Fake Fan Fiction ❯ Portrait Without Sin ❯ How Much I Love You ( Chapter 16 )

Note From The Author

For all the angst I've put you through with this story, I hope I've done a good enough job starting the wind down of this story to everyone's… *heh*… satisfaction.

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Portrait Without Sin

By: Ryoan

animeyaoi_2@yahoo.com

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Previous Chapter:

"How was that, baby?" He asked, as he adjusted himself up off his partner a bit. Ryo opened his eyes to grace him with a deep sated glow, and giving him a warm smile, he nodding his sweat dampened head.

"It was incredible, Dee." he murmured just before hearing a snap. His brown eyes shifted to see the tube that Dee had in his hand, and watched as he globed a good amount of it in his right hand before re-snapping it shut and tossing it to the side of them, on the bed.

Placing a hand just above Ryo's shoulder for support, Dee leaned close to his face.

"You know what the best part is?" he asked smoothly, his green eyes sparkling as he stared directly into Ryo's, all the while coating his own, once again, stiff, aching hard-on with the gel in his hand.

"What?" Ryo questioned back.

Brushing his lips with his own, Dee answered. "It's not finished yet."

Part 16: How Much I Love You

Ryo could smell himself on him as Dee pulled back. It intoxicated him, as well, knowing that scent was his own, yet he found he could not stay locked with Dee's intense gaze. He wasn't sure whether it was because of the fact that Dee was just so forthright about things, or because even after everything that had happened, the man could look at him with such a claiming passion, -- which Ryo didn't feel that he fully deserved. And yet… to be with Dee again… after having waited for so long… after thinking that they would never be together like this again… he didn't want to give him up.

He felt Dee's fingers smooth what gel was left on them on the puckered bud of his entrance. The caress upon an already sensitive area was like a jolt of electric, causing a tremor to ripple through him. A groan sprang forth, which sounded more like a whimper as it tumbled from his lips.

"You want me to please you more, Ryo?" The deep timber of Dee's voice brought the man's eyes back to his.

He shifted a bit more, making Ryo feel something very hard and warm, despite the gel, being rubbed against his entrance, hinting at just what it was that he had to please him with.

Ryo blushed.

"Hai, Koibito." he murmured back. "I want you to please me, and I want to give all that I am to you."

Dee released the hold he had on himself to slip his hand under Ryo's left thigh and slide it to the back of his knee. There, with a slight pressuring grip, he urged him to lift his leg upward. The silent command was obeyed, aiding to reposition the limb. Dee, then, helped to push it up and guide it toward Ryo's chest, causing a tilt to his partner's hips.

"That's good, baby," Eyes danced with an emerald flame. "'cause I'm gonna take all that I can and give it back to you just as good."

Ryo felt his cheeks grow even warmer.

'It's because he's so forthright about things.' The thought resounded in his head as Dee shouldered his leg.

The dark haired man pressed his lips against the toned muscle of the inner thigh as it settled against him, yet he did not take his eyes away from the dark ones he had captured in his sight.

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Dee loved those rich, near black eyes of his partner. They caused a warmth to flow through him to pool at the pit of his stomach. They expressed so much. Nearly everything that Ryo felt could be read in his eyes. Even now, through the pleasure and desire, as lashes swept downward, he could detect that Ryo still 'hurt'.

Not only that, there was a hint of worry… of self doubt, maybe… that resembled the look that he use to have, prior to them having ever slept together.

'Don't worry, buddy. I'm going to do my best to take all that hurt away. Just leave everything to me. I'll show you, Ryo. I'll show you how sorry I am and how much I love you.'

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'I still feel ashamed, Dee, even though you say it wasn't my fault. Despite the things you said or how you acted… Seeing how hurt you were… realizing my part of it… I can't excuse… myself… from all of it. I love you, koi, but I can't… look at what I see in your eyes…'

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Dee's intense gaze remained locked on Ryo as his hand slid back down over his thigh to the under-curve of his tilted backside. He looked down momentarily, as he took his own cock in hand, once again, to position the head at his partner's opening. Once certain of the placement, and having a steady hold, he glanced back up to his lover's face.

"I love you, Ryo," he murmured with a husky voice, lowering his head to kiss him.

As he pushed his tongue inside the warmth of the other man's mouth, he pressed the head of his hard member past the rim of the his sphincter. The seal of his lips muffled Ryo's gasping cry, as the body underneath him tensed and fingers dug into the side and shoulder of his back.

