Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ Hidden confessions ❯ Depression ( Chapter 5 )

depression

Ken slowly walked to the couth and sat down.

It had been one day ago since Daisuke left, and he already felt stressed.

But why?

Actually I have no idea, but he knew Daisuke's departure had something to do with it. His parents would probably confirm his thoughts.

But of course he knew better than that. There usually are several causes of stress.

And Daisuke was coming back, he knew that. That idea was making it more bearable.

So only one question remains. What was causing this?

Maybe the idea that Dai wasn't there to support and comfort him when needed.

Ken sigh and closed his eyes.

Why is he so far away from me?

Why did his parents send him to a private school?…..Why?

"Ken?"

Ken turned his head aside to face his older brother.

`What?"

"Are you ok squirt. You look so pale and depressed"

"depressed? Was he depressed. Yeah maybe he was. But had it been so obvious?"

"No he lied, I'm fine Sam. I'm just a little tired that's all"

"You little liar, I know your feeling down because Dai left"

Sam crossed his arms.

"I understand, I really do, but please don't lie about it Ken"

"were here to you know"

ken smiled nodded.

"Thanks Sam, for everything"

Sam smirked and sat down next to his little brother and embraced his gently.

Ken lay his head on Sam's shoulder and started to cry. Sam stroke ken's hairs softly.

"It's ok" He whispered.

"will I?'

"yeah I'm certain"

"Don't worry, nothing will happen to you as long as I'm around"

"I'll protect you…………at any cost"

"Thank you" Ken whispered

"Love you Sam"

"Love you to, kid"

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Loss of hart

The therapy Ken was following was having effect. The walking was getting less painful. He also got quicker in running. He hoped that when Daisuke came back they could go on a date. A real date.

Ken could just see it happen,

A movie, candle light dinner and then a walk on the beach.

Ken blushed at the thought.

"Ken there's a letter for you, from Daisuke"

Ken hurried to the living room and grabbed the letter from his mothers hand.

"Thanks mom

And before his mother could say something he had already disappeared.

Ken quickly opened the envelop and pulled the letter out

Dear Ken,

How's everything going? I'm fine and I already got allot of friends. It's really fun here. The only thing I hate here is the fact that you aren't around.

I miss you so much, not a day passes by without me thinking of you.

I have a roommate you just have to meet.

His name his Masaja. He's very kind to me and I think we will become very good friends.

And I know what you might thinking now.

A roommate?!

Well Calm down Ken, he's way to young for me (giggle)

I really hope to see you very soon, and I will think about you allot and I hope you do the same

Loves Daisuke

Ken sigh while he read the last line.

I miss you to Daisuke and I don't know how long I can hold on without you

Ken looked at his desk,

He knew that there was allot of homework's laying there. He stood up slowly and opened one of his drawers. He lowered to grab a pen but the sight of a artifact laying next to the pen made him sick.

The artifact was sharp and shiny. Ken eyes widens. He quickly closed his drawer and tried to pay his attention to his homework.

`Don't think about it, just don't think about it' he kept repeating.

`keep your mind to the homework'

But his minds kept going back to the sharp blade.

"No it's to easy, just forget it, just think about how Daisuke must feel if he did it"

"Ken?"

"Yeah?! Ken looked around terrified.

He really hoped Sam didn't hear him talking to himself.

"What is it? He asked trying to sound calm.

"Ow nothing really, just came to see how your were doing"

"well I'm fine"

"your sure?"

"Yeah"

"But AI really need to finish my homework now"

"you do? Well I can help you if you like?"

"Sure" Ken replied.

"It's history, and we are talking about the second world war"

"war" Sam's voice sounded dreamily.

"Something wrong Sam?"

Sam shook his head as he snapped out of his daydream.

"Nothing Kenny-boy, so what do you need to know"

"Well I don't get why they are fighting"

"You don't"

"well it very easy though"

"it is?"

"yeah, the only answer is that they want more power"

"really?"

Sam nodded. "certainly"

"Can you do it by yourself from here?"

"Yeah, thanks Sam"

"your welcome Kid"

Sam walked to the exit but before he left the room he turned around.

"Ow Ken could you tell mom I'll be home later, I have to go to the library and to a friend next, but I will be home before dinner"

"I will"

"Thanks. Well I'm off now, see you later"

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Say goodbye to love

"Mom?"

"yeah what its it honey?"

"Sam told me he'll be home late"

"He did, well that's ok. Did he also told you what time he would be back?"

"No he didn't, but he said he'll be home before dinner"

"ow good, so that would be within an hour"

"well if you don't need me I'll be in my room then"

Ken looked hopefully at his mother. He really wanted her to ask him to stay and help her with the cooking.

But Unfortunately hope isn't always reality.

"Ok honey"

Ken looked at his mother and made a fake smile. He slowly started to walk away. But from the inside he felt like he was being torn apart. Why didn't she ask him to help her, they never do that. They always ask Osamu.

As Ken closed the door of his room the image of the knife crossed his mind.

Only the thought of it made him shiver.

I can't do that, our can I?

He slowly walked to his desk and opened his drawer. The knife was still laying on the same spot as he left it.

He reached out to grab it. The closer he came the more the doubt was growing.

Was this the right thing to do? Was this fair to Daisuke?

The knife now lay in the palm of his hand, ready to fall.

But then his hand closed holding the knife tight.

He held the knife upon his wrist, ready to push it down.

Ken took a deep breath and pushed. He felt a sharp pain pulling through his entire body.

"Daisuke" He whispered. "I love you"

He took the knife in his other hand from where the wrist was cut. He again lay the knife on his wrist and pushed.

He wasn't even feeling the pain anymore. It was like his body was entirely stunned.

Suddenly Ken lost all of the strength in his hands and the knife slipped out of his hand.

Ken felt a strong need to sleep. He lowered his head, while his body fell backwards.

He never remembered hitting the ground.

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Well I think the next chapter will be up very soon. Please review and tell me what you think.