D. Gray-man Fan Fiction ❯ Invention Is The Mother Of Neccesity ❯ Killer Queen ( Chapter 9 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Invention Is The Mother Of Necessity
A Fanfiction By SailorLight22
Chapter 9 - Killer Queen

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Okay here's this part, starts out lemon, so get happy!

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Al len closed his eyes, winding his fingers into his lover's silky hair as he moaned softly. The sensation of Kanda's hands roaming over him was indescribable, his nerves tingling in the wake of those lingering touches...

Gasping, he arched into the contact as the older boy held him tightly. Opening his eyes, he gazed blearily at the face before him, the other boy's blue eyes hazed with passion as he closed the distance between them. He whimpered softly as he felt the tip of the samurai's tongue stroking across his lip, and opened to allow him entrance.

Kanda smiled against the other boy's mouth, accepting the silent invitation as he pulled his lover close, gripping his hips as he continue to move slowly against him. Allen's soft noises of pleasure sent shivers through him, urging him on as the warm water lapped unnoticed over the sides of the tub in small waves.

He moved away slightly, his hands coming to rest on the white haired boy's waist as he shifted until their bodies were aligned perfectly, turning his attention to the other's throat.

Allen's eyes slid closed, his head thrown back as he pressed himself brazenly against the swordsman's chest, needing to feel him. Kanda murmured soft endearments against his neck, the slight tickle of his words raising gooseflesh over the boy's exposed skin as the water continued to pool on the floor beside them.

Releasing his tight grip on Kanda's shoulders, he pulled back reluctantly. The older boy raised his eyes in inquiry, suddenly concerned that he might be pressuring his partner into a repeat of their earlier intimacy before he was ready. Seeing his wary expression, Allen shook his head, smiling.

"It's all right, Kanda," He assured him, chuckling slightly at the other Exorcist's obvious relief. "I just thought that we should continue this elsewhere, since it appears that we're making another mess in here."

Tilting his head, he indicated the rather large puddle on the floor. Kanda frowned, struggling to maintain his composure as the urge to laugh struck him. "I...see," He replied, allowing a small smirk to replace his stern facade. "Allow me a moment.."

Fishing about for the discarded washcloth, he rinsed the remaining soap from himself, smiling as he noticed Allen's eyes following the cloth's movement across his skin. Wordlessly, he motioned to the boy's own chest and stomach, where a sheen of soap also remained.

Taking the hint, Allen rinsed himself as well, and reached for the knob to drain the water. Kanda stood, offering his hand to the shorter boy.

Pulling Allen to his feet, Kanda stepped out of the tub, avoiding the puddle as he retrieved the towels he'd placed on the counter. Handing one to Allen, he led him into the adjoining room to dry off.

Slinging his towel casually about his waist, he watched as Allen drew his own towel over himself with unconscious grace. Sensing the samurai's intense scrutiny, Allen flushed lightly as he smiled. "Could you hand me my shirt?" He asked, pointing to the bedside. Kanda nodded, retrieving it from the floor and holding it out to him.

"Are you cold?" He asked, noticing the boy's slight shiver. Allen nodded. "Just a bit. I'm still not used to the chill here, even after all this time."

Kanda raised an eyebrow in mock consideration. "Is that so?" He asked, moving closer. "We can't have that, now can we? Come here." He opened his arms to enfold the younger boy, his smile widening slightly.

Allen laughed softly, welcoming the embrace. "You'll keep me warm, won't you?" He teased, relaxing against the other boy's chest contentedly. Kanda nodded, his voice low as he replied.

"Of course, Moyashi. I intend to keep you... very warm."

Raising his head, Allen slipped a hand up to clasp the taller boy's neck as their lips met in a slow kiss. Kanda tightened his hold slightly, backing towards the bed. Feeling the edge, he lowered himself into a sitting position, pulling Allen down to straddle him. Breaking away gently, he sighed.

"Are you sure it's not too soon, Allen?" He asked, concerned that he might hurt his love by not allowing him the time he needed to recover from their earlier acts.

Allen shook his head, his eyes serious as he tried to reassure his partner. "I'm fine, Kanda. I told you that it didn't hurt before, so please don't worry."

Nodding, Kanda sighed again, this time in relief. "I had thought that you might need more time, Moyashi. I didn't want to make you do anything that might be uncomfortable for you."

Allen smiled, grateful for the other's concern for him. "The only thing I need more of is you, Kanda." He whispered, his face heating slightly at his own boldness.

The swordsman's eyes darkened as he ran a hand across Allen's back, his fingers toying gently with the hem of his shirt. "Is that so?" He lifted his free hand to the boy's face, closing the distance between them until they were mere centimeters apart.

Allen nodded, his pulse rising at their closeness.

Kanda continued, his lips brushing slightly against Allen's as he spoke. "Is this what you need, Allen?" He asked, allowing their mouths to meet for a moment before pulling away. "Or was there something else? This, perhaps?" His hand slipped down to stroke the skin beneath the boy's shirt, a slight intake of breath rewarding his actions.

Smiling, he pressed his mouth to his lover's again, tracing the line of the other's bottom lip with his tongue before slowly exploring that warm wetness.

