Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ The Weakness In Me ❯ Weakness ( Chapter 1 )

The Weakness In Me (Song by KeishaWhite)

(A/N: This story is about two secret lovers and their new found love. They seem to be happy until conscience eats them alive. This is one loooooong one shot. Grab a cup of tea while you're at it. By the way, you guys might be confused about the `he's'. Sorry! The `he's' in italics (he) is the lover and the ones in normal is her original guy(but it's not always like that). I don't know why I chose this couple. I just thought it would be interesting)

 

It had been going on for some time now and not a single soul knew, yet it was eating her alive. She couldn't stand it. The lies and all. Sometimes she wondered how she could feel so insecure and yet he could act so laid back and casual. Did it not matter to him?

 

The fact that he was in love with someone else other than his own. The fact that he people hearts were on the line, did it not matter? Of course, he was an uncaring person, he was so straight forward and had a very cold shoulder. But in a scenario like this? It's unbelievable.

 

It's strange that this whole thing scared her, yet she was so proud of herself. She felt she had found happiness at no end, it meant so much to her. She received so much love and passion. She felt as if nothing could go wrong.

But she knew she couldn't hide her guilt forever, it was obvious that one day her conscience will catch up with her. Your conscience never leaves your side, even if it's unwanted. She was learning this the hard way.

 

I'm not the sort of person
Who falls
In and quickly out of love
But to you I gave my affection
Right from the start

 

Of course he cared, he wasn't stupid. He had so much passion for her. More than a lot, he wouldn't even be surprised if his love became an ocean and literally drowned her. Or even killed her. He even forgot how it started. It was so quick; it's amazing how the person you found your worst, turn out to be the best lover you've ever had in your life. There was no lie that he hated her at first.

 

He always watched her being become covered over and over with this ridiculous amount of clothing. It really annoyed and bothered him, yet it brought to him curiosity. What did she have that other girls didn't have? What was so special about her that she needed to keep her body from others? He asked himself this everyday. He knew he shouldn't have really cared less but he really wanted to know why. But then, after the days passed. Which turned into weeks, months or maybe years, he couldn't remember. It then hit him.

She had her dignity.

 

A woman with such loyalty, faithfulness and respect. She had kept herself so, so, so mute. She was like a sacred book. Only opened up to the `chosen one'. But here, that was where the problem laid. There wasn't a chosen `one'. But two. Two had her heart, body and soul. She was being dragged back and fourth.

But of course out of two, there was one to be chosen from her herself. But the thing was, it was chosen. The choice was both. She was confused and lost. She didn't know what she wanted.

 

He knew he didn't have her in her innocent state; neither did she have him in his innocent state. But to him, she was always worthy. After all, if you were really in love, small things like these wouldn't matter much. In his eyes she would always be a virgin. Forever.

 

It honestly pissed him off that she was committed to someone else, someone who didn't understand the meaning of `love'. I don't mean `love' I mean `LOVE'. Some bastard who took advantage of such a treasure and misused it. Some bastard who always thought that he could just show off his powers and gain all the glory because he saved the world a couple of times. Okay, maybe a thousand times. Big deal!

All the guys may probably believe that the bastard was a better man than them because of this. But to him, it wasn't just his power. It was his gift that made him envious. That beautiful gift that he wakes up every morning to! That was a true gift.

 

A gift indeed…

But just given to the wrong person…

If I have a lover
Who loves me
How could I break such a heart
Yet you still get my attention
right from the start

 

It wasn't her fault. It couldn't have been her fault, right? Love isn't a crime is it? Even though you are committed to one but love another it isn't a crime right? Love is love… Isn't it so? He was a good man to her, of course he loved her. He gave her warm hearted smiles, hugs, shared things with her. Okay, maybe not personal things but yeah, it worked. But was that the type of love you would expect to get from your husband? I think not. She loved him. But the love just wasn't coming back. It was like throwing a ball against the wall and letting it bounce back. But instead of revenge being bounced back it was love. Pure love and affection.

 

She loved him with all her heart; she gave him her love, soul body and mind. Most all of her dignity. She lost her virginity to him. The man she thought she owed so much to. The man she believed had more to offer after the words `I do'. Now she is caught in the middle. But whose fault is it exactly?

 

Now here she sits, in the dining room with the man she should be with. The man she is not sure she loves, but wants. They sit there both together, peacefully until the phone rings…

And a shadow immerges from the window only she can see…

He knows it's a bad time…

He knows that he is here…

He knows that it's the biggest risk ever taken…

But yet he yearns to call…

Why?

Why do you come here
When you know I've got troubles enough
Why do you call me
When you know I can't answer the phone

He knew oh so very well, she couldn't answer the phone. Not here, not now, not ever. He knew he was there. But for Kami's sake! It's been three days. He hadn't seen her, smelt her, kissed her, touched her, made love to her… It's been three days. He was already tearing apart. Why couldn't they just be together? It's not like these fools cared. They never did. So why should they worry about them? They didn't deserve them and they knew that all along. Damn, if only things were his way.

 

And if things were his way, he would've loved her in public. He wouldn't care about the others. He just couldn't care anymore. They didn't have a say in what other people felt and who they chose to love. Who could change love? Tell me that. Just who in the universe of many stars could change love? The answer is simple. No one.

 

Yeah, he admitted it was the wrong time to call her but he just couldn't take it anymore! He just wanted to let the secret out. And yeah again, he knew the consequences of letting the secret out would be very…Stinging. But, after all the love he experienced before? It was worth every minute of it. Hell yeah! Every minute of it.

