Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Kotahitanga / The Return ❯ Chapter One ( Chapter 1 )

Title: Kotahitanga / The Return

Author: Tobias, Mabelle, J'dee, Jo.

Rating: NC-13 (offensive language)

Genre: Drama?? / Humour??

Author's Note: Kotahitangi translated is union or roughly one people, kinda like an iwi translated tribe.

Added AN: this is for all those who want to write a piece to let them know what we're kinda doing.. those NOT in dbz world we're doing a few chapters about this world before going back… up to you if you want to submit anything in to this… sorry I had to get this out was a bit to long.

V-chan I didn't forget you, when you complete your journal it will be in the next chapter… and yes I'm getting rid of the crazy chapter titles and quotes… because I can be original only so far… if some one titles their piece then the chapter will go by that if not, then it will merely be numbered.

Anywho enjoy.

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Chapter One

*Tobias*

Tobias opened his eyes and groaned. He had been dreaming about home again.

He had been there when Mabelle had given birth, and he had been the first to hold his son and daughter. He sighed again and rolled onto his back. It had been a rough four months. Jan had flipped, refusing to believe they were back.

She had attacked people, biting them, killing them, and literally bathing in their blood. He shuddered remembering when he found her with the remains of their dog, Spirit. He had personally knocked her out, called the police, and had her committed to an insane asylum.

"Meow." said Prancer, as he jumped onto Tobias's chest. Tobias smiled and began petting him. Prancer purred, digging his claws into Toby's chest as he settled down. Tobias laughed and stared at the ceiling. He missed her so damn much, but he knew he would go back soon and hold his son and daughter in his arms.

"Tobias, get your lazy, deformed ass up, now!" his father screamed, flinging the door open. Prancer screeched and took off, flying out the door. Tobias slowly sat up, and swung his legs out of bed. His tail waved behind him, which just seemed to annoy his father. He had been pleased when he reappeared in his living room, scaring the shit out of his father and stepmother. When he saw that he still had his tail he had been ecstatic, but both his parents fainted.

After some blood work (insisted by his parents) he was shown to be perfectly healthy.

Tobias glared at his father, and began to get dressed for work. To his father and stepmother's horror, he had dropped out of college, and taken up a job with his father as a roofer. He had sold his home and sold off everything that he didn't want. What was left (basically, clothes, photo albums, his computer, and book collection) was being stored at his mother's place.

Tobias smiled to himself as he ate a bowl of cereal with his father. His mother and step father had both been very understanding. He told them the truth of where he had been and when he showed them his tail, they believed. Now, he had punched holes in the back off all his pants and shorts, refusing to hide it.

It, and the scar on his shoulder, was all he had to remind him of the life he had lived. He was no longer Saiyan. His strength and power were gone. All that remained was this tail, enhanced senses (not like when he was a Saiyan but he could still smell the alcohol his father had drank two nights ago wafting from his pores), and the ability to sense ki.

"Let's go boy," his father grunted. Tobias nodded, and they walked outside to see, his mother standing there with a pet carrier. Tobias smiled when he heard his father snarl.

"Toby, I came for-" his mother began.

"He's right here, Mom." Tobias said, picking up Prancer who was purring at his feet. He placed Prancer inside the pet carrier, and kissed his head.

Prancer yawned and lay down to sleep.

"I still don't know why you're doing this, Tobias," his father snapped, "Moving everything to her place, and then Prancer. It's bad enough that we have to work for Mac in fixing their roof, but you insisted on it." His father threw his hands into the air. Tobias smirked.

"Because when I leave again, it will be for good. Consider this humbling for you both. I don't want you to kill each other while you take turns caring for Jan. We're doing their roof to pay for your half of the money, since you can't pay to have Jan institutionalised, Dad." Tobias glared at them both. "Now let's go, I want to finished the roof today."