Dee let go of himself and moved back up Ryo's leg. Taking hold of his knee, he slipped the leg from its shouldered position to the cup of his hand. He adjust the leverage so that his partner wasn't so stretched by his weight to make other 'certain' muscles too tight.

"Shhh…" Dee breathed against Ryo's mouth to sooth and comfort him, even though his own body wanted nothing more than to thrust into the man completely. "Relax, baby."

He coaxed with whispering sounds and feathery brushes of his lips, enticing with soft kisses and warm brushes of his tongue. For despite how exquisitely sweet it felt to be inside his lover again, Dee knew that after weeks -- hell, with a flashing thought, it had actually been over two months since they had had sex! -- he needed to be careful with the man for now. He didn't want to compound physical pain on top of the hurt Ryo had already gone through, and even though there was going to be a certain amount of it regardless, he was determined to distract Ryo away from any discomfort and give him the most pleasure he could.

"You feel so good, Ryo," Dee murmured, his voice dropping a pitch as he edged his stiff hard-on further into the warm cavity, feeling it slide against the contracting walls inside. Shifting his lips, he caressed the line of the man's jaw to his neck, hearing and feeling the vibration of the soft moan that welded up from Ryo's throat. "How are you doing, baby?"

Ryo nodded against him, then spoke quietly against his ear, "Feels good, koi. Please…" Giving a small thrust of his own, he begged, "I want… all of you… inside me."

Raising his head to peer back down into Ryo's face, he asked, "Are you sure? It's been a while, Ryo, I don't want to hur…"

"Now, Dee!" The urgent demand cut him off. Dark eyes locked with green, as he gave another thrust of his body upward against the one above him. Voicing a frustrated whimper when he wasn't able to impale his own self completely upon Dee's stiff member. "Don't make me wait."

Taking in the look of desperate need on his partner's face, Dee answered, "If that's what you want, Ryo." Then he raised himself back, bracing himself at arms length above him. "Get ready, 'cause here I come."

With a hard thrust and a grunt much like the sound of a growl, Dee buried himself completely within his mixed American lover.

Fuck! How he had missed seeing Ryo arch his body as he buried himself within it! How he had missed seeing the way his head tilted back, and how his mouth would open to allow that little cry of pleasurable pain to escape! Sliding into Ryo, -- the warmth of those muscles surrounding him, pressing and holding him, -- was like entering a piece of heaven.

"Oh, sweet God," Dee hoarsely growled, as he held himself immobile, holding his body back from the immediate need to repeatedly pound himself into his partner. He wanted to take him so badly, but he wouldn't… not in a frenzied haste, not for this time. He needed to allow Ryo to adjust to his size once again, for one, and for the other… well, he was damn sure going to try to love this man in a way that would sooth over the pain that he had caused him over the many weeks past.

Several long moments went by before Dee finally released Ryo's leg, and relaxing the arm he used as a brace, he settled down against him once again.

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As his solid warmth filled him, Ryo jerked upward with a cry of his own. It was a mixture of pleasure and pain with the pain being more insignificant compared to the immense feeling of being connected with the other half of his life again… of the satisfaction of being filled by Dee once more. The sound that tore out of his throat was caused by the explosive torrent of bliss that shot through every nerve in his body.

He felt the strained restraint of his lover's body above him. He couldn't remember, since the first time they were together, Dee ever being that reserved before. And, in a way, Ryo didn't want him to be reserved now. He wanted him. He wanted to feel the hard slaps of the man's body driving into him. He wanted to feel his eager thrusts, his panting breath, his tight hold. He wanted Dee to take him so that he knew, from the painful roughness, that it was real. He was ready for it. Ready to take whatever driving thrusts the man would give, but… then… the hand on his leg slid away and the body above, descended upon him.

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Free from restrain, Ryo hooked his leg over the back of Dee's hips, then curled the other one around him as well to helped tilt him upward to accommodate an easier access for the man on top of him. Arms could now find their way better around the dark haired man, hands seeking the toned sleekness from waist to shoulders… pressing, holding, stroking… as he reveled in the crushing weight that his lover bore down upon him.

