered almost breathlessly. "I want you in me…"

But I knew it still wasn't time. I have to stretch him wider.

His breathing grew more labored as I slipped in two fingers and continued punishing his prostrate. Don't worry koi… I'm also at the edge… you don't have to wait long… I leaned down and suckled his nipples.

"Ah… Yuki…" he moaned, urging me on with his hips. "Yuki…"

I scissored my two fingers in him, opening and closing them, and it seemed too much for To-ya. His breathing came in harder and faster, and his sex oozed with creamy cum. Yes… To-ya, you don't have to wait anymore…

He moaned in displeasure as I withdrew my fingers, but writhed in pure bliss as I pushed my sex into him in one go.

Breathless, helpless, and conquered, To-ya screamed my name that I had to silence him with kisses. His legs wrapped around my torso, urging me to go harder, to go deeper. He was unperturbed at the punishment I was giving him, and he wanted it harsher. He didn't want me to fuck him tenderly, like I might do a woman… he wanted it rough, and he made me understand that by taking the initiative and setting the pace.

It was a hard pace to match, and I had to bite my lips to stop from coming so early inside him.

My sex was enveloped within his body, and his passage was so tight… tighter than I imagined, and with every thrust, I almost seemed to slip out of him, but we always managed to stop at the last, and when I pushed in again, To-ya moaned in unmistakable pleasure.

We were both so hot, almost feverish. But we still didn't want to yield to the pleasure. I wanted to give him so much, and he wanted me to feel so much too… and so, we held back as long as we could.

Our union was harsh, but To-ya wouldn't want it otherwise… and to my surprise, being the present seme, I seemed to… enjoy it too. The sound of our flesh as I rammed into him spurred me on, until the heat in me reached the peak.

To-ya was almost there too. With my free hand, I enwrapped his sex, and pumped it in my fist. His sex was so hot, so slick with semen that it's a miracle he still hasn't come.

He seemed unable to decide what to do next, to push against me or against my hands as I imprisoned him in pleasure… so I solved his dilemma as I crammed into him as much as he could take, and pumped him as fast as I could…

He was speechless as the pleasure finally overrode him. His torso formed a curve on the bed as waves and waves of delight passed on his body. His essence spilled on my hand and my stomach, and his passage pulsed and vibrated against me. He looked so wild as he moaned and bucked that I couldn't resist it anymore. I felt my release within him, and as I did so, To-ya moaned my name as I hit his spot for the final time.

My senses seemed to heighten as warmth and bliss engulfed me. In this snippet of eternity, only To-ya and I existed, and nothing… no magical force… no mortality… no reality… separated us. I floated back to myself and found To-ya looking back at me, with a very dear and sweet smile on his lips.

"I know it sounds corny, koi… but that's just so… wonderful…"

He closed his eyes as I totally withdrew from him. His thighs were now damp with our essences, a sign of our successful union. I snuggled close to him, not wanting anything else but to be as close to him as possible.

"Is that a good enough anniversary gift, koi?" I asked as he wrapped his arms around me.

"You mean, I only get to have that once a year? Not fair, honey!"

"Hmm… of course not… Twice if you're nice," I decided not to take his bait (not that I didn't want to)… but it's best to leave the future unwritten. To-ya combed my hair with his fingers, making me feel drowsy. I was almost half-asleep when I heard To-ya chuckle softly, "How the hell am I going to live through my soccer practice tomorrow?"

My sore koi in soccer practice… I smiled evilly. You should have thought of that before you asked for it… The imp of naughtiness seemed to enjoy that thought very very much.

* * Owari * *

Author T: Not much sweetness… gomen… But I wanted to make a rough lemon… and I think that Yuki and To-ya are still two boys going at it… Sorry if I displease anyone… Ja ne! (hehe… is that right? Apologize then disappear?)

P.S. Two warring titles were 1. A Seme's Dilemma and 2. An Uke's Dilemma. Don't know why I picked the first. n.n Just useless trivia. Thank Kira for asking me for this. Yah! What Kira wants, Kira gets! Hehehe…

Sort of an epilogue…

The next day,

Fujitaka: I wonder why Touya's moving so slowly…

Touya's team mates: Kinomoto… why are you walking like a duck?

Touya's classmates: Kinomoto, why won't you sit down?

Touya's teachers: This is the first time Kinomoto refused to carry our paper…

Touya: ~_'~ I should've picked summer break…