Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ PLAYTIME ❯ Chapter Four ( Chapter 4 )

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Chapter Four


Meanwhile, things hadn't been better for Vegeta, he was having his own struggling. Maybe not an epiphany like Goku was experiencing, but he was starting to discover new things, that were far from comfortable.

What a big mess. He couldn't stop thinking of the sexy stuff they had done. Memories, haunting him, of the younger saiyan writhing and squirming beneath him, the moans and cries of pleasure , the beautiful spasms around him. It had been fucking perfect, pure bliss. What a sweet torture to think about it! He had tried to vent his pent-up frustration with an intensive training , but to no avail. And the brat bugging him every time of the day, and the annoying woman bitching and yelling about how a worthless father he was, hadn't helped much. Damn! His ears were still sore from all the screeching.

And the worst thing wasn't his constant hunger for Kakarot, (he may be unsatisfied but could cope with it). But the way he had felt when Kakarot had dismissed him, with such sadness in those beautiful eyes. Since when did the almighty Vegeta care for anybody else but himself? That was unheard of. It was just physical attraction, it must be. But, although he tried to denied it, deep down in his heart he knew what was going on. He knew why now it was so hard to be apart from the other male. He had kept some information from Kakarot, he knew he should have been honest with the younger male, but he wasn't ready to assume the real implications of what had transcended between them. And there was something else...he didn't want to think about it, not yet. But soon, it was going to be very notorious. And Kakarot was going to be so mad at him. He shuddered, as he envisioned the other saiyan strangling him. 'Gods! I'm so dead!'.

Vegeta waited some days to let the other saiyan calm down. Kakarot couldn't have said seriously that he didn't want to see him anymore. He couldn't have meant that, could he? At that moment, Kakarot had been confused and upset. Yes, it had to be that. He just needed some time to adjust, and the prince had given him enough of it. Now he would go to Kakarot.

Goku was in his usual training grounds. After spending the last three weeks confined in his room, trying to make sense of what was happening with him, he finally decided to get out to do some exercise. Cause he was starting to become strangely weak, as well as going crazy. It was so nice to feel again the morning breeze and the sunbeams on his skin, and the wet grass beneath his feet. To breath fresh air instead of being in a stuffy room. To hear the sounds of nature instead the nagging buzz that had been lately inside his head. Maybe now, he could get rid of the strange dizziness he had been feeling for the last days.

When Vegeta spotted the younger saiyan, he kept apart waiting for Goku to finish , watching him almost in awe. The suggestive movements of his tail, curling and swaying in a sensual way, as well as the natural grace of the tall male, weren't doing any good to the painful state of arousal of the prince.

Soon, Goku sensed him, but didn't acknowledge his presence. He decided to resume his exercise instead. After a while, though, unnerved noticing Vegeta's penetrating gaze on him, but never stopping what he was doing and without looking at the other, Goku decided to speak to him.

“Geez Vegeta, I'm starting to get worried about your health”

The older man rolled his eyes, unable to understand what the younger male had meant with such statement.

“What the hell are you babbling about? Idiot!”

“Well, I think that your brain is damaged, cause you seem to have lost your memory. Or are you just stupid and can't understand simple things?” He paused for a second, glared at the prince and then continued louder. “Didn't I tell you to keep away from me?”

After the initial shock, Vegeta didn't know if Goku's attittude was annoying or amusing. But weird, that was for sure. He decided against getting angry and to ignore the odd outburst instead. So he just shrugged. Then Vegeta decided to push some buttons, even knowing that it wasn't the smartest thing to do:

“Can't help it. I desire you, Kakarot.”

Goku blinked, astounded. He didn't know whether to laugh or to beat the man.

“You got some nerve,Vegeta. Stupid me, I thought you have come to apologize or, at least, to show some sympathy.”

Oh yes, Vegeta had meant that and more. He wanted to comfort the other to make it up to him, to let him know he wasn't alone because he knew what Goku was experiencing. Saiyajin coming of age wasn't easy to bear. His own had been hell and for Kakarot should be worse. In an alien environment, without nobody to guide him. Vegeta was suddenly ashamed of himself, he should have taken the responsability to assist the younger man, being the only one left who knew what had to be done. In his chilhood, he was taught that his title not only gave him power to dominate and impose his will, or the privilege to receive honours and praises, but he must as well watch over his people's welfare and security. And he realized that he had used it only to humiliate and belittle other people. Having lost everything didn't mean he had the right to neglect his duties with his subjects, even if only were one of said subjects left. But his arrogance got in the way as ever. So instead of following his firsts, noble, impulses, he just remained there emotionless, like the real bastard he was.

