Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ A Love That Hurts ❯ A Love That Hurts ( Chapter 1 )

A Love That Hurts

I watch your face while you are sleeping. You have been training all day, once again. I don't see you that much, during the day. But at night, you're all mine. I study your features. You look so innocent, almost like the child you were when we first met. You were pure at heart, I could tell. You still are. But you are wiser now. At least you can tell the difference between a boy and a girl, can't you?

My memories make me smile. I asked you to marry me back then, but I had to go through quite a fight until I finally got you. I still can't believe you really thought that marriage was something to eat. But I soon taught you the difference.

That was an experience.

I lay my head upon your chest and listen to the steady beating of your heart. Your heart…

You never really told me that you loved me, do you ever realize that? You never told me that you cared. I'm pretty sure that you do, but I never heard you say the words.

And I've given up hope long ago.

It's been a while since I myself last told you. I liked to say 'I love you' a lot when we both started, but I soon realized that I'd never get an answer. At least not the one I was waiting for. And what really makes me sad is that I know why. You don't have the time to go and think about me. There are so many other things that matter to you. This planet that became your home so long ago. Fighting, above all. Eating, and you do that a lot. Our son.

Gohan… Kami knows I tried all I could. But I failed. He turned out just like you, although he tried to make me satisfied by studying, stopping his training almost completely up to that Saiyaman-story. I love him for that, yet I know that he will fly off with you and Piccolo and fight whatever threatens the Earth, as soon as he feels he's being needed.

Just like you do.

But then again, there's one difference between you two. He fights because he needs to, you fight because you love it. That's why I worry that much for him. He takes it more serious. And that puts him more into danger.

I have to suppress my sigh. I don't want to wake you.

They say I don't care about you, do you know that? 'Always cries for Gohan, never worries for Goku'. And that is not true! I did worry for you every time you went away, but at the same time, I had faith in you for never leaving me. I trusted you. You wouldn't do that to me... so I thought.

I listen to your heartbeat, hardly holding back the tears that suddenly start building up in my eyes. How wrong I was…

When you died for the first time, you refused to be revived with help of the dragon balls. You wanted to train, because a great threat was approaching our planet. And I understood that. The second time you died, you told everyone not to be sorry, for you had been allowed to keep your body, you could meet friends long lost… and train. But what about me? And when they granted you to come back for 24 hours, you did so only to have the chance to fight with your old friends at the tournament. You'd never come back for me…

Now I sigh, closing my eyes. You move slightly in your sleep, pulling me closer to your body.

I do care about you, you know. And I really, really love you, my dear.

But it's a love that hurts.

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AN: You know, sometimes I really wonder why ChiChi stays with Goku. He never shows any affection, as far as I can remember. He seems to have gotten used to her, yet there's no sign of love, or have I missed something? On the other hand, after Gohan's birth, she hardly seems to care about Goku at all. Okay, she cries when he dies the second time, and she makes a big fuss when he comes back to visit, but in the fights it's 'Gohan!' here, 'Gohan!' there. And there still are those people who call Vegeta and Bulma a strange couple… *wonder*

Never mind, just my thoughts on that subject. Anyway, R&R please! :)