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"Last batch of shingles. "Hand me the air gun, would you Tobias?" Seth, one of their co-workers asked. Tobias picked it up with his tail, and handed it to Seth as he lined up the shingles to cap the peak. Seth shook his head as he began nailing the shingles down. The sun was setting and they had just finished the other half of the roof. They just had to finish the cap.....

"There! Whew, that was along day." Jim said, wiping his forehead. He accidentally dropped his hammer, which Tobias scooped up with his tail. Jim gave a laugh as Tobias balanced the hammer on the tip of his tail.

"You really like that damn thing, don't you?" Tobias's father asked, gruffly.

Tobias just grinned and began dropping tools off the side, as they gathered up their stuff to take back to the truck.

"Tobias!" called a voice from the front of the house. Tobias sighed and got up, walking on the roof to the front edge.

"Yeah, Wes?" he asked, his five year old half-brother. Wes smiled up at him and waved.

"There's a lady here to see you!" he said. Tobias frowned.

"What does the lady look like?" he asked. Wes looked inside and the back up at him.

"She has pretty red and blond hair!" he called up, and Tobias's heart stopped. No, it couldn't be......

Tobias leaped off the roof, onto the top of the truck, scaring the hell out of his father and Jim, who were loading it. He jumped off the truck and ran inside, throwing the door open. His mother whirled around giving him a clear view of the lady. It was J'dee......

"Tobias!" she cried, running up and hugging him. She started to cry, and all Tobias could do was hold her. He was shocked beyond belief. She was suppose to be in New Zealand, until she could use a better stronger spell to send them all home.....

"J'dee, what happened? Why are you here?" he asked, as she stopped crying and wiped her eyes. She gave a weak laugh.

"Let's sit down. This gonna take a while." she said.

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Tobias sighed and rubbed his eyes as J'dee sat there sipping her iced tea.

It was almost two hours later, and he could hardly believe what she had told him. It almost felt like he was home again.

"Okay, so now what?" he asked. J'dee, sipped her tea again, and sighed.

"Unfortunately, I used up my powers again when I sent boy there. You, and me we have to wait a month, but we can search for the others while we do." she said.

Tobias's mother, who had sat threw the whole story, nodded.

"You can stay here. I'm sure my husband would love ANOTHER Dragonball freak like himself around. So far it's only been Tobias here." she said, and Tobias grinned.

"So far." he said, as the door opened. His father glared at them and motioned for them to go.

"Come on. I want to get home to MY wife." he snapped. Tobias frowned and got up.

"I told you after we're done, I'm staying." he snapped. His father drew himself up to full height, and got right into Tobias's face.

"And I said, we go home now!" he snarled. J'dee began to look panicked, as his mother tried to calm her down.

"And I said, NO!" Tobias screamed. He felt instinct kick in and he slammed his hand in front of his father's chest, hand flat. To his amazement, he fired a ki blast right into his father. It was weak, and just sent him flying into the couch. Tobias looked in awe at his smoking hand.

"It's me." J'dee said, quietly, "When we come in contact with others who went there, we start to regain some abilities." Tobias's father got up and left without a word, the truck screeching as he zoomed away for good. Tobias smiled.

"I'll be right back." he said, placing two fingers to his forehead. The last thing he heard was his mother's gasp as he IT'd away.

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When he returned ten minute's later, his stepfather had also come into the living room, with his half-brother.

"Where," his stepfather swallowed, "where did you go?" he asked in a hushed whisper. Tobias smiled and opened his arms to reveal a tiny tabby cat.

"Tiger!" J'dee cried, as the small cat leaped into her arms purring.

Prancer got up from his place on the kitchen table to sniff the new comer.

J'dee placed the smaller tabby on the table, and the two sniffed each other, before engaging in some play. Tobias smiled and looked at J'dee.

"Now what?" he asked, and she sighed.

"Now we search and wait."

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*J'dee*

Hugging Tiger tightly she almost felt like she wanted to cry. Her cat just mewled and purred as J'dee hugged her. Giving her the affection the cat has missed out on for the last week. J'dee looked at Tobias and smiled. J'dee saw Tobias' cat inquiring and remembering what she'd done when she first go the little kitten she placed her down in front of the other cat to let them get used to each other Tiger seemed skittish to start off with hackles up and Tobias's cat just sniffed at Tiger, who then realised nothing was going to happen and sat down and watched him.