 

The bastard finally catches what she is looking at. He turns and walks over…

 

Make me lie
When I don't want to
And make someone else
Some kind of an unknowing fool
You make me stay
When I should not
Are you so strong
Or is all the weakness in me

She lied, she actually lied. She's lied so many times. It was becoming a habit. Of course it wasn't an awkward looking bird she was staring at so lovingly, it was her love! Her true love! But how could she say such a thing to her husband? He would be hurt. She knew he had emotions and feelings of his own, and that's what shocked her the most.

 

The man who showed her the littlest of fractions of love had emotions of his own. He would probably cry if he heard about the `affair'. But god damn it! Why call it an affair? It sounds so harsh, so back stabbing. Almost frightening… It could kill.

 

But what he doesn't know can't hurt him right? But then again, you can't stay under the moonlight forever, the sun will eventually come out and shine upon the truth. And when that day comes… She knows so well she won't be ready.

 

He turns back to her, oh no. His mouth opens. But is disturbs by the bell.

He is here…

But at the same time, he is here too…

And he knows that…

 

Why do you come here
And pretend to be just passing by
But I need to see you
And I need to hold you
Tightly

She opens the door. There he is, grinning proudly. Since when did he stop by to say `Hi'? It's quite obvious of what his mission was. He wanted to see her again…

She frowned. She couldn't blame him. They both had this addiction. They were like two well combined drugs.

Feeling guilty
Worried
Waking from tormented sleep
This old love has me bound
But the new love cuts deep

 

He's there again. Their both there again. In that special place, where they picture together. Making sweet love. Their love making was such a usual thing, it's almost just as usual as people getting up every morning. But though it was too often, they couldn't help but notice that every time they did it, they grew closer and closer…

 

She sits up. Shocked. Disgusted. It's not right. She is dreaming their dream while he is here. But what is she saying? He's meant to be here. He is committed to her after all. But yes, but no! Yes! No! Don't know anymore! It's tearing her out. The fifth nightmare this week. There's no doubt they'll be more.

 

The cheek of her dreaming of her lover while he sleeps next to her. What cheek. She's never been on this side before. She was always the `clean' one. But, that's the thing. Real love sets you free. If you can't be free, then you're obviously in the wrong area. Love makes you fly like a bird. Not stuck in a cage, like she is always stuck in the house cleaning for the beast next to her.

 

Beast? Where did that come from? She loved him. But the love was fading. Fading? More like gone, oh so long ago.

If I choose now
I'll lose out
Cause one of us has to fall
I need you
And you

 

She had to make a choice. It was now or never. If she sticked with him, she'd be breaking his heart. She would be breaking their promise, all their fantasies, adventures and wishes they made as they held each others hands in bed. All of that. Gone. But she didn't want to let go. She knew with all her heart that he wouldn't give up so easily, he would never let her down. So why do it to him? She loves him. He loves her. Nothing can change that. Ever.

 

But if she picked him, she'd be breaking all of the promises she vowed in front of everyone in the church! Kami in the church! Why the church?! She would be breaking too many promises. Like when she promised to stay a good mother to the kids, to never leave their side. And the time when she promised to wait for him, when he goes to the sky. But she waited long enough… More than enough.

She has moved on, she doesn't love him anymore, doesn't she?

 

Why do you come here
When you know I've got troubles enough
Why do you call me
When you know I can't answer the phone

Another phone call. Fourth one. She couldn't help but count. She missed him, she cried every time he purposely missed his call to avoid trouble. Why couldn't he stop?! Make him stop! But then again, she didn't want him to stop! She wanted more, more more! She wanted his call, kiss, touch, hugs, love! She missed him badly it hurt.

 

But she had enough troubles. She didn't bother him t home when his wife was there. So why was he doing this? Because he cared. It was incredible. Love makes you stupid. A life learned lesson.

Make me lie
When I don't want to
And make someone else
Some kind of an unknowing fool
You make me stay
When I should not
Are you so strong
Or is all the weakness in me

 

He is in the house again. Luckily, he is with him. But what are they talking about? They seem the same as always. Once again, conscience got the best of her. But why is his wife here?! What was he thinking? What's up his sleeve? She has no idea. Yeah it's true, love can make you stupid and make you do stupid things.

Make me lie
When I don't want to
And make someone else
Some kind of an unknowing fool
You make me stay
When I should not
Are you so strong
Or is all the weakness in me

 

Cleaning, scrubbing and scrubbing. Same spot every time. She tosses herself onto the bed. She's tired and has held back the tears for so long. One, a tear drops. She can't take it anymore it's tearing her apart. She knows her choice now. But she's just too scared. Two, another tear. Now she's sure she knows who and what she wants, but it's too late. Or is it?

 

The door swings open. He enters… How dare he? While our real partners are in the other room? Just what on earth?

 

He grins. She grin. We are both sure…

Why do you come here
And pretend to be just passing by
But I need to see you
And I need to hold you
Tightly

 

Within minutes. She finds herself on the bed with his head on her lap. She caresses his face lightly. He grins. He reaches up his hands and pulls her face down. They both breathe each other's air… Their lips both reach within 1cm distance…

 

Then the door opens…

 

The End

 

(A/N: Well, it's not really the end. If you want me to continue just send in your reviews. I hope you all understood the story. It might be confusing to some of you. Sorry if you didn't get it and thanks if you did and liked it.)