Threading his fingers of both hands through the light brown hair, using his forearms as support, Dee lowered his mouth to Ryo's. At the first touch of his lips, the other man's parted eagerly to allow the warm softness of Dee's tongue to slip within. Lavishly, he stroked and touch everything it came in contact with. There was nothing of a hurried urgency, as the dominating partner focused on taking his time, focused on tasting, touching, and giving his lover the most adoration possible.

Ryo, on the other hand, was a bit frustrated as he tried to kiss back with more assertion, but Dee wasn't allowing things to be rushed as he continued the slow assault of his mouth; working his tongue around the other, unhurriedly caressing. When that wouldn't persuade the usually gung-ho lover, Ryo tightened his legs, thrusting his hips against him. Of course with Dee pressing against him as close as possible already, he wasn't able to force a deeper penetration, but the action did hint for a faster pace to be set.

The movement only drew forth a throaty moan out of Dee, which vibrated the back of Ryo's own throat, and a huff of warm breath fanned across his smooth cheek. A few moments more and the molding softness of Dee's lips pulled only centimeters away.

"Nuh-uh, baby," his husky voice whispered, glittering eyes half hooded. "There's no rush. We've got all night yet."

The man beneath him made a frustrated groan, and Dee was hard pressed not to give into his wanton lover's need.

Removing one of the hands that had entwined its fingers within the strands of Ryo's hair, Dee slid it down the side of the man's face and over to the curve of his lips. There, he smooth the curve of flesh with a delicate touch, watching as his lover opened his mouth a bit more as his lashes swept down over the dark orbs. He loved hearing the muted groans that rose from Ryo's throat.

With the hand that was still entangled upon his head, Dee gave a slight tug upon the blondish-brown tresses, only to release them and repeat the action again.

"N-Need… you…" Ryo begged brokenly, straining somewhat against his partner. "… t-take… me… now… Dee…… N-Need… to feel…"

"You've got me, Ryo." Dee cut him off, as he continued in the same tone as before. "And you will feel, baby." Fingers glided down over the rapidly beating pulse of his partner's neck, and further still, once Ryo moved his arm that obstructed Dee's ability to continue his course. "I'm gonna make sure you feel…"

Slipping down over his chest, fingers found the light tan areola. It didn't take much to make the nipple tighten to a pebble hardness as he flicked his thumb across the center peak. "…every stroke,…"

Then he took a hold of it between his thumb and knuckle of his forefinger to give it a subtle squeezing pull. "…every touch…"

With the way all of Ryo's nerve endings were already sensitively wired, one would have thought Dee did much more than that by the other man's reaction, as his body jerked up against Dee's, and he cried out in a short strangled sound.

Arching back his hips, Dee then pushed himself fully into his eager partner. "…every fucking thrust…"

Something akin to bliss washed over Ryo's face. "… like you never have before."

Watching the wanton reactions that his usually reticent partner was having, was nearly more that Dee could take himself. "After tonight, Ryo… if you don't know how much I love you,… then… maybe I don't deserve you after all."

With a tightening clasp upon Dee's neck, Ryo encouraged him to lower his head back down. He tried to raise his own to entreat the man with the offering of his mouth, but the hold on his hair wouldn't allow it. He then tilted his chin as much as possible, to narrow the distance, yet Dee still kept control, complying only to the point of where his lips just faintly touch his.

A low deep whine rose up out of him as his body writhed underneath the weight pressing against him -- half to entice his partner for more, and half to feed his own desirous need.

Unable to resist his partner's plea, Dee caught the bottom lip of his dark eyed lover between his teeth. Closing his lips around it, he sucked it into his mouth, nibbling at it, caressing the swell of flesh with his tongue.

As he toyed with Ryo's mouth, he also continued the assault of the man's nipple as well, creating trembling waves to course through his already aching body. Pulling back, Dee flexed his hips once again to slide himself back into the twitching cavity of his partner, taking immense pleasure in the heated sounds that were puffed against his face.

Satisfied with the result of his teasing, and now desiring the full flavor of Ryo's mouth, Dee covered it with his own for another seductive kiss. Gentle, torturous fingers moved from their current play to glide over the side of the lighter man's rib cage, coursing a path across his waist, to come to rest upon his lean hip.