Allen shivered, a groan escaping him as he felt Kanda's hand dip lower. A rush of sensation threatened to overwhelm him as he felt those hands gripping his skin, fingers splayed out as if to touch as much as possible. Struggling to think, he opened his eyes as an idea struck him.

Smiling, he shifted his weight, and felt the body beneath him respond as he ground himself downwards. Kanda answered his movement with an upward thrust, his arms tightening as his mouth left a damp trail over Allen's throat.

Allen leaned close, his breath coming in soft pants as he murmured softly into Kanda's ear. "Feels so good.."

The older boy nodded slightly, growling against his neck as Allen moved again, this time pulling away slightly as he used one hand to push the swordsman back.

Confused, Kanda allowed himself to be moved, settling himself on his elbows as the shorter boy leaned forward to press his lips to the side of his face. From there, Allen kissed and nipped a line to his ear, gently gripping the lobe with his teeth. A sharp hiss urged him on, his mouth moving over the other boy's neck as he slid backwards.

Resting his weight on one arm, he kissed the skin of Kanda's chest, running his tongue lightly over the line of his collarbone. Satisfied with the sounds of pleasure from his lover, he moved still lower, his hands pushing at Kanda's towel until he lifted his hips to allow Allen to remove it.

Blushing, he ran his hands over the older boy's thighs as he kneeled between them, his mouth resuming it's path over Kanda's body. Glancing upwards shyly, he ran his tongue out to circle the samurai's navel, causing the other to jerk in surprise.

Smiling nervously, he lowered his eyes to the very apparent sign of his lover's arousal. Taking a deep breath, he worked his way slowly down until he could feel the heat emanating from Kanda's still-damp skin.

Sensing the older boy's eyes upon him, Allen raised his head until he could return the other's heated gaze, his cheeks positively flaming under the weight of his lover's silent scrutiny.

Without breaking the contact, he cautiously ran his tongue over that sensitive skin, raising one hand to stroke the samurai's suddenly trembling hip as he repeated the movement.

Kanda's eyes widened at the erotic sight. Sweet, innocent Allen Walker, on his knees, doing something like this..! A strangled moan escaped him, his elbows giving out as he arched his back at the unbelievable feeling of the boy's lips moving over him, leaving trails of wet heat in their wake.

Allen shivered, his own breath taking on a ragged note as he opened his mouth and enclosed his lover fully, his tongue drawing tentative circles over the silken skin. Remembering the feeling of Kanda's mouth from before, he sucked gently, surprised by the slightly bitter taste.

Kanda's hands clenched tightly, twisting the blankets beneath him into a deathgrip as he struggled to resist the urge to thrust deeper into the other exorcist's mouth. Gasping, he closed his eyes, forcing his hands to relax. After a moment, he raised himself to his elbows again, reaching down to stroke the boy's snowy hair.

With one last slow caress, Allen pulled away, averting his eyes as he rose to his feet. Kanda let out a breath, his pulse pounding in his ears as he lifted himself to enfold his furiously blushing lover.

He smiled reassuringly at the other, pulling him gently forward until he was once again straddling the swordsman's thighs, his weight resting on his knees as Kanda slowly inched them further back onto the bed.

Once he'd found a satisfactory position, he resumed his exploration of the boy's body, his hands moving purposefully over the expanse of Allen's hips and thighs as he urged his lover to relax against him.

Shivering with anticipation, he complied. The bed settled slightly as he allowed his weight to shift, resting himself into the cradle of the older boy's thighs as he sighed. The feeling of warmth from the samurai's skin was comforting, and he murmured appreciatively at the contact as Kanda's hands continued to trace over his back in slow circles.

Closing his eyes, he concentrated on the sensations, his face lifting just enough to press his mouth to the hollow of the other boy's throat. A soft noise encouraged him to forget his earlier embarrassment, and he smiled at the memory of his lover's surprise.

Clearly, his actions had been unexpected, but not unwelcome, he decided. If Kanda's reaction had been any indication, he'd done rather well, despite his inexperience. The thought emboldened him, and he shifted his body until he felt the other boy's breathing hitch as their hips pressed together.

Kanda jerked slightly as he felt the white haired Exorcist move against him, his heart quickening with renewed interest at the feeling of the boy's skin sliding over his own sensitive flesh. He lifted his legs to enfold him, pulling the other more closely into his arms as he slid his foot across Allen's calf and hooked it behind his knees, holding his lover firmly in place as he thrust upwards in a teasing motion that left the smaller boy gasping.

When Kanda felt that Allen was ready, he slipped a hand between them, his fingers seeking and encircling his lover's hardening member. Gripping it firmly, he began to stroke. Allen bucked into his touch, a breathless cry escaping him as his body arched in open invitation.

Turning his head, he located the bottle of oil from before. He retrieved it, and popped the cap open, his motions unhurried as he allowed some of the slippery liquid to flow into his palm. Carefully setting the bottle aside, he urged his partner onto his back. The younger boy complied, his eyes bright with arousal as he waited for the next step.

Kanda coated his fingers well, and trailed his hand down to his lover's tight entrance. Circling it gently, he added enough pressure to breach the relaxed muscles, sliding his finger along Allen's inner walls as he sought the place within him that caused the boy to moan his name softly. Pressing against that spot, he stroked his love into full arousal, adding a second and third finger as he watched carefully for any sign of pain or discomfort.

