Fake Fan Fiction ❯ Point of Veiw ❯ Dee ( Chapter 18 )

Chapter 18 - Dee

Waking up I wonder why I'm still alive. If God was real he would've killed me in my sleep last night. Perfect. Now I'm losing the love of my life and I finally realize, after more that twenty years, that there's no God. Great.

Knocking? Why the hell is someone here at this forsaken hour? My head… massive headache… Awful, awful noise.

"Yeah, alright. I hear ya loud and clear. I'm coming. Would you please stop banging on the fucking door?" I yell. I don't care who it is. I know it isn't the one person that matters, so no need to be polite.

I go to the door and pull it open.

"What the hell-" I begin. I only stop because it is the one person that matters. It's Ryo with a bouquet of flowers.

"Dee. Can I come in? I need to talk to you and explain a few things." Ryo asks. Man, he's beautiful. His eyes are so black, but full of emotion, I could get lost in them if I stared for too long.

"Y-Yeah." It's taking all of my strength to hold back from kissing him and never letting go. "Come on in. Don't mind the mess. It's been a rough week." I say. And if that ain't the truth, there's no such thing as the truth. "Why'd you leave early? I thought you didn't come back for another three days?"

"I found what I was searching for earlier than I thought I would." Ryo says, putting the flowers on the table.

"Please, Ryo. I need to know something before you say anything else." I say running a hand through my tangled hair.

"What's that?" Ryo says staring at me. I can't remember if he's even actually looked into my eyes before, but he definantly is now.

"Do you want me in your life as an outside-of-work partner, or just an inside-work-only partner?" I say nervously. I know he senses how nervous I am. I never thought that I would fall in love, but here I am, in love with a man that has no idea what I would do for him.

"Oh, God, I want you as a real life partner and a police work partner! I want you as my partner. Outside of work." Ryo says smiling nervously.

"Wait, what? You don't want me to leave you alone and watch in the distance as you marry a beautiful woman and create a new life without me in it?" I say in one breath, totally shocked, the information that Ryo presented me with not sinking in yet.

"Holy hell, no! You're the only person for me. It does not sound appealing to me to start a new life with a woman. I want the life I have now, only with you as my lover. I love you so much, Dee. So much more than you could ever know. And I know that I've put you through hell this past week and the past two years that you've been chasing after me, and I am so sorry. Please don't hate me for making you wait so long." Ryo says near tears.

"I could never hate you even if I tried." I say pulling Ryo into my arms.

"I just needed to get away from everybody's opinion's about how I feel about you. I needed to find out exactly how I felt about you and whether or not I should risk getting my trust thrown in my face again." Ryo explains as we sit on the couch; he's wrapped in my arms, and I love every minute.

"What do you mean if you should risk getting your trust thrown in your face again?" I ask. I don't want to jump to conclusions too fast.

"When I was nineteen and lived with my Aunt Elena and Uncle Rick, Rick betrayed my trust in the most unthinkable way. I knew that I couldn't survive going through that again if you were the one doing that." Ryo says. I can see that he doesn't want to be on the subject, but I need to know what happened that made his decision about being with me need so much time.

"What did he do to you, Ryo?" I ask tentatively.

"He… He beat me when he was drunk. More than once. And it wasn't that hit-you-once beatings, it was one of those just-about-to-kill-you-but-I-won't beatings. And I did not want to go through that again, Dee. Because I know you get drunk, and I get scared when you do because everytime I'm thinking `is this going to be the night?', and I didn't want you to have to deal with that." Ryo says quietly.

"Ryo… I'll stop drinking then. I don't want you to feel like that ever again! I would never, ever, even if my life depended on it, do that to you! Never! You're more important than any beer bottle Ryo." I say tightening my arms around his slender frame.

"Thank you. I love you more than you could ever imagine, Dee, and I never want you to think otherwise." Ryo tells me before he kisses me lightly on my lips.

I love him and I would do anything for him. He's my family, my life, my reason to get up in the morning. I would never hurt him like that bastard of an uncle. Ryo's realized that he can trust me, and that means a lot to both of us. I'll never let him feel pain like that, or any other way, again. I'll show him the love that he deserves and that I've been keeping inside. I know we'll both be happy, finally.

Author's notes:

Aaia: finally! After so much wring spelling and so many clicking on the spell checking thing, it's finally done! I think it's my best work so far and I need to thank all of you who have put up with all of my shit at the ends of the chapters and the story itself. -bows-

Tankle: and she'd like to thank all of the people who've said stuff at the end to keep her from talking to herself! Not that it worked too well…

Ashi: I'd like to thank ben, zach, zach, phil, and chris!

Aaia: -raises eyebrow- why?

Ashi: becuz I lurve them!! -runs off happily-

Dee: -bows- thank you thank you thank you! You fixed me and Ryo!!

Aaia: that I did. And, if some of you thought that there was going to be make-up sex, I apologize most sincerely! I thought that the story would be good left as is, so thank you for reviewing and I'll see you in school/next time/random place. -hugs all readers-

---eNd FoR NoW---

ps- I know that there was something mentioned about Dee not believing in god, so don't hate me too much for that. It's my own personal opinion, so please don't send any hate mail because I don't believe and no amount of mail could ever change that. So, until the next time I deside to waste more interalanet space, love ya!