Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ 9 - The Right Kind of Wrong ❯ Chapter One ( Chapter 1 )

The Right Kind of Wrong

By Quincy Burney

PART 1

He saved me. Matt - The Keeper of Friendship, my brother, saved me from a fate most awful. The Digimon Emperor used his vile powers of manipulation to turn me against my own team of Digidestined. Oh God, how I still hate myself. However… There's still one thing that gives me comfort. Matt's kiss…

A long time ago, about five years, I had asked Matt why he had fallen in love with Tai. Kind of a hard question to answer when it's coming from the innocent little seven-year-old that I was. When I had received an adequate answer from my brother, I had a thought. I wanted to know what a kiss felt like. I knew I couldn't kiss Kari, I didn't like girls in that way at the time. So I kissed Matt. Kinda weird, huh? And the funny part was, Matt kissed back. And might I add that they were pretty long kisses. In fact, the second time I kissed him that particular evening, I slid my tongue into his mouth. It felt kinda cool actually. Don't ask me how I knew I knew to kiss him like that, it just came naturally. It came just as naturally as the next time five years later when Matt pulled me out the dark spell that consumed me. He kissed me hard. I kissed him back - tongue included. Right in front of my boyfriend Davis, too! It was kind of strange after so many years, but it made me remember how much I'm loved. And now, being twelve years old, and also being in love with Davis, I've gained quite a bit of insight to the matter. For I indeed, have fallen in love again. Only this time……………… with Matt!

I know it sounds crazy. A boy falling in love with his older brother while at the same time having a boyfriend of his own. Does that seem whacked out to you? Oh well! Whatever it is, I'm sure it isn't so bad, I mean, Matt did say that him and I have a brotherly love that's second to none, and Davis and I are madly in love with each other. Either way, I don't see a down side.

This is my story………

The dawn broke through my open curtains and washed my face in it's earthy warmth. I squinted my eyes in the brightness of the morning glare as I slowly sat up in my bed. Patamon slept soundly beside me, curled up in a cute little ball. I smiled to myself when I then remembered all the times Patamon had slept loyally by my side. I reached over with my hand and gently stroked his little head, "I love you, Patamon!" I said softly.

I ever so carefully crawled out of bed and went over to my chair across the room. I picked up my white T-shirt and slid it over my head. I walked over to my door and took down the housecoat that hung there and wrapped it around myself. I then walked into the bathroom to wash up. When I came out, I was greeted by my brother who had awoken before me. "Hey there, TK!" He said with a grin. "Hi Matt!" I replied happily. When I attempted to take a step to get past him, he suddenly took me into his arms and hugged me tight.

"Lovely morning!" He said in a soft tone. "Yeah!" I replied simply. Right then, I felt something… It was like I got a warm, fuzzy feeling inside of me that was like nothing I'd ever felt before. I felt compelled to return my brother's hug. And I did as I slowly wrapped my arms around him. I rested my head on Matt's shoulder in such a way that it felt like this so much more than brotherly embrace would never end. It was a moment that led me to my realization. I was in love with Matt. The way I felt as he held me in his strong arms, and the slow, audible beating of his heart, were two of the most beautiful things I'd ever felt and heard.

"Matt…" I said, becoming a bit apprehensive with my newfound revelation. "Yeah?" He said, "Why are we like this? Why are you and I unlike any other pair of brothers?" I asked. "Because we have the strength to love each other." Matt said. "That's good to know!" I said almost in a whisper. "I love you, TK!" Matt said. "I love you too, Matt - my brother!" I said as I snuggled my head against Matt's shoulder and pulled myself closer to him. Matt kissed the top of my head and let out a long, soft sigh.

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That night, as I lay wide awake in my bed, I couldn't help but think about Matt and Tai. They had first fallen in love with each other when they were about my age. It was back in the Digital World, while they were still battling the Dark Masters. Ever since then, Matt and Tai have been together as a pair - inseparable even by death. That was even proven when Piedmon almost succeeded in killing my brother, until our Digimon came to the rescue. It was an occurrence that only deepened their love, and strengthened their bond. I was happy for him.

But now, with this deep and passionate love I was feeling for him, and the deep and passionate love I hold for Davis, it didn't seem right. How could I be so in love with my own brother, when I have a boyfriend of my own. Not to mention the fact that my own brother himself is in love with someone else. It was silently driving my crazy. I couldn't help but start to cry as I lay in bed. As I sobbed, Patamon awoke, and came to my side. "TK? What's wrong? Why are you crying?" He asked with genuine concern, "I… I'll be all right! Don't worry about me!" I said, trying to choke back my tears. "TK, you know how much it breaks my heart to see you cry." Patamon said in a sad tone. He was right… I had to tell him…

"Patamon… Can you keep a secret?" I asked, still in tears. "Of course, TK! I'll keep any secret for you." Patamon said assuredly. I paused a moment before coming straight out… "I've fallen in love with Matt!" I said, preparing myself for a gasp of horror from my little Digimon partner………nothing………I open my eyes, to see Patamon's big baby blues staring me in the face. He didn't have an angry look, and he didn't have a look of disgust, but… more of a look of sadness. "Is that why you're so upset?" He asked. I nodded my head, a tear rolling down my cheek.

