Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Shinku no Tsuki ❯ Pain & Recovery ( Chapter 5 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

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Part Five
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Touya left the campus, book bag slung over his shoulder as he walked absently towards home with his head down. After a moment or two he looked up and frowned as he took in the surroundings around him. This wasn't his street, he walked a little further and then with a sinking feeling and a sudden clenching within him he realized just where he was. Turning slightly he saw that he now stood in front of the empty house that had once belonged to Yuki. His traitorous feet had brought him where he had spent every night since he had entered the college. He decided to go with the ingrained reflex that had developed over the years and walked up to the door, trying the handle.

Unlocked.

Swallowing silently, he opened it and stepped inside, slipping off the shoes he wore by habit. He could almost pretend that this was any other day, if he ignored the wetness trailing down one of his cheeks that was. Walking through the house, he made his way upstairs, and to that certain room where so much had happened. Ignoring the wet trails now streaked down both cheeks he opened the door, setting his bag onto the bed and waited silently for the one he knew would never follow him through the door again.

Maybe if he convinced himself enough, he might just reverse time and see the slim figure walk through the door, he'd smile and Yuki would smiled brilliantly back at him and ask him as he set his books down if he wanted anything from the kitchen.

Blinking he realized the door had grown fuzzy and blurred. He blinked and felt more wet trails streak down already damp cheeks. If he could only do it over again, he'd say yes this time.. maybe then Yuki wouldn't of eaten whatever the drug had been in, or he would of shared it and they both would have been effected by whatever it had been and the silver haired blond would be here now, and this all would be nothing but a very bad nightmare. He would wake up, and Yuki would be beside him and he could forget about it completely.

He shoved his bag off the bed and laid down, drawing the pillow into his arms and burying his face into it. He could almost still smell him, faintly. His shoulders shook and he soon felt the pillow beneath go damp as he cried into it. Finally, he fell asleep, exhausted in body and heart.

Yue landed silently behind the house and walked around it quietly towards the front door. He frowned faintly when he found it slightly ajar and walked inside, closing the door. He stared for a moment at the pair of shoes that sat just inside the door and continued through the house until he stood just inside the doorway of the bedroom that once belonged to Yukito.

His eyes silently scanned it and stopped when they fell on a figure that was curled up in the bed, hugging the pillow that was on it. He walked forwards quietly and looked down. He should of realized, he thought to himself. The sleeping figure was the Mistress's brother, Touya. Walking around the bed, he sat down carefully on it and gently brushed the hair that fell across his face. He could tell once he had done that that the other man had been crying.

As Yue watched him, and began to withdraw his hand, two bloodshot brown eyes opened to look at him. He stayed still, lavender eyes holding the brown for what seemed hours, but couldn't have been more than a minute or less.

"You came. I hoped you might.."

Yue blinked at the words and then sighed again faintly. "I came, yes." he said deciding to try and help the one before him now, instead of what he had planned to do. "How can I help you?" he asked softly.

"Hold me..?"

Yue blinked at the simple request, but nevertheless leaned forwards slightly over the bed to gather the slighter man within his arms and slowly folded his wings around him as Touya rested his head against his shoulder. He held him quietly, one hand slowly running slowly over his back in a comforting gesture he wasn't sure where or when he had learned. Slowly, he watched the sun slowly travel further towards the west and was about to say something about the time, when he felt Touya's head shift against his shoulder and press slightly against the base of his neck. The feeling of warm air passing over the sensitive skin caused him to pause and he heard a quiet murmur from the man in his arms. "You smell like him.. of course, I suppose you would, since you were him or part of him."

Yue nodded faintly in response and shifted to look down at the brown eyes now looking up at him. "Yes.. I was." He watched him for a moment before leaning down slowly, closing his eyes as he gently and lightly brushed his lips over Touya's. Perhaps, he could heal the peach blossom's heart, if he tried. He had watched Yukito and Touya often enough to know how deeply they had cared for each other, possibly part of those feelings had become his own. He felt the kiss returned lightly before he let his lips part slightly and let Touya take the kiss further.

He felt the smaller man within his arms shift again slightly, not breaking the deep kiss they had. A hand slid up over his shoulder to slide up over his neck, holding it lightly. After another minute though they had to part for air, his breath was slightly heavy which surprised him slightly. He felt a hand slide down to caress part of one of his wings and he shivered slightly at the touch. Brown eyes flickered towards his face for a moment before the head lowered to kiss his neck lightly. He shuddered slightly at the touch and folded his wings back behind him slightly as he lifted one hand to run through the short dark brown hair.

