Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ I Wish I knew ❯ why fate is cruel ( Chapter 8 )
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By: Taiorami 
Everyone is awake and cuddeling is in order. But first more angst and Kari being a kind of uber bitch.
Anime/Manga: Digimon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Horror / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 02.05.2002 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.4K | Visits: 394 | Status: Completed
Everyone is awake and cuddeling is in order. But first more angst and Kari being a kind of uber bitch.
Anime/Manga: Digimon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Horror / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 02.05.2002 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.4K | Visits: 394 | Status: Completed
I wish I knew: Why fate is so cruel.
Aww...You didn't really think I'd kill them did you? I would never hurt two of my four favorite bishis that way. (All we need here is Matt and Ken then we'd be set. Hey...there's an idea.) But no one died. That was just the sadist in me coming out. But it's all better now. I have thrown her into a cage of sorts and she probably won't pop up for a while.
Damn, that hurts...maybe running into the middle of the street wasn't such a good idea. But pain means I'm not dead right? Or am I in hell where pain in supposedly eternal? That would make sense if I believed in that type of stuff...
No, I hear voices. Familiar ones. Matt, Joe, Ken, my mom...so I'm not dead unless the world came to an end and we're all dead...yeah. But I don't hear the voice I want to hear.
I want to go back to sleep...but I'm not really awake am I? But it was better before. Everything was black and deep, easy to lose myself in. Now it's kind of gray and I'm here and it hurts.
I hate pain. Pain is the body's way of telling me I've gone and fucked something up again.
"Still not awake?"
That's the voice. Quiet and filled with underlying pain. Not a good thing, but it lets me know it's him. Gentle and promising, but with a hint of bitterness and the Doomsday complex. (You know, life sucks then you die? That's the doomsday complex in a weird kind of way)
A soft hand slips into mine and I can almost hear him smile.
"This is what you did for me right? Sat around and waited for me to wake up. Well I'm awake and now it's looks like I'm the on waiting. Karmic revenge. I worried you straight into a panic attack and now you're driving me insane. Or maybe fate is just cruel and we're the punching bags."
That's almost deep. You should write it down somewhere. You know remember that you actually said something intelligent once...that's really not funny when you aren't there to say something back,
"But if that's true then why the fuck is fate so cruel? I mean did we piss 'it' off at some point in time and just failed to notice the e-mail announcing that fate was now going to fuck with us forever?"
Well I sure as hell didn't get that letter.
"Or maybe fat's just cruel to me and you've gotten caught in the black hole that is my very existence. Wow...I really am depressed aren't I?"
Yes...almost frighteningly so.
"I think everyone's figured out we're dating by now. So much for keeping secrets right? So...no one else is around right now. Just you and me. And like a thousand other people in the hospital, but just you and me where it counts. Man I'm getting sappy."
Yes, you are. But I like it. I can use it to blackmail you later and it's a lot more pleasant then you being all depressing and stuff. It was starting to traumatize me.
"I heard you almost got hit by a car because of me. Because you thought I was dead, which by the way I'm not. Almost but not quite, my body didn't like all the drugs they were giving me so I rejected them. That's what happened, but I did wake up. I threw up for an hour afterwards but I did wake up."
Obviously. How else would you be here holding my hand and talking to me? I'm not stupid...say's the jackass who ran in front of a car and stopped.
"You shouldn't have done that. Because if you had gotten hit bay a car and died then what? You would have left me all alone and I had being alone and damn..."
Water...tears, fall onto my hand. Crying again? I've made you cry...this really isn't my day...or days or whatever. I am such an ass. Sorry sorry sorry.
"And I don't want to guilt trip you, that wouldn't be right. But I really need to tell you exactly how I feel and I think I'll do it when there's no chance of you rejecting me."
Sure, take advantage of the unconscious guy, what am I going to do about it? It's not like I can yell at you right now...for god's sake. If you weren't so cute you'd really get on my nerves.
"You know I already liked you, kind of. It just took me a minute to figure it out. But...it's like you've been the only person to really care about me lately and you don't criticize or yell or hit or try to hurt me. And I really appreciate that. And I just wanted to tell you that I umm...I'm in..."
You pull away suddenly and you're statement hangs in the air unfinished. Not fair! I wanted to hear the rest of that! I know what you were going to say and damn it, I wanted to hear it!
"Hi, Kari."
Bad timing Kari! Not that I'm not glad to hear from you, but could your timing possibly be any worse then it is right now? No...
"He still isn't awake."
"No."
Duh.
"And you're watching him?"
"No, I was just trying to find out how all these wonderful machines really work."
