Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ The Winter Inside of Me ❯ Emotions ( Chapter 6 )

Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon in any way, shape, or form, so please don't sue me. This ficcy is a Rukato, and contains bad langauge. ^coughs^ If you dislike either of those things, please do not read this, then flame me. Sound good? R&R!

Italics: thinking

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Ch.6

"Fine." Rika stalked across the playground, discman blasting.

"What's fine?" a soft voice behind her asked, "Yo don't sound fine."

Rika whipped off her headphones and turned around, prepared to nail the speaker with an icy glare. She relaxed a bit when she made eye contact with Jeri.

"It's a long story. You wouldn't be interested."

Jeri raised her eyebrows, "I think I would," she replied, "Come over here and tell me about it." Jeri walked over to a bench and perched on the edge. Rika followed reluctantly. Damn.

"Nothing's fine," Rika said haughtily, "Happy now?"

"No," Jeri said simply, "If that's the case, then why is nothing fine?"

Rika sighed with exasperation. Of all the people... "Well, I don't have a dad, my mom is an airhead, and I recently called my former boyfriend a bastard. That's why nothing's fine."

Jeri smiled sympathetically. "I know how you feel."

"What?!" Rika snarled, "How could you know how I feel?! You've never experienced anything like this!"

As soon as those words left her mouth, Rika regretted them. Slowly, deliberately, Jeri said, "Actually, I think that's not true."

Rika buried her face in her hands as Jeri carefully explained why, neatly setting out the facts so Rika would understand, never whining, just explaining. Through her fingers, Rika saw a solitary tear trickle down Jeri's cheek, following the line of the long scar on her face.

"It's okay Rika," Jeri was saying, "Get it all out. Everybody has to cry sometime." Rika tensed. She thinks I'm crying! But, she can't! I'm not! I won't! I'll never cry, because that shows I have emotions, and emotions is what got me here in the first place. But emotions make you human, and if I don't have them, then... Fine! I won't be human at all.

In spite of all her efforts to keep her feelings hidden, Rika felt tears wetting her cheeks. No... I can't cry. Because tears are from emotions, and emotions cause pain. "I don't want any more pain."

"Pardon me, Rika?" Jeri put her hand on Rika's shoulder, "I missed that."

Rika shrunk away from Jeri's touch. "Oh. It was nothing." Rika saw Jeri's doubtful look, "Really." Not.

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Neko's note: Well, what do you think? I know Rika ranted a lot about emotions but... Review please!