Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Scars ❯ Scars ( Chapter 1 )

Scars-Drabble-Songfic

 

By: Vegeta's Mate

 

A/N: This fic deserves to be written, it was inspired by "Scars" by Papa Roach. G/V implied pairing, angst. Let me know what you think. 568 words.

 

Disclaimer: I do not own either Papa Roach or any of his music, neither do I own the delicious saiyans that I am playing with.

 

Scars

 

I sit here on the rocks that border the sea and I'm thinking of us. We had a rocky start to say the least and I realize that I am tired of this give/use relationship, I give you everything that is in me to give and you take it never giving in return. I guess that my weakness is that I care too much.

 

Everytime I give myself to you, I am tearing my heart open just to feel what I want to feel. Looking back over our time together I see that this tension between us can never be over come, the past is too real for us to forget. You hated me when you first landed here, as our battle raged I could see that you were drowning in your anger, so I offered you my hand only to have it tossed back in my face. I realized then that I couldn't help you fix yourself , but at least I tried.

 

You never gave a damn about anything but winning and in the end I guess that you did win, you have the 'mighty' Kakarotto trembeling at your feet. Fearful of doing something that would turn you away, I re-created myself in your image; doing what you wanted me to, saying what you wanted, being who you wanted no matter if it went against my principls. I left my heart open for you but you didn't realize it. Only now do I see the scars that you left on my mind and heart and those scars remind me that the past is real.

 

Taking another long swallow of some kind of alcohol that I filched from Master Roshi, I feel the welcome numbness seeping into my limbs, hours ago I lost count of how much I had already drunk and now it was beginning to pay off. I could feel myself sewing itself shut, keeping the feelings for you at bay. For the first time in the last three years, since we came together, I can't feel the pain of loving you.

 

I am happy.

 

In the past my weakness was that I cared too much, now I don't feel at all. I guess I should thank you for taking the pain away, you broke me and now I can't feel anything. Compassion is in my nature but now I can't even feel that.

 

I feel your ki moving rapidly towards me and I growl in anger. I am pissed that you came here, to me, when I am like this.

 

I stagger to my feet just moments before you land behind me.

 

"Just go home Vegeta, I'm drunk and I just want to be alone." I growl keeping my back to him.

 

I hear a snort of derision then, "Fool, why would I leave you here to end up killing yourself? Do you think I want to be the cause of a verbal war when that happens?"

 

"That's all you care about, isn't it." I stated, my tone flat and unfeeling.

 

 

"Of course, what would you have me give a damn about?" he intoned, confirming my fears.

 

 

"Of course." I repeated turning to face him, the words fell from my lips like acid, burning and eating away the skin.

 

 

He looks at me, and I fool myself in to seeing understanding dawn in his eyes.

 

 

"Good bye, Vegeta."

 

 

"Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]