"Now what?" Tobias' voice broke in to her senses and she looked at him her expression serious.

"Now we search and we wait." She replied. "It's all we can do, least for now. I have sent out an e-mail to the other authors. For four months I've let them know to work their butts off to get money to meet up together. In one month we meet and then we go back together."

She sighed and clenched her fist and felt the numbing pain running up her arm and she pulled her jacket off and she looked down at the shirt. It was dirty and in tatters, she was bruised cut and part of her arm was bleeding. She didn't really pay any attention to her physical appearance- for once, just the inside of her self and the pain of letting herself be pushed round again. She fingered the cuffs of her sleeves standing there nervously not really sure what to do. She had known Tobias in the DBZ world not this world, she felt skittish round men especially after what just happened.

She noticed his tail flicking and she blinked. "You- you kept your tail..." She was surprised. She had lost her tail and she rubbed her sore arm remembering the pain of loosing it. At least the tail somewhat calmed her down. She had no idea why.

"I don't want to be a pain or anything... but I don't suppose you have like some spare clothes or something anything will overalls even... and somewhere I can lie down- I'm tired and if I don't sleep my magick will never return to it's full strength."

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The frail fingers held the notice while hazel eyes scanned the words over and over again. It was a pain to her heart. Her eldest child killed by his own son. This would not do. In anger she'd been hasty to send "people" after them. Blood related or not, she would have her revenge. her "people" were still on the trail they'd lost her somewhere off an interstate in the united states, but then she choose them for the job, because like Jera and her mother they could become "invisible". She'd sent her next to eldest Son over there. She knew he'd handle things and get the help needed.

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Derek road down the last known interstate Jera had been on the remains of the car still obvious in the nearby forest a car door a tied, an axel rammed in to the heart of the tree. He was more than mad. He wanted revenged. The leather jacket done up tightly to prevent wind or lose clothing flapping while he rode the Harley Davidson Road king past the scenery. The helmet on tight so no one could see his face and the black jeans and boot prominent as he flashed by the last of the mess being cleaned up. Images of numerous ways to kill her and the boy rushing round his head, the most satisfying was bring back the burnings, burn them both alive, make them confess and kill them like they had the witches of sixteen hundred.

Lightening.... then rain and still the motorbike did not slow down but gained speed, her location confirmed he would be there in a day or two... He revved the bike up and picked up the pace even more. It could be earlier if he hurried. He didn't want to lose her before he could punish her for influencing the boy like that. They had never liked her. She was to smart mouthed, she spoke up, she defended the boy, if not for her, the boy coulda been turned much like her other cousins.

Aldin was the first, Derek smirked remembering the tradition. The teen had been poked prodded forced to bleed and cry out then he pledged his soul to them. Derek had been the first to welcome his nephew in to their cult. It was a family thing. They had the power to make anyone disappear.

More speed on the bike, more need for revenge more... more... more- His jacket leaving a flashed imprint as he speed onwards reading: Devil's Henchmen.

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*Mabelle*

(One month has passed since they left)

I am writing in the journal that Gohan gave to me as an 'engagement' present. I will explain that in due time. I am first going to explain what has happened in this month.

The night when I returned 'home' from watching the other's leave I found a horrible fact. When an author leaves the DBZ world, they take everything that they have done with them. The cabin was no longer there; my clothes were lying around on the ground in the middle of a wooded area. I went to the lake to cry and when I saw my reflection I nearly screamed, the bite mark Toby made on my shoulder was gone too. I was frantic and quickly checked my womb. There were still two and I think the reason both remained was due to the fact that Bardock's child was conceived after Toby's and because Bardock was still around, my children had a loophole. Once I was sure they were both there I got up and intended to walk back to where my things were, but instead I just continued walking. Apparently, I was out walking in a trance-like state for a week before the search party found me. Gohan was the one to find me standing on a cliff about to jump. I don't remember much but they say I was mumbling about being alone. The Briefs took me in but I didn't respond to anyone but Pan for three days. Slowly I came back and Kakuna tried to make me stay with her, but I wanted to be alone. However, no one wanted me to be alone. So Gohan offered to let me stay in his house.