Seeing none, he relaxed slightly, placing damp kisses along Allen's inner thigh as he removed his fingers and coated himself with the remaining oil. Positioning himself, he raised the boy's hips until he felt the heat of his opening against him, and gently thrust forward, sliding into his body with surprising ease.

Gasping at the tightness that enveloped him, he held himself in check to allow Allen time to adjust. A moment later, he felt Allen shift slightly in silent reassurance that he was ready. Pulling back slightly, he drove forward until he was fully seated within his love, his breath coming in harsh gasps as he tried to control the overwhelming urge to give in to his passion.

Allen whimpered as he felt the stilted control his partner strained to hold, wrapping his legs around Kanda's hips as he urged him onward. Realizing that the older boy was fearful of causing him pain, he smiled. "Please..", He whispered, rocking his pelvis upward. "Please don't make me wait.."

Kanda moaned, his voice shaky as he moved again, unable to deny his lover anything.

Though slight at first, his movements slowly became more urgent, his need too great to contain. Certain that he wasn't hurting his smaller partner, he allowed his unoiled hand to wander over the boy's smooth skin, paying close attention to the reactions his touch provoked.

When Allen arched sharply into his caress, he smiled in satisfaction. Leaning forward, he kissed his way up the flushed chest and neck of his lover, his teeth scraping lightly over the pounding vein there as the younger boy gasped.

Allen hissed at the feeling, his breathing unsteady. Already, he could feel himself slipping out of control, his body moving of its own volition towards release. Bracing himself, he fought down the raging need he felt, struggling to make this last.

As if sensing his distress, Kanda slowed his thrusts, his hands firmly gripping Allen's hips as he lifted his lover's body higher off the bed. Shifting his weight, he leaned in for a breath-stealing kiss before turning his head to whisper to the younger boy, his voice low and intense.

"Is this how you want it, Allen? Just like this?", He raised the shorter boy's hips still higher, resting his weight on his knees as he intensified his movements. Allen gasped at the sudden change, his eyes shut tight in awe as he nodded.

"Yes, please Kanda...You feel so good..!"

Kanda moaned softly, a breathless acknowledgement of his lover's voice. While he could sense his limit approaching, he was determined to give Allen as much pleasure as humanly possible in the time that remained.

He shifted his body even closer, and was rewarded with a sharp cry from the other Exorcist. Kanda smiled, as he had evidently found the correct angle to reach Allen's most sensitive place. Relaxing his grip on his lover, he quickened his pace, driving the boy closer and closer to his release as his cries increased in both frequency and volume.

Allen blushed hotly at the sounds he was making, but he couldn't stop. The feeling of the samurai's body against his own was far too intense to bear in silence. Arching his back, he clenched his hands tightly around Kanda's shoulders as his trembling thighs locked themselves together against his sides.

Wordlessly, he pleaded in halting pants and moans, straining to reach the edge of reason with his love, whose steady rhythm began to falter as he too drew closer to his end. With a final cry, Allen felt his body lock around the swordsman's, his vision narrowing until nothing but the intense blue of his lover's eyes remained, no thought registering to his heated mind save the feeling of that beautiful form shuddering in his arms as he let go his own broken moan of completion.

Time seemed to slow to a crawl as they gasped for breath, clinging tightly to each other in silent adoration. After several minutes had passed unnoticed, Kanda rose to his knees, pulling slightly away from the sated form of his lover.

Smiling tiredly, Allen blinked up at him. Remembering the mess from before, he blushed. "Kanda, we should probably clean ourselves off.." He smirked suddenly. "At this rate, your bathroom will never be empty again!"

Kanda laughed lightly in response, his eyes narrowing as he replied. "That may be, Moyashi. Perhaps we should bathe separately this time?" His voice took on a teasing tone. "I seem to remember a lack of protest, however.."

Allen's blush returned full force as he averted his face, mumbling to himself. "You started it.." He walked to the bathroom, using the washcloth from earlier to clean himself.

Kanda laughed outright, an almost shocking sound for the usually stoic Exorcist. Noticing Allen's surprised look, he shook his head. "Something the matter, Koi?"

Allen smiled. "No, not at all!" He exclaimed. "It's just.. Well, you seem to be happy, for once. I don't think I've ever heard you laugh like that before, so it's a bit strange, I suppose."

Kanda's face grew serious. "Is it unpleasant?" He asked, his eyebrows arched in confusion.

Allen hurriedly shook his head, raising his arms to enfold the taller boy. "No, it's wonderful! I think you should do it more often, if anything. I'm just glad to see you so happy, especially if it's me that makes you feel that way.." His voice faltered as Kanda's arms tightened around him.

"It is you," The samurai mumbled softly, his face buried in the shorter boy's hair. "I can't remember ever feeling like this before, and I love you for that, too." He pulled back, resting his forehead against Allen's. "I hope that in time, you'll feel the same happiness that I do, and that I'll be the one to make it happen."

Allen sighed, closing his eyes. "I already do, Kanda," He whispered, his breath fanning the older boys cheek. "I feel it too, and it's most definitely because of you."

For a moment, they were silent.

