Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Truthfully Yours ❯ I will honor you ( Chapter 22 )

Disclaimer: I don't own Dragonball Z/GT. Any other characters mentioned below are mine.

A/N: Yup! It's me again. I'd like to thank those few who review and those who even look at my story. Doesn't mean that I don't want the reader to not review, I do. I just wish that if people like it they would keep coming back to see it and read it and maybe one day review and tell me what they think.

By the way, you should check out the following stories called:

"Forgotten tears of a Warrior" by: Star Spangle Mistress,

"The Story of You and Me" by fusionHA

"The story between you and me" by Akemi

"Puppy love series" by Slyhterinette

"Love's Labor" by Ryukodomo

"Fractured Fairytales" by SaintMe

"Caught between Two Worlds" by alfarrar

"Shattered and Scarred" by alfarrar

"The Kakarotte factor" by Echelon

"The Moon Travelers" by Cinead (This one is finished, though she promised a sequel).

Maybe by doing this they'll write more and I won't have to wait till next month for an update.

Due to a note from Spencer in fanfiction.net I've decided to give `Kakarott a voice'. So yup! This chapter would be in Kakarott's P.O.V.

Ch. 22

I am not as stupid as they think I am. Of course I knew of certain things and it's not like I lead everyone to know that I'm okay with this new turn of events, which is not true. I care for Vegeta and his sons and my sons and the rest of the Kami-forsaken universe. It's just that the kid inside me needs both of us to work together for him to be born without any qualms in the world. I wished to whatever Kami I fall in for that someone gives me some answers, but there is obviously none.

I'll admit I should've expected Sakura coming to pick me up at the weirdest times. She always does anyway. I know for a fact that she was there when ah.. hehe… when Gohan was conceived. Which makes me wonder if they had fallen in love with each other from the first time she saw him. That was when Gohan was just a baby not even three years old. I must ask her when I see her, but I doubt it could be anytime soon. She scurried away after our spar and I haven't seen her ever since.

<sigh> I wish I could take it back. I hate being on an edge with everyone especially with Sakura as she is the only one who has been a constant in my life, my guardian angel. I could say I fell in love with her a long time, but it wouldn't be true. She is what she is and I don't love her that way. She kind of reminds me of a female version of Vegeta. Hn. I know I hurt her and in the process I also hurt myself. Someone told me once that there are different types of bonds. Humans call it love, saiyans call it passion and every other being in the universe has their own version of it. To me, it has no name. The different types of bonds are of friendship, love, lust, war-lust, hate and just the feeling of liking someone for the heck of it.

That's what I felt for Vegeta the first time I saw him. Of course, along with thoughts of how to defeat him and stop saying such good things about being a saiyan and all, I liked him for who he was and for what he didn't hide. Despite the belief that he always had something to hide, it was I who felt like I was under the microscope of everybody's mind. Whether or not I measured and IF I did, well it was ok. Which WAS the real reason why I hid behind the mask of a happy fool.

Then comes the obvious question that Sakura threw at me when she found us together in bed. Am I attached to Vegeta? The Saiyan Prince is attached to me although I don't know how it really happened. I admire him for wearing his intelligence, wise guy attitude around himself like an armor. Whilst I am nothing more than a lie. A fool who has survived his creators and unfortunately won't understand what has been handed to him unless someone explains it to me. I wish Sakura was here. She told me that I wouldn't exactly know what was I given unless I felt like I was about to loose it. And I guess that's why I went ballistic when she challenged me for him.

I know. It is a double edge sword that to which I'm speaking of. The fact that I claimed him as my mate but yet I don't feel the same of what he feels for me, what kind of a riddle is that? My son Gohan would just look incredulous at my answer and my granddaughter Pan would just shake her head thinking it best to not try and get an answer out of me. I have decided to talk to the only other female in this universe who somewhat understands me: Chichi. She will understand and try to soothe my fears away; after all, she did bear me two children.

Shortly after I dress I realize that I'm sort of beginning to understand what Chichi meant by feeling fat was not a great part of being pregnant. It's not like I feel fat, I look fat and I'm not even in my seventh month! Chichi looked big… but she glowed. I don't think I glow, although Goten tells me I do and well.. he is due in 2 months, so he must feel much worse than I do. It is not fair! Father assured me it was because he was a demi and it was normal!! Goten gives birth at the end of his fifth month and I have to wait five more months to give birth. It's just not fair.

I've realized that this pregnancy has made me a bundle of nerves. When I'm pissed, Vegeta stays ten feet away from me. It's not even funny anymore. When I'm depressed, he just cuddles up with me. Yeah, I know. Vegeta? Cuddling? Impossible! But he does. It's nice of him to do so… but the mood swings make me wary and I feel like I only want to sleep the days away. It's how pregnant women feel Bulma told me once and sometimes I wish they'd extract it soon, but… ok… it's not that easy she says. I have to go through the whole painful process of giving birth.

Ok. I'm set. I'm ready to face her. Here we go.