The third week I had been here I decided that I can't live without Toby, it's just too hard. I took a large kitchen knife and made several long slashes through my forearms. Unfortunately, Gohan came in and managed to use his energy to heal me, there's no evidence that seven long gashes had ever existed in my arms. I'll have to wait till Gohan and Pan aren't due home for a long time…

Anyway to explain the situation with this engagement, I had forgotten that I had wished people to forget about my pregnancy so when Gohan freaked out about it I told him and he looked at me. Rubbing his shoulder where J'dee had marked him, her mark on him was also gone. I sighed and I began to rub my shoulder and cried. Gohan held me and rocked me to sleep in his arms.

Over the next two weeks, I became the mother figure for Pan and Gohan was the only one able to snap me out of my 'trances', which were becoming more often. It wasn't until last night that he brought up a possible solution to my problem. My unwed mother, fatherless children, alone problem.

"Marry me," he had suggested and I was shocked. "I need someone to keep those young students that always admire me off, someone to take to formal functions, and someone to be a mother to Pan and you need someone to take care of you when you get into those trances, someone to protect you, and someone to be a father to your children. I cannot say that I'll love you and that we'll be having a physical relationship of any kind, but I can say that I will be here for you until…they come back." He was right, we could easily split apart after J'dee and Toby came back. I agreed, a false marriage to keep ourselves from getting too emotionally alone, to give the children a family, and to NOT be alone. The marriage is set for two weeks, Kakuna and Trunks are suspicious, but they don't remember about my pregnancy either. Although if I do manage to kill myself I won't have to worry about any of this…

(One month and three weeks have passed since they left)

I am now Mabelle Son, a full-fledged member of the Son family. Chichi wasn't thrilled at first but then again, I'm what 'makes Gohan happy' according to her. I know I APPEAR to be that but I know he misses J'dee horribly.

The wedding was beautiful and Kakuna was my maid of honour and Piccolo was the best man. My dress was a lovely gown and Goku said I looked like an angel. Somehow I think Bardock remembers our night together, he pulled me to the dance floor to 'congratulate' me on my marriage into his family. He was strange, as if he knew something but couldn't place it. I think given time, he will remember and then all hell will break loose. The ceremony was nice and quiet, the Z-senshi mainly and a few others. I'm still not sure what to make of the new situation; Gohan and I share a bed, but we stay on opposite sides.

Sadly, Bardock, Goku, and Goten have taken into the habit of coming over to our…Gohan's…my…the house. So everyday after Gohan gets back from work I have to feed two Saiyan males, two demi-Saiyan males, and one demi-Saiyan female. Add myself in and that's six Saiyans everyday. I have to say I enjoy the company, Goku always makes me laugh and Goten always hits on me. It makes me happy to have a large family for once.

My pregnancy has been re-announced though. Of course, Gohan said he would play the bit as the father, we both agreed when the twins are older they'll be told the truth. Chichi was thrilled, Kakuna was given a case of déjà vu seeing as I forced her to forget the first time she knew of my pregnancy, and the Son males were classic in a celebration dinner. I wonder what the future holds.

(Three months have passed since they left)

I failed again to kill myself. I had waited for Gohan to take Pan over to her Grandfather's and I took a bottle of painkillers used on elephants (they're the only thing that works on a Saiyan headache) and I finished a near full bottle. Kakuna showed up while I was starting to fall asleep and she forced me to vomit. I cried when I really woke up and she yelled at me, then hugged me and cried. I cried with her until I fell asleep. When I woke up Gohan scolded me for three hours before hugging me and letting me cry into his chest.