Kanda snorted suddenly, his body shaking in barely suppressed mirth. Allen pulled back, a questioning look on his face.

"Kanda..?"

The samurai shook his head, his amusement fading. "I'm sorry, I just can't help thinking of how cliche we must sound, Moyashi." He teased.

Allen blushed, burying his face in the taller boy's chest. "You certainly know how to ruin a moment, Kanda." He mumbled, a reluctant smile crossing his face.

Kanda smiled. "I mean it though, trite and all. Never doubt that."

The smaller boy shook his head. "No, I don't doubt it. If anything, you should be doubtful of me, Kanda. I can't believe I was so stupid. All this time, wasted.." He frowned.

"It doesn't matter now, Moyashi." Kanda explained patiently. "I'm just as stupid as you are, because I didn't truly understand what I felt until.." He broke off, blushing slightly.

Allen smirked. "Until..?" He prodded, tightening his grip as the other boy's face darkened.

"Until you pulled that little stunt in the corridor," Kanda mumbled, his eyes averted. "I didn't even try to figure out what I felt for you until then." He straightened, his face once again serene. "But it makes sense now. Why don't I go ahead and get cleaned up? Then we can go see how many people Lavi's managed to 'not tell'?"

Allen watched his lover stride to the bathroom, his eyes suddenly narrowed in thought. "Hey, wait a minute! Didn't you just call me stupid?!" He cried.

Kanda quickly slammed the door, leaning against it as Allen started forward. "You said it first!" He laughed, his voice loud enough to be heard over the smaller Exorcist's spluttered exclamations. "I was just agreeing with you to save time!"

It grew eerily silent. Just as he started to open the door, Kanda froze. Was that snuffling he heard out there? Allen's quiet voice spoke.

"Well, if that's what you think.." There were several more sniffs and the sound of retreating footsteps. Then, worst of all, the sound of the door opening and closing.

He jerked the door open, startled. "Allen, wait! I was only.." He glanced down. Allen's pants were still on the floor. His eyes wide, he turned around slowly. His lover stood there, a menacing grin on his face. "Now, Moyashi, I didn't mean it.." He said lamely, wondering if there were many people in this part of the building. Leaving the room naked could be embarrassing, but the look on Allen's face promised a fate worse than any amount of humiliation. He slowly retreated as the smaller boy moved forward, his hands raised in a suggestive twitching motion.

"I think you should be sorry, Kanda. Very sorry." He laughed evilly. Kanda's eyes widened further as his retreat quickened.

"I am! I was only teasing, I'm sorry!"

His knees hit the edge of the bed, and Allen pounced.

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For the second time in as many days, the sound of decidedly unmanly shrieks echoed through the building, accompanied by maniacle laughter.

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Lavi cocked his head curiously at the doorway, hearing a muffled commotion. Shaking his head, he turned away again. "Must be my imagination," He muttered, concentrating on the open book before him.

Though usually focused and attentive in his reading, the apprentice Bookman was having a hard time today. Flashes of his earlier conversation with the resident mad scientist kept trekking through his mind, startling him with random images of their rather heated exchange.

The memories, recalled in exquisite detail through years of practiced observation, were enough to prompt a slow rise of shivers. Lavi groaned, burying his head in his hands as an uncharacteristically serious moment overcame his usually buoyant nature.

'Holy God, what was I thinking? I can't believe that I allowed myself to lose control like that..' He chuckled humorlessly. 'Oh well. At least he let me go, and..' He flushed, his mind supplying him with yet another wave of recollection.

"Hmph, I knew there had to be something behind that layer of utter retardation he insists on keeping between himself and the rest of the world." Allowing an almost smug smile to cross his lips, he closed his eyes. Lost in thought, he failed to notice the approach of another person until a hand on his shoulder brought him staggering to his feet, his heart in his throat as he struggled for balance.

"Jesus, what the.." He trailed off, smiling sheepishly at the quickly discarded expletive as Linali regarded him somewhat coolly.

"I have something to say to you." She looked up at him, sternly. Lavi unconsciously backed away, just a slight shift of weight in preparation to flee. "Do you have any idea.." She leaned forward menacingly, her eyes narrowed. "..How much I would love to kiss you right now?"

He blinked at her, taken aback by her change in tone as she squealed. "Eh, I'd rather you didn't," He smiled cautiously, aware of her ability to go from 'zero' to 'kill you' in no time flat. "Would you settle for a completely platonic pat on the head?"

Swatting at his hand, she easily avoided the gesture. "Quit it, you ass." She positively beamed, shaking her head. "Do you understand exactly what happened, Lavi?"

He stared at her, his eyes wide. "I don't know what you mean." He hedged, looking away as she raised an eyebrow. "I think the drugs your brother gave me might have made me hallucinate, but if you're referring to either the flying monkeys or the naked mariachi band, I really hope that you didn't see them too."

She rolled her eyes, sighing. "Being stupid won't change anything, Lavi." She admonished quietly. "Maybe Miranda missed it, but it looked to me like you two finally had that little talk. So..?" She waited, her face expectant.

Lavi glanced around furtively. "Could we maybe go somewhere else to discuss this? Somewhere, I dunno, less public?" Closing his unread book, he made for the door. The girl smiled, following the other Exorcist out of the room.