Ryo was use to the rough readiness of his emerald eyed lover, and indeed he was wanting and was ready for it as much, but the man was holding back. He could tell by the strain of his muscles and measured control of his thrusts despite his attempts to encourage differently. It forced Ryo to gear himself down somewhat from his hurried demands… for the moment anyway… to allow himself to abandoningly wallow in the feel of Dee. The man was indeed showing him that he wasn't all about taking, he wasn't all about his own frenzied release… he was showing him that he meant what he said, that he meant what he felt.

Some moments later, the half Japanese tore his mouth away, turning his head as he fought to fill his air deprived lungs. Yet that didn't dissuade Dee as the man found other areas to appetize himself upon, such as the skin across his jaw which also led to his ear, for one.

Ryo felt the hot breath against his ear just before teeth captured the lobe in a teasing bite. It erupted another sharp gasp and a jerking arch of his back, which forced his chest even closer against the one above him. His fingers dug into Dee's sinew back, as the man made a slow swipe of his tongue along the outer curve, and a hissing breath issued forth as the soft probe followed the inner ridges to the ear hole itself.

Dee relished it. The muscles inside Ryo were clasping, giving his cock squeezing pulses, his body undulated in miniscule waves, which would jarringly crash up against him as sensations wreaked momentary havoc with his senses. Hearing the quickened breath mingled with begging whimpers and throaty moans tumbling into his ear, drew forth a raspy sound of his own out of his larynx.

Withdrawing his dabbing tongue, he slid down the smooth column of Ryo's neck, tasting the salty sheen that was starting to develop. The friction between their bodies had become slicker as well, and Dee felt tiny beads of sweat run down the side of his face from his temple.

Feeling hands smooth over the rigid lean muscles of his back, gripping and raking with fingers, Dee did the same over his partner's flesh with his own free hand; his other hand moving down to slide his fingers just under the shoulder behind his neck. He did not miss the urgency of the other man's touch, as he nibbled a path along the pulsing vein to the base of Ryo's collarbone, then followed it to the edge of his shoulder.

A sharp cry sprang forth from Ryo as Dee unexpectingly sank his teeth lightly into the muscled nerve at the top of his shoulder. The little deed was returned almost immediately by the latching of his own teeth against him. In response, Dee thrust his hips against him a bit harder with a deep throaty sound of a growl.

A molten tide washed over Ryo's already flushed body as Dee made sure he pressed against that sweet spot inside him. His legs trembled against his partner, telling of the effect his swollen cock was having as it moved in and out of him. There was even a stiffening twitch between his legs, surging upward between their bodies.

"Feeling good, Ryo?" Dee's deep voice asked, as he rose up from the shoulder he was feasting on, drawing Ryo's mouth away from him in the process also. He didn't smile, not even to give that conceited, self-confident grin as considerably darker emerald eyes gazed down.

Ryo nodded.

Continuing the rhythmic move of his hips, Dee choked out, "God, it feels so good to be inside you again."

The flushed cheeks, the parted lips, from which escaped short hitching breaths, the glazed wanton look of those rich chocolate eyes set off the need to drive his body more rapidly and strongly into the man wrapped around him.

"Here, baby," he continued to stare down into his face of his lover. Giving a slight twist of his hips, he refocused the hand that wandered over Ryo's body down between them to take a firm grip of Ryo's throbbing hard-on. "let me give you a hand with this."

"Dee… uhhnn…" He groaned, his fingers tightening on the ebony locks at the back of Dee's head.

Despite the gripping hold, Dee bent downward and pressed his lips against the muscled hardness of Ryo's chest, kissing a path to one of his taunt nipples, his tongue swirling and tasting the combined saltiness of the puckered tip. His hand began a motion and rhythm similar to the one he made with his own body. Thrusting, he would stroke down; withdrawing, he would pump his hand upward. The opposite of it actually gave the same effect that was happening with his own. Panting gasps coming from Ryo grew louder.

Hastening his sped and forcefulness to edge them both along a bit faster, Dee knew that it wouldn't be too much longer before either one of them would reach the ultimate peak of their joining. His partner had endured enough 'tenderness' during this round and was more than ready to cum. Yet… he noticed a sudden tenseness; a tighter-than-usual clinging hold that Ryo had on him. It wouldn't have been anything to take notice of, except that his body was trembling and not in the way that would elect one of passion. The sounds he had been making became stifled and there was a different catch to the pattern of his breath… including a sniff.

Raising, just a little, to look down into his face, Dee found Ryo biting his bottom lip in an effort to keep himself quiet and tears running down the sides of his face.

