Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ China dalls that Don't Shatter ❯ Healing ( Chapter 8 )

Here is the last chapter and I'm sorry that it's short

China dolls that don't shatter

Chapter Eight: Healing

By KellyQ

It has been two months since the incident. Lee's strong enough to go home so that brings me to the present day of February 20 staring out the window. We are both still trying to rebuild our foundation that the so-called-Doctor tried to destroy in the first place.

It still angers me to no end what happened. Lee still has the nightmares of what happened at times and I have to be patient with him (meaning sleeping on the couch). I have no problem with that though. It gives me a good excuse to look out the big window and look at the lights at night.

Now don't think that he doesn't trust me at all; I know the reason for all this. He doesn't want to hurt me and if he's not ready then I'll have to wait until he is. I still kiss him goodnight and tuck him in and stuff but other than that, he's still fragile to me and I have to be careful.

"Takato-chan, what are you doing up?"

I turned to see my boyfriend walking up; he stood next to me looking at the lights. We stood there in silence, it was nice to share it with him but something told me to keep my hands to myself even though I really wanted to my arms around him resting my head on his shoulder but I doubt that he'll let me.

"Thinking again?"

"Can you blame me?" I said turning around sitting back on the couch.

"Takato-chan, I really wish you stop blaming yourself."

He walked up as I laid down pulling the covers to my chest. He sat next to me still looking out the window. I sat up tempting to hold him but I can't, fear that he'll flip out. Damn that Clench, I thought as I turned my head looking back at the window. He just had to make things just miserable for us!

I sighed, trying to hold back some tears. Why do things have to be this way? I know that I have no choice but wait until he trusts me to touch him. I felt a hand on mine; I turned my head to see that he was finally looking at me softly. I wanted to so much to hold him, touch him so that his would forget his pain. I couldn't help but look away, feeling bad all over again. I really wanted Lee-chan to trust me but it's going to be awhile.

"You're made at me, arrant you?"

"I'm not mad," I said finally looking back at him, "I'm just mad at myself for not realizing it sooner."

"Takato-chan, will you please stop blaming yourself. What happened has happened ...."

"It's easier said than done," I said looking back out the window, "but you better get to bed before you get a chill."

"I ... I love you."

I started to feel rotten after he left. He sounded so helpless and hurt when he said that, I got to up walked down the hallway and knocked on Lee's door. I waited for a reply but there was none, I bit the bottom of my lip as I walked in. He sat up as I closed the door behind me.

"Lee-chan, I'm sorry for being a jerk," I sighed sitting next to him.

"No, I'm the one who's really hurting you."

"No you're not ..."

"Don't lie to me! I know what you want ... and ... well ... I'm not ready yet. I hope you understand."

"Of course I do," I smiled getting to my feet, "I'll so you in the morning."

I was half way to the door when he got my attention again got out of bed and toward me.

"What I meant was that I'm not ready to make love. That doesn't that I don't want you to stop touching me. I love it when you touch me," he said leading me to his bed, "besides, it's cold when your not next to me."

"You sure you want to do this?" I asked climbing in the bed next to my boyfriend.

"Takato-chan, when Clench raped me, he took the one thing away from me ..."

He was trembling in fear, reliving the nightmare. Damn you Takato, I thought, why do you have to bring up it making him feel helpless. I got out of bed saying that it would be better for me to sleep on the couch. I felt trembling hands grip my arm. I looked back to see longing in his eyes as he scooted closer to putting his arms around my neck.

"This is what he took away from me .... my trust in the one person I love."

I put one arm around his waist and the other on the back of his head as he kissed me. I tried to scoot away so that I could lie down but he had me, Lee looked at me with a smile on his face saying that he wasn't going to let me go and that I was his prisoner.

I couldn't help but chuckle as I kissed him; he laid on his back as I rolled on my side to rub his back. I paused when I looked at his face, he looked so sweet, innocent and beautiful. A sigh except from my lips, I guess I'll never understand how people could hate someone so beautiful. I leaned closer still having my hand on the middle of his back and kissed him on the cheek.

"Good-night my angel." I whispered in his ear.

THE END