Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ The Missing ❯ Nightmare ( Chapter 5 )

The Missing

Chapter 5 - Nightmare

By: eternalsailorsolarwind

Disclaimer: Still owned by Fox, Saban, and Toei. I just write fanfics.

A/N: All warnings are still in effect. Extra rape warnings for this chapter. This will definitely be disturbing. Back to Daisuke's POV.

It was quiet now, but this evening had been like a whirlwind. I was in a room by myself, with only Chibimon for company. Jun was next door, having been taken from our apartment earlier. I had thought she was going to be mad at me for telling, but she hugged me instead. It turns out she had told the other Digidestined about the abuse after I had run away. I was kind of glad about that. It meant I didn't have to hide it anymore.

But she admitted that she also told Ken about what Dad did to me. I was ashamed of being raped, and by my own father. I never would have said anything to Ken if Chibimon hadn't accidentally let it slip once we got to Ken's. But I'm not mad at Chibimon or Ken. It's not their fault. I know they just don't want me hurt anymore.

I cuddled my Digimon closer to me. Everyone thought he was just a stuffed animal, so I was able to bring him along. I need him a lot right now, because I'm lonely. I can't see Ken, or anyone else for a little while. Except for Jun, of course. We're both in protective custody, because of the all the abuse.

It's still hard to think of it like that. For my entire life, I thought of it as discipline. Because I wasn't smart enough to take care of things myself. I knew something was wrong, because we weren't supposed to tell anyone that our parents hit us when we were bad, but I just thought it was an adult thing. And since I was always clumsy, and what with playing soccer, it was easy to explain the bruises away. In fact, I was proud of the fact that no one knew, that I was so good at hiding it.

But that all changed once I became a Digidestined. I recognized that what the Kaizer was doing to the Digimon was a lot like what my parents were doing to my sister and me. But I still didn't break away from it. I finally had friends, real friends, and so things didn't seem so bad. And then Ken stopped being the Kaizer.

He became the center of my life. First as a friend, and then as the boy I loved. I hated it if we didn't get to see each other every day. And he loved me, too. Life was perfect, at least in my mind.

"Daisuke?" Chibimon asked. "Are you mad at me for telling Ken?"

I shook my head, and sighed, "No, I'm not mad. I guess in the long run it's for the best."

"Those doctors didn't hurt you, did they?" he asked me, looking sad.

"No, not really," I told him. I had been poked, prodded, and examined. They had even looked at where Dad had…had hurt me the most. That was embarrassing. Then they fed me, and pumped me full of drugs. Between all of that, and being exhausted, I was barely able to keep my eyes open.

"Go to sleep, Daisuke. I'll be right here with you."

"I know, Chibimon. And thanks, for everything," I told him, scratching behind his ears. He purred a lot like a cat, which made me smile sleepily. I made myself comfortable, wincing at various aches and pains, and pulled the blanket up over me and Chibimon. Then I fell asleep.

I walked in the door, laughing at something Chibimon said. I walked into the living room, and stopped dead. Both of my parents were sitting on the sofa, looking angry. I wondered what was going on. What had I done now?

"What's up?" I asked.

My mother showed me several pictures I had drawn of Ken. "Okay, you don't like them?" I was totally clueless. Then she handed me my attempts at writing poetry about Ken. I could feel the blood drain out of my face. Oh shit, I'm in trouble now.

"I want an explanation, Daisuke. Right now," my Dad said, his voice tight with anger.

I could lie, and say it was for school, but I didn't want to lie about Ken. He was worth a few punches and some grounding. "I wrote those about Ken because I love him. He's my boyfriend." I was proud of myself for telling them the truth.

And then I rocked backwards on my feet from my mother's slap. It stung so much that my eyes teared up, but I swore to myself I wouldn't cry. "How dare you say that to us! You aren't a filthy homosexual! We raised you better than that!"

I knew they didn't like gay people, but I didn't care. I =loved= Ken, and they'd just have to get use to it. I told them so. And then all hell broke loose. They started yelling louder and louder, and hitting me harder and harder.

Chibimon had already been separated from me. He was watching all this in shock. He'd seen them hit me before, but not like this. I finally managed to pull away from them, panting from the pain.

"What is wrong with you? I can't help it if I'm gay! You should at least be happy that I found someone who loves me!" I shouted at them. As soon as I said it, I knew I was in trouble.

I heard Jun gasp from the door of her bedroom. I risked a glance at her, and I could see she was scared out of her mind. But that was my mistake. When I had glanced away, my father grabbed me and hauled me up so I could look into his eyes.

"Can't help it that you're gay, huh? We'll see about that!"

I didn't struggle at first, figuring if I did, the beating would be worse. He pulled me into my bedroom. "You want to be gay? Fine. We'll see how much you like it."

He slammed the door shut and threw me face-first on the bed. I heard what sounded like a struggle outside, but after a couple of loud thuds, it was over. As I turned over, I heard the whisper of his belt sliding through the loops on his slacks. I winced at the thought of the whipping I was about to get.

He held the belt out in front of him and snapped it like he usually did when it was time to be punished like this. Sighing, I stood up and turned around, bending over slightly so he could hit me. And that's when he tackled me. The breath whooshed out of me as his heavier body pressed me hard into the mattress. What the hell?

Dad started tearing at my shorts, trying to pull them off. I was so stunned by what was going on that I didn't fight back at first. But when I felt his erection against my rear end, I struggled hard. But he was bigger, heavier, and stronger than me. And my fear took away what strength I did have.

He finally got my shorts and underwear off me, ripping them in the end. I was now naked from the waist down, just like my father. He grabbed a fistful of my hair and yanked, pulling my head up and making me spread my legs a little for balance. He took advantage of it, moving in even closer to me.

"Please, Daddy, don't do this," I whispered, trying not to cry, or make any other sound that might spur him on.

"You're the gay one here, boy. I'm just giving you what you want, like any good father would," he said in my ear. And then everything was pain.

He pounded himself into me again and again, tearing me more each time. I screamed and screamed for him to stop, but he wouldn't listen. "This is what you want, right? Why are you screaming? You said you were gay, so this must be what you want."

He came with a groan, finally ending it. I was crying by now, loud and not caring that I was. I =hurt=, and I just wanted it to stop. He got up from me and started to get dressed. "I hope you enjoyed yourself, Daisuke."

All I could do was whimper, trying to find a position that didn't tear me apart. Ken had never hurt me. Not even the first time. Even breathing hurt right now.

He grabbed my hair again, and pulled my face up towards his. He gave me a rough kiss on the lips, and then said, "We'll keep having our `dates' until you decide that you're not gay, okay?"

I woke with a strangled cry, reliving the "nightmare" from last night. I was tense with fear, my body screaming with pain. Chibimon was pushing against my chest, trying to pull me from the nightmare. As soon as I realized that it was over, just a bad, bad dream, I wrapped my arms around Chibimon and held him tightly.

"Won't it ever end?" I asked aloud. "I just want the pain to stop." And for what seemed like the zillionth time since this nightmare started, I started to cry. "I need you, Ken."

To be continued….