Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ No Wings To Fly ❯ 7. Falling ( Chapter 8 )

No Wings To Fly

7. Falling

I laid in my bed. My mom had left in a date. I wondered who the stupid was, but I didn't really care, as long as my mom stood away for a while. My life had completely fall from miserable to unbearable.

I guess I was fine and all, until three day ago at Mimi's birthday party. I didn't really know why she had invited me, cause I thought they weren't my friends anymore. But I was wrong, completely wrong. Mimi even said that I could bring Kay, since he was my boyfriend.

---Flashback---

I got ready that evening at my house. After yelling and blaming and cursing my mom had allowed me to go to Mimi's party. I dressed my crimson pants and top that Taichi loved and exited.

Kay was coming later to meet me at Mimi's so I walked alone to her house. When I arrived the old gang was already there. Mimi and Hikari chatted in the kitchen while they made some kind of cake. The boys were sitting on the couch talking about football and sports. It was Tai that went to open the door.

He had this faked smile when he received me. "Come in, Sora." I entered and went to greet the others. They all welcomed me warmly like nothing had ever happened between us. Mimi and Hikari came to greet me as well and we all sat on the couches. Mimi sat by Yamato's side in the same couch as Hikari, Takeru and Taichi. I sat along with Jyou and Koushiro in the other couch.

It was like old times. For moments I forgot all about my problems and divergences with Taichi. Koushiro approached me and whispered into my ear. "You were right." For instants, I wondered what he would be talking about but then I remembered my advice at the Matt's party the day I started hanging around with Kay. I smiled and we continued chatting.

It was almost nine in the night when we heard the door bell ring. Mimi went to open it. I could see her smile fade as she allowed Kay in. He came to me and embraced me in his arms then he kissed me. I accepted it gratefully and kissed back. Though I had my eyes closed I could feel my friends face turn away with disgust and unhappiness. I knew none of them liked Kay. In fact, he was only at the Ice Wolfs replacing an injured member.

We broke apart and in that moment Mimi and Hikari grabbed my hand and pushed me away to Mimi's room. "What?" I asked annoyed. "Girls chat time." They said. I smiled. I still remembered our girls talk, when Mimi told us about her latest crush and Hikari described her meet with T.K.

We entered the room that was still the same as it was when I last have been there. Pink every where. She had pink curtains, pink blankets, pink sheets and even her lamp-shade was pink.

We sat on her bed. "So lets girls talk." I said. They eyed me in a way that I found suspicious of their intentions on girl talking. "We wanted to tell you something that happened after you became Kay's girlfriend." Hikari said. I quickly stood up and headed to the door, but the two girls grabbed me and pulled me into the bed.

"Listen to us Sora, just this time." Mimi said. I agreed. I sat back and they released my arms. Mimi launched a look to Hikari and she started talking. She went right to the only subject I didn't want to discuss about, Taichi. But because I had promise, I heard them.

"Look Sora. I know my brother hurt your feelings but he didn't know you loved him. He didn't even know he loved you." Hikari said. I put my hands over my ears as tears threatened to roll down my face. Mimi grabbed my hands and pulled them off, making me hear. "He loves you Sora."

I couldn't hear anymore lies. I couldn't bare anymore the pain that loving Tai caused me. Yes I still loved him. I thought that dating Kay and having him would make me forget Taichi, but it didn't. It only made it worst, cause every time I'm with him, I wished he was Tai and every time he kisses me, I wished it was Tai's lips touching mines.

I ran out off the door not managing to old my tears that rolled freely down my cheeks. I ran out of her house and sat down under a tree. Next second Kay was already by my side. He embraced me. "What is it, Sor? What did they say to you?" he asked, but I was to busy crying to answer. I sobbed uncontrolled for several minutes, until he decided to stop me with a kiss.

I pushed him and he stopped. I think he didn't get mad, cause then he gave another of those cursed cigarettes. I still remembered the last time and how well I had felt. I lighted on and we both started smoking.

It was like the smell had attracted, cause after a few seconds Taichi was coming towards us. He stood in front of us. Kay looked up to face his angry face. Yeah he was angry alright. I didn't know why but he was angry.

Kay stood too, followed by me. "What are you doing Sora?" Taichi asked. I didn't quite understand his question. What was I doing? I think it was pretty obvious cause I never hid it from them.

"What do you want Tai?" I asked him. He glared at me. "What do you think? Are you completely blind? Can't you see what he is doing to you?" he shouted. I didn't reply. Yeah, I knew. Kay was making me fell loved. Was giving me the opportunity to stop the pain inside of me and healing my wounds. The wounds that he had caused.

"Yeah, I know what he is doing. He's making me feel a woman that is loved." I said. Taichi laughed. "A woman? Loved? Don't play with me Sora. He's guiding you straight to the road of hell. In no time you'll be as many stealing and cheating to have money to your addiction." Tears rolled down my face again. I could he say that. I was not a drugged. Kay interfered.