(Six months and a week have passed since they left)

I'm showing greatly. They are strong and I thank God that they are both still here. It's hard for me to do anything now and Chichi has taken over the role of cook for the Saiyan hoard that seems to live at the house now. I'm thankful for the company, still I prefer the solitude of my day, cleaning the house and working in my garden in the backyard. I've transplanted most of what was at the cabin site here. I miss Toby, but I'm afraid for the pass month I've not thought of him. I find when I don't think about him, the urge to kill myself goes down. Does this make me a horrible person?

(Eight months and three weeks have passed since they left)

I am a mother now. I woke up in the middle of the night three days ago in great pain. I waited for three hours before I Gohan. He woke Pan as I dressed and we headed to the hospital. Gohan stayed for an hour and headed to work. Ten hours later I was still struggling to bring my babies into the world. Gohan came back and winced as he saw me finally he came over to me and began to stroke my hair. He held my hand and gently whispered to me as I went through the labour. All the pain gave me two children: a boy and a girl. The boy is Alexander Xavier Son and the girl is Liana Rae Son. I was wrong in my vision though. Alex is definitely Bardock's, his smile and coloring are that of the Son's and he has a remarkable resemblance to Gohan, which is very convenient. Liana looks just like me with darker hair and eyes. I looked at Gohan after the birth and I kissed him on the lips in thanks, he smiled at me as he took the kids from me before I fell asleep from exhaustion. I should mention that Kakuna gave birth to her twins a week ago. Two boys, Vegeta II and Tenks. Vegeta II looked pretty much like his namesake only with stormy gray eyes that I love. Tenks definitely took after his father only with spikier hair and a darker lavender color to it.

When I arrived home yesterday I was shocked to find everyone here, throwing a special party for the newest Son family members. I was glad that the Sons were so close; Alex and Liana will always have family to watch over them. Goten fed them for me as I went upstairs to change into some normal clothes.

Last night I woke up and rushed to the side of the crib to look at them and make sure they were still there. I woke up this morning against Gohan, he was kind about it…it was the first time we touched each other on the bed and I was embarrassed.

I thought about Toby today while breastfeeding Alex and Liana, it's the first time in six weeks. I feel guilty, but now that I have my children, I don't think I'll be trying to end my life anytime soon.

(Year One, they have been gone a year)

We had a picnic today, everyone was there: Vegeta, Bulma, Bra, Trunks, Mirai, Kakuna, Vegeta II, Tenks, Goku, Chichi, Goten, and Bardock. I felt so happy to see all my friends and I spent most of the time with Kakuna and the infants. We sat there and planned the future. I went up to bed early to put the children down and when I went into my room to change I started to cry…I cried for a few hours before falling into a dreamless sleep.

(One year, one month, and three weeks)

Our first anniversary, Gohan and I, I mean. We went out to dinner while Goten watched Pan and the twins. We sat in a fancy restaurant and ate French cuisine, pretending that we were a happily married couple. I was rather shocked when Gohan asked me to dance. I accepted of course, I couldn't give up a chance to dance. We danced for half an hour and then went home. Goten had taken Pan and the twins back with him to Goku and Chichi's so we could have the house ALONE. I found a large bottle of sake in the pantry and brought it up. We drank until midnight and once we were thoroughly drunk we stumbled upstairs. I fell a few times and laughed till I cried and then began to cry about Toby. Gohan held me to him like I was a child and then I told him to cry for her. We sat there at the top of the stairs and cried until we fell asleep. I woke up ten minutes ago and carried Gohan to bed. Yippee, a whole year of marriage.

(One year, eight months, and three weeks)

My children are a year old now and they call me Mommy and they call Gohan Daddy. They call Goku, Goten, and Bardock all 'hair' and they call Pan by name. Chichi is Gram. Kakuna is Aunt Kun, Mirai Trunks is Uncle Trunks, Vegeta II is Vege, and Tenks is…Tenks.

