Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Corazonado ❯ Maybe ( Chapter 3 )

Disclaimer: DBZ and Enrique Iglasias are not mine. (boo hoo!)

A/N: Once again this will be in Vegeta's POV. This time, I choose another hot Latin singer *drools* to portray his thoughts. I don't know, there's just something undeniably sexy about Latin Music and Saiyans… well before I electrocute myself from drooling all over my keyboard, the name of the song is "Maybe".

(lyrics in quotes)

"If I had one single wish

I'd go back to the moment I kissed you"

It's funny. You would think that after two weeks, I would at least be able to thing about something other than that day - that day I kissed you. I relive that accursed moment in my mind daily, hourly, constantly. I try to think of how I could have changed it. I'm not saying that I regret kissing you; in fact I treasure the brief contact. I just should have said something to make you stay.

"No matter how I try
I can't live

Without you in my life"

It's been two weeks since I've even seen you. They have been the two longest weeks in my life - and the two hardest. You are not the easiest person to avoid. I never realized how intertwined our lives were. Over the years, it's been like we were performing an intricate dance that everyone else watched and we were not aware of. Even one day without you made my son worry. I know that after two weeks he has asked your brat if something happened between us. I have to confront you soon or they will come to me for answers that I am not sure I can answer yet.

"Maybe you'll say you still want me
maybe you'll say that you don't"

What will you say when I confront you? That it was a mistake? Now I wonder what the mistake would have been in your eyes. I know that to have you regret your reaction, your leaving, would be too much. That would be expecting far too much. You probably are mad at me. You have never thought of us in that way so kissing would have been unfathomable.

"Maybe we said it was over

But baby I can't let you go"

Even if you reject me, I have to find out. I just need to see you. These two weeks have been a living Hell. Somehow, in your rejection of me, I hope you will let us remain friends. I know it is in your nature to forgive so I'm hoping you can forgive me and let things return to the semi-normal our lives have always been. That again, would probably be too much to ask.

"I walk around trying to understand

Where we went wrong"

This is all so frustrating. For two weeks, I've been trying to figure out what happened. I know you were surprised, that was quite obvious and expected. Then you seemed almost like you were afraid. Why were you afraid of me? Well, I can understand why someone would fear me -my history is quite intimidating. That was the past though and you know me better than that. Maybe it was that I, for once, displayed emotion. I've probably been around you too long. You usually are the emotional one; you are so easy to read. I'm just not like that. It seems that day change both of us. I bared my heart to you and you became unreadable.

"And I can't pretend

It wasn't me
And it wasn't you"

No, I am wrong. I didn't change that day. I've felt like this for a long time. All I did two weeks ago was try to show it to you - a lot of good that did. I can't blame you either. I try to think of how I would have reacted if you had kissed me. Well, under the circumstances, I most definitely would have kissed you back. But, if I was not already in love with you, I might have killed you. Then again, I can't imagine not being in love with you.

"But I'm convinced

We gave up too soon"

If you had not run away, I may have been able to make you understand. Even though the seconds had drug on, the whole thing was over too fast. If only I had had enough courage to speak, then you wouldn't have left like that. Then I would not be left hanging like this, feeling like I've been dismissed.

"Nothing left to lose

After losing you

There's nothing I can't take"

Dismissed. Rejected. Ignored. I showed you everything I had hidden in my heart and you left. I was humiliated and embarrassed. I thought that since I came here years ago that all I had left in my life was my pride. I don't even have that any more. So there will be nothing to fear when I confront you now. I've already lost everything to you. There is nothing now that you can do that will hurt me any worse than that.

"When I run to you

When I come for you

Don't tell me I'm too late"

I better find you before I lose my nerve. I don't want to hear you condemn me for what happened but I need to know how you feel. I know it is foolish to hope you feel the same as me especially since you've also been avoiding me for two weeks. I am a fool. I am the universe's biggest fool ever. Even after everything, I still want you to love me. I still dream about us. I still hope that you might love me in return. That maybe I can be with you.

"Maybe…"

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