He felt the slender hands slide down over the robes he wore down to the belt wrapped around his waist. He leaned his head back slightly out of reflex and belatedly realized the move only exposed his throat further to Touya, who was taking advantage of it by the feel of it. He felt a slight tug and then felt the long white fabric he wore over his right shoulder fall down over his arm, and then slide off of it onto the bed. Shifting slightly he felt the absence of the belt that had been around his waist moments ago. He leaned back slightly so he could look up at Touya. "You want me to shed these garments?" he asked quietly.

"If you would let me.. I wish to replace the last memories I have of him, I never got to really say goodbye." The brown eyes looked troubled then and he felt Touya draw back and then leave the bed. Yue sat up, folding his wings back as he watched him. Touya raked a hand through his hair and then shook his head. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked you that."

Yue slid from the bed and stood, dismissing his wings as he walked over towards the troubled man. "There's no need to be sorry, I understand what you must be feeling I think." he said as he drew Touya back into his arms, one behind his shoulders, the other hand tilted his chin up so he could look down into his face. "I believe he would not wish for you to suffer this way, and as you said.. I was part of him, and that part of me hurts to see you suffer. We can replace those memories of that night with new ones, if you wish."

Tears once more fell from those brown eyes and Yue leaned down to softly kiss both of them away, and from there he moved to the lips again and once more shared a kiss with the smaller man.

Spinel fluttered into the living room and looked around silently for a moment, before leaving and fluttering down the hallway and finally upstairs where he found Eriol laying asleep in the bed. The only thing strange about that, was the fact he was still wearing his robes. He shifted into his true form and sniffed the air for a moment before leaping up onto the bed and curling down beside Eriol. Apparently the angel had kept his word to speak with Eriol it seemed. He watched Eriol sleep for a moment, before lowering his head to his paws and closing his eyes. There was something else wrong, he could feel it on the edge of his senses, but as of yet it continued to elude him as to what it was exactly. Something dangerous he was sure of.. but danger to who or what and when it was to fall were not clear.

He felt Eriol shift and lifted his head as he felt the slender hand run lightly over the back of his neck and across his wings. He looked back at Eriol to find his eyes open and watching him silently. "Are you alright Master?" he asked softly.

A small smile graced the lips and the eyes closed again. "Yes, Spinel Sun.. I am alright. Don't worry yourself over me."

Spinel Sun watched as he drew his hand back and drift off back to sleep, his breathing evening out slowly into the steady rhythm he was familiar with. He lowered his head back down on his paws and continued to watch him silently until he also fell asleep.

Touya watched silently from the bed as the white, soft blue and yellow trimmed robe fell to the floor, soon followed by a pure white high necked shirt. His breath caught for a moment as the slim legs were freed from the long pants, leaving nothing but the long floor length hair to cover the pale skin. He waited silently as the tall angel slid onto the bed in front of him. Looking into the lavender eyes, he found himself studying the oval pupils for a moment. Then Yue broke him from his daze by blinking and hiding his eyes for a moment, but long enough for him to look down further than his eyes.

He didn't look that much different than Yuki, except for his hair and the sheer length of it. He ran his hand through it silently and then slowly brushed it back behind his shoulder. He lightly kissed the pale skin below him, gently, softly trailing kisses towards the slender throat. The head tilted slightly to the side, baring more of the throat and jaw. He worked his way up it and then once more down it and down his collarbone. He drew back slightly as Yue shifted below to lay down and lightly ran a slim long fingered hand over his arm and chest.

He shivered faintly when the fingers passed over one of the nipples on it and couldn't help but smile at Yue's reaction to this. The fingers returned to it and he gasped faintly as the angel rose back up from the bed to kiss him where the fingers had been seconds before. "Yu.." he began. But whatever ending it would have had was cut off when Yue kissed him again on the lips.

Long arms slid around his waist and drew him down over the tall angel as he once again laid back down on the bed. The kiss broke and he heard the soft faint whisper. "Don't say anything, nothing needs to be said. Just recall I carried two names, and answered to both." He nodded silently and slowly sat up straddling Yue's waist, the long arms still around his own. The moonlight that slowly filtered in the window cast a silver sheen over the pale skin and hair of the angel beneath him.

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