Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Trust in blind faith ❯ wish I would of just died ( Chapter 3 )

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Trust in Blind Faith by Star Spangle Mistress





"What do you mean Go-chan?" I shake my head not sure if I heard him right. I can feel the fear rolling off him in waves now, his hand is trembling within my grasp. I lace my fingers tightly with his.

"Goten? Can you see color or shapes? This is important." Lacey asks, turning up the lights in the room. Goten squinted his eyes close as the lights become brighter. I finally let out a breath I know I've been holding. He could still see the difference between light and dark. After a few moments, he cracked his eyes open, his dark chocolate colored eyes scanning the whole room back and forth before his eyes stopped to rest in my direction.

"Why is everything so blurry?" He asked in a whisper, his brows starting to furrow down into a scowl. My Chibi-chan couldn't see me! All I was to him was a dark colored shape with a shock of purple on top. But that's ok; I love my Goten no matter what happens, no matter what.

"Goten-san, we'll have the doctors look into this in the morning. Why don't you get some rest ne?" Lacey asks, taking the blankets and pulling them up his chest. My god my heart is breaking right now. Chibi looks like he's about to cry and I don't want to leave him. I've waited a whole week just to see him and five minutes is not enough to quench the ache I've been feeling. I bent down and nuzzled my face against the side of his trying to remember his scent and the feel for just a moment.

"I'll see you soon Chibi. Don't be scared because I'm always here. I love you." I whispered out against his cheek before kissing it gently. Before I could pull away I felt the warm tears sliding between our skin. I could taste the salty liquid on my lips as I pulled away from him. God I think I'm going to break down and cry with him if I don't leave this damn room.

I untangled my fingers from his and turned on my heels quickly. My eyes are watering so badly now. I pushed past Gohan and my father in a hurry to leave, not caring where I went at the moment as long as I wasn't there to see my Chibi cry.

I found myself on the rooftop of the hospital sometime later. The chilly north wind biting into me as I looked out over the city. I can almost hear my father's snide remarks about his weak son fleeing the room now. Does he have a clue what I'm going through here? I don't think anyone does. My heart is torn and tattered, but my love for my Chibi is so very strong. I roughly wiped the tears away with the back of my hand. Goten wouldn't want me to cry. I have to be strong for him. He's going to need me to be strong for him.

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It's been two weeks since I first saw Goten that late night. He was finally moved out of intensive care and into a regular room last week so he could start his physical therapy. He had a lot of problems with walking at first, but now it's fine motor skills that he has to relearn. The doctors say everything looks promising for him even thought they're not a hundred percent sure that is vision will ever return to normal. But his other senses are working over time to compensate for it. I swear he can hear me coming from down the hall sometimes.

Shit I'm running late today. I woke up late thanks to Bura, and my mother started her nit picking about me going to college again this morning. I can't tell you how many times I've fought her about me going to that stupid school so damn far away, especially at a time like this. Why couldn't she understand that Goten is an important person in my life and if anything happened to him I would die with him as well? Fuck it, I'm not going to worry about that right now. I just need to pay attention to the road before something happens to me.


I picked up some iced pastries at a small bakery downtown by special request of Goten. He says the hospital food is bad, and I have to agree with him there. But nothing is as bad as my father trying to cook yet. I just can't wait until the hospital releases him from this damn place. I think some fresh air and new surroundings will do him good, but he has to be able to do some things for himself before they can do that. He picked up on walking pretty fast, but it tires him out quickly.

He's been keeping his thoughts to himself a lot lately also. He's upset that he can't control his energy like he use to. I can see the frustration storming in his beautiful eyes when things get hard for him. He has his good days and his bad days and I hope today is a good one.

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I run up the five flights of stairs to his floor today. Dad says I'm not training enough but I shrugged it off. This will have to do for exercise today. I look at my watch as I come through the doors of the fifth floor. Damn, I'm twenty minutes late already. I'll have to remind myself to kill the princess when I get home tonight for messing with my alarm clock.

I notice his room door wide open as I dodge around the breakfast carts and medical supplies. What I didn't expect was the sound of metal assaulting my ears along with Goten's voice yelling. Yep, it's a bad day, again.


"Oi! Chibi stop terrorizing the nurses!" I shouted as I entered the room, ducking a few thrown objects from the other side of the room. I sidestep the food tray that he has tossed on the floor. I think it was oatmeal or something, but I'm not entirely sure. But I crinkle my nose anyways.

"Tell them to leave me alone! I don't need a shot to sleep!" So this is what this tantrum is all about. He must have had another bad night last night.

"Saaa Chibi. You probably didn't sleep a wink last night did you?" I question, dropping the bag of pastries on the table in front of him that was now void over every object that usually sits on it.

"I just want out of here so I can sleep in my own bed and eat real food!" He growled out to me, his face turning in my direction, but his eyes not really focusing on me.

"I know you do…"

"I'm tired of being prodded and poked! This all fucking sucks! Why don't they do that shit to someone else for a while?" My eyes widen, this must be pretty bad because he never curses. He's too afraid of his mother wrath if she heard those words fall from his lips.