No he's watching to guy in the bed next to me! Hum...sarcasm...maybe great minds do think alike.
"..."
"Oh, quit that! You've been giving me evil looks for the past three days, what's your problem?"
You're giving my Dais-chan evil looks? Wait...Dais-chan...where'd that come from? And 'my' Dais-chan at that. I must be getting possessive. That can't be good.
"My best friend's in the hospital and it's your fault?
"It is not!"
"He never would have been involved in any of this if you hadn't dumped whatever problems you had on him. First you give him a panic attack, then you almost get him hit be a car! Some boyfriend you turned out to be right? You've almost gotten him killed."
"I didn't dump anything on him. He took on my problems because he wanted to, not because I asked for help. In fact I told him to leave it alone, but you know better then I do and you know that's the type of person he is! Nothing anybody could have said would have made him ignore am-or anyone else's- problems. That's not who T.K. is and you know it!"
"Maybe that's true, but you still landed him here. First by being stupid and putting yourself in a coma, then by scaring the hell out of him and making him punch out Matt and run into the middle of the street."
I punched Matt? I really don't remember doing that...wonder if he's mad at me. But what is she talking about? This is not the Kari I know, something is really wrong here.
"..."
Daisuke? Say something don't believe that! This is so not your fault. You didn't do anything on purpose! This isn't right. You shouldn't blame yourself.
"Well?"
"Go to hell. I didn't exactly wake up at three in the morning thinking 'Hey, who not put myself in a coma and see if I can freak T.K. out' nor did I deliberately develop some kind of allergy to the drugs they gave me so I could send my self into a seizure or something, because let me be the first to tell you that shit hurts." Deep breathe. "I didn't ask to hear voices late at night that try to drive me insane, I didn't ask to have parents that hate me, I didn't ask for T.K. to like me, and I didn't ask to be so depressed that I wish I were dead most days. Now, is there anything else you'd like to add?"
Kari stared at Daisuke her expression cold but it didn't exactly reach her eyes. Formally bright and sparkling the crimson pools Daisuke had once obsessed over were dim and almost...afraid. Like she wasn't in control and she wanted out.
She shrugged carelessly and walked out of the room, leaving a confused, tired, and, angry Daisuke behind. That hadn't been too unusual.
And now he had forgotten what he was going to do. Oh well, it couldn't have been too important if he had forgotten what it was already. But now he got to ponder what was wrong with Kari. She had never acted that way before. Not even when he had been bugging her so much that he would have slapped himself.
She had always smiled and tried her best to put him down gently. But ever since everyone, except Joe, Matt, Tai and Izzy, had come to the conclusion that he and T.K. were dating she had been acting real funny.
Maybe she had a crush on T.K. That would be a good reason to be mad he supposed. But she, along with everyone else, couldn't even be sure they were dating. Whenever someone asked he shut up and refused to speak until the subject was changed.
He had even done that to Ken and that was his very best friend. Ken knew almost everything about him, and the stuff Ken didn't know was the stuff Daisuke didn't want anyone to ever know.
Bright. White walls...still in the hospital of course. At least his head didn't hurt anymore.
T.K. sat up and looked around his gaze immediately settling on the sleeping figure that was his boyfriend. Daisuke was almost falling out of one of the hard plastic chairs and T.K. knew he had to be uncomfortable in it. He would have been anyway.
But he did look peaceful and T.K. didn't really want to disturb him. Maybe he should just wait for Daisuke to fall out of the chair...no that would just be mean.
Daisuke eyes opened slowly at the sound of a voice telling him to get up before he fell out of the chair. He blinked and his vision became clearer and he turned his head. T.K. smiled faintly then motioned for him to be quite. Ms. Takashi, Matt, and Tai were also asleep in assorted chairs and there was no reason to wake everybody up. They would all see that T.K. was awake soon enough.
"What took you so long to wake up?" Daisuke whispered, a smile lighting up his face.
"You act like I had a choice in the matter." T.K. said then winced at the sound of his voice. Dry and hoarse. Exactly the way everyone wants to sound when greeting their boy/girlfriend in the morning.
Daisuke snickered. "Want something to drink?"
"I'm fine." Daisuke nodded then looked at the ground. T.K. raised an eyebrow. "I don't even get a hug?"
Daisuke was out of his chair instantly, much to T.K.'s amusement. Daisuke frowned a little, wondering if this would hurt the blond at all. Apparently his thinking took too long as T.K. reached over and placed a kiss on his cheek then moved over to his mouth.