"How can you those things? Sora is not a drugged." He said. The next thing I know, Kay was lying on the floor with his nose bleeding. I looked stupefied at Taichi. "Leave him Sora." Taichi said. "He's no good. You deserve better guy." Yeah, I deserved, but the guy I wanted didn't love me and was hitting my boyfriend.

"It's my life and I do whatever I want with it ever you like it or not." I yelled at him. He turned away and entered Mimi's again.

---End of Flashback---

Now, laying in my bed, thinking, and the tears returned to haunted my existence. Could it be truth that Taichi loved me? Could it be truth? No, it was too good to be truth. I sat and picked my bag. Inside it were a few cigarettes and a box of matches. I retrieved one and lighted.

I remembered my first kiss. It was the sweet kiss I had ever shared with someone.

I took a breath and released the smoke in the air. He went up and faded in the ceiling just as my memories of that true moment of happiness. Taichi and I were twelve at the time but I had already a crush on him.

---Flashback---

It was the end of the school year and our class was going to present a role play. Taichi and I were the main characters. The story was about a prince that had searched for a long time for a fiancé, but he never found the right woman. One day, a princess came to knock on his door. She was all wet and she and her servants had had a crash.

The prince welcomed her. She was the prettier princess he had ever seen and he fell for her that same tragic night, but his mom was too proud to let her son marry a girl that wasn't a true princess and so she said to him. "If she gets through my test, you can marry her."

And so the old queen, told her servants to make a bed with twenty mattresses of goose's feathers and under them all she put one single pea. During the night the princess couldn't sleep dewing to the pea. Only a true princess could feel a pea under twenty goose's feathers mattresses. And in the end the princess married the prince.

I played the princess and Taichi was the prince. At the end it was suppose for Taichi to kiss me, but only slightly in my lips, as the proof of his true love for me.

Taichi leaned to kiss me and as our lips met, I felt like I was going to pass out. It was suppose to be for only a moment but Taichi grabbed my waist and kissed me more passionately.

That was my first kiss. As we pulled apart, Taichi's cheeks went more crimson then my eyes. But he didn't say sorry or he seemed to regret the kiss.

---End of Flashback---

In that moment I thought he truly felt the same as I, but I was so wrong. Tears felt down my cheeks and I sobbed quietly in my bed.

I was interrupted by the sound of the door slamming. My mother entered the house. She yelled like she was discussing with anyone and cursed. I guessed her date hadn't gone as well as I expected. I quickly wiped my tears. The last I wanted was that she saw me crying.

After a few minutes she entered my bedroom. "What are you doing?" she yelled. I didn't understand what she was talking about so I gave her a confused look. She slapped me for no reason. My anger rose to my head and filled my veins. I couldn't stand that anymore. After slapping me she might have felt better cause she went to the living room.

I went to my closet and started packing. After a few minutes, I had all my clothes in a suitcase. Then I started packing my other stuff, like my school books, my incense burner and my diary.

It took me and hour to pack my stuff and then I put my bags on my back and picked my suitcase. I left my room and went straight to the door. My mom was sitting in the living room seeing a movie and drinking a beer. I opened the door.

"What are you doing bitch?" My mom asked as she stood up and headed in my direction. "I'm leaving."

She laughed. I could smell her alcoholic breath even at the distance that we were. "You can't leave. I'm your mother and you have to obey me." She said. Her voice showed sarcasm but I think I saw frustration and worrying in her eyes. But it didn't matter cause I was leaving.

"Yes, I can. I'm eighteen. I'm officially free from you." I said. My mother didn't spoke. She just watched as I went down stairs. I could hear her laugh and then the door slamming again.

I stepped outside to cold night. I didn't know where to go. I couldn't go to Mimi's because her parents wouldn't allow me to stay there. Yamato and Takeru were out of question. I didn't want to be in the middle of a broken family. Koushiro's parents were kind but they wouldn't agree with my leaving and would encourage me to return. There was only Jyou left, but he was out of town since Mimi's birthday to make an exam in Tokyo.

I started walking and finally stopped in an old neighbourhood. The building had his bricks showing and graffiti all over the walls. I rang the door and a young man answered me.

"Who is it?" Kay asked. "It's Sora." I replied. He opened the door and I stepped the stairs to his apartment. He was at the door. I could see surprise stamped in the nineteen years old boy. "What are you doing here?" he asked.

I put my bags on the ground. "I left my house."

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So, did you liked it? I know I always ask the same, but that's because I really want to know so don't forget to review. I know that everyone would like to see more Taiora. Yeah me too, but it this is not planned. It just happens, but I did manage to put some past Taiora. Hope you've liked it. Oh, and cause Tai is really starting to understand his feelings towards Sora, well we'll see. Thanks to all my reviewers.