Patamon closed his eyes, opened them again, and cuddled up even closer to me. "TK, there's nothing wrong with falling in love with Matt. He's a wonderful boy. But, what about Davis? Don't you love him?" Patamon asked, I nodded. "Yes! I do love him. He's all I've ever loved…until now. I'm going crazy. How am I supposed to retain my sanity when I'm in love with two different boys who both mean the world to me?" I asked in morose. "I don't know. But whatever happens, you know you'll always have me, whenever you need me, TK." Patamon said comfortingly. "You're right, you're absolutely right Patamon! I always will have you won't I?" I asked, trying to put on a smile. "Yeah!" Patamon said cheerfully.

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It was a few days later that I decided to tell Matt how I felt about him. It didn't go quite as I expected it to……………

I had sat him, Tai, and Davis sit down together so I could get it off my chest to all three of them. I figured it would be a matter of integrity to have Tai and Davis hear this from me, and not from my brother later on once I've told him. I said the words…no response at first…then Tai spoke up. "TK, why didn't you tell us sooner?" he asked. "I was afraid of what might happen if I told you too soon. I thought you'd get angry with me!" I said ashamedly. "Oh TK! I could never be angry with you… you're my friend." Tai said. I admit, it was a bit reassuring.

Then Matt spoke up, "TK… I wanna know… have you told anyone else about this?" he asked. "Only Patamon!" I replied. Matt nodded his head. Then, I knelt down in front of Matt. "Matt, I want you to know how I came to this…You remember when I kissed you all those years ago back in the Digital World? It wasn't just a matter of wanting to know what a kiss felt like, it was because I loved you so much more than a brother. Ever since you cam around and started spending more time with me and being more of a brother instead of a parent, I've been so grateful to you, and so loving toward you. It was like I'd found a person who I could come to in anything. Say anything to…someone I could love."

I saw Matt's eyes swell with tears. "Matt, when I kissed you that night, it was because I wanted to. Mom told me only girls kiss boys, but I didn't care. I may have been only 7 years old then, but I knew what I felt. I felt like I wanted to be close to you - physically. I wanted to have your arms around me. I swear Matt, falling asleep in your arms that night was the closest to heaven I thought I'd ever get. But when you kissed me these few days ago to save me from Digimon Emperor's spell, the memory of that kiss 5 years ago flooded my mind and made me realize exactly what kind of love I felt for you… I'm in love with you, Matt!" A tear rolled down my cheek as my in-depth confession drew into the open.

Matt closed his eyes, lowered his head, and ran his hand through his hair. "TK… I… I don't know what to say. In fact, what am I supposed to say? What could I say that would make any difference to you? You tell me, TK!" he was sounding a bit shaky. I looked over at Davis, and my heart sank as he too was in tears. He stood up and started to walk away, I rushed up and laid my hand on his shoulder. "Davis…I know this looks bad. And I know that you'll probably never wanna talk to me again, but I want you to know that…" I could say no more as Davis whipped around and slapped me across my cheek. My head was jerked to one side so hard, my hat was thrown off my head and across the room.

Matt suddenly shot up from his seat to defend me, but Tai kept him back. "Davis…I deserved that. Didn't I?" I said as I gently rubbed by cheek which still stung from the impact of Davis' hand. "TK…You know I trust you…You know I love you more then life itself, but I seem to have difficulty taking in the supposed fact that you're in love with your own brother." Davis' stare was cold and malicious. I couldn't blame him. "You're right!" I said as a tear rolled down my cheek, "I'll understand if you never wanna forgive me." I said softly. Just then, Davis' eyes softened. He huffed out a sob as he threw himself into my arms. "TK…I'm so sorry…I didn't mean to hit you…" He cried out. I instantly wrapped my arms around him and held him close.

"It's OK, Davis! I deserved it."…"NO…No you didn't! I should've been able to control myself and I couldn't." Davis sobbed uncontrollably. "Davis, it's all right now. We'll find a way to work it out. I promise." I tried to hold back my tears, to no avail. "I love you, TK…I love you so much!" Davis proclaimed. "I love you too, Davis. I'll always love you." I said before melting into our embrace. Matt walked slowly up to Davis and me and wrapped his arms around the both of us. He whispered into my ear. "Well, find a way, TK. I promise!" He said.

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A few weeks later………

"Oh… Oh God, Matt!" I moaned as Matt sucked harder on my rock hard erection. I moaned, groaned, and whimpered incessantly as my climax was drawing near. "God Matt, faster!" I said in another moan. Matt complied and moved his head up and down while taking in the supposedly sweet taste of my leaking pre-cum. "Uh…uh…uh…uh…uh…uh…uh" I trilled as I softly yet rhythmically bucked my hips, forcing myself further into Matt's mouth. Suddenly, my muscles tightened, I felt myself surging. I let out a scream of pleasure as I came in Matt's mouth. The bittersweet love liquid was quickly swallowed and Matt crawled up my sweating form and laid a hard kiss on my lips. When our lips parted, I gasped, "Matt… fuck me…" I said in a gasp. Matt said nothing, but simply raised my legs onto his shoulders and positioned himself. And as soon as I felt the sting of my brother's rock hard endowment sliding into me………I woke up.