Goku waited for Vegeta to make some comment, but the man seemed so lost in thought that Goku spoke again. The sound of his voice startled vegeta, getting him out of his musings.

“So what, Vegeta? Do you expect me to be your whore, just because you're a horny bastard?” Said Goku trembling, cause the whole situation was starting to irritate him.

Vegeta got close to the younger man and whispered, with his mouth brushinging slightly over Goku's earlobe: “Mmm...,that would be so,so nice, Kakarot.” Goku closed his eyes and gasped at the sensation of that gentle touch. But Vegeta moved away from the other inmediately, rather pleased with the response he had gotten. Goku soon regained his senses and explode:

“You're so damn sick. I can't believe it. I must be as stupid as you always have claimed, for giving you more credit than that. Hell! I even thougt that I was starting to understand you, to knowing you better. How could I think that under that harsh appearance there were someone sensitive, worthy, with strong feelings? When you're nothing but an egotistical bastard. After all we've been through, you can only think in yourself, in your pleasure.”

Oh! how Goku's words stung his heart, more than anything but still he can't show any weakness. But, all in all, a grumpy Kakarot. That was new...but very appealing.

“Look, Kakarot, you choose. You can throw a tantrum if you want, or we can have a lot of fun together” Vegeta said that last words purring so sensually, that just for a while, it sent shivers up Goku's spine. But that awkward sensation soon disappeared, being replaced with one of disgust, when Vegeta added rather smugly: “Well, personally, I think the last is better...at least for me” And then, he smirked knowing how he was affecting the other saiyan. He didn't know why, but he was starting to find more and more amusing to tease the younger male, it was such a fun! But at the same time, he loathed himself, knowing that this was the last thing the other man needed. 'But you can't stop being a jerk. Can you, Vegeta?'

Goku decided to stop arguing, cause he felt his control slipping down drastically, and he didn't want to get violent. He already had a lot of problems and, in spite of his previous outburst, he didn't mean the acrid remarks he had yelled to the older man. He still thought that Vegeta was putting up a front so nobody could harm him. So instead of replying and getting more furious, he just glanced at the prince and resume his previous exercises. Vegeta remained there, he seemed to be hipnotyzed by the other graceful movements. He had gotten more excited seeing the younger male act so out of character and feeling the proximity of his body for some seconds.

As the prince was having the most suggestive thoughts. Goku, who seemed to be totally calm, wanted to satiated his curiosity.

“Tell me, Vegeta. Was it only lust for you?” Asked Goku, stopping his push-ups and sitting under a near tree.

“Why do you want to know?” Asked Vegeta, slightly confused.

“Well, there were moments that you were very tender, even romantic, Vegeta. You can't deny it”

The prince wasn't expecting that. He blushed. Goku got surprised by this reaction from the prince, it was strange but extremely attractive.

Furious at being caught with his guard down, Vegeta knelt in front of Goku and grabbing the collar of his shirt, yelled:

“Moron! All your stinky stuff was messing with my hormones driving me crazy. My instincts as an alpha were telling me to be protective, even caring with my beta. It's how it works. It's just a natural mechanism to grant the mating, the submissive must feel this to cooperate and to avoid unnecessary damage.”

Goku put his hands up, meaning no harm and Vegeta let go off him, and stood upon his feet to lean against the tree.

“It doesn't make sense, Vegeta. You told me that any dominant male would have taken me if he would have had the ocassion, even brutally. And that I was craving for sex and I would follow my instincts letting anyone to take me.”

Shit! Vegeta felt trapped. But he know he eventually would have to tell Kakarot everything about the mating. He only had told the basics, but he hadn't explained the deepest meaning of the process. But not know, he didn't want to face it already. And now Goku was starting to suspect that the prince was hiding something. So Vegeta remained silent. Goku shrugged. He didn't want to push the older man, but he had to get some answers.

”If you dont want to tell me, fine. But I can't believe that it was just some kind of chemical reaction. Some feelings doesn't appear suddenly and vanished the next minute, as if they would never have existed. Didn't you truly mean all the tenderness you were showing me?”

“You keep thinking like a human, Kakarot. We saiyans don't love, don't care.”