We celebrated with everyone there again. Gohan held Alex and I held Liana while we sang 'Happy Birthday'. It seemed so sad to me that they didn't know their real Daddy, but then, if I think too much about him, I might do something to harm myself again. I'm sorry Toby, the more I think of you the more I want to die and I can't our children need me therefore the only way I can get through is to think of you less.

(One year, eleven months, and one week)

I nearly died last week, after all my attempts to end my life, when I'm finally ready to live and take care of my children Death reaches out to me. I'll explain.

I was taking Pan to visit Bra on Friday of last week and I decided to stop and say hi to Kakuna and Mirai Trunks. Trunks, this timeline's, were watching Vegeta II and Tenks. He told me they were sparring with Vegeta in the outside gravity room. I was walking towards the gravity room thinking about asking to join in the sparring match…Kakuna and I sparred four times a week and I spent two hours a day training and an hour sparring with Pan. I reached the door in time for the gravity room to explode. I must have blacked out at the impact of half the gravity room launching at me. Vegeta, Mirai Trunks, and Kakuna had put up shields in time…I hadn't had a clue.

When I did come to, I could hear people crying my name and the one that rang first in my mind was Pan calling me…'Mommy'. I managed to shove a piece of wall, the size of a car, off of me. Pan was the first to arrive.

"MOMMY!" she cried as she hugged me. This was the first time she had ever called me 'Mommy' I smiled as I stroked her hair.

"I'm fine, Pan-chan," I whispered as I passed out.

I woke up in the regeneration tank to the sight of Gohan, Pan, Kakuna, and Mirai Trunks sitting around while Alex, Liana, Vegeta II, and Tenks slept in a playpen. I was swarmed, apologized to, scolded, and several other things while I got out of the tank. I laughed and when I got home Gohan pulled me aside.

"Pan's calling you 'Mommy'," he said and I nodded. "Thank you, I'm glad she's taken to you as a mother-figure." He kissed me and then allowed me to go up to bed.

(Two years)

The Second year they've been gone and I realized something today. I haven't though of Toby since the twin's birthday party. I also realized something else; I'm falling in love with Gohan. I feel horrible, but Gohan is so wonderful and Toby is gone. Kakuna brought something up yesterday while we were sparring. What if they don't come back in our lifetime…I wonder, how long will they be gone?

(Two years, one month, and three weeks)

We have decided to spend our anniversaries from now on getting drunk and crying together. It was fun, we had the whole house to ourselves so we went out to dinner again, danced again, got drunk again, but this time we managed to get to bed before passing out. Married life, what a wild party.

(Two years, eight months, and three weeks)

Two years old today, we partied again, this time it was more fun because the twins could actually enjoy the party. We sang, had cake, opened gifts, and I found that I don't like Bulma anymore. She gave them a collection of very expensive, very bright, and very LOUD toys. I wondered if she was trying to make up for her gravity room nearly killing me…at least her hearts in the right place, but I'm thinking the batteries in those toys will have to go 'dead' quickly. I can tell Gohan agrees with me on this.

(Two years, nine months, and a week)

Pan asked me about sex…like I would know!! I was getting ready to go to a special dinner with Gohan and was sitting at a vanity table in a lovely navy dress getting my hair up. Pan was sitting on the bed behind me while Gohan was feeding the twins downstairs.

"Mom, what's sex like?" she asked and I nearly swallowed my tongue. I covered it up and smiled as I looked at her reflection.

"Well, first off I'd like to know why a twelve year old wants to know and second, is there someone you have your eyes on?" I teased and she blushed.

"Well, I'm going to be thirteen next month and…Videl said I was gonna probably start my period when I was thirteen," she said and I was shocked she called her mother Videl. I smiled as I got up and sat next to her.

"Sex is nice, it's a wonderful way of expressing your love for someone. Of course, it can also overrule your brain if you let it," I said as I hugged her. "It is best to wait for the one who you will spend the rest of your life with."

"Is that why you're so happy with Daddy and why he's so much happier with you that when he was with Videl?" she asked and I was shocked. Gohan was happier with me??

