Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Lust of the Amethyst ❯ Last Chapter. ( Chapter 6 )

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The lust of the Amethyst.

Last Chapter: beginning

By Glass-jasmine.

Thank you for reading this story. I hope you’ll like this last chapter. See ya in a next creation of my dark mind come up with.

She woke up getting a glance of the first rays of sun, which came from the windows. Blinking twice, she sat down in the comfortable bed in her tiny apartment. She chooses after almost a year and a half that it was time for her to get the independence for her emotional attachments to her mom and friends… and lovers.

It felt like ages ago when she was committed to that special clinic. She dint think back then, that she had a problem. But the fact was, that she had problems. And very serious ones.

Looking at the present she felt like a brat in that time. Like nothing couldn’t stop her. Anybody either.

“The consequences of living a life without any remorse” remembering the words of her psychiatrist. She was one of twenty people like her. Shared all their secrets and remorse’s in those meetings with their coach.

It was difficult at first; don’t sleep with any of the men or women in the place it was kind of being detoxified from a drug. But she could do it along with five others that they released the same week.

Phone calls, where forbidden. Also internet and music with sexual content. She was incomunicated with friends and lovers for almost a year. Her mother came to visited her five times that year. It wasn’t against her will: the visit were really strict and dint pass for more than five. And relatives only.

People like her, people with drug and alcohol addictions were there too. Of course they separated one from other problems. She met really nice people that treated her like an equal.

And in their friendships there was, not sexual comments or seductions.

She was nervous when her mother came to pick her up. She dint know what to say to her. Seems like her mother dint needed apologize. She dint, in any moment judge her.

She felt that she had more fault than her daughter.

Excusing her from her social circle she spread the rumor that Tomoyo was in the Alps skiing as a delayed birthday present. And then she spread the rumor that Tomoyo was in Hawaii taking a Sabbath. People doubted that, but still accepted the explanations.

She wasn’t for Sakuras wedding. She regretted in part: Sakura and her were best friends. But, which best friend have sex with the fiancé? It wasn’t very unusual in stories that she heard and in the beginning they loved their sexual encounters and had an enormous chemistry in bed, but her conscience started to feel remorse later in the institute when people or her advisor asked her that in a meeting.

The first time she talked in a meeting. It was very long ago she was settling in that place.

“It was easy for me” She started to explain when her council said that she have to talk this time. “I mean, wasn’t very difficult for me to experience with whomever I wanted. It was an adventure. And I loved the feeling of danger and exposé that I experienced in each one of them. Of course, some of them were good. And others no so good but you put an elaborate show ”

“Dint you think in diseases?” Asked one girl with sixteen years, sitting closed to her.

She nodded with her head. Wait a few seconds to continue “I always had safe sex. Well excepting those I new had closed relationships. I … I think… I did it, because people around me got what money couldn’t give me to me”

“What’s was that?” asked the man in charge to that group.

Took an instant to answer “Someone to care for me and the thrill of doing something wrong” she answered making someone of the group smirked “My mother always on trips. The man I loved went to London. I was left alone, and then, my best friend, was about to marry a wonderful man…” She nodded with her head and added.” Well not so wonderful… a person who is loyal to you never, had sexual relationships with a friend”

“You had sex with him?” asked astonished other of the guys in the group. He sighed and added “Why do you think that men are serious about that?”

“Do you think I was serious? No. don’t ever think that. It was meaningless sex and I knew that and they knew that. Maybe that’s why they look for me. I was dispose to go were none with respect for themselves will be willing to go. Now, I know I was stupid. But sex gave me what I couldn’t have any other way”

“What was that?”

“The feeling that someone cared for me” she said with little embarrassed. “But it dint gave me the secure feeling of being cared only for being me… it was like people searched for me because I was willing to go far…how stupid I was. Now, I know that. But the sense of adventure and challenge never left my skin”

“I am addicted to drugs and sex because my stepfather abuse me when I was eleven” Said the first girl in the group. “But, you do it, to not feel alone?”