<Chichi's house>

I can see it. It's something that of our little home did not have. Peace. There was something or other intervening in our lives that I am sort of surprised that she did not leave me before now. So she greeted me at the door and I almost expected her to faint, but she did not.

She looked on to my belly and made a joke of my tummy. But then she accepted it as part of my weirdness and left it at that. It wasn't until her `hubbie' came into the room that I understood why she thought I would be mad. Her lover was Yamcha. He looked at me in shock and then quickly began to apologize. He honestly expected me to kill him right then and there, but I was not in the mood for spilling some blood. I didn't really want to feel the need to throw up. Chichi reached his side and whispered softly to him that I knew of him, although I knew of him, but not that it was him.

I smiled my foolish smile and he relaxed immediately. She said she needed some groceries and he happily complied. As soon as he was gone, she turned to me and asked me if I wanted some food or tea and I neatly declined. For some reason she wasn't surprised.

"That female saiyan came for a visit a few weeks ago." - ah, that explained almost everything.

"Sakura?"

"Yes, she said there were some things I should be aware of. Most of the stuff she said I did not understand. But she said I shouldn't worry over my sons, especially Goten since he was going to be alright."

"You know he is mated with Trunks?"

"She told me. I didn't understand at first, but she explained it as a side effect of fusing with that boy. I was sorely disappointed, but she dismissed my fears of not having any more grandchildren to spoil and said I would." - She looked at me and I saw that Sakura had explained everything and that I did not need to say a thing.

"I thought you knew nothing since the day you walked out of Capsule Corporation." - she shook her head and told me that Pan came to visit her a few weeks before Sakura's strange visit.

"It took me by surprise when she said that Sakura never asked something in return. She said that she disappeared with what I can guess was my other grandchild name Lee." - here she expected me to say it wasn't true, but it was.

They were gone and I had not even taken that much notice of it. So wrapped up in my problems was I that I didn't even realize it. I shrug and say that I did not notice it. She is sad that she will never meet Lee and I assure her that she will, although in my heart I am unsure as to whether or not it will happen. The afternoon goes quickly and soon I am sitting in the kitchen with her while she cooks. I missed that, the smells of her cooking. I help her with the cooking and by then we are laughing about the past old times.

It is like this that Vegeta finds us. She kissing my cheek in an innocent gesture and he misunderstands it. He growls but before he can jump to finish her off I smile and tell him to take a seat and eat with us: Us being Yamcha, Chichi and I. He politely declines although he still wants her blood. It is really dark outside when we say goodbye and Chichi says it was nice to talk like that and that we should be friends. I agree and then I tap Yamcha gently on his back and say we should meet later for a friendly spar. I emphasize the `friendly' part and all but push Vegeta out of the door.

There I am met with a pair of accusing black eyes. He is jealous and for the first time since we started this `game' as I will call it for now, he is struggling with his emotions and I with my anger. In my head though I hear a `tsk tsk' and know for a fact its Sakura telling me to control my anger or I could kill the brat by turning super saiyan.

I calm down and say we should talk. He stops bristling and looks dead white. He understands very well what those words mean.

<Under a blue starless sky>

We sit. We sit not next to each other but back to back and I wait for him to reign in his emotions. I decided it was best if I did not see his face.

"Didn't you claim me not so long ago as your mate?" - he asks and I just sigh. He is deeply hurt.

"I don't understand how can you be so jealous of a woman who is only interested in another man but me."

He snorts and then growls out: "You left without saying goodbye." - ah, so that's the problem. He thought I was escaping him or I didn't want him anymore.

"What happened to your pride Vegeta? You used to care a dimwit whether I left or stayed, and don't give me the shit about the bond."

"I cared and I still do. I just want you to honor the bond as you have accepted." - he growled out to me and I responded with equal fervor.

"I didn't. You and I both should stop pretending that I will ever feel half of what you feel for me. I'll acknowledge the fact that there is a bond, but I will not submit to you. I made that claim four months ago Vegeta. Did you think that I'd forget?" - I could feel his breath hitch and knew I had hit a sore spot for him.

"I had thought that you'd live past it." - came his quiet reply.

"I don't love you. Heck!, I don't even know what love is." - and with this I scuttle away from him. But I didn't look at him, I didn't dare.

"I don't want you to submit Kakarott. I just want you to honor me as I am undoubtedly honoring you." - with that he stood up and confronted me.

We looked at each other and the terrible mood swings assaulted me again, I knew it because I felt my cheeks grow wet. He was not smiling and he looked like he wanted to snuggle up to me, but this had to be said.

"I will honor you Vegeta as I did with Chichi. But you must understand that I will never love you and it has nothing to do with the fact that you claimed me first, it's me. I don't know what love is but I know for sure that what I feel for you - bond or no bond - it's not love." - and with that I winked out of sight and left him there.

He didn't come back that night and even though I wanted a hug, I knew I could not act like the dimwit I used to act and ask for one. No one was to know and I always keep my promises. I will honor him and no one else will know that in this bond there is no love.