"I guess so," I sighed as I hugged her. I finished and went to the dinner with Gohan. All that night I wondered, was he really happier with me? Or was he just a wonderful actor? I know I'm in love with him. I've hidden it well…I hope.

(Three years)

We had a party today to celebrate the three years. I sat down with my children and looked up into the sky. Kakuna and Trunks came and I smiled as Vegeta II and Tenks played with Liana and Alex. They were strong and I could sense the bond between the two grandsons of Vegeta. I sighed as I leaned against a tree and Kakuna sat next to me.

"You miss him don't you?" she asked as she followed my gaze to the starts.

"Yea," I sighed. "I had the nightmare again." The nightmare is always the same, I'm fighting myself, only the other me is a Saiyan, she tells me to leave Gohan, Tobias, the twins, Pan, everyone and go destroy.

"It's not real," she patted my arm. "It's just your inner turmoil coming up through your subconscious." I sighed as I watched the stars. If only it were that easy to brush it away.

(Three years, one month, and three weeks)

Another anniversary and another night of pretending. Gohan and I spent it in usual form. We went to a nice restaurant, then dancing, and then drinking away our sorrows. However the next morning I woke up in Gohan's arms and for once I didn't care.

(Three years, four months, and two weeks)

ChiChi is becoming a real pain, trying to tell me how to raise Alex and Liana. It's a good thing Goku is always around when ChiChi comes over or I would kill her. It's hard but at least she makes up for it. She told me I was doing a good job with Pan and I was proud. Another big thing is Goku is training with me and it's great to have someone so strong to train with, Kakuna was at an advantage for so long being able to train with Vegeta for so long, now I can catch up.

(Three years, eight months, two weeks)

We had a combined birthday party today, Vegeta II, Tenks, Alex, and Liana shared one big party. We had it at Capsule Corp and everyone was there. Goku and Vegeta got into a bragging contest and I felt bad that Alex and Liana weren't really his grandchildren, but Alex was his half-brother. However it became a lot of fun when Kakuna and I got into a couples sparing match, Gohan actually wore a gi, which was very…. interesting, and we fought against her and Trunks. We lost in the end but it was a lot of fun fighting as a pair. I think I'm going to try and get Gohan to train again, he's still got that potential for great power.

(Three years, eleven months, one week)

Gohan finally agreed and we've begun training together, it's great, Goku comes over and I train with him and Pan, then Goku and Pan go off to train when Gohan comes home and we train. I like it, I'm in the best physical shape of my life and now…I think I'm happy. The only thing missing from my life now…. love.

(Four years, one month, three weeks)

Oh God Toby I'm so sorry! I can't believe it happened it seemed impossible, like it could never happen to me and yet it did. I need to calm down and write this down rationally.

It started out like any normal anniversary, Gohan and I went out to dinner and I pretended that we were a happily married couple as we danced. When we came home we opened the sake again and I sat across from Gohan. Finally, I was drunk enough.

"It's funny, we make a great pair really," I chuckled as I drained another glass and Gohan looked at me, tears rolling down his cheeks. "I hear it all the time, people on the street, friends, family, they all think we're great together. Funny, they have no idea." I chuckled as I poured myself another glass.

"Yea, a real Riot, Mabelle," Gohan said as he drained his glass and I filled it.

"You know, if I hadn't met Toby, I'd probably have fallen for you," I sighed as I drained another glass. Hiding behind the glass so I couldn't see Gohan's face. He was drinking too, so I refilled my glass.

"Yea, if Jera hadn't been around I think I could've fallen for you," he whispered as he finished his glass and I felt my heart soar.

"Well…" I finished my glass. "Another anniversary for us," I chuckled and then sobbed. "Ain't married life grand?" I drained another glass.

"Shut up and pour," Gohan had said as he grabbed the bottle of sake away from me. I reached for the bottle and ended up causing Gohan and I to fall to the floor. I landed on his chest and I looked into his eyes and saw the pain in them, they seemed to reflect my pain, I felt so confused where did his pain end and where did mine begin? Somehow I was beneath him and I whispered his name. He lowered his head towards mine.

