Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ The Day You Went Away ❯ The Day You Went Away ( Chapter 1 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

Disclaimer: I dont own any of these characters..
Summary: song fic for S&S "The Day you went away" by M2M
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The Day You Went Away

Sakura stared out at the stars for hours, just thinking, wondering, wishing...praying that he would keep his promise. She couldnt sleep, it was 2 in the morning and it was impossible for her to sleep
she just kept replaying memories in her head from years, days gone by, she couldnt believe that her heart ached so much. She felt so empty, so alone, so lost, a huge void that was just a bottomless pit
that would spend all of eternity waiting for it to be filled up again, as it once was, long ago, when her heart was with her here, in Japan.
She kept trying to stay positive, he will return, he will keep his promise, Syaoran will be back, more in love with her than ever before. The more she thought like this the less she believed it.
For each thought a tear would fall down her tear stained face, she couldnt help but wonder if they would ever be reunited again...would that be possible? Would the Li Clan think twice about taking her love away
from her? Doubtful.
After hours of thinking, hoping, wishing, the young clow mistress sought refuge in her bed as time continued to fly by, but would never fly fast enough for her. As her eyes closed slightly, she could hear her clock radio
play a song that tore her heart up inside...

Well I wonder could it be, When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me.....

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Syaoran hugged his stuffed animal close to his chest as he lay motionless in his bed. He had tossed and turned for hours on end, it was to fall asleep, and when he finally managed to shut his eyes, memories of days gone by
flooded his vision. Rapidly scenes of his cherry blossom smiling, laughing, sleeping, jumping, cheering...would change like a fast forwarding movie. He couldn't get his love out of his mind. He couldnt help but lose a tiny shred of hope,
would he keep his promise? Was it right of him to promise her something that he was not sure he would be able to do? The final hours with his love flashed over and over again through his mind, he saw the sadness, the hurt and sorrow in her eyes,
he hated himself for putting her through such pain! It was all his fault! He should have opened up sooner to her, instead he wasted months, years, being closed off, constantly on guard, to shield himself from pain. So many wasted moments could have
been put to good use, but instead, he just stayed away, as far away as possible. Why was that? Was it because he knew he would have to leave eventually? Was he protecting himself from her? Was he so closed on purpose? Did he want
her to hate him? Maybe. That way, the pain would not have surfaced because there would be nothing to miss, nothing lost, but still nothing would have been gained either. He prayed night and day secretly to himself that he would return to her,
she was what kept him alive, but how long would she wait for him? He wouldnt blame her if she moved on, he was lost to her, as she was to him now. Only existing in his memories would he see her smile..


Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

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Sakura still lay awake in bed, listening to the song that played ever so quietly. It had been almost 2 years without him, and yet she remained miserable, waiting for his return. Had he given up on her? Did he find another to love?
She knew she could never love anyone the way she loved him. No matter what would happen nothing could take her stubborn heart away from him. Did he feel the same for her, even after all of this time? Had he given up?
Maybe, finding someone to love would be good for him, anything that made him happy would make her happy too. Her mind contantly concocted scenes from soap oprahs involving her love with another girl, claiming Sakura
was a lost memory, but her heart longed for her second half. If he found someone new to love, it would rip her apart, but she would be happy, happy for him, but could she live like that?
"Oh please Syaoran, please just be happy. I ask that you come back to me...but if you cannot..." her voice trailed off as tears spilled over again.

Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do...

There is no one on this earth who could love you like I do ... please know that... Sakura cried uncontrollably as her guardian watched her from his drawer
'Oh Sakura...if only he could see how much you love him...if he hurts you, so help me...I will show him know mercy! You hear me Chinese brat? I love my mistress with all my heart, hurting her would NOT be
a good thing to do!' Even with his threats, he knew that there was not a word in the world that could make Sakura smile like she used to. HE was the only one that could do that now, without him, she found no reason to be happy..
It broke his heart to see her cry herself to sleep, day after day, week after week, during the day she would put a fake face on, so no one would worry, she thought she could fool everyone, but he knew better,
Kero heard her tears drop onto her pillow, he could see the bags under her eyes that she would hide with make up, he could hear her call his name out in the night, he could tell that her arms reached up from under the covers longing to
grab hold of him, only to be holding nothing at all.

Sakura finally managed to cry herself to sleep, in hopes that he would be in her dreams..

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Syaoran could feel the anger burning inside Kero, he knew how much that stuffed animal loved her, but so did he! He wanted to take her pain away, wanted to wipe away the tears she'd shed
He felt horrible, heartbroken, lost, alone, but he knew that she would be feeling all of that and more. It was as if he could see her in her room, in her bed crying, bunching up her covers to have something to hold onto,
clinging onto something that would give her hope. He would gladly die thousands of deaths than have his cherry blossom feel an ounce of sadness, of sorrow, of lonliness.
As his eyes shut tight he could feel her hope, that she would see him in her dreams, because it was the same hope that he had himself...

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Sakura was dreaming that she and her love were sitting under a cherry blossom tree, watching as life grew around them. They saw in each other's eyes the sorrow they were feeling, and yet it wasn't as bad. They were together, in a figmant of their imagination but at least they
were together. Sakura began to speak to her love in rhyme, telling him the words the song put into her heart. It was as if the song was written to explain how she felt, so her love could understand that he was the only one for her, no matter how long the wait.

Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away...

Syaoran understood what she was saying, and realized she was opening her heart to him.


So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away....