“Everyone had their reasons” Said the leader “They are not right but still they are reasons”

“Does that, make us freaks?” Asked Tomoyo.

“No it doesn’t”. He said very serious “But you have to return to a good and healthy life. You have to learn to interact with people and making them care for you, no for what sexually you have to offer to the relationship but for being you… return to retake your true identity.”

“My mother… my mother caught me with her assistant. Her female assistant” She added making some of the boys grinned at her. “I used her. That was my therapist said. Dint think of it like that. Now, months later, I also believe that is true. I used people men and women in my deepest purpose and I always won”

“How come now is when you get caught?” Asked one of the boys.

“Maybe I made a mistake”

“Maybe you wanted to be caught”

“What do you mean?”

“You got the attention, dint you?”

Tomoyo worked successfully for two months in Kyoto and despite the invitations and pretenders that she won, she dint accepted any of those because that was part of her recovery. She finally was getting control of her life and was, some how proud of that.

Se woke up that Sunday morning with wishes to run. She put her running clothes and went for a running in the closest park. Two hours later, she returned and she was surprise to recognize the woman standing up from the stairs to see her coming.

“Sakura Chan” she said surprise and some how happy, but at the same time she, felt guilty for the story between her and Syaoran.

Guilty and ashamed. She stopped Sakura for greeting her with a hug, because she was all sweaty. Got a glance of the fancy car drove by a chauffer. Sakura smiled and say “Syaoran doesn’t let me drive and go alone anywhere”

“Good life you living” She said smiling. Sakura nodded with her head.

“I’ve missed you at the wedding. We missed you.” She said with a tone that woke up in Tomoyo some doubt. “Can… I come in?”

“Of course. I’m sorry” She said promptly and leaded her towards the stairs and the apartment closing the door after her friend. “You have caught me by surprise. Do you mind if I go take a bath? I’m all sweaty”

Sakura smiled at her and Tomoyo went to her room. From there she asked “How do you find me?”

“Went to visit your mother” She said taking of her coat. She looked at the place. Was tiny and a bit not like Tomoyo. She was a rich girl. What she was doing living like a middle class woman? “She wouldn’t tell me where you are, so I stole her address book”

“You stole!”

“I have to find you. Your mother was so secretive about your locations…” Stop talking. She looked around for some pictures and frames and find none.

Actually, couldn’t see a tv or a radio. Sakura heard the sound of the shower. She started to look for some clues. Her address book, notes. Anything. She wouldn’t find any. She decided to wait for her friend and find answers to her inquietudes.

Tomoyo got out of the shower and started to dress, wondering what could she tell to Sakura to hide the true? She couldn’t think of anything and maybe, she could avoid the subject about her whereabouts for almost a year.

Sakura got a glance of her and Tomoyo too. She looked how beautiful her friend was.

She smiled but Sakura dint smile back. “Could I offer you some tea or maybe breakfast?”

“No. thanks you. I had breakfast. I’m here since yesterday” sitting down in the couch. Tomoyo sat down in the other chair. She took a few seconds looking at her best friend and told her sighing “Are you going to tell me or not?”

“What?”

“Do you got pregnant and that’s why your mother sends you away?”

“Sakura! How can you think…” But her friend interrupted her. Sakura´s eyes where cold and a little bit defiant. Tomoyo never had seen that look in her friend.

That when she understood that Sakura, had strong reasons to be there.

“This is very difficult for me Tomoyo” She started saying. “But there’s nothing else for me to think” looking around once more. “Well you have to admit that was very weird the way you disappear” She told her very captious. “And now, some things began to be understood. More than everything when I caught some things, starting previous to my wedding day”

“I don’t… understand” she said. Sakura smiled at her very coldly.

“But of course. But you disappear before my wedding and never send and apologize or a letter telling your whereabouts”. Standing up and looking at the window “Syaoran asked for you. So did Eriol. Also, Touya or some of our friends. When Somomi got to my reception, was for me more than obvious that you wouldn’t be there. So I concluded that you weren’t in Hawaii or the Alps. Where did you go?”

