Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Losing hope ❯ Chapter 4

I pick up the letter and read it.

Dear Pan Chan.

I know how much you hate that nickname, but I can't help myself. I just...you'd think it be easier to write out what I'm feeling on paper, but I find it equally hard as if I were trying to tell you in person. I should get to the point huh? What exactly is the point of this letter? You ask. Well this is letter holds my true feelings.... Ha, my true feelings, you're probably wondering what feelings could this loser possibly have? The truth is I wish I didn't have these feelings, or any feelings for that matter. It would be so much easier to not feel, but I do. I can see you getting mad, fuming in fact, saying "Get to the point Trunks." All right, I will. Pan, I do not know when I first realized these feelings, See Pan, there is a reason I wake up in the morning. There is a reason, I go to work, why I do anything, and it is because of you. I do everything because of you, I live my life for you, and my world revolves around your very existence.

I sound like some stalker, stalking you don't I, I don't care, I need to tell you my feelings. I love you Pan Son; I have always loved you. When I saw you for the first time, I got this strange feeling in me, that I was suppose to protect you and take care of you. When we were in space, and you were turned into a doll my world went black during that time, I actually thought I had lost you, I did not want to go on living, I wanted to die. Pan, like I said I don't know when my feelings came to light, or when I started having them, I just know that I love you. I do understand that if you do not love me. I just could not go on, not telling you.

I will love you forever and a day.

Trunks.

I just stare at the letter in shock; 'he loves her.' I was completely dumbfounded, he loves her. I do not understand, he never mentioned anything, nothing! Nothing, that would remotely suggest he even had feelings for Pan. He had always ignored her brushed her off. Now I think I know why, he was afraid to get close to her, to get close would mean revealing the feelings he harbored, and risk one of the only true friendship he has. Now he did this, he must have found out about the engagement, poor guy. To love someone wholeheartedly only for him or her to find someone else, I hope I never have to feel that way.

I look over at mother; she shoots up all the sudden. "There's a pulse, he still has a pulse." She says excitedly.

"Mirai, can you?" I know what she wants I pick up my counterpart, and take him to the lab to set him up in a regeneration tank.

"Thankyou Mirai." Mother said grateful as she hugged me.

"No problem, I'm gonna go find Pan."

"Alright." She turned to Trunks.

I find Pan by grandmothers rose gardens, a place where Trunks would take her to take her sorrows away when she was younger.

"Pan?" I gradually walk to her.

Pan turned around tears stained her face. "Trunks would bring me here, when I was a little girl. He would bring me here when I was feeling sad. He told me, the roses were here to take away my tears." Pan walked over to a bench and sat down. I followed and sat next to her.

"Tell me."

"He said the tears help the roses grow, He told me when ever I get sad, to look at the roses and be happy, because the roses were happy to take away my tears." She stands up and turns to me. "So why aren't they working, why are my tears still here, I look pathetic, still believing a tale he had told me when I was just a little girl, I should stop this nonsense. " Pan tried to laugh at what she thought was pathetic.

I get up and put an arm around her. "It's not pathetic Pan, deep down you want to be that impressionable five year old, in this garden with Trunks, listening to the story of the land of roses."

"I do, I wish I was that impressionable five year old again, I wish Trunks was standing here with me, telling me stories, I know he makes them up, but I like his stories, and now..." She stops short, she starts crying. I need to tell her, I need to tell her he is alive.

"He's alive." I tell her.

"What?"

"Pan, he's alive, he still has a pulse, and his breathing is light."

"I have to see him, where is he?"

"Down in the lab."

Pan kissed me on the cheek. "Thanks!" She said as she ran to the labs, I wait for a moment and follow. I get to the labs and see her sitting next to Trunks, talking to him as she held his hand.

"Why didn't you tell me Trunks? Why didn't you tell me you had these feelings for me, You never even made it clear to anyone of your feelings, I mean you always ignored me, brushed me off." Pan put her head into her hands and started sobbing silently. She looked up at him.

"When I was younger, we would do everything together, and when I got older, you would tell me to get loss, or mind my own business, I always wondered about that, now I know, to be close to me would mean revealing what you felt, Trunks tell me why couldn't you just tell me, I would have loved you back." She grabs and shakes his shoulder. "I would have loved you back, don't you see. If you told me a year ago, about your feelings. I would have loved you, but guess what Trunks, you are too late, too late you here me. I am with Mirai Trunks, now, and nothing you will do or say will ever change that fact. So go ahead and kill yourself, I won't cry, I won't cry... for you Trunks Briefs, you will never deserve my sympathy understand." She screams as tear flow from her eyes. "You will never deserve it."

I look on, I want to comfort her, and I want to go and tell her everything will be alright. I however do not, she need this time alone. I just watch her, watch her from afar. I only pray for everyone's sake Trunks' pulls through this. 'Please let him pull through this?" I ask Dende. 'Do it for his parents, his sister, but more importantly do it for Pan, she needs him around, she may not admit it, but her world revolves around his as well.'

"Mirai." I turn around to see mother standing there, along with some medicines and what not."

"Mother." I acknowledge her. She looks in and sees Pan.

"You told Pan, how's she handling it?"

"She's upset, I never seen her cry like this." I tell her.

"He's her bestfriend, although they are thirteen years apart, they depend on eachother, Everyone thinks Goten is Trunks' Bestfriend, but that's no longer true, sure when they were eight, but now Pan is his bestfriend, he goes to Pan, and relies on her for everything, As his mother I have noticed this, I however didn't noticed the growing feelings he had harbored away." She starts to cry. "I'm his mother, I should know what's bothering him."

I try my best to comfort her.

"Hey what is going on?" I turn around to see Bra, Trunks' little sister standing there.

"Bra?" I acknowledge her presence. "What are you doing here?" I noticed she had looked into the room, she had seen Trunks.

"Why is Nii Chan in there?"

I didn't know what to tell her. I uh… well…"