"They just need to make sure you're getting better is…"

"I don't care anymore Trunks! I some times wish I would of just died…because…god it hurts, it hurts…" Oh damn, I didn't know Chibi. If I had known you were in so much pain I would of done anything to take it away. He's so upset and frustrated that it's killing him. I grab both of his arms by the wrist, pulling him into my chest. I so wish he still had his hair again so I could thread my fingers through it to calm him. But I'm greeted with bandages still.

"Goten…" Time to swallow my pride right now. I'm going to do it. I hope this gives him something to look forward to, to live for…shit if nothing else, something to laugh at. His hands are grasping at the front of my shirt, his tears now soaking in to it as well making my skin damp.

"Goten, calm down please. Chibi? Will you listen to me just for a moment? I need to tell you something that I've been putting off for a very long time." He nods his head gently, still clinging to me as tightly as he can.

"I just want you to know that I would miss you terribly if something happened to you. You've been my best friend for as long as I can remember. And…I want you to know that I…I love you very much."

"I know Trunks, I love you too." He sniffles out, his bottom lip doing that cute pouty thing.

"Do you understand what I'm trying to say here Chibi?"

"I think so. You're my best friend and I love you as well."

"It's deeper then that Chibi. Oh so much deeper. I want to grow old with you, take care of you in every way possible. I just want to be with you Goten." He is quiet, probably trying to comprehend what I'm blabbering out about now. I wrap my arm tighter around his waist while I brush the backside of my hand against his damp cheek. His eyes are closed now, no real expression on his face. He has to hear my heart thudding in my chest as I wait for an answer.

"Chibi?" He's being too silent for my tastes. Man what if he hates me? I don't think I could take it if he told me to get out and never come back. But I would just to make him happy. As long as he's happy…

"Trunks-kun, you sound like you're asking me to marry you." I know I'm grinning like an idiot now. It did sound like I was proposing marriage. Not yet anyways. We're both still too young for that, and his recovery is above everything to me at the moment.

"It all depends on your answer Goten. If you don't want this to go any farther, then I understand. I'll still be right here for you. Forever as long as you need me." I whispered softly against his temple. He's finally starting to relax in my arms. Maybe I can get him to sleep for a little bit without the nurses threatening him with syringes and drugs. So I continue to stroke his back and the side of his face lightly.

"I don't know. I've never had a boyfriend before…not even a girlfriend for that matter. I'm not as popular or good looking as you are Trunks." He mumbled out against my chest.

"Shhhh, don't say that. I think you're beautiful. We'll just take things slow ok? If something makes you uncomfortable, tell me and I'll stop." He nods his head in reply, eyes still closed but there is a small smile on his face now.

"How are you feeling Chibi-chan? You still in pain?"

"Headache." That word holds new meaning to me now. I've learned that a headache to him is something much worse then anyone else would get. The doctors have said that he might suffer from these kinds of headaches until the day he dies because of the remaining part of the tumor still inside his brain. Makes me wonder if I could use the dragonballs to wish away those headaches or that tumor. I hate seeing him in agony.

"Want me to get a nurse for you since you scared them all away? I'm sure they can give you something to take the edge off of it." I ask looking down on him, stroking his cheek. No matter what his answer is, he's going to get an injection. Natty, one of the day nurses is standing at the door right now with the syringe in hand that contains painkillers that will usually knock him on his ass for atleast four hours. She knows I can calm him enough to make her job easier, so she waits patiently until I give her the nod of my head for her to do her deed. One of these days, Goten is going to figure out that I have a hand in this all, but I'm only doing it for him.

I look towards the door and give her the nod. She nods back and slips in quietly as I murmur to Goten about non-important things at the moment while she picks the spot where she is going to inject him at. Chibi winces and opens his eyes to look at me.

"Sneaky bastard."

"That's me Goten. Now get some rest please. I'll get you lunch from where ever you want if you behave like a good Son Goten." The smile stays on his lips until the painkillers Natty gave him kicks in. His eyes droop closed first before his body goes totally lax in my arms.

"Thanks Trunks-san. He did not get a single minute of sleep last night." Natty says to me as I lay him back down in bed and cover him with the thin blanket and sheet.

"Was he in pain or something?" I asked raking my hand through my disheveled hair now.

"Yeah, he was in pain. The night staff was about to call you last night. For some reason he won't let anyone get near him when you're not around."

"Why didn't anyone call me? I know he can be a pain in the ass, but damn it. Could you make a note at the nurses station that if they need any help with him for them to call me? I don't care what time it is, I'll be here as fast as I can." She can only nod her head after my little rant. Maybe I shouldn't have yelled like that, but damn it this is my Chibi we're talking about here. I walk to the door, shutting it to the outside noise. There is another bed here in his room that I've been using to rest in while Goten sleeps. I place a kiss on his soft lips before crawling into the other bed. I can only hope that the rest of this day will go better.