Demon Diary Fan Fiction ❯ Butterfly ❯ Feeling's Mutual ( Chapter 4 )

Paine: I'm back with another chapter. I hope this story hasn't lost any of it's popularity… >.< Anyway, please r/r.

 

Butterfly

 

Warnings: Self-Mutilation, cross dressing, yaoi (boy/boy love), OOCness and (maybe) OC/OC

 

Special Author's Note: A tiny bit of Raenef's past is in this chapter. I, personally like the way I wrote it, and I've had this `beta-ed' by a friend from my school and they think it's horrible. I'm posting it anyway; I really like what I did, even if no one else does. ^^ lol, Okay, now be nice and read!

 

Chapter Four: Feeling's mutual

 

Raenef couldn't believe it. He stood in the doorway in shock. His brain was still trying to register what he'd just heard. Eclipse wanted him? Why on earth would such a god want a human not even worthy of existence? And what was that talk of `humans'? Why did Eclipse call him a human? All sorts of questions formed in his head and he wanted them answered. He placed a hand on the door and pushed it open, pausing for a moment to look at the two people in his room.

 

Rain looked as though she was trying to control ragged breathing, her cheeks looked flushed, as if she'd just got done screaming at someone; Raenef fought not to smirk at this. She was trying so hard to look as though nothing had happened, but with her current state and Eclipse's dazed look on his face, even Chris or Erutis could tell something had happened. So, the crystal eyed youth decided to push it.

 

“What happened?” He asked, raising an eyebrow, which sat upon dead eyes. “I heard shouting…”

 

Rain sweat dropped and rushed to the ps2 where she snatched up the controller and loaded a game on Raenef's copy of Final Fantasy X. Raenef let off a minute smile at this and went to sit by his best friend on the bed. For a few seconds everything was fine-until Raenef remembered that he didn't have an extra desk chair and Eclipse didn't have anywhere to sit.

 

“Um, Eclipse?” He asked. Eclipse's eyes flickered in his direction.

 

“Yes?” He replied.

 

Raenef bit a lip and glanced around the room. He couldn't sit on the floor, hell; Raenef himself was scared to sit on the floor. There were clothes everywhere, his make-up scattered in a corner, all of his video games were scattered on top of his clothes. In fact, the only clean place in his room was his bed. Rain suddenly moved from her seat on the bed, totally into the game, and sat on top of Raenef's mess of a floor.

 

It took him a few more seconds to realize Eclipse was still waiting for his response.

 

“Oh, you can sit on the bed next to me,” He said lightly. “I'm sorry my room's such a mess.”

Eclipse nodded and looked around the room. He didn't mind much, he'd always go into Rain's room and it was worse than this. At least you could almost see the floor in here. He shrugged and gingerly stepped over to the bed.

 

“It's alright.” He chided. The raven-haired teen did what was suggested and sat next to the lustful one. While Raenef watched Rain go into battle with Evrae (1), Eclipse was taking time to admire the other's beautiful blonde hair. It looked so silky; Eclipse wanted nothing more than to run his hands through it. His eyes widened as Raenef reached up and slowly removed his hair tie and shook his head, letting all of his luxurious hair flow down a little past his shoulders.

 

Eclipse bit his lip as the being next to him turned slightly to face him.

 

“Do you mind if I lean on you? I'm a little tired…” Raenef asked, innocence dripping from his voice yet it covered up his true intentions very well. Eclipse nodded and Raenef bowed his head in thanks. With that, he scooted closer and leaned against Eclipse's firm chest. He continued to watch Rain cuss at the television screen and gave off a small smile as he felt Eclipse's breathing.

 

Eclipse couldn't resist his chance and inhaled the little one's scent. Lavender and roses swirled into his nose and he smirked as images that were just a little inappropriate invaded his brain. Feeling a tiny bit braver, Eclipse slowly snaked his arm around Raenef's middle, resting on the blonde's stomach.

