Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ Digimon Tamers: Kelly Style ❯ Pain and Longing ( Chapter 4 )

The story continues....

I'm sorry if I don't remember the names of the attacks of the Digimon so hang with me.

Digimon Tamers: Kelly Style

Chapter Four: Pain and Longing

By Kelly

(Lee's Pov)

I laid flat on my back on the bed staring at the ceiling after coming home from being at our hid out crying. I was glad that no one was home to see me look like a total wreck after what happened; I continued to lay there when the door opened and my sister came in holding a glass of Cool Aid in her hand.

"Come on sweetie," My mom said walking in, "why don't you help mommy with the dishes."

"Okay."

My sister turned and walked out when my mom asked me if I was all right. I wanted to tell her but I couldn't so I said was that I was tired. She turned and closed the door behind her. I was glad that she sent my sister out so I could clear my thoughts

My thoughts about Takato.

Why did he do that? He ruined everything! I thought I would be able to trust him but now I don't think I'll be able to trust him anymore. I started to be come angry....

"Thinking about Takato again? Lee, moaning and mopping is not going to get you anywhere..."

"Not now Terriermon," I grumbled rolling over.

"You just don't want to admit that you ran out on him when he needed you most, am I right?"

"That's enough Terriermon! It was not my fault that he said that he loved me right in front of his parents! It was his! I thought that I would be able to trust him with all my heart but now..."

"Give him a chance and I'm sure that things will become better if you think about it."

"I don't know ---- I wanted to trust him because I love him ---- but your right I didn't want to admit that I ran out on him when he need me the most and... and..."

"And what? Lee is there something that you're not telling me?"

(Terriermon's Pov)

I know that he's hiding something and doesn't want to bring it out. He started to flush again as I sighted. I hated when he's sad, it hurts me. I've got to get Takato and Lee back together; ever sense they became a couple I never seen Lee so happy and his eyes sparkle. But they are now clouded over with pain, sadness, and longing; longing to have Takato back, I can see it.

The only thing is how to get them back together without the two realizing that they were setup. Just then I felt something, I turned my head when there was a bright light and mist just down the street.

"Let's go Terriermon," Lee said as I jumped onto his shoulder.

(Takato's Pov)

I just pulled my goggles down in front of my eyes as Guilmon and I ran into the fog. The Digimon lunged right at Guilmon and started to role around kicking and biting each other. He finally kicked the Digimon off when...

"Spiral Strike!"

I turned to see Terriermon spinning around so fast that he looked like a small twister. Guilmon spat out his fireball and the Digimon was history vanishing into thin air.

I watched as Terriermon walked to Lee and he placed his Digimon on his shoulder. We both looked at each other for one moment; I finally looked away, a wave of emotions rushing through me.

"Lee, I know that I screwed up big time and I really want to make it up to you," I said touching his face, "I still love you ---"

"I...I gotta go..."

He stepped back turned and ran from me. I stood there unable to move; what have I done...now he doesn't want to be my friend. Tears slid down my cheeks as I dropped to my knees sobbing; I wanted so much for him to come back to me but now he hates me. I never thought that love could hurt so much.

(Lee's Pov)

Takato and I looked at each other for one moment, he looked away from me. I could see that his eyes were clouded over with pain and sadness. I wanted so much to hold him and tell him that I'm sorry but I shouldn't do that. I hurt him all ready and I don't want to hurt him anymore than I all ready have.

"Lee, I know that I screwed up big time and I really want to make it up to," He told me touching my face, "I still love you ---"

It felt good to feel his touch again but I can't let my emotions get the best of me. I pulled away saying I had to go.

I immediately turned and ran away from him; I could here him sobbing and it killed me so I ran even faster so I couldn't hear his sob. I stopped to catch my breath.

"Lee, that was really cruel!"

I continued walking home ignoring what Terriermon said, I walked in the door, straight to my room and closed the door. Terriermon hopped off my shoulder as I collapsed on the bed again trying to ignore the painful feeling I had when the phone rang.

"Lee, you have a phone call...I think it's your friend, Takato." My sister called to me.

"Tell him I'm not here!"

I really didn't care what she said as long as I didn't here his sad voice. My sister walked in one moment later and sat next to me on the bed.

"Lee, that was not fair that I had to lie to your friend --- he --- he was crying."

"Oh." I said still looking at the ceiling.

"Oh? Is that all you can say? What's changed you to be so cold, huh? You never been so cold to Takato --- what happened between you too?"

"Nothing happened..."

"Lire! I know how much you care for him..."

I couldn't hold it anymore and started to cry. My sister pulled me into a hug rocking me back and forth rubbing my back.

"You love him don't you," She breathed.

(Takato's Pov)

I got off the wet grass with Guilmon's help, he looked at me sadly and asked if I was all right. I patted his head saying that I needed to get home before it got any darker. He nodded his head walking back to his sheltered home; I sighed watching him leave. I really wanted to stay with Guilmon and tell him how I really feel deep down about Lee but he wouldn't understand anything.

I turned and walked all the way home. I didn't even bother saying anything as I past the kitchen up the stairs and into my room. I just wanted to curl up, sleep, and not wake up. I finally closed my eyes when the door opened and closed; I didn't bother to see who it was because I knew.

"Takato, we need to talk." My mom said gently.

I didn't answer but pulled the cover my head. I didn't want to face my parents; I was still mad at them for Lee hating me. They don't understand how much I valued our relationship and they broke it! Fresh new tears came down my face making a dark spot on my pillow.

"Takato, you got to understand," My mom said touching my shoulder, "we love you very much and the last thing we want is to see you get hurt."

I didn't respond, why where they making this harder for me? I just wanted them to except me for how I am even if I'm gay, deaf, blind or crippled.

"No you don't," I said coldly, sitting up as the covers trickled down my face, "you took the one thing...the one person from me that I loved!"

My anger was starting to get the best of me and that's when I lost it, my mom took a hold of me by the writs telling me to calm down when the pain in my right writs doubled where I cut my self. It hurt so much that I past out hearing my mother scream 'Oh, my god! Takato, you're bleeding!'

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