"So, where would you like to go? My room's pretty close.." She hinted, becoming impatient as the redhead stood unmoving. "I'm not going to tell anyone, you know." She smiled at him reassuringly. "Please?" Batting her eyes playfully, she grabbed his arm, dragging him towards her quarters.

Shaking his head, Lavi wondered what had possessed him to think that the younger girl would be satisfied with a simple explanation. 'Her brother isn't the only obsessive one in the family,' He mused, 'Once she gets an idea in her head..' Allowing himself to be led, he sighed. "You can let go, I'm not going to try to outrun you."

She laughed quietly, stopping in front of her door. "I know that," She opened it, motioning for him to enter. "I just didn't know if you knew where it was." Closing the door behind her, Linali pointed to a soft-looking chair. "Go ahead, get comfortable."

Lavi sank into the seat, leaning against the high backrest as he wondered what to say. "I don't know what to tell you," He began, looking out the small window. "I had a little...Run in with Yuu-chan, and then Komui doped me. Next thing I knew, I was in that lab of his, and he was asking about you. I told him nothing happened, but of course he didn't believe me, and then he broke out that...Thing you saw. After a while, I got fed up with it and told him that I didn't see you like that." He chuckled briefly.

"He took that the wrong way too, and I slipped up and said that I was crazy to think that it would ever work between us. Eventually he let me down, and we had words. I just got so mad, I don't even remember exactly what I said.. But he started in on that 'Oh my darling Linali' shit, and I told him that there was a lot more to life than being obsessed with you."

Linali raised an eyebrow, but remained silent.

"He asked me what things I meant, and I..." He sighed. "I kissed him. I didn't really mean to, but there was nothing else I could think of to make him understand." Lifting his head, he smiled. "After I let go of him, he just looked at me. I started to leave, but apparently he had other ideas." He blushed lightly, much to the girl's amusement. Seeing her grin, he shook his head.

"After a little bit, things kind of...Got out of control. That's when you found us, and thought...Whatever you thought. You didn't hurt him too bad, did you? I meant it when I said I wanted to talk to him about things." He smiled. "It wasn't really so bad, after the tickling stopped. At least I know that there's something there, that's more than I could have hoped for."

Linali nodded thoughtfully. "I'm a little bit sorry for kicking his ass, now. I thought he was hurting you, and it just made me so mad!" She laughed. "You know how he is, always being a pain. But I'm glad that you got your point across. He should be waking up anytime now, and I imagine that it won't be too long before you hear from him." She snickered quietly. "That's one good thing about 'Nii-san, he doesn't wait around when there's something really important that needs to be done."

Lavi flushed lightly at the double meaning in her tone. "Yeah, I guess so." He mumbled, looking away. "I don't expect it to be easy," He said, smiling. "He's spent a long time fooling himself, working to convince everyone that he's just some nut." He paused thoughtfully. "Honestly, I don't know if he's trying to convince us, or himself."

Linali nodded, smiling also. "I can understand, to a point," She said quietly. "'Nii-san worries about everything, me, the Order, all of the Exorcists here.. He just doesn't let it stop him from doing what he thinks he should do. Sometimes I think it bothers him to see what the world is becoming, a place where his friends and family could be gone in a second, at the whim of a madman." She shivered. "I think he's closed himself away like this because he doesn't want to lose." Lavi raised an eyebrow, questioning.

She shook her head, still smiling. "If he gets close to someone, he could lose them. I think he tries to stop himself from getting close because that makes less people to mourn. Instead, he concentrates on being distant and distracted. People stay away because they think he's crazy, they never bother to look any deeper than the newest Komurin."

Lavi stood, pacing nervously. "I do look, though," He said softly. "I'm not supposed to get involved like that, but at the end of the day..." He stopped, facing the window. "I wonder if that's really what I want. I know that Bookman wouldn't approve, but I keep thinking that maybe the caring isn't so wrong. We're supposed to watch history being made, but what's the use if we don't see it all? How many parts of history came about because of people loving or hating each other? That makes me think about what I want from life. Do I really want to spend the rest of my life on the outside, or should I let things happen as they will?"

Linali blinked at him, startled by his sudden speech. "Lavi.. You think we'd let you stay on the outside?" She asked, rising. "Every one of us thinks of you as a friend. When we fight, we think of saving the world, but the world is where our friends are. What use would it be, to risk our lives for an empty world that doesn't have love, friendship? That's the world that the Earl wants, a place where no one has anything worth fighting for."

She hugged the taller boy impulsively. "Don't worry about being alone, Lavi...We won't let you."

He smiled, nodding. "I know. I just want to be there for you guys, too." Pulling away, he tapped his chin with a finger. "I wonder if it's too soon to expect..Ow!" She swatted his head, laughing.

"Don't be a pervert!" She said, shoving him back gently. "If you want to know what to expect, I think you should ask 'Nii-san himself." She laughed again at the boy's scandalized expression. "I'm sure that you'll figure it out, he has been alone for a long time.." She mused, shaking her head. "Either way, I'm glad that you're happy. It's nice to see the people I care about finding each other."