Tears flooded her eyes as they spilled over one by one. Syoaran's heart shattered as he realized that such an angel was crying for him. He began to feel the way she was feeling, as they embraced they wished the dream would never end..
Sakura continued exposing her heart, trying to tell him how she felt, praying that his consciousness would get word..

I remember date and time, September twenty second Sunday twenty five after nine..

'Oh my love I would never forget a single detail when it came to you, I remember the very first time you said my name, I remember the moment you spoke to me without anger and hatred,
I remember every hair on your head, I remember every word that was said...I need you so much Syoaran..so much..

In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

' I will never forget how you protected me in every battle, I will never forget a single arguement, I will never forget my love..never... I hated it when we fought but it only made us stronger,
the fights led to friendship, the friendship that we share blossomed into love, true love that can never be taken away by anyone.'

' Oh Sakura if only this were real, I know your here, with me, but I also know its a dream, a beautiful dream where everything is possible, a dream where I can be there to wipe the tears from your eyes, and shush your sighs..Sakura I miss you..so much time i wasted being your enemy
but I never hated you, never...never will I ever...never could I ever...never you...my angel...my cherry blossom...my love'

And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

Syaoran shakes his head to this, with one look in his eyes, Sakura is more secure. Through his eyes she sees the love, admiration, respect and adoration he has for her, one look into his big brown eyes tell her that she is not alone
that what they have is special and they will have it again, they will always have it, and when they are reunited their love will be stronger. His sweet lips kiss hers, as an act of pure love, loyalty of promise.
"I promise you, I swear that nothing will keep me away from you, don't give up on me, I ll be in your arms before you know it. Don't cry my love, don't worry, I won't let you go, and I now know you won't let me go either. Have faith my sweet cherry blossom, we will be together again
my promises are never empty..and I shall ensure that this promise is fullfilled!" He smiles one of his rare smiles her way, and she somehow feels better, that void doesnt seem as bottomless, this situation doesn't seem as hopeless, love will prevail..it has too, it will.

Well hey, So much I need to say, Been lonely since the day,The day you went away
So sad but true, For me there's only you, Been crying since the day
The day you went away...The day you went away...

The words replay in their minds, but are not as threatning. Together they have found a new hope which will prevail. Love will never fade into the background.
Suddenly the song plays in the background as the lovers hold each other as if there was no tomorrow..

Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone..
It's so true, he thought, so much time I wasted, so many moments I took for granted...I was so blind, I never realized how precious each moment was..

How could I carry on?
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away...


The beautiful scenery starts to dissapear, the beautiful Sakura trees were no more, the beautiful feeling of security was nearly lost, and the hope that all will end well seems to have been misplaced...
Sakura remembers how sad she is, how much she misses her love, how horrible her life has been without him in her life, he's been away for too long, how much could she hold on?
She was all alone in the darkness, her heart became bruised once again, tears spilled over, as the realization of the dream had hit her, it was a dream, nothing more, all that she thought had happened was just her imagination
telling her she longed for his touch, to see his face, to hold him close..it was all so hopeless again, what now?

He could feel her recoil into her sadness, into her darkness, into the dark pit of no return, he felt hope leave her, and doubt reigned supreme once again. The once smiling, happy cheeks turned to despair yet again. Her dry eyes become moist and puffy all over again. Her spirit crushed like a bird crashing into the merciless ground.
He can see her collapse onto the darkness, screaming obcenities into the air, blaming fate, and God. She didn't mean to but the anguish and the pain took over once more, the bottomless void had returned to claim it's spot remaining stationary in her soul.
Syoaran could not bare this, he needed to give her one last shred of hope before the dream faded into nothingness and daylight would enter signaling the new dawn. He reached down to caress her cheek, whispering sofly sweet nothings into her ear.
" Sakura don't you give up, we're almost there, I know it, you hold on, you ll always have me! I love you, and this pain will only make us stronger. Get up my love, dont let the pain take your smiling beautiful face from me, let us part with good memories rather than bad ones"
"Oh my love" she cries hopelessly, "I can't do this, I see you and I just want to hold you forever, but now I will reach for you and you arent there, your just in my mind, my wonderful prince." she sighs as her head lowers.
She looks up to see me and smiles, she has decided to choose her path, the path to depression only tears her up inside, the path to a happy ending may seem long but at least she won't be lonely.
"The day you went away Syoaran, I ...I felt like dying, I cried and cried until I couldnt cry anymore. I cried myself to sleep every night, I..still do. I smile to my friends so that they don't worry but make up can't hide my true feelings...
Oh my love...the day you went away...the day you went away..."
she sighs as she closes her eyes. Our lips meet for the last time before our departure again.
"We will be together again, I swear it".
She looks up at me with a new found hope in her gorgeous eyes and says "I don't have a single doubt in my mind, my love".
We part from each other's dreams but it isnt the end...we will be reunited..soon I know it.....

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The next morning...

Sakura wakes up and wipes any remaining tears from her eyes, and smiles as the sun shines brightly through her window...

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Syaoran opens his eyes as he feels something soft touch his face, a cherry blossom....
'Sakura.." he says and smiles to himself as he places the petal into his pocket as if to give him strength to carry on..

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"Oh Syoaran" she says quietly as if to herself, " the day you went away I cried so much, I felt my life was over...it wasn't until last night when I realized that you'll be back because you love me,
the way I love you...I ll see you soon my love...in my dreams for now...but..only for now.
She smiles as she stares at a picture of her other half from her desk.


How was that? Hope you enjoyed it, I don't like writing sad stories cause it makes me sad! but *shrugs* this was my first song fic..as you probably guessed hehe Im a rookie.
R&R please!

next chapter will be posted if ppl like it :)