Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ Who Will Pray For Me? ❯ Letting Go ( Prologue )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

Who Will Pray for Me: Prolog
By Archangel Bloodraven

Never thought I'd be in this place
It's someone else's life I'm living
Wish I were living a lie

It's impossible. I can't believe this is happening. I don't even feel like it's my life anymore.

The hardest part is when the bough breaks
Falling down and then forgiving
You didn't even kiss me goodbye

I remember the last time I saw her she gave me the same sunny smile she always wore. She gave me a brief hug before she set off down the street.

"Hey!"

"Don't worry. I know!"

I'm choking on the words I didn't get to say
And pray I get the chance one day

I wonder now, if she really knew.

God there's the doorbell, again. Who is it now?

Then again, maybe...

I still run
I still swing open the door
I still think you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody out there know to never come around
Some things a heart won't listen to
I'm still holding out for you

It wasn't her. But then again why would it be? She's gone.

I can hear ya smile in the dark
I can even feel you breathing
When daylight chases the ghost

Another dream of her, forged from tatters of memories and feelings. About all I have left now, isn't it?

I see your coat and I fall apart
To those hints of you I'm clinging
Now's when I need them most

Maybe the others are right. Maybe I ought to get out more. I take a shower and change feeling a little better, but as I reach for my jacket I spot one of hers. Suddenly I don't feel like going out.

I should get up, dry my eyes and move ahead
At least that's what you would have said

I spent that day curled up with the jacket. The doorbell rang but I ignored it. I hurt too much to be bothered.

Faithfully I trace your name while you sleep
It's the only true comfort I feel

As I lay there, hugging her jacket, I absently trace her name on my sheets as I doze off. It makes me feel a little better like she's still here with me.

I still run
I still swing open the door
I still think you'll be there like before

The door again. I scramble to my feet, my sleep addled brain in my past.

It's not her. It's Sora.

"Gomen nasai. I thought you were someone else." I whisper hoarsely before I throw myself into her arms, sobbing.

"It will heal." She whispered. "Just give it time."

She was looking out for me, the same as she had in the digiworld. "But I miss her so bad. I think anytime now, she's gonna walk through that door."

"I know TK, but you have to learn to accept that Kari is gone." She said as a tear of her own ran down my cheek. We all do."

A/N: This may not be one of my longer fics, but I felt that this needed to be written for a long time, even after I posted WWPFM? I don't own digimon or the song "Holding Out For You." That's by SHeDAISY.