Lavi snorted loudly. "I'd say so, Yuu-chan hasn't come looking for me yet.. Allen must be keeping him preoccupied, otherwise I'd already be dead for what happened before." Seeing her puzzled expression, he laughed. "Nevermind. Suffice it to say, Yuu-chan has excellent taste when it counts." She sighed, rubbing her temples.

"Right. Well, now that I'm sure I don't want to know..." She walked to the door, opening it. "You should go to your room and get ready for your little 'talk'. If I know 'Nii-san, he'll be by there before too long. You wouldn't want to miss him, would you?" She asked teasingly. He shook his head, grinning.

"No, I think it would be a good idea to make myself..available," He smirked, dodging a playful kick to the rear. "Thanks for listening, Linali.. I'm glad that you made me talk about it, a lot of things don't seem so bad now." He left, still smiling lecherously.

Linali sighed happily, closing the door and sinking onto the bed in contentment. "Now, there's just the matter of Miranda-chan and her little problem.."

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Komui blinked, staring at the ceiling in confusion. After a moment, he shook his head, sitting up with a quiet groan. "My head.."

Looking around, he saw that he was in his quarters, undoubtedly his lovely sister had thought of his comfort after delivering her chastisement. Rubbing the aching lumps on his skull, the man pondered his situation. 'I just can't believe it.. Lavi, he.. Damn.'

He smiled faintly, remembering the young Exorcist's angry tirade. 'I always figured that Kanda had the worst temper, but now I'm not so sure,' He thought. 'Well, he is a redhead, after all.' Stretching his arms, he lay back again, closing his eyes in thought.

He'd never imagined that the fiery youth was nursing a crush on him, of all people. Though he knew that the boy seemed to spend a lot of time with his beloved sister, he'd always assumed that Lavi was like the rest of the dogs in the Order, following the crowd in pursuit of her beauty. To think that he'd been nothing but a friend was mind boggling. For a moment, Komui felt indignation rear it's head at the boy's casual indifference to Linali's obvious charms, but the feeling died in light of his confession.

'All that time, it was me he wanted to see.. Linali-chan stays close, so naturally he'd be with her to have an excuse...' He chuckled quietly. His smile faded as he remembered the rest of their..meeting. "I don't know what made me do that," He mumbled, frowning. "Grabbing him like that, I practically tried to undress the poor boy right there.." He felt his face warm slightly at the memory of his actions, the feeling of Lavi's skin under his hands, the suppleness of his mouth...

He sighed, forcing himself to set it aside in favor of other, less perverted things. He knew that something would have to be done, and soon. The boy's parting jibe assured him that his..enthusiasm was not something to be ignored. Komui laughed, sitting up. "Well, I might as well get on with it," He said, standing upright. The movement brought on a wave of dizziness, but he shook it off and strode to the door.

Setting out in the direction of the boy's room, he wondered briefly if he should wait, but decided against prolonging the inevitable. 'No sense skirting the issue,' He thought, determined. 'He may have started it, but I went along willingly, more than I meant to.'

He failed to notice the odd looks he was receiving, engrossed in thought. The bootmarks on the back of his jacket meant little, compared to the intense need to confront the situation ahead.

Spotting the redhead's door, he faltered for only a moment before knocking firmly on the thick wood.

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Lav i jumped, startled at the noise. Dropping his book on the nightstand, he straightened his shirt nervously. Forcing himself to relax, he opened the door, smiling brightly at his guest. "Hey, come in! Linali said you probably wouldn't.." He tapered off, meeting the older man's eyes. "Be..long.."

Komui raised an eyebrow at his stare, wondering if he'd made a mistake. Lavi shook his head, motioning him inside. Closing the door he turned to face the man and indicated that he should make himself comfortable. Seeing that he intended to take the room's only chair, Lavi sat on the edge of his bed, his hands in his lap to avoid fidgeting as he thought of how to begin.

"So," He said, smiling cheerfully despite his unease, "Where did you want to start? I was thinking that I should apologize for yelling, even if I meant what I said." Komui nodded, grateful that there would be no repeat of their arguing.

"That's all right, I should have been a little more quiet myself." He looked away, wondering if he should say what was on his mind. Deciding that there was nothing more important at the moment, he smiled slightly. "I don't know what I think of this. I hadn't thought of anything but Linali for so long, it never occurred to me that there was anything else worth having." He stared at the wall, speaking calmly. "You've really been trying, haven't you? It must have been hard, knowing that you would have to say something drastic to get my attention."

Lavi shook his head, his smile wistful. "It was awkward, but not really bad. I just couldn't bring myself to say anything to you. It was never the right time, or there was someone there, you know." He sighed, drawing a look from the man. "I wanted to, but I was worried that you'd think I was crazy. That's why I asked Linali to help, because she knows you better than anyone." He laughed, remembering the stunned look on the girl's face when he'd first approached her for advice. "She told me I was crazy. I kept at it, and finally got her to talk seriously. She told me that playing games wouldn't work, that I'd have to come straight to the point."

He carefully omitted the fact that Linali had said that her brother was 'too dumb to notice on his own,'. The thought had occurred to him as well, but he'd ignored it. looking at his clasped hands, he sighed quietly. "Do you think I'm crazy?"

