Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Sakura Sushi ❯ Volume Two, Chapter Eight: Silent Screaming ( Chapter 8 )

Silent Screaming

Smile. That's all Meiling can do. Sakura and Syaoran were having a baby. Meiling fought to smile at the news.

“I am so happy for you,” she lied. She smiled the whole time.

But inside, Meiling screamed. Boy did she scream.

This wasn't supposed to happen. Meiling panted in the bathroom. Smiling hurt. Yet, it helped her stay sane. The problem was she still loved Syaoran. She didn't want to be. Their engagement broke off years ago. Yet, Meiling still carried a torch for Syaoran. But, she didn't want to.

The woman shook her head. Syaoran's with Sakura now, she thought. Get over it! Easier said than done.

This was supposed to be simple. Live together and maybe old feelings will die. So far, that hadn't happened. Her and her cousin worked at different hours during the day. They lived like strangers. Now, Sakura and the baby made it worse.

Syaoran and Sakura wanted to move out for the baby's sake. Meiling shut her eyes. The baby. The baby. The baby. The baby. That's all they talked about now. She clenched her fists.

Sometimes I wish she would miscarry! Meiling froze at that thought. She backed away from the sink, trembling.

No… No, that's not me at all. I don't want that. Why did I even think that? She could feel her heart twisting up to her throat. She put her hand to her forehead.

My head hurts, the Chinese woman thought. She forced herself to smile again. Even that started to hurt. Meiling shut her eyes.

Make it stop. I don't want to love him anymore. I just…

She clenched her fists on her knees. I just want to get on with my life. There came a knock on the door. Meiling looked up.

“Yeah?” she asked.

“Are you done in there?” Sakura asked. “I feel sick again.” Meiling automatically put on her fake smile.

“Just a second,” she lied. Meiling stood up and opened the door. Sakura rushed passed her to the toilet. The Chinese woman looked away as she threw up. So annoying…, she thought.

When she was finished, Sakura sat back to catch her breath. Meiling poked her head inside.

“You okay?” she asked. Sakura nodded.

“Yeah,” she said. Then, she noticed her face.

“Meiling,” she said.

“Hm?” the other woman asked.

“Why do you always smile?”

Meiling felt her heart twist in pain. “You hurt me.”

Sakura cocked her head at her. “Huh?”

Meiling fought to keep together as she spoke. “You make it hard for me! I'm trying to move on, but you just being here hurts! It hurts me so much!”

Sakura reached out to her. “I'm so sorry to hear that.”

Meiling turned and walked away with a painfully forced smiled on her face. Because that was all she had to keep her mind in check.

Smile