 

Raenef's breathing began to hitch and butterflies on a sugar rush were flying in his stomach. He couldn't believe that this was happening. His plan was working! Maybe, just maybe, he could get a taste of those beautiful, luscious looking lips.

 

Deciding to take that big risk, Raenef brushed one of his hands over Eclipse's thigh and let it rest there. The boy had no idea of what he was stirring in the other.

 

What is he doing with his ha- Eclipse's thoughts fell short and he strangled a moan in his throat, blood flowed into his lower regions and he felt warm all over.

 

Raenef slipped his hand from Eclipse's thigh and decided to be extremely daring. From all of the reactions he'd gotten, and the sign Rain had held up the first night she'd brought her brother, Eclipse seemed to swing his way; he wanted to make sure.

 

So, he allowed himself enough time to blink before he slid his hand to pet the other's crotch. Raenef didn't miss the deep hiss that rushed from Eclipse's lips or the wave of warm breath that tickled his ear. The younger teenager smirked, pleased with what he pulled out of Eclipse. Raenef tilted his head back to look at the lovely face that could only belong to the angelic being.

 

Eclipse felt Raenef squirm in his embrace and looked down to see if anything was wrong. His breath caught for the several time that night as his crimson eyes (2) locked in a trance like gaze with the dead crystal blue, with a faint spark in them. What Eclipse wouldn't do for those eyes to light up with emotion, to be able to look into those eyes and not only be lost in them as he was now, but also to see whirlpools of thoughts and desires.

 

Raenef's breath started to pick up pace as he noticed the gap between the tow of them was slowly getting smaller. A few moments passed and their lips were so close, that Raenef could feel Eclipse's ever breath against his cheeks, he shivered at the warmth it provided.

 

“God damned piece of shit!” The sudden outburst from Rain immediately sent the two out of their trance and away from each other's arms.

 

That was the fifth time she couldn't defeat Evrea when Raenef did it in one shot. “How can this be? I hate my luck!” Rain groaned, irritated with her lack of Final Fantasy skills. After a few seconds of lying on the floor wishing she could blow up the plastic piece of shit that was in front of her, she realized she needed to go to the bathroom.

 

“Hey guys, I-” She turned around to the bed where the others were sitting and found Eclipse with his head turned away, staring at nothing. Rain took a second to get a closer look and saw a faint red decorating his cheeks. An eyebrow rose on Rain's face, but she dismissed it.

 

“I'm going to the bathroom. I'll be right back.” Rain picked herself off the ground and walked toward the bathroom, shutting the door as she left the room.

 

When the door shut, the two teens left in the room returned their gaze to each other.

 

“That was too close for comfort.” Eclipse muttered. Raenef's face fell. His inside seemed to shatter into a million cols pieces. He did have a history of jumping to conclusions, and this moment wasn't an exception.

 

Eclipse felt like taking one of Rain's glass vases that she was so fond of and swinging it at his head. Eclipse you are an official idiot. Your lucky if he'll still talk to you. Eclipse stood deathly still, not knowing what he should do at all. Half of him wanted to walk away from the foolish young teenager, but his legs wouldn't let him. It was as if a force was keeping him bound where he was. His arms felt heavy, and so did his chest. All of this was foreign to Eclipse and he had no idea how to control it.

 

Only one thought registered in Raenef's mind. Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! He shook his head and quickly tried to get to the door. As his hand reached for the doorknob; in a motion as quick as a flash, Eclipse grabbed onto it. The young blonde's eyes widened, how in the world could such an act take so little time?

 

Eclipse bit his lip, a nervous habit of his. “Raenef,” His sultry voice spilled from his lips, as if begging the younger one. “Please, I didn't mean any harm by that statement.” When he didn't get and answer, he slowly raised his free hand and gently grasped Raenef's chin, slowly tilting it so he could lose himself in the crystalline sapphire hues, desperately wishing that he could see them sparkle with emotion, but all he saw was nothing.

 

“What must I do?” He asked breathlessly.