Komui shook his head firmly. "No. I'm the resident expert on insanity, and believe me, you can't possibly come close to some of the things I've seen and done since I came here, Lavi. There's nothing wrong with caring for someone, even if it's a person that doesn't notice at first. I..." He stopped, laughing to himself as he continued. "I actually can't say that I didn't do my fair share of wondering, once."

Lavi swallowed, keeping his smile in place. "Wondering if there was someone for you, here? Or wondering if it was worth the trouble of looking?" The older man shook his head.

"I wondered if I could feel like that for someone. I concentrated so hard on keeping Linali safe and happy, but I couldn't stop her from growing up. The thought of her leaving me behind is.." He stopped, frowning. "I told you, she's really all I have left of our family. Every time I send her out there, I could lose her. If she stays here, and finds someone special, I'll still be left."

Lavi frowned, shaking his head. "That's not true. Even if Linali decides to be with someone, she'd never just leave you behind. You're just as important to her as she is to you, she just isn't afraid to let you live, Komui." The man jerked around, staring at him.

"Let me live? Does she think I'm holding her back from life, Lavi? Did she tell you that?" The youth backtracked quickly, waving his hands in emphasis.

"No! She never said anything like that. I meant that Linali wouldn't want to make you sad, and she doesn't want you to be lonely for the rest of your life. When you hover so close to her, it makes it very hard for her to meet someone. I know that you probably don't mean to do it, but you scare people sometimes." He smiled again. "I wish I had someone to watch out for me like that, sometimes. But I think that it would be better if they were there for me, not there to 'keep' me. Does that make sense?" He asked, quietly.

Komui started to retort, but closed his mouth as he understood. "You think she can take care of herself, without me 'lurking' over her shoulder? You're probably right, but every time I see some man fawning over her, I'm afraid that he might not be enough for her. Enough to protect and care for her, or strong enough in his love for her that he would die in her place, like I would. I want the best that life has to offer for her.." He laughed. "She deserves to have the best, just for doing what she does. Being my sister makes her ten times more deserving, in my eyes."

Lavi nodded in agreement. "Everyone feels that way about their siblings, and their children. But don't you deserve it too, Komui? The fact that you care for Linali over your own life and happiness makes you just as good. What do you want for yourself, besides this?" He gestured at the walls. "Linali would be happy to see you live. Being able to be there for you, and knowing that you've found your happiness, I think that would make her happier than anything."

He looked back, meeting the man's eyes squarely. "My feelings for you change nothing. Even if you were just some random Order member, you would still deserve to live your life and be happy. Everyone has the right to give and receive love, and to say that one person's happiness is more worthy than another person's is wrong."

Komui stared at him, speechless. 'Was he always like this?' He wondered, rising to his feet. 'Everyone says he doesn't think, that he's a fool, but he fooled them all..'

Lavi watched him stand, wondering if he'd said too much. The look on the older man's face was incredulous, eyes wide with seeming surprise. He stepped forward, and Lavi braced himself for whatever reaction the impromptu speech had wrought.

Komui reached down, gripping the boy's arm and hauling him to his feet. He winced at the glimmer of dread in his eye, as if he expected to be hurt. Shaking his head, the man spoke softly, his quiet words striking the Exorcist like the physical blow he'd anticipated. "You're right. Except for the most important thing."

He leaned closer, his gaze intent. "Your feelings, they change everything." He looked for a sign of protest, and found none. Crossing the final space between them, he covered the boy's surprised gasp with his lips, releasing his hold on Lavi's arm in favor of encircling his waist.

He pulled the still shocked Exorcist even closer, sliding a hand up to stroke his cheek as he pleaded silently for more contact. Lavi clutched his jacket tightly, feeling as if he might fall. The older man nipped gently at his lower lip, seeking entry, which he eagerly gave. Shivering, he forced his hands to relax against the bunched fabric, returning the other's embrace as he felt himself being pushed back down.

Komui noted absently that he'd lost his hat, but quickly forgot such trivial matters as the redhead moaned quietly into their kiss. Humming softly in reply, he urged the younger male to sit on the bed, breaking away for air. "I'm sorry that you waited so long," He murmured, his voice still low. "But thank you for waiting at all." He lowered his face into the junction of Lavi's throat, mouth travelling slowly over the dip of his collar as he spoke. "Stop me if you don't want this.."

Lavi laughed quietly, tilting his head to give his soon-to-be lover more room. "I want anything that you're willing to give. Don't worry about being pushy, I'm more than ready." He gasped at the sensation of teeth on his neck, his hand coming up to wind into the man's short hair in silent encouragement.

Komui sucked lightly on the tanned skin, relishing the salty taste. Pulling back, he reclaimed the boy's mouth, tracing the line of his lips before dipping in to taste him fully. Lavi responded with a growl, his tongue matching the older man's teasing with equal ferocity as Komui slipped a hand into his shirt.

His breath left him in a startled rush when the man lingered over a particularly sensitive spot, his fingers shaking slightly as he pushed at the heavy material of the man's coat. Moving back, he took a steadying breath. "Get rid of this." He demanded, tugging gently on the coat's lapel. Komui chuckled quietly, but complied, his hands leaving the warmth of his body for only as long as it took to remove the offending object.

