Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ Chocolate Ice ❯ Chapter 2

Matt definitely was not at all happy after his phone conversation with Takeru. She'd have to mince words with the young blonde later. Now, she had to have a nice, LONG, and probably harsh, talk with a certain Taichi Kamiya. She'd dropped her bags off at home before marching to the brunette's house and knocking on the door.

"Hello. How can I help you?" asked a girl just a bit younger than her.

"You must be Hikari," Nikki said with a small smile. "I'm Nikki, I'm a friend of Yamato. I have to talk to Taichi ASAP."

"He's up, surprisingly. Come in," Kari said opening the door more for her. Nikki removed her shoes and then followed Kari to Tai's room where the young brunette girl gave her access.

"Hello, Tai. We need to talk, NOW. No if, ands, buts, `no's or anything else except `yes Nikki we do need to talk.'"

"Who says?" Tai asked from where he was laying on his bed.

"Me!" Nikki said grabbing his shirtfront and bringing him to standing position, startling the soccer player a moment.

"Your Matt's friend, Nikki aren't you?"

"Yeah. And you're the bastard sending him spiraling into an unfathomable depression. Now that we're past the introductions, tell me exactly and in complete sentences why the hell you've been avoiding Yama!"

"What's it to you?" Tai asked her, his eyes looked slightly dead.

"My best friend, no he's more like my brother is so fucking depressed right now, I can't even be a tiny bit happy that I've been asked out! I have a slight problem coming over to his house and seeing him so depressed that he can't even pretend to be happy! He's wallowing in freaking triple chocolate chunk fudge swirl ice cream with caramel and butterscotch toppings! HE'S THAT DEPRESSED! And I feel that I needed to do something!" Nikki told him.

"Look. I'm glad you're all concerned and shit. Here," Tai said shoving a letter at her. "It should explain everything to Matt."

"No. I'm not taking it till you explain."

"I'm just trying to protect Matt."

"How are you protecting him? You're killing him!"

"Don't say that."

"Can't take the truth Taichi Kamiya?" Nikki asked sourly.

"No, it's not the truth. You can't believe how much it hurts me to not be near Yama…. It hurts more than anything! I can't be near him though… He'll get hurt and I'm not going to let him be hurt by me, even if he doesn't understand it now."

Nikki's temper flared and she turned him around and cracked him across the cheek leaving a bright red mark and a small welt from her class ring. "You little prick! I've had just about enough of this Tai! You say you don't want to hurt Matt but when I say you're killing him you act like I never said it!" Nikki had tears in her eyes from rage and pain. "Matt has been my best friend since before I could walk, and I'm not going to let him wallow in depression and become suicidal all over again. It took me too many years to get him better after that!" she hissed out before covering her mouth in shock. She'd not meant to tell Tai Matt's second biggest secret.

"He's been what?!" Tai demanded glaring at her.

"We were nine I think.. He had downed a whole bottle of aspirin because of…that's not important. But he did. He took about fifty fucking painkillers and was prepared to cut his wrists if it didn't work." Tai turned ashen white. "I was the only one besides TK he'd talk to. He wouldn't even talk to his parents…"

"I have to get to Yama." Tai zipped past her.

"HEY! Wait for me!" she yelled following him.

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"I can't believe this… Twice. At least Tai won't be here to try and stop me…. I hope Nikki doesn't come back." Yamato was straightening the entire house. It was so spotless even a clean freak would be a little uneasy. He carefully drew a warm bath, and gathered a few things to make it `just right'.

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Nikki and Taichi ran down the street breathing heavy. They kept running a common thought suddenly in their minds which kept them running even when their bodies felt like tiring.

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Yamato lowered himself into the warm water and shivered against its warmth. He felt slightly guilty. Nikki, well she was going to take it hard. TK would be very upset. His dad… his mom? They didn't seem too upset the last time. Tai? He obviously didn't care. Yamato dunked his head under the water and came back up, hair with water crystals in it.

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"How are we gonna get in?" Tai asked as they neared the apartment building.

"Yama gave me a key a while back! I got it with me," she panted back. Tai nodded as they rounded the last corner and the building came into sight.

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`Why me? I only tried my hardest to love Taichi the best that I could… Why did he have to be so blind to me? Why did he even have to stop talking to me?' Yamato silently asked himself. "Why did he ever have to start?" he asked the water bitterly as tears streamed down. He picked up a razor and held it up so that light reflected off it in a rainbow. The colors rippled across his pale face, damp with water and tears. His eyes red from crying were dead, devoid off all life. In the background, a song played that seemed so fitting. Matt drew in a deep hiss of pain as the blade bit into the skin of his thigh ripping it open and beginning to turn the water a pale pink. He started to make other cuts on his legs while tears of pain and sorrow flowed from his eyes. "Taichi… Why?" he sobbed.

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Nikki and Taichi started to take stairs three at a time in places. They were flying up the stairs, praying they weren't too late.

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Metal bit savagely into pale, creamy arms. More blood flowed freely from the wounds and the water was now a sick red color. Matt began to laugh at it, finding it morbidly funny.

@@@@@@ Everything I am and everything in me, wants to be the one you wanted me to be @@@@@@

Nikki literally slammed into the wall when they were up the stairs using it to push herself towards Matt's apartment. "Yama!" she yelled hoping that he wasn't doing what she thought he might be doing. That he was okay…

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Yamato looked up with hazy eyes when he thought he heard his name. "No. Who would be here?" he asked himself. The world had black edges that kept getting bigger.

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Nikki clicked the lock open and Tai was in the house quickly not even bothering with his shoes. "YAMA-CHAN?" he yelled turning around desperately. Nikki ran over to look in his room. Tai headed for the bathroom door.

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"Taichi?" Yamato managed to whisper as he blacked out just as the door opened.

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"YAMATO!" Tai cried Nikki appeared behind him and screamed tears streaming down her face. In the background the song faded to an end and a soft sad melody started. It was depressingly ironic.