D. N. Angel Fan Fiction ❯ Blue Eyes ❯ Chapter One: Blue Eyes ( Chapter 1 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

Blue Eyes
By: Hikari Ice Angel

Disclaimer: Blah blah blah.....no ownage of D. N. Angel, or its characters....blah blah blah.

Note: I got the idea from a song by Within Temptation under the same name. I believe there currently is an amv about Satoshi under the same name on Youtube. So if I were you I'd check it out.

A/N: Bonjour! It's me again, Hélène! I've been pretty busy lately, and unfortunately I've only had enough time to write a small bit of one-shots. Yeah sorry for not updating 'Forbidden Love', but I'm having writer's block. It's kinda hard to update when you have writer's block. But have no fear! I will continue to update my fan fictions even if it takes me to start getting death threats in order to update!I also had exams and stuff so yeah. My birthday was the 23rd of January by the way! Anyways....

Ellesmera: Then you better ready the pitchforks. (sarcastically)

Hikari Ice Angel: What! Do you have no faith in me?!

Ellesmera: Exactly!!

Hikari Ice Angel: (Pouts) Your no fun. And I guess I haven't introduced you to her, but this is my inner-muse, Ellesmera. Here she is in the....mind? Flesh? (rolls eyes) I don't know. And as you can see she's very sassy.

Ellesmera: Sassy my ass. More like your alter-ego

Hikari Ice Angel: What did he do THIS time.

Ellesmera: He won't quit ranting about the bastard colonel this bastard colonel that. Wait 'til I give that boy a piece of my mind. Grr...! (fuming).

Hikari Ice Angel: Well whatever! Don't correct me! It gets annoying!

Ellesmera: Exactly. (smirks)

Hikari Ice Angel: Yeah.... (laughs nervously and scratches back of head) Now on to the story!

Ellesmera: Hikari Ice Angel in no way claims any rights for the one shot all she claims is for the creation of me, her muse. In other words don't sue her she has no money.

Chapter One

Blue eyes just smile to the world
Full of dreams and with fascination
Too soon she saw that her hands were chained and pulled without any freedom
It's always the same, they fear no way out
I cannot break it
I can take it no more

It's burning me up inside
Lost all my tears, can't cry
No reason, no meaning
Just hatred
No matter how hard I try
You fear the beast inside
It's growing, it's waiting
Just to hurt you

This heart was hurt by the light and
I see your world that tries to deny us
Now everything that I love has died or has been shattered to pieces
It's always the same, they fear no way out
I cannot break it
I can take it no more

It's burning me up inside
Lost all my tears, can't cry
No reason, no meaning
Just hatred
No matter how hard I try
You fear the beast inside
It's growing, it's waiting
Just to hurt you

Just to hurt you
Just to hurt you

Can't you see their eyes, what lies inside
They've given up, they no longer shine
Too soon they close with one last cry
Before they turn to light

Just to hurt you

It's burning me up inside
Lost all my tears, can't cry
No reason, no meaning
Just hatred
No matter how hard I try
You fear the beast inside
It's growing, it's waiting
Just to hurt you

Just to hurt you



Satoshi Hiwatari watched as the scenes repeated over and over again in his mind. Daisuke was now at home bed-ridden from the previous night of fighting that had occurred. The cold water of the shower washed down his back and burned the cuts and injuries that were carved into his skin by Krad's release. His face was down-turned; his body exhausted. He then looked at his hands, 'Why can't I control him? Why?!' he screamed in his mind, 'With these hands Daisuke was hurt. I'm a monster....' A soft tear floated to the surface and then choked sobs escaped his throat and ravage his body.

“Daisuke....” he whispered.

He felt as if he had failed him. “Why?” he asked, “why did I have to hold someone close to my heart? I thought I could protect him....I thought I could-I could.... finally be happy. But I failed....miserably.” then his eyes closed, he lifted his head up to the falling water, and felt it run down his face; washing away his tears. His broken self; his crumbling sanity the walls are closing in on him, and all seemed so useless to him now.

Satoshi switched off the shower water, and stepped out. Krad was sleeping, for his awakening that night had worn him to the bone. Satoshi walked towards the mirror and saw his reflection on the smooth, reflecting surface of the mirror. The mirror was enough to remind him of the monster he was, and of the monster that raged inside. He felt his anger begin to boil and rage, and for a second he felt as if he weren't worth living; he wanted to kill himself, and the thing that lived within his being. His fist shot forward and collided with the mirror; the sound of the glass shattering sounded throughout the bathroom. As if today couldn't get any worse for him; it just did.

Tears streamed down his face, and his cheeks were flush; blood dripped onto the floor from the open wounds in his hand, and fist. He looked down at the floor to where the blood was pooling, and stared into its deep red gaze. He looked up at the medicine cabinet. “It's time to end this....” he whispered into the air.

He opened the cabinet and looked into its contents; a glimmer of a razor blade caught his eye. He picked up the razor blade, and walked into the living room to his desk. He then found a pen and a piece of paper, “I might as well write a note to Daisuke to tell him I'm sorry.” his pen slid across the paper and formed his letter to his 'Betat Etam'(1), his one and only.

Niwa Daisuke,

I'm sorry for the pain I've caused you, and for whatever misfortune has come to you from knowing me. I guess you're wondering why this letter is being written to you, and I'm sure your curious. I want you to know something that I would really never admit in person. For some reason I opened my heart for you, and I have never done that for anyone before. You're the only person I will ever do that for. Over time I started to feel emotions, and because you got closer to me than mostly anyone ever has, I developed feelings for you. These are my last words, for the pain is too much; I can't deal with it anymore. I hope your happy one day. I wish you to be happy. Don't cry for me; it won't fix anything. I just want you to know. I'm sorry. I wish I could fix everything, but I'm not a miracle worker. Actually, I'm more or less a nervous wreck that some would consider mentally insane. Don't ever cry for me, Daisuke, don't ever cry. I wish we could have been even closer than what we are, but I guess all things that begin must come to an end. Don't forget me, because I won't forget you. I'll always watch over you like I always have. One day, your going to have a wonderful family of your own; I just know it. I'm sorry. I love you always. My heart will always belong to you and you only. Goodbye.

Yours Always,

Hikari Satoshi

Satoshi folded up the written letter, found an envelope, and placed the letter into it. He sealed it, and in his elegant handwriting wrote his beloved's name on the front of the envelope. “Goodbye, Daisuke.” He whispered.

Exposing his wrists, he looked at the pale skin of his arms. The razor blade came in contact with his skin and sliced through it. He pushed hard wishing for it to end quickly. Weakness began to take over him, and with the last of his strength he made an identical deep cut into the other arm. Dizziness hit him like a train. Looking at Daisuke's picture he whispered, “I love you, Daisuke....” and passed out with a gentle smile on his face as the last of his tears slid down his face.