Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Flames in the Rain:Returned ❯ Feelings Lost ( Chapter 3 )

A/N** PWP, Yaoi, mild language. Italics are thoughts. I'd also like to remind everyone that this fic is dedicated to c0nfu3ed! This is slightly angst filled! R/R PLZ!

Flames in the Rain-Returned

Sequel to Flames in the Rain

Chapter Three-Feeling Lost

He had to get away. He had to leave it all behind. Forget it…You should have seen it coming… Trunks wiped away the tears he'd shed. Was it something he had done to drive Goten into the arms of his father? Hatred that had been held up inside him began to leak free. If I ever seem my father again, I just might kill him… Trunks never wanted to see Goten or Vegeta again. It'll be like I never came back from a business trip… He tried to be calm and reassure himself, but when it all came down to it he wanted to die. I love him so much…how can I still love him? How long have they been lovers? Trunks wondered and wished he hadn't. All the times we've made love…all the things we've shared…all the times they've taken each other in our bed…all the things they've shared…in our bed… Trunks choked on a sob as he flew into the distance. Where am I going? I can't go to mom…does she know about this? I don't have anyone else, and I don't want to hurt her… Realizing that his whole life was work and Goten he hated himself more. All the things he said to me. Lies. All the things we did together. Lies. All the things I thought we were. Lies. All of them…lies. Trunks found him self at the river. Where we confessed our love…where Vegeta saw us…Where I proposed…where it will all end…What did I do that was so wrong? What did I not do that drove him away? Could I not keep him happy? Did he never truly love me? Falling to his knees Trunks wished for his life to end. His feelings lost.

Goten woke slowly, Vegeta's weight still pressing him into the soft bed. Easing out from under him he rolled onto his side, a dreamy feeling surrounding him. His eyes widened as they focused on the door. I don't remember Vegeta closing the door. Slipping from the bed he walked to the door and opened it. The sunflowers lying scattered across the floor caught his attention and he drew in a breath. No, no, no…be rational…he was on a business trip…but he's the only one who knew that sunflowers were my favorite. Scooping them up he held them to his bare chest, guilt and worry making him jitter. Please…no… How could he be for sure? Bulma. Running down the stairs he grabbed the phone and dialed Bulma's number. "Hello?" Bulma's voice rang out as she answered the phone. "B-bulma…" Goten didn't know what to say. "Goten? Is that you?" Bulma asked. "Y-yes." Goten muttered as fear overcame him. "What's wrong? Did Trunks hurt you?" Bulma asked jumping to suspicions she knew would never be a possibility. "N-no, of course not." "Okay, well, did you like Trunks' surprise?" Surprise? "I mean, I thought it was ultra sweet that he cancelled his business trip to spend time with you." Bulma continued on. Oh God… "B-bulma, I need to go." He said hanging up. He knows…dear God…he knows…What's worse is that he found out trying to surprise me…What have I done? Running back up the stairs he went to get Vegeta up. What are we going to do?

Trunks sat in the rain, no longer thinking, and no longer feelings. He was just…being. He decided hours ago that life, or more importantly that love wasn't worth the trouble. Why would anyone, including me, someone sensible, ever undoubtedly place your hope, faith, and trust in one person? Why did I do it? It was irony. He thought that nothing would keep Goten and him apart. Nothing would separate their love. He was wrong. The one person…no matter how harsh or rude…his hero…had taken his dreams that he had willingly given to Goten to hold in his hand…crushed…nothing left. As the rain continued to beat down upon his battered soul, he no longer thought, any longer felt, he was just…being.

"Vegeta!" Goten shook his head. "You can't mean that…" Vegeta scowled. "Why does it matter if Trunks knows?" he smirked pulling Goten against him. "All the better for us." "No!" Goten pulled from Vegeta. "If you loved him as much as you try to pretend, you and I wouldn't have been together in the first place." "But I do love him!" "Then why did you come to me?" Vegeta asked roughly. "I…I thought it was…something…until Trunks found out…I…I can't lose him, Vegeta!" Goten said, tears beginning for fall down his cheeks. "I guess you should have thought about that before you cheated on him." Vegeta said harshly, his gruff voice full of blame. And hurt? Goten then realized that Vegeta was apart of everything too and he was being selfish, thinking of what he was going to do. "Vegeta…I…" "No. It's not important to you. It's not relevant that I have a wife, that I had a son who used to look up to me…or that I was willing to put it all on the line to be with you." Vegeta said leaving Goten to cry harder. Now I'm alone. I had Trunks…then I had Trunks and Vegeta…then just Vegeta…now I'm alone… He sighed wishing he could apologize to everyone, to work things out. I was greedy and selfish…a liar…I couldn't just have one…I had to have both…I thought of no one, but myself.

*TBC*

A/N* Mm, so how bad was it? Lol. I don't know if it was angst or not, I tried my best lol…so the story continues. Remember, this fic is dedicated to c0nfu3ed! R/R PLEASE!