Daisuke smiled against T.K.'s lips before returning the kiss eagerly. T.K. pulled him even closer, he was almost in the bed with him now, as Daisuke's lips parted, granting his tongue admittance. Hands roamed freely as tongues tangled. T.K.'s hands were running up Daisuke's sides when he broke the kiss abruptly, almost sending his boyfriend crashing to the floor.
Daisuke sighed and crawled into the bed then settled next to T.K. "What?"
"Nothing." T.K. said biting his lip thoughtfully. "But is it just me or do kisses between us always end up with one of us in trouble?"
"Err..." Daisuke scratched his head. It was true, as sad as that was. But that didn't mean he wanted to admit it. "Fate is cruel."
T.K. nodded and pulled Daisuke into his arms. "That's what I've heard."
Daisuke laughed as T.K. placed a few more kisses on his face and neck and his tongue snaked out to lap at exposed skin. Laughter quickly became a quiet groan and soon Daisuke found himself underneath the covers with T.K. smiling down at him.
"What now?"
"I wonder...are you ticklish?"
Daisuke didn't get a chance to answer as T.K. decided to find out in a more physical manner, which, oddly enough, involved his fingers touching almost every inch of Daisuke's body. Not that Daisuke was complaining. Honestly he was dong more laughing and shouting then complaining.
But it wouldn't be very discreet if someone walked in and found them like this. And he doubted this was the scene the other three people in the room really wanted to wake up to.
"Quit...<Gasp>... that!"
"Umm..." T.K. hesitated for a moment then shook his head. "No"
T.K. was rather enjoying the sight of Daisuke squirming underneath him. Besides he hadn't touched Daisuke in over a week, he deserved a little playtime. And it wasn't like Daisuke wasn't enjoying this.
"I can't breath!" Was the half-hearted protest Daisuke managed to get out in between his laughter. Okay so he was very ticklish. It wasn't his fault and T.K. did not have to take advantage of that.
"Then you should save your air and shut up." T.K. said logically. Daisuke blinked and T.K. had to laugh at the clueless expression.
'So cute.'
Daisuke's expression become even more confused as T.K. actually did stop his playful torture and settled down next to him a content smile playing on his lips. Deciding that he wasn't going to figure T.K. out right now Daisuke moved closer and smiled as T.K.'s arms wrapped around him.
This was what he needed.
Taiorami: I had to add the quick fluff scene...don't act like you all didn't like it. Besides T.K. tickling Daisuke is a nice mental image to carry around for a while. So anyway fast-forward about a week and you'll have the next chapter. I'm sleepy so no more this chapter. And if anyone cares, the car stopped and T.K. just passed out for a little while (3 and 1/2 days to be exact)
Aww...You didn't really think I'd kill them did you? I would never hurt two of my four favorite bishis that way. (All we need here is Matt and Ken then we'd be set. Hey...there's an idea.) But no one died. That was just the sadist in me coming out. But it's all better now. I have thrown her into a cage of sorts and she probably won't pop up for a while.
Damn, that hurts...maybe running into the middle of the street wasn't such a good idea. But pain means I'm not dead right? Or am I in hell where pain in supposedly eternal? That would make sense if I believed in that type of stuff...
No, I hear voices. Familiar ones. Matt, Joe, Ken, my mom...so I'm not dead unless the world came to an end and we're all dead...yeah. But I don't hear the voice I want to hear.
I want to go back to sleep...but I'm not really awake am I? But it was better before. Everything was black and deep, easy to lose myself in. Now it's kind of gray and I'm here and it hurts.
I hate pain. Pain is the body's way of telling me I've gone and fucked something up again.
"Still not awake?"
That's the voice. Quiet and filled with underlying pain. Not a good thing, but it lets me know it's him. Gentle and promising, but with a hint of bitterness and the Doomsday complex. (You know, life sucks then you die? That's the doomsday complex in a weird kind of way)
A soft hand slips into mine and I can almost hear him smile.
"This is what you did for me right? Sat around and waited for me to wake up. Well I'm awake and now it's looks like I'm the on waiting. Karmic revenge. I worried you straight into a panic attack and now you're driving me insane. Or maybe fate is just cruel and we're the punching bags."
That's almost deep. You should write it down somewhere. You know remember that you actually said something intelligent once...that's really not funny when you aren't there to say something back,
"But if that's true then why the fuck is fate so cruel? I mean did we piss 'it' off at some point in time and just failed to notice the e-mail announcing that fate was now going to fuck with us forever?"
Well I sure as hell didn't get that letter.
"Or maybe fat's just cruel to me and you've gotten caught in the black hole that is my very existence. Wow...I really am depressed aren't I?"
Yes...almost frighteningly so.