 

Raenef was puzzled. He just couldn't figure out this teen, no matter how hard he tried. The piercing crimson (1) gaze that kept him locked, that were slowly causing him to lose his mind, was filled with strong desperation. He tried to speak, but no words came. Gritting his teeth together, the blonde summoned everything he had to make his voice work, not knowing why his vocal cords seemed to be failing him.

 

“Make…what…work?” He cursed his voice for making him sound so young, weak even. Long ago when he was told his parents were dead, the first time he had slid a steel blade across his skin and let his crimson life liquid run from wounds that he himself had cut, he'd made a promise. A promise to never be weak. For out of weakness, his father had said, spawned failure and failure was the end of everything. His father saw failure as a reason to die, a reason to kiss one's life good-bye.

 

That was why he was never permitted to fail. And if he failed at anything he'd attempted, there were dire consequences. His father made sure of that. He'd yell at the blonde, even when Raenef was at the tender age of four when he'd first started to develop a personality, he remembered it to be playful, cheerful, and he was full of life. He had so many friends that he loved to play with, and like any other four year old, he'd loved to play outdoors and neglect to read the books his father gave him.

 

His father would beat him when he talked back or asked questions. Spurn him for every mistake when he was first trying to write. Took away his meals when he made a mistake during reading. Raenef never had a normal childhood. He didn't get to go to the movies with other kids his age, or act like a clown when he grew into his early adolescent years. He had to be quiet and perfect, the way his father wanted him to be.

 

Before Chris and Erutis came along, his only friend and companion was his mother. She was the gentlest person in the world. It seemed as though she lit up the room when she stepped into it. It was as if she was a gift from what his father called the heavens. It also seemed as if she possessed magic. When Raenef had trouble lighting a fire in the living room to please his father with the beauty of a glowing fire, his mother had created a perfect one with what seemed as a simple wave of her hand. When he wished for a piece of candy or a glass of water, she would place her arm behind her back and grab the item he wished for from thin air.

 

All of these memories of his parents also reminded him of the fact that they were dead. He was partly glad. He didn't have to endear the pain that his father inflicted on him. The terror that when he, Chris and Erutis became friends, he hid from them. However, this also meant that his mother, the angelic being that had promised to stand by him every step of his life and more, was gone. The one thing at the time that kept him sane and happy was no longer with him. And the terrible feeling that their deaths were to blame on him. He knew that he was the main reason he's been phoned at school on his middle school graduation day to find that his parents were found both lying dead on the floor of their living room when the milk man came to drop some milk and found the front door open. He carried all of the memories and everything that he endured in his life to himself.

 

Then he also met Rain along with Chris and Erutis.

 

The girl that had the same problem, a father who wished she would just die. The life that seemed almost exactly like his own. The one who made sure that no matter how many times he greeted a blade that he wouldn't die. She shared his obsessions and had his dislikes. She was the reason he wasn't lying somewhere dead from a self-inflicted wound to the wrist.

 

Chris and Erutis were introduced shortly after he met Rain. They were both light in his world. Two more reasons he should stay alive and healthy. He could think as morbidly as his little mind wanted to think and the two other teens would still stand by him and support him.

 

All of these thoughts made Raenef's vision blur and he realized his eyes were tearing up. He made no attempts to smite the warm drops of emotion as they slide down his cheek. All of his pent up emotions had gotten to him at that moment, and he felt like just breaking down and crying, an action that would've gotten him a smack in the face if his father had seen him like this.

 

Eclipse was stunned. He hadn't answered Raenef's question, knowing the younger one wouldn't hear him. He simple stood by and watched the small inner conflict the blonde was fighting inside. His blue orbs had glazed over and his eyebrows creased, causing him to still look almost dead, but also sad.

 

When the first tear dripped from Raenef's eye, Eclipse immediately felt as if he was the cause of it. That somehow he'd upset the other, and now he was paying for it. Eclipse now had no train of thought, no rational thought registered in his mind. His knees caved in and sent him kneeling to the ground. The hand that had been occupied with holding the pale boy's cheek was quivering from fear. His thumb unconsciously moved to spread the now freely running tears, making them disappear into skin.

