Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ Thoughts of the Children ❯ Davis Motomiya ( Chapter 9 )

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Thoughts of the Children, Ch. IX: Davis Motomiya

 

I'm not sure why I became this way. Either it was out of fun or if I was just born with it. When I was younger, I was a pretty hyper kid who never liked to be in one place for very long. However, I wasn't that strong; I was weak physically. Maybe that was the reason why I went into soccer. Many people said I did that because I considered Tai as my mentor, but it wasn't really the case. I didn't even meet Tai when I started soccer. The real reason was that I felt bored and physically weak and I wanted to get stronger, so I found an activity and decided to try it out. I must say it was a pleasant experience.

 

A couple of days later, I saw a girl on the ground holding her left ankle; apparently sprained it while she was walking. I went to help her and when I saw her, she was a goddess. She looked beautiful, from her hair to her voice; she looked like an angel.

 

And when she told me her name, “Kari Kamiya,” I became immediate friends with her, and slowly, I grew a crush on her, my very first crush. As a matter of fact, it was the day that I met Tai as well, for I helped her back to her house and that he opened the door when we arrived there.

 

Two years later, at our first day of school that year, I noticed T.K. coming along and that he and Kari started gossiping to each other. I don't know why I got so angry or why I mispronounced T.K.'s name. Perhaps it was out of envy. I began to feel jealous that I wasn't getting any attention unlike T.K. In other words, I just felt left out.

 

Then, when we all battled the Digimon Emperor, I actually started to forget that crush time after time, mostly because I was determined to defeat him and end his reign, but it was still there and I just couldn't stop thinking about it totally.

 

While we were all at his base fighting Kimeramon, I felt very confident that we could beat him, even though our digimon were getting ransacked mercilessly. Afterwards, I noticed that this monster froze and I knew this was the lone chance to beat him. However, when I saw T.K. and the others agreeing to fall back, I grew very disappointed in them, especially Kari. It was not the Kari that I was used to. Just like the others, she was no quitter, and I was very angry with them for just giving up like that.

 

I actually wanted to beat down their egos so badly, that they would actually grow scared of me and tell themselves not to quit that easily again, but I knew that wasn't the right thing to do. It would just hurt their feelings, and I'm not one to do that. I may be headstrong, but I would never do something that ludicrous.

 

Several days later, when I saw Ken actually help us defeat Thundermon, I began to wonder if Ken was not actually that bad of a person. I tried to convince my friends as quickly as possible, but it just didn't seem the case. From my standpoint, Ken was just lonely and sad and needed a friend. Plus, he was helping us now and then. Maybe that was why I forgave him so quickly. I knew he would be a very good friend to have, and I have to say that he was one of the greatest friends I ever had.

 

However, despite all this, I was still thinking about Kari and wondered what it will be like if I had her by my side, that she would be my girlfriend. Two days before we battled MaloMyotismon, I had a dream like that, and found out it was not a very good one. She might not be happy and that I was forcing her. She needed her freedom just like I needed mine.

 

The night after my nightmare, before I went to sleep, I talked with Veemon about our personal crushes. Veemon had a crush on Gatomon just like I had a crush on Kari. However, Veemon told me that after the blunder with Tortomon, he realized that he didn't really need Gatomon as his mate to be happy. He knew he was happy without her, and he told me that I didn't really need Kari as a wife to be happy with my life, that it was possible to have a good life without her.

 

After hearing his speech, I decided to think about it and told myself if I was happy that Kari was not my girlfriend. And as a matter of fact, to my greatest surprise, I was happy. I didn't really need Kari as a girlfriend to be happy, and I certainly didn't need Kari as a wife to be happy. Amazing to figure all this out that quickly after fixating myself onto her for three long years.

 

This realization also told me this: I had to quit being stubborn and move on, forgetting about my selfish needs. I have future goals, and I wanted to keep them. The crush was actually tampering with my future, and I didn't want that to happen. I had to get rid of it and get rid of it now...

 

The next morning, when I woke up, I actually forgot about my crush. For real, I never experienced this feeling before, and this tingle actually felt very good. In my opinion, it made me feel very happy and very whole of myself; my life felt completed at last.

 

Maybe that was why MaloMyotismon's mental illusion attack didn't affect me unlike the others. I was happy for whom I am and that I didn't need a crush to feel happy. I still love Kari, no question about that, but I love her as friend and only a friend. And that will not change whatsoever.

 

The concurrent events also told me this: I am not really a stubborn kid who feels that he needs a woman to be happy, but a kid who's noble, graceful, courageous, and proud. I'm someone who is also happy for others as well as for myself.

 

And that's who I, Davis Motomiya, really am…

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