"I think everyone's figured out we're dating by now. So much for keeping secrets right? So...no one else is around right now. Just you and me. And like a thousand other people in the hospital, but just you and me where it counts. Man I'm getting sappy."
Yes, you are. But I like it. I can use it to blackmail you later and it's a lot more pleasant then you being all depressing and stuff. It was starting to traumatize me.
"I heard you almost got hit by a car because of me. Because you thought I was dead, which by the way I'm not. Almost but not quite, my body didn't like all the drugs they were giving me so I rejected them. That's what happened, but I did wake up. I threw up for an hour afterwards but I did wake up."
Obviously. How else would you be here holding my hand and talking to me? I'm not stupid...say's the jackass who ran in front of a car and stopped.
"You shouldn't have done that. Because if you had gotten hit bay a car and died then what? You would have left me all alone and I had being alone and damn..."
Water...tears, fall onto my hand. Crying again? I've made you cry...this really isn't my day...or days or whatever. I am such an ass. Sorry sorry sorry.
"And I don't want to guilt trip you, that wouldn't be right. But I really need to tell you exactly how I feel and I think I'll do it when there's no chance of you rejecting me."
Sure, take advantage of the unconscious guy, what am I going to do about it? It's not like I can yell at you right now...for god's sake. If you weren't so cute you'd really get on my nerves.
"You know I already liked you, kind of. It just took me a minute to figure it out. But...it's like you've been the only person to really care about me lately and you don't criticize or yell or hit or try to hurt me. And I really appreciate that. And I just wanted to tell you that I umm...I'm in..."
You pull away suddenly and you're statement hangs in the air unfinished. Not fair! I wanted to hear the rest of that! I know what you were going to say and damn it, I wanted to hear it!
"Hi, Kari."
Bad timing Kari! Not that I'm not glad to hear from you, but could your timing possibly be any worse then it is right now? No...
"He still isn't awake."
"No."
Duh.
"And you're watching him?"
"No, I was just trying to find out how all these wonderful machines really work."
No he's watching to guy in the bed next to me! Hum...sarcasm...maybe great minds do think alike.
"..."
"Oh, quit that! You've been giving me evil looks for the past three days, what's your problem?"
You're giving my Dais-chan evil looks? Wait...Dais-chan...where'd that come from? And 'my' Dais-chan at that. I must be getting possessive. That can't be good.
"My best friend's in the hospital and it's your fault?
"It is not!"
"He never would have been involved in any of this if you hadn't dumped whatever problems you had on him. First you give him a panic attack, then you almost get him hit be a car! Some boyfriend you turned out to be right? You've almost gotten him killed."
"I didn't dump anything on him. He took on my problems because he wanted to, not because I asked for help. In fact I told him to leave it alone, but you know better then I do and you know that's the type of person he is! Nothing anybody could have said would have made him ignore am-or anyone else's- problems. That's not who T.K. is and you know it!"
"Maybe that's true, but you still landed him here. First by being stupid and putting yourself in a coma, then by scaring the hell out of him and making him punch out Matt and run into the middle of the street."
I punched Matt? I really don't remember doing that...wonder if he's mad at me. But what is she talking about? This is not the Kari I know, something is really wrong here.
"..."
Daisuke? Say something don't believe that! This is so not your fault. You didn't do anything on purpose! This isn't right. You shouldn't blame yourself.
"Well?"
"Go to hell. I didn't exactly wake up at three in the morning thinking 'Hey, who not put myself in a coma and see if I can freak T.K. out' nor did I deliberately develop some kind of allergy to the drugs they gave me so I could send my self into a seizure or something, because let me be the first to tell you that shit hurts." Deep breathe. "I didn't ask to hear voices late at night that try to drive me insane, I didn't ask to have parents that hate me, I didn't ask for T.K. to like me, and I didn't ask to be so depressed that I wish I were dead most days. Now, is there anything else you'd like to add?"
Kari stared at Daisuke her expression cold but it didn't exactly reach her eyes. Formally bright and sparkling the crimson pools Daisuke had once obsessed over were dim and almost...afraid. Like she wasn't in control and she wanted out.
She shrugged carelessly and walked out of the room, leaving a confused, tired, and, angry Daisuke behind. That hadn't been too unusual.
And now he had forgotten what he was going to do. Oh well, it couldn't have been too important if he had forgotten what it was already. But now he got to ponder what was wrong with Kari. She had never acted that way before. Not even when he had been bugging her so much that he would have slapped himself.
She had always smiled and tried her best to put him down gently. But ever since everyone, except Joe, Matt, Tai and Izzy, had come to the conclusion that he and T.K. were dating she had been acting real funny.
