Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Starting Over Series ❯ Trying Again ( Chapter 4 )

Title: Starting Over Series #4

Author: Silvertoekee

Pairings: ???

Warnings: switching P.O.V. and slight angst or confusion maybe

Disclaimer: Don't own CCS

Sequel to: Reaching Out is Hard

Trying Again

Yukito hummed a merry tune as he strolled down the street towards the Kinomoto house. It was a lovely evening with the moon just shining overhead and the Sakura trees were in bloom. Touya had invited him over to dinner tonight and this made him extremely happy. He sometimes felt lonely in his home since he grandparents didn't really exist and it was nice to be around a real family. The Kinomoto's always made him feel like a part of their family, which made him remember fondly about another family long ago.

(Yukito? Hey Yukito!)

Yukito blinked and start in surprise when he heard Yue calling him. In fact from the frustration in Yue's voice he had a guilty feeling that he had been trying to get his attention for sometime. The moon guardian was usually quiet and would only talk to him when he had something to say. At first he had been shocked to find out that he was actually a false form and that there was actually another being inside of him. It was weird to find out that all your memories were all lies and that the only ones real were Yue's. The moon guardian had explained that Yukito had been created in order for Yue to be able to travel more freely and protect Sakura. The funny thing about it was some how the two had split into separate personalities that not even Yue could explain why. At first it had hurt to know that he wasn't real but then Touya and even Yue had reassured him that just because he was a false form didn't mean that he did not exist with his own thoughts and feelings. It had reassured him to hear this from them and he was so glad that they cared enough to tell him this.

(Yukito!)

(Sorry Yue I was just thinking about something's. Umm what's up?)

Yue sighed in frustration and tried to keep his voice neutral. Yukito had a bad habit of daydreaming during a conversation, which could be a real pain. Sometimes he wondered why he even tried to communicate with the snow bunny, but then again it was his other half.

(I kind of have a question to ask you.)

Yukito blinked in surprise at the seriousness he heard in Yue's voice and wondered what it was about. He waited for him to continue and was surprised when he didn't.

(What is it about Yue?)

Yue wondered how to phrase the question without it embarrassing either of them. For the past few weeks he had started to notice that Yukito's feelings as well as his own had started to change towards Touya. It was gradually changing from friendship into perhaps maybe an attraction? He was slightly confused by this new set of emotions and was unsure what to do. It was so much easier not to have any emotions and now it was hard to have to try and learn about them again.

The worse part about this new situation was Yue couldn't figure out if it was because Touya had sacrificed so much for them to remain alive or was it the boy himself. Hopefully the snow bunny would know what to do otherwise there was Kero, who he really didn't want to ask about this one. Kero would either tease him to death or laugh his head off.

(What do you think about Touya?)

Yukito blinked in startlement and almost laughed out loud. He had been having the same exact thoughts for a while now and it was strange that Yue was as well. He wondered if Touya was right when he said that he and Yue were very much a like.

(I think of him as a friend Yue and maybe something more. What about you?)

Yue smiled slightly at Yukito's response and wondered if they were similar like Touya said.

(I feel the same way. But what do we do about it?)

The two of them sighed softly and were unsure of what to do. On the one hand if they told Touya how they felt would he either freak out or hate them. Or maybe he would just tell them all he felt was friendship and nothing more. Either way the outcome was looking slightly grim to both of them.

(I think I should tell him Yukito after dinner. Because I brought it up and I need to tell him.)

(Ok Yue.)

Yukito was still unsure if they should tell him but then agin he would rather it be Yue then himself. Yue was more self-assured then Yukito and could handle difficult situations better then him sometimes. He was also slightly fearful what was going to happen but then again it was better to be honest and get it over with. Oh well at least with this encounter then maybe Yue would come out more and try to interact with the others he hoped.

*

Touya drank his tea slowly and watched as Sakura, Kero, and Yukito chatted happily. The three of them were talking about the letter Sakura had received from that Brat in Hong Kong and how he was doing. Touya still couldn't stand the little brat since the first time he had tried to take the then Clow Cards from his sister. Maybe someday the two of them would get along but looking at his little sister he wondered if maybe not.

Watching Yukito for a while he began to wonder what was wrong with his best friend. Ever since he had come over to dinner Yukito had been slightly distracted and had barely said a word to him. The whole time at dinner the snow bunny would smile at him on occasion but then look away quickly. Touya couldn't figure out why his friend was acting so shy and just plain weird. Hopefully his sister would go to bed soon in order for him to find out what was up.

*

Looking at her brother and Yukito, Sakura wondered what was up with those two. For the last few hours they both appeared distracted and it was starting to get annoying. It was obvious even to Kero that the two wanted to ask each other something but was afraid to do it while she was there. Sakura and Kero looked at each other before sharing twin smiles. Letting out a fake yawn Sakura stretched and silently laughed as the two of them looked at her.

"I think I'll head to bed now."

Walking over to her brother she gave him a hug and then Yukito.

Kero grinned and quickly flew over to Yukito.

"Good luck you two."

Kero almost laughed a loud at the shocked expression on Yukito's face but decided to leave it alone until later.

Saying goodnight Kero and Sakura quickly went up the stairs and into her room. The two hoped they would resolve whatever was bugging them or else they would.

*

The two watched them flee out of the room before looking at each other. Yukito glanced down first and didn't see the frown that appeared on Touya's face. It was time to ask the big question and he was unsure what to do.