“I’m not…”

“Fine. Then I ask from other point of view” She said very abruptly. “I caught up some conversation between Syaoran and Eriol a few weeks after we marry. Syaoran doesn’t know this… but it was very clear to me that your friendship with Syaoran came more closed than I was willing to admit. Not only Syaoran, also Eriol. They have something in common more than their past and whereabouts. ”

“Sakura…” She said very surprise of her authoritarian tone of voice.

“I’m not here to condemned you Tomoyo Chan. I understand that Syaoran is a man…” her voice was lost by a second. Her emerald eyes, were sparkly and violent “Did you and Syaoran… had more than a mere friendship?”

“What will come if I denied those accusations Sakura? You already condemn us. What do you want to know?”

“I want to know… what you gave to my husband that makes him call you in the night.” Surprising her. Tomoyo face down listened looking at her hands. Sakura kept her hands firmly in her lap. “He calls your name” She repeated very slowly. “The conversation with Eriol could give me a clue and that wasn’t only the thing I’ve been picking up. So is not point to denied now”

Tomoyo sighed with remorse and kept silent. Sakura looked at her like she dint knew her. “I know…” She said very defiant. “That Syaoran wasn’t faithful to me while we were engaged. Just … I … never thought… that he would be unfaithful to me with you”

“Sakura- chan…”

“Please… don’t call me that” She said very abruptly. “You slept with him, dint you?”

Tomoyo accepted her accusations. She started to say “I was so lost that time… I…”

“How could you? You knew he was engaged. Engaged to me!”

“I know… but…”

“Tell me then that you dint disappear because … because you got pregnant with his child” she said very nervous by the answer she would get.

“No” she said with remorse. “No. I was not pregnant”

“Good.” Say coldly. “I would be a shame to myself if you got pregnant and not his wife. A shame towards me from his family. If his mother knew that a woman was carrying his child I would be cast out… and I’m not willing to take this chance” she pauses her tone of voice to ask “Have you slept with him after we got married?”

“No”

“Has he tried to contact you?”

“No… I don’t know really” She added looking at those green eyes that belonged once, to her best friend “But you don’t think that he is an innocent victim in all this, do you?”

“Please. Some weapon you used to seduce him” she said very convinced, surprising her ex friend “I don’t doubt that you got into his pants because you were jealous. And Syaoran couldn’t reject you. Or maybe you black mailing him with something. God knows what”.

“Do you really think that?” she said more confident and shocked.

“Of course. I know Syaoran is a man… a very handsome man and some women awaits the opportunity to have him. Just I never thought it will be you”

Tomoyo smiled at her theory of conspiracy “Of course. I used a spell to call him and have sex with me” She said very confident and at the same time nodded her head. Even smiled at her, confusing Sakura. Tomoyo until now, kept a passive attitude in front of her accusations. “Sakura: Syaoran like any man, got a taste of a liberating woman and kept coming for more… what do you think would happen between us or anyhow any man?”

“What do you mean?” she asked very perturbed.

“Syaoran wasn’t my only lover. He was special but is not the last. After we copulate another await in my door” She said shocking Sakura. “That was my life. He is not cheating you with me now, but it will give you a glance of what to wait now you married that man”

“He wouldn’t cheat on me” She said secure.

“I hope you are a tigress in the bedroom Sakura. Because Syaoran is insatiable” She said with sparkly eyes tired of her accusations. “But if you said that he calls me is because you’re doing something wrong…” Sakura dint wait for her to finish because her hand slap her friends face.

Tomoyo felt the hit and also felt ashamed. Sakura sentence her because her husband was unfaithful before they got married. “You have some nerve… to talk to me like that” she said coldly and deffiant.

“Sakura… Syaoran is an animal. He is a man. He doesn’t doubt in a pair of legs opened up for him” She said coldly. Sakura retrieve her eyes from her ashamed by the way she talked."I am not the first and that was clear the first time..."