Maybe she had a crush on T.K. That would be a good reason to be mad he supposed. But she, along with everyone else, couldn't even be sure they were dating. Whenever someone asked he shut up and refused to speak until the subject was changed.
He had even done that to Ken and that was his very best friend. Ken knew almost everything about him, and the stuff Ken didn't know was the stuff Daisuke didn't want anyone to ever know.
Bright. White walls...still in the hospital of course. At least his head didn't hurt anymore.
T.K. sat up and looked around his gaze immediately settling on the sleeping figure that was his boyfriend. Daisuke was almost falling out of one of the hard plastic chairs and T.K. knew he had to be uncomfortable in it. He would have been anyway.
But he did look peaceful and T.K. didn't really want to disturb him. Maybe he should just wait for Daisuke to fall out of the chair...no that would just be mean.
Daisuke eyes opened slowly at the sound of a voice telling him to get up before he fell out of the chair. He blinked and his vision became clearer and he turned his head. T.K. smiled faintly then motioned for him to be quite. Ms. Takashi, Matt, and Tai were also asleep in assorted chairs and there was no reason to wake everybody up. They would all see that T.K. was awake soon enough.
"What took you so long to wake up?" Daisuke whispered, a smile lighting up his face.
"You act like I had a choice in the matter." T.K. said then winced at the sound of his voice. Dry and hoarse. Exactly the way everyone wants to sound when greeting their boy/girlfriend in the morning.
Daisuke snickered. "Want something to drink?"
"I'm fine." Daisuke nodded then looked at the ground. T.K. raised an eyebrow. "I don't even get a hug?"
Daisuke was out of his chair instantly, much to T.K.'s amusement. Daisuke frowned a little, wondering if this would hurt the blond at all. Apparently his thinking took too long as T.K. reached over and placed a kiss on his cheek then moved over to his mouth.
Daisuke smiled against T.K.'s lips before returning the kiss eagerly. T.K. pulled him even closer, he was almost in the bed with him now, as Daisuke's lips parted, granting his tongue admittance. Hands roamed freely as tongues tangled. T.K.'s hands were running up Daisuke's sides when he broke the kiss abruptly, almost sending his boyfriend crashing to the floor.
Daisuke sighed and crawled into the bed then settled next to T.K. "What?"
"Nothing." T.K. said biting his lip thoughtfully. "But is it just me or do kisses between us always end up with one of us in trouble?"
"Err..." Daisuke scratched his head. It was true, as sad as that was. But that didn't mean he wanted to admit it. "Fate is cruel."
T.K. nodded and pulled Daisuke into his arms. "That's what I've heard."
Daisuke laughed as T.K. placed a few more kisses on his face and neck and his tongue snaked out to lap at exposed skin. Laughter quickly became a quiet groan and soon Daisuke found himself underneath the covers with T.K. smiling down at him.
"What now?"
"I wonder...are you ticklish?"
Daisuke didn't get a chance to answer as T.K. decided to find out in a more physical manner, which, oddly enough, involved his fingers touching almost every inch of Daisuke's body. Not that Daisuke was complaining. Honestly he was dong more laughing and shouting then complaining.
But it wouldn't be very discreet if someone walked in and found them like this. And he doubted this was the scene the other three people in the room really wanted to wake up to.
"Quit...<Gasp>... that!"
"Umm..." T.K. hesitated for a moment then shook his head. "No"
T.K. was rather enjoying the sight of Daisuke squirming underneath him. Besides he hadn't touched Daisuke in over a week, he deserved a little playtime. And it wasn't like Daisuke wasn't enjoying this.
"I can't breath!" Was the half-hearted protest Daisuke managed to get out in between his laughter. Okay so he was very ticklish. It wasn't his fault and T.K. did not have to take advantage of that.
"Then you should save your air and shut up." T.K. said logically. Daisuke blinked and T.K. had to laugh at the clueless expression.
'So cute.'
Daisuke's expression become even more confused as T.K. actually did stop his playful torture and settled down next to him a content smile playing on his lips. Deciding that he wasn't going to figure T.K. out right now Daisuke moved closer and smiled as T.K.'s arms wrapped around him.
This was what he needed.
Taiorami: I had to add the quick fluff scene...don't act like you all didn't like it. Besides T.K. tickling Daisuke is a nice mental image to carry around for a while. So anyway fast-forward about a week and you'll have the next chapter. I'm sleepy so no more this chapter. And if anyone cares, the car stopped and T.K. just passed out for a little while (3 and 1/2 days to be exact)