“That's bullshit, Vegeta and you know it. You can't keep saying that if it makes you feel better. But everybody is capable of those feelings, and saiyans aren't an exception. I know cause I'm saiyan and I feel, and it's got nothing to do with being raised as a human. Nobody could teach those things to a creature unable to express them.”

“Kakarot, you just believe that you feel the same things they do. You know their customs and have picked up his poses, displays, and mannerisms. But to imitate the external appearence, doesn't make you one of them. Monkey see monkey do, that doesn't mean monkey know what he's doing.”

“That's the most absurd thing I've ever heard, Vegeta. And besides, there's no way you can know what I really feel. You're not inside my mind and in spite of what your inflated ego makes you believe, you aren't omniscient.”

Vegeta was getting enraged by the cocky bastard. He clenched his fists and gritted his teeth.

“You're just an stupid weakling, Kakarot.”

“Such a deep reasoning. Oh, mighty prince of all saiyans! Can't you say anything better, a sarcastic remark, proper of that sharp royal mind. I thought you were a smartass, not a dumbass.” Then, taking a deep breath Goku said in a softer tone. “What are you afraid of , Vegeta?”

Vegeta couldn't control his rage anymore, and lunged onto him, trying to punch him . But Goku blocked the blows and grabbed Vegeta's fists . The prince glared at the younger male, his face reddened with fury, a threatening look in his eyes.

“How dare you, third-class scum. I fear nothing. I'm a powerful warrior, no living creature can defeat me, no danger can make me retreat.”

“Enough, Vegeta. Calm down.” Goku sighed as the other man just stared and breathed heavily, panting.

“I know that you don't fear anybody. I wasn't talking of that kind of fear, and you know it. I'm talking about your inner fears. You're so scared to show your true self, because they would hurt you. Why don't you stop hiding yourself behind those unsurmountable walls that you've built around you. You may think that they're your shield, a place where you feel protected and safe. But they're just a prisson which keeps you apart from life, from happiness. I know what you've been through . I've been trying to put myself into your place.Thinking what kind of person I would be now, how would I feel? If I were to become the powerful ruler of an entire planet, with a bright future before me. And suddenly all were taken away from me. My family, my home, my people and my dreams. All destroyed . And instead I had to suffer the humiliation of being enslaved by the same tyrant who stole everything from me. And the only thing left were an insatiable thirst of vengeance. If the only thing which gave sense to my life and kept me going on, were the conviction of being able to reach enough power and strength to kill the source of my pain. And suddenly, someone stronger would steal that too. What would keep me going on, then.? What could I rely on, but my pride and wrath. And the fear , a deadly fear to relive it again and again. That some freaky creature would withdraw what I'd held dear. Then, I would believe that the only way to avoid that endless pain would be to get unattached. I wouldn't ever let anything nor anybody get close. So I would deny all kind of feelings, except a blind hate for every living creature. All those feelings were part of you long time ago, but you were hurt and it was unbearable. So you forgot that sensations, that emotions. So the pain would go. Vegeta, I think that you're the bravest person I've ever known for being able of enduring such things and still keep going on, without mourning on the past. But you don't have to be afraid anymore, nobody can't hurt you now. You must use your courage to become that wonderful person you would be if all that harm wouldn't have been inflicted to you. Instead of spoiling that strength in a useless rage.”

Goku's eyes shone with deep emotion. How he wanted to caress that face, to hold the man and told him that everything would be right. But he knew that Vegeta wouldn't allow that.

The prince stared strangely at the younger saiyan and then flew away without saying a word.

As he was flying on his way home, Vegeta was confused and surprised. He couldn't stop thinking about all the things the other saiyan had told him. He had come just for sex, or so he thought. But he had found more than he had bargained for. He realized that Kakarot was getting under his skin, and he couldn't allow risking his freedom and solitude. He couldn't let anybody get so close. If Kakarot found the way to his heart, the loss would be unbearable. Yes, cause he knew that in the end he would lose him, and this time somehow he knew that he would lose the only thing who could give sense to his life. This time he would be finally broken.

“Damn Kakarot! How dare him, the stupid? How can he be so insightful? How could he read me so well?” That thoughts enraged him but, strangely, pleased him and soothed him. He just sighed. He knew that it was too late, somehow the bond had started to form. And he had to come to terms with the new situation, cause resistance was futile. It would only endanger his life and Kakarot's.