(Ask him to go out to the garden.)

Yukito almost jumped in surprise because he had forgotten that Yue was awake and could hear and see everything.

(And remember I am the one asking the question not you.)

Yukito nodded slowly in agreement and hoped for the best. Standing up he smiled nervously down at Touya and offered his hand.

"Can we go out to the garden Touya? I heard Sakura mention that it was beautiful at night."

Yue let out irritated sigh as he watched Touya look at them in confusion before nodding in agreement. He wanted to mentally slap Yukito for that dumb statement but then again it was a good idea.

The two of them walked out of the house and into the backyard. Looking out into the garden the moon shone down and lit up the yard with a soft glow. The flowers and trees was illuminated and you could see the night dew glisten on everything.

"Yukito why have you been acting weird all evening? I mean you have been nervous and quiet to me ever since dinner and I want to know what's wrong."

Touya watched the other boy flush bright red before turning pale white. It was so damn confusing when he didn't know what was wrong with the other boy and he just wanted to know what was wrong.

"Alright Touya."

He blinked in suprise when Yukito walked a little away from him and turned to face him again. For the first time that night Yukito was smiling at him warmly and was not looking away. Touya watched in confusion as a Clow's circle formed under the other boy's feet and huge wings enveloped him. He wondered why Yukito was transforming into his other half and was more confused then ever.

Yue took a big breath and opened his white wings. He noticed that Touya was looking at him in confusion and felt a flash of doubt. Was it a good idea to reveal his new feelings for the other boy yet?

(Yep it sure is Yue. We will never know unless we try right?)

Nodding his head in agreement he walked towards the other boy and stopped in front of him. Gazing into confused dark brown eyes, he knew that he had to go through with it.

"Touya……I….I mean…we…I mean….."

Yue shook he head in irritation and just couldn't say it. He saw that Touya was looking at him still but there was still confusion. Argh it was so hard to say it.

(Come on Yue you can do this. If you are trying to relearn emotions, family, and friendship, then this should be a piece of cake. )

Muttering under his breath about annoying snow bunnies, he firmed his resolve and decided to say it.

"Touya, Yukito and I like you very much. More then just a friend. We have felt this way for a while now and just wanted you to know it."

Touya blinked in shock and was downright surprised. This was not what he had been expecting at all. He had thought it had to do something that had happened at school or something else, not this. He gazed down into silver eyes and saw the fear. Somehow Touya knew that it had been awful hard for the two of them to confess this and that they were waiting for him to reject them. This was a very sticky situation and if he wasn't careful he could end up hurting them.

Touya was unsure if he felt that way for the two of them since he had not really thought about them that way. Of course he had been worried when Yukito had started to disappear when Sakura had started to change the Clow Cards into Sakura Cards. And it had been so natural to give his powers in order for his best friend to live because he cared about him deeply. But were these feelings different from a friend or maybe something more? This was just plain confusing and not easy to figure out.

Yue watched the different emotions that appeared across Touya's face and wondered what the other was thinking. It was obvious that he had been shocked and now appeared very unsure what to do. Yue ached to help his friend but knew that what he had done had been the right thing to do. Now all he and Yukito could do was wait and see what the other boy did.

Coming to a firm decision Touya decided to be honest with them and hope for the best.

"I don't know if I feel that way for you two Yue. I never really thought of you that way before."

He watched Yue's silver eyes fill with pain and then he slowly lowered his head. Reaching forward Touya tilted the moon guardian head up and watched the silver eyes widened in surprise. Touya smiled in reassurance at him before speaking again.

"But Yue I think that if there was anyone that I could like more then it would be you two. I don't know if anything will develop out of this or even if my feelings will change but I would like to give it a try. But I want you two to know that no matter happens we will always be friends."

Yue blinked in shock and felt such a profound relief feel him. All the stress and emotions that he and Yukito had felt left them in a rush. Touya was actually going to give them a chance and that was all they wanted. And even better if it didn't work out then they would still be friend's. Trying again with emotions really was hard and especially trying to like someone again was worse. He felt warm tears fill his eyes and the first time in centuries Yue began to cry.

Touya watched silver eyes widened in surprise before warm tears spilled down pale cheeks. He had never seen Yue cry before and he felt a small ache in his heart at this. Using his other hand he wiped some of the tears away from the silver eyes and smiled down at the moon guardian warmly. Leaning forward Touya gently kissed Yue on the lips and then pulled the moon guardian into a hug. He felt Yue's arms wrap around his waist and hug him back. For some reason that Touya couldn't explain he had a feeling that he could actually like him more then just a friend and that in time it might develop into something more. Resting his cheek on the white head he mummered soothing words and let the moon guardian cry.

*

Upstairs in the bedroom Sakura and Kero watched the emotional exchange and grinned at each other in the dark. It was about time those two revealed what they felt for each other and start a relationship other then friendship. It had been a long and hard journey for Yue with his new emotions. For him to actually admit that he cared for her brother in such a way meant that he was finally accepting his emotions. And Kero was very happy and hoped for the best.

Sakura grinned at her sun guardian and had a feeling that everything would turn out okay with them. She was absolutely sure of it.

Man been awhile since I have actually wrote a fic and then I go and write a mushy one. Hope it make sense cause to lazy to double check hehe. Aw well hope everyone likes it and reviews. =)