…It was a dream… -_-

I sat upright in his bed, my brow beaded with drops of sweat. It had been the third time that week I had that same dream. It was starting to drive me crazy. I thought I was all done with this thing with Matt and me. It appeared that there was still more work to be done. Then, as I was laying back down, I felt something wet and sticky underneath my blankets. "Oh no!" I said in annoyance. Just as it had been the third time this week for having that dream, it had also been the third time that week that I had to wash the semen out of my sheets.

I huffed out a sigh, and slowly rose from my bed. Luckily, Patamon had been sleeping in the clothesbasket among all the balled up, comfy pile of clothing. It was indeed a good thing that Patamon had not slept with me that night. For he would have woken up to a very startling discovery. As I slinked my way to the bathroom for a small towel, I caught a glimpse of something down the hallway leading into the living room. I zoomed into the bathroom, and came out not a moment later, all cleaned up. I slinked back into my room, got dressed, pulled the sheets off my bed, and quietly disposed of them in the dirty clothes hamper.

Right then, I tip-toed down the hallway to see what was up. I peeked behind a corner. I saw Matt and Davis sitting on the couch with Tai. Tai said to Matt, "What do you plan to do about this thing with TK?" Matt paused, "I dunno!" he said in a sullen tone. It's been almost 3-and-a-half weeks now, surely this thing can't be as bad as it was. "I just don't know what to think, I mean, TK - my baby brother, has fallen in love with me. It's strange." Matt said. "Matt, I think you need to talk to him." Suggested Tai, "I already have." Matt replied. "Well, what happened? What did you talk about?" Asked Davis, "TK just talked to me about how he came to the realization that he was in love with me. He's done that already though, I need to know what HE plans to do. It's too easy for me to cope with this, I've been everywhere and back, there's nothing I can't cope with. But, I need to know how TK is coping, and what he thinks will come of this illicit love of his."

Matt was right, I guess. I had been avoiding it. I was just scared, I guess. "Does he try to avoid telling you these things?" Asked Tai, "Most assuredly! He seems uncomfortable with it." Matt exclaimed. "Well, I think you need to tell him that these things need to be talked about. You can't let him remain silent when there's something in him that needs to be expressed." Tai said knowingly. "What do you suggest?" Asked Davis. "There are a few things you could do actually. You guys could just come right out and tell him that this needs to be addressed and talk openly about it, or, you could write notes to each other if you're not comfortable verbalizing about it, or…" Tai paused.

"Or what?" Matt asked,

"Or you could……… see how deep the rabbit hole goes." Tai whispered.

Matt and Davis' eyes widened. It seemed like they knew what Tai was talking about. I remember hearing Tai use that expression before (and hearing it in "The Matrix") and Matt seemed full aware of the meaning. And Davis looked as if he too knew what was going on. However, I didn't have a clue. "Are you serious?" Matt asked, "Matt, I'm always serious. But…you don't have to do it like that, I mean, it's unorthodox and probably not the most conventional type of therapy." Tai said. I noticed a perplexed look on Matt's face as Tai explained this to him. I guess it's a first that Tai's so knowledgeable in affairs such as this. I wonder where he gets his information.

**** Matt's POV ****

TK's in love with me, and no doubt will have fantasized about me. Maybe I could use 2 methods together. I know he won't wanna talk about it, so I'll use the note method, and if an empass is reached, perhaps I could take a peek into the rabbit hole. But if I do that……I'd be betraying Tai. However, it was Tai himself who suggested it. Logic would state that such a circumstance would suggest the he would be all right if I did it. I'll have to ask.

**** Davis' POV ****

TK's in love with Matt. What's gonna happen? What possibly could come of this? What'll happen to TK and me? I can't lose him! I need him…

**** Tai's POV ****

I hope this works…Matt and TK, practically are more than just brothers. Well…they ARE brothers, but…not the usual pair of brothers. This all seems like too much for everyone to handle. Something has to be done, or we'll all go crazy.

**** Back to TK's POV ****

"Tai?" Matt said,

"Yes, love?"

"If Davis and I do decide to explore the rabbit hole, wouldn't it be a bit like us betraying each other? I mean… It does mean that we both would have to have sex with him at the same time." My eyes widened. "Matt, whatever you need to do must be done. And whatever you need to do is completely all right with me." Tai said assuredly. "Even having sex with TK?" Oh…My…God!!! I thought, "Yes! Even if it means that you must have sex with him." Tai said.

By now, I was shivering like a leaf in the wind while at the same time, feeling a tightness in the crotch of my shorts. I drew back from the corner and leaned on the wall behind me. Oh my God…Oh my God…I though as I felt myself start to feel hot under the collar. I ran upstairs, slammed my bedroom door behind me, I jumped onto my bed and buried my face in my pillow. I turned over and looked at the ceiling. I had to stop my hand from resting on my crotch. It was really starting to ache down there, but I had to control myself. Besides, Patamon's still in the room.

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