Cowboy Bebop Fan Fiction ❯ Spike's letter ❯ One-Shot

Julia,

There was nothing for me…out there. My world had no meaning except life itself. As my world turned, I grew to accept it. Then you came. I realized your love for me. You realized my love for you. Love is funny how it plays with your head. Funny how it takes away your breath. It played with my emotions until all I knew was you. You cared enough to love me. Then one moment I realized I wanted better for you. You didn't deserve this life. I wanted to get you out. And you said it wasn't possible, so you denied my offer. I didn't understand why until they came after me. I understood you didn't want me dead. But I did anyway. I died but I got up and went on. I left you. I don't know why, but I did. You thought I died, I thought I died, but I guess I didn't. Because I got up and left. Afterwards I could feel you cry. I could feel it in my soul. You cried and cried as hard as you could. I know you did. I wanted to go back and tell you that I was alright. And I guess I was scared. I'm so stupid sometimes…or all the time. Your life means everything to me. I still love you with all my heart. Do you still love me? I won't blame you if you don't. I think about you all the time. You have to know that.

I'm a bounty hunter now. And he's on my list. You know who I'm talking about. I will get that back-stabber some day. So don't go anywhere. We will be free. Someday we will; whether in this life or in death. It will happen…I promise. I can not die trying because I already am. So don't worry about my safety; worry about yours. But even if I am, I will try just as hard, anything for you. I love you Julia. Remember that and remember me.

Love,

Spike