 

“Raenef,” He finally decided to speak, however his voice was very shaky. “I…I didn't mean to cause you distress, the last thing I ever…ever wanted to do was cause such tears to run from such beautiful eyes.”

 

Raenef could barely believe his ears. “Beautiful eyes?” He shakily asked, wondering if his ears were playing tricks on him. “What are you talking about?”

 

Eclipse allowed his gaze to drop to the ground and a chuckle to erupt from his throat. He summoned his strength and lifted himself from the ground, almost towering over the blond youth seeing that the crimson-eyed teen was a foot taller than the other.

 

“Yes Raenef, beauty. It radiates from you, intrigues me, and draws me to you. Everything you do, every move you make, every time you speak, it is a picture of grace and elegance painted before my very eyes. I've only known you for at least a day or two, the only things I know of you are what we've shared and what my sister had told me, but,” Unintentionally, he leaned in closer. “It appears I'm already smitten by you.”

 

A tiny giggle passed Raenef's lips. “You talk like you're from England during the colonial era.” His jammed in his throat as Eclipse leaned forward a miniscule amount more and used an arm to brace himself against the door to keep him from falling onto Raenef. The said boy's heart was beating a million times faster than usual, butterflies on a mixture of speed and crack were zooming around his stomach, causing there to be a slight hitch in his breathing.

 

“Are you…” He began, only to be cut of by the mysterious older teen.

 

“Going to kiss you?” Eclipse finished the unspoken thought and gave a slight nod. “Yes, Raenef, I am.” With such simple words, he leaned in closer and closed the gap.

 

Raenef gasped at the touch; his eyes widened. He'd been kissed before, but this was different. A simple touch of lips sent jolts down his spine and made him fell very much alive. A tingling sensation swirled in his gut and he mewed into the kiss. His hands snaked their way around Eclipse's neck and his eyes slipped closed. The wet sensation against his bottom lip told him that it was Eclipse, gently asking permission to ravish the blonde. Raenef lazily slipped his mouth open and allowed Eclipse full access to him.

 

Eclipse wasted no time a slipped his wet muscle into the hungry teen's mouth. He ran his eager tongue over the others', and caused it to spring to life, as if it had been waiting for so long to be used. There was no fight over dominance, no hungry lavishing. Just a dance, full of passion from both ends of the engagement, and strangled moans became so loud, Eclipse was sure that whoever passed the door would surely hear what was going on.

 

Soon, they parted for much needed air, but Eclipse wasn't finished. He slowly began to trail kisses down Raenef's neck, biting and sucking wherever there was room. Raenef let out a breathy moan and clutched to Eclipse's jacket. Eclipse smirked into the pale skin, and darted his tongue out to slowly slide a trail to the other's ear.

 

“I was serious, you intrigue me very much.” He whispered. He pulled away to see clouded eyes and feel heavy breathing when-

 

The door came crashing open.

 

Sending the two lust struck teens plummeting to the ground.

 

“Hey guys, sorry I took so-” Rain had come prancing back into the room only to find the two very embarrassed teens in a tangled mess on the floor.

 

“Long?” Rain finished he statement yet made it sound like a question. She blinked, as if she didn't believe her eyes.

 

“Wow,” She said.

 

“May I help you?” Eclipse asked, his voice slightly muffled due to the fact that he had Raenef lying on top of him.

 

Rain just released a few nervous giggles.

 

“I was just leaving.” She said in her sheepish tone that made her sound as if she'd won a battle that she'd fought very hardly in. She flashed Raenef a smirk and a wink before leaving and closing the door behind her, leaving the two teens to untangle themselves and try and figure out what the hell just happened.

 

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Paine: Okaaaaay, that's it for chapter 4. Took a long time, huh? LoL! Please R/R, and please, be nice ^^; <3 you guys, and see you later!