“So it’s true. The rumors about you… I couldn’t believe it” she said shocked and dissapointed.

“What Rumors?” She lifts an eyebrow to look at her.

“When you disappear I went to your dorm in the university. Found your roommate and she told me that you disappear even from college. Everything in the bed room was pick up and cleaned up. Actually you disappear. Then she told me that maybe you move, with some guy…” She laughed. “I was so naïve. She told me about the times she found you having some “Fun” with a man or woman in your bed” Nodding her head. “I was shocked and told her that was not true and she laugh at my face. But asking around found out that she wasn’t all crazy after all”

“I had a problem. But I solve it” she said with simplicity. “I’m not that woman. Not anymore…”

“You are unbelievable. I thought you were my friend.” She said blaming her. “But you are definitely a slut”

“Syaoran is not of thrust Sakura, can’t you see that?” she tried to convince her friend. “What do you want me to say?”

“Syaoran would never get closed to any woman, having me. He got closed because you confused him”

Tomoyo laughed loudly and added “Gosh Sakura. Don’t believe even married, you are so naïve. Sakura: You wouldn’t have sex with him. Preserving you to your wedding night and I was the hot body close to filled him up. I did to you a favor…”

“How dare you...”

“What you came here? You came for answers, did you?” Being her the defiant one now. “Look I would never get closed to Syaoran again. I’m starting here a new life…”

“So… you think people can erase their past for only moving to a new place?” She asked her with despise in her tone of voice.

“No. they don’t. But, they can start all over again… do you know, why I moved here Sakura? Because I don’t want to be linked to that past” she said firmly. “It was fun but I had a problem and I look for the cure. And if you can’t understand that, we don’t have anything to say to each other”

Sakura stood up firmly and looking at her face she doubt and hesitated. Tomoyo saw her doubt. “Why he asked for you having me?” She asked with coldly eyes “What do you gave him that is so different that makes him call you?”

“If I tell you, I would get slapped. And I don’t want that again”

“Ill try to control myself”

Tomoyo take a breath of air before answering her “I was willing to please him in any way Sakura. Marriage brings control, respect and fulfill bedroom duties. But sometimes, maybe Syaoran thinks that you maybe would be willing to do his fantasies because of respect”

“And you have fulfilled his fantasies?”

“In his office.” She shocks her friend. “We did it one afternoon and he was more than pleased” smiling at her “Syaoran has fantasies… well, if I tell you, I have to pick you up from the floor…”

Sakura was crimson by the way she talked about her husband. She sat down again and looking at her friend, said “Teach me”

“What? I don’t think I understand you”

“Syaoran loves what you do” She said truly embarrassed. “And I definitely won’t loose it. And if you have the solution, I would do anything in my power to keep him”

“I left that life Sakura” she said firmly “I wont go back there… in fact, Ill have to call my sponsor once you walk that door”

“Please Tomoyo…” She said very firmly. “I have to retain him on my side… I want to know what to do.”

Tomoyo smiled at her. Sat down and said. “Well, something is for sure: Syaoran looked at me not because he loved me. But he looks for you because he loves you” sad in some how by the way her friends selfesteem was so shatered. but no by her account.

without answering her compliment Sakura said very coldly and deffiant. “After this, I would have anything to do with you. And my husband would never want to call you”

“I bet Sakura” She said with conviction. “I’m sure” making herself the same promise: Not ever again. because she had hurt so many on the way and shattered dreams of others.

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Well this is the conclusion. I hope really that you liked this story. I know that was too spicy for some taste. But that is the main reason that is in the M classification and had their warning at the beginning of each chapter.

Well be seeing you soon in another story that will come up. Right now I’m working in a CCS lemon this time focused on Sakura and Syaoran, but is some how really dark and sad. I hope you’ll like it.

I’m working in a MSN space where ill put these and other things that will come up. I hope to count with your support. If you are a writer of these types of stories, contact me in my e mail, so we can work something out.