"My Belle," he whispered as he kissed me. I felt the love that I longed for in that kiss and I returned it. Oh Toby I'm sorry. We made love, we went up to the room we had shared for four years without real physical contact and we made love. We bit each other and formed a bond. I hadn't felt so good in four years. I'm sorry Toby, it happened and he promised me…he promised me he'd never leave me alone. I'm sorry…

(Four years and two months)

I'm pregnant…. again. Everyone is celebrating and I'm happy, I have my mate, my young, and a place where I belong. I no longer care about the pain I've been through, I'm finally happy.

(Four years, two months, and two weeks)

We've had a surprise visitor. This morning a young man appeared in our front yard and introduced himself as Trey…. Jera's younger brother…Boy. I welcomed him into our home and Gohan was shocked. We didn't know what to expect we were both scared though. Scared that we'll been torn apart, hated, and forget each other. However Trey thinks it will be a while before they come. I hope it's more, we need time…time for Gohan's and my child to be born, time to come up with a way to tell them. Dende we are so unprepared.

(Four years, nine months, and one week)

I am a mother again, last night I went into labour and with in three hours I had a little baby boy sitting on the carpet next to me. Gohan was in shock and rushed over to get Chichi who took care of me right away. We cleaned up the baby and I named him Gokin. It seemed to fit the little Son clone I've given birth to. I am so happy as I sit in my bed nursing my infant son as my twins watch.

(Four years, ten months, and three weeks)

I saw Videl yesterday as we were in Satan City. I had been carrying Gokin in a baby carrier on my chest as Gohan carried Liana and Alex on his shoulders while Pan pushed the baby carrier between us. Gohan and Pan didn't see her but I did and we locked eyes. She seemed mad and I wondered if she was jealous of me for having her family now.

(Four years, eleven months, and three weeks)

The party is next weeks, five years, it seems hard to believe. I can't believe I've been here for this long. I'm so happy nothing could make me upset. I have a loving husband and mate, four beautiful children, good friends, and a study where I can work. Life is perfects for me…

AN: Seven hundred forty-five journal entries were skipped in the production of this journal…

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*Jo*

"An e-mail, From J'dee...cool" Clicking on the link, I began to read.

"Ain't anything but magic, a sequel J'dee's going back!"

"What are you going on about girl?" I looked over to my brother; his dark eyes held question and I wondered if I should tell him.

"Don't worry, it's nothing."

"Talking to yourself, again?"

"DAD...... why didn't you tell me you where behind me...grrr...." I stood up form the computer and shut it down, storming out of my dad's study, I grabbed my coat and keys and smiled at my step mum.

"Just going to Claires, be back later, ok?"

"Don't be too late, we're having a roast dinner."

"Ok, I won't." Walking down the gravel path, I thought about how I could rejoin the other authors in the dbz world. it was then I remembered how much I contributed to their last escapade.

"Would J'dee have me back?" I wondered.

I came to the cafe, looking up at the building, I smiled and entered, paying the fee and sitting at a computer.

"Hey Jo, what you doing here?" Asked a voice, I looked around to see no one but me in the room.

strange, that sounded like melody, but we didn't continue ANBM? and I can't remember what happened to her...

Writing the address for my mail, I once again opened the e-mail and read it through again.

"Do I really want to go back? Not that I have anything here to stay for, except Kris. hmm...."

Looking around once more, I began to reply. I had to go back, there was so much I didn't do, I soo wanted to meet Yamcha, and #17, and so many other characters I hadn't met. Yeah, I'd met the prince, and Kakarot, but I needed to know more, I wanted to see more.

It was decided then, E-mailing J'dee was the best decision at that time, and I knew I wouldn't regret it.

"But who do I go as? Do I return as Kattrina, or shall I go as myself?"

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To Be Continued…

~J'dee