Lavi sighed in relief, running his hands over the strong lines of the scientist's back through his thin turtleneck. "Much better," He mumbled, pulling the other close again. "Feels good.." He moaned appreciatively when Komui resumed his eager exploration of his skin, lifting the hem of his shirt to reach more. His own hands pulled the man's shirt out of his pants in response, his fingers slipping beneath to inscribe teasing circles on the slightly sweat-dampened flesh.

Komui nodded in agreement, his eyes closed in pleasure at the touch. "Raise your arms.." He murmured, sliding the boy's shirt over his head when he did so. He ran his hands over the newly exposed skin, lowering his mouth to nip at the line of Lavi's collarbone. Urging him backward, he joined the Exorcist on the bed, settling himself gently between his knees as he moved his lips down to the redhead's chest.

Lavi jumped slightly, his voice catching as Komui lapped at his skin, pausing to stroke his tongue over one of the boy's tightened nipples. Allowing himself to recline fully, Lavi arched into his touch, drawing up his knees as he pulled the man's body close with a broken sigh. Komui raised himself to his elbows, moving up for a kiss as he brought their lower bodies together. Lavi bucked up sharply, his cry muffled by the older man's mouth as he gripped his shoulders.

Komui groaned, the feeling of his partner's obvious arousal urging him on to near desperate levels. He moved one hand down to Lavi's hip, holding him close as he repeated his movements urgently, hearing the boy's loud moan of approval when he pulled back for air. "God, Lavi.." He gasped, shuddering with barely-contained need. "It's too soon for this," He panted harshly, shaking his head. "You deserve more than just a quick lay, why are you letting me.." He forced himself to stop, taking deep breaths to calm himself.

"I don't know what's wrong with me," He said, disgusted. "It's not right, to take advantage of you this way! Tell me to stop, Lavi, before I do something you'll regret." He lowered his voice, meeting the boy's gaze pleadingly. He tried to rise, but Lavi tightened his grip on his shoulders, holding him still.

"You aren't taking advantage of me, I want it as much as you do! Stop thinking like that, like you're doing something wrong.. After all this time, I'm not going to just let it go, Komui." He frowned in determination. "Is it because you don't love me? I already knew that when I told you how I felt."

The man stared at him, stunned. "You don't care? Don't you want that with someone who loves you, Lavi? I can't say that I feel like that, how could you just let me..?" He stopped, shaking his head. "You don't have to do this." He finished lamely, at a loss.

Lavi sighed quietly. "I know that. And I know that you don't love me. That doesn't matter now." Komui started to protest, but the boy stilled him with a look. "What matters is, are you willing to try?"

The scientist thought quickly, and then nodded hesitantly. "Yes, I want to try.. I don't know of anyone else that makes me feel like that, like I could let myself go. I think that in time, I could.." He smiled, relaxing into the boy's hold. "No, I know that I could come to feel that way for you. Is that all right?" Lavi nodded happily.

"That's all I want, I told you. I only ask what you're willing to give, Komui. If I have to wait a little more, that's fine. I just want to give you what you need, whether it's physical or emotional." The man shook his head in surprise, feeling almost grateful for the boy's willing nature.

"Thank you for that," He said, burying his face against the side of Lavi's neck. Resisting the urge to resume his.. previous activities, he nuzzled the redhead's throat affectionately as he chuckled. "I think we should try to take things a little slower, though. If you really want to be with me that way, then it should mean something for both of us.." He lifted his head, meeting Lavi's gaze.

Lavi nodded thoughtfully, then smirked mischievously. "I don't mind waiting for that," He said quietly, raising an eyebrow. "But what about other things..?" He teased, smiling at his own cleverness. "Is it too soon for kissing?" He asked innocently, tugging the older man down for a brief meeting of lips. Releasing him, he smiled.

Komui shook his head, eyeing him curiously. "I don't see why that would be a problem," He said, warily. Lavi maintained his innocent expression, biting his lip.

"Good. But what about touching?" He said, running his hands down the scientist's shoulders and back. Komui shivered, nodding slowly.

"That...Should be fine, too. And before you ask, no one's losing any clothing that isn't already off." He smiled at the boy's indignant expression. "You seem to be missing a shirt..Hm, I guess it's a little too late to say no to that.." He laughed out loud at Lavi's scowl.

"So it's just me, then? Or do you mean in general?" He smiled suddenly. "Well, turnabout is fair play. Off. Now." He waited expectantly. Komui shook his head, lifting himself to his knees.

"So demanding," He chided gently, but pulled the shirt over his head nevertheless. "Better?" He asked, smiling. Lavi nodded firmly.

"Much. Come back here, it's chilly."

Komui laughed, and complied. "Why do I feel as if I'm being manipulated?" He mumbled, shaking his head faintly in amusement.

Lavi smirked. "Because I'm just that good." He said, wrapping his arms around the taller man and pulling him down again...

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HOLY SHIT I finally finished it! (Ducks various heavy objects) Sorry it took so long, there's been a LOT of things happening since last time.. But, thanks to the threa..er, encouragement of some friends, I managed to put in a couple hours of thought and work to bring you the...thing of dubious quality that you just read. Hopefully, it will be well received. As always, comments are both welcome and greatly appreciated! Stay tuned for the next chapter "Inside Out", in which Kanda recovers, Linali plots, and Miranda gets abducted! Ja!

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