"Oh, God, Ryo, am I hurting you," he exclaimed, and immediately started pulling himself away and out of his lover.

"No," he cried out, trying to hold the other man back. "No, koibito,…"

Dee froze above him afraid to move, not understanding why Ryo would be crying. Afraid that he had caused him harm. Finally, he settled back upon the man, using his forearms as leverage to help support his weight; all thought of stroking the prominent hard-on flew out of his head.

"Ryo…," he murmured, softly bending his head to kiss and lick at the tears. "Are you sure?"

He got a nodded answer in response.

"You… want to tell me about it?"

The prior wariness started to creep itself back into the head of the dark haired man. Was Ryo re-thinking his decision and just discovered he was wrong about it? Did he realize that he didn't want him anymore?

"I… I'm sorry," He said sniffing back the tears, and even though he faced the other man, he didn't look directly at him. Instead, Ryo's sight was fixed somewhere upon his shoulder with his lashes creating a screen. "You m-must think I'm a big baby, crying like this."

The first thing that came to mind was something crass, like, 'I think your timing is pretty bad.' but instead he spoke with genuine concern, "I think that there's something…" He paused for just a second as he did not want to say the word 'wrong'. "…that you're upset about."

"Not upset, Dee. I-I… I just… can't… believe that you… are here… with me again. I… I've just… missed you… so much…" Fresh new tears seeped out, and Ryo turned his head as he started to cry.

"Hey," Dee quickly kissed the side of his neck; licking away the tear tracks, and trailing his lips across his cheek. "You'll have me crying here in a minute, if you don't stop."

"You… feel so good, Koibito." He turned his head, watery eyes looking up into those glimmering green ones. "You always make me feel so good."

Dee grinned, not quite the kind of grinning response he should have made, but anyway… it was him.

"I aim to please, baby." he said a bit proud.

"Dee…!"

"What?" He captured Ryo's lips in a searing, yet gentle kiss.

"I-I'm being serious."

"I know you are. So am I." His voice dropped a little deeper, a little more serious. "I do aim to please you, Ryo. I want to please the hell out of you. I never want to go through that again thinking that I lost you because I didn't do something right… thinking that there was something more I could have done… something I could have done better."

"You won't go through that again. I won't keep anymore secrets like that from you."

"Like you said before, secrets are alright… just… don't be naked with them again." Then added as an afterthought, "Please? I don't think my heart would take it again."

Ryo sniffed again, looking into the deep green eyes and gave him a weary but promising smile. Reaching up, he threaded his fingers in the soft ebony stands of Dee's hair; pulling his head down once more to lock their mouths together.

"Is that all there is?" The words were whispered as they pulled apart. "I'm not hurting you otherwise, though, am I?"

Shaking his mop of blondish-brown hair, Ryo replied, "No."

"Good." He grabbed the tube that laid off to the side of them, and sat, kneeled, between the spread of Ryo's legs. Flicking the top open, he squeezed some gel out on his fingers first and recoated his partner's entrance again, sliding them inside to help insure he was lubricated enough. Ryo gave a soft groan, lifting his hips off the bed, but the moment was short lived as Dee removed his hand. "Now, I can get back to finishing getting, my once estranged, sex deprived lover, off."

Squeezing more out into his palm, Dee coated his cock also just to make certain.

"Dee!"

"You say my name that way now, but in a few moments you'll be changing your tune." He brashly admitted, observing the cooling flush of Ryo's cheeks becoming warmer again.

Fitting himself against Ryo's opening, Dee nudged the swollen tip of his cock inside, watching as it was engulf within the man he loved. Grabbling onto Ryo's hips, he halfway pulled him onto his impaling length; still watching as he slid completely inside.

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Ryo gaze slid over the man that was too enthralled with observing their bodies joining together, to notice that he, himself, was being studied. The olive skin a contrast against his paler complexion. Firm strong hands gripping his hips, with conscious gentleness.

Tousled coal black hair veiled part of his face, yet laying as he was, he could see the twin emerald flames drinking in the sight of their bodies. The man had such a way of expression in those deep green eyes of his that sometimes Ryo just felt as if he was going to be swallowed up whole if he continued to look any longer.

His mouth… lips parted in building lust was an experience in itself. He had a mouth that could spout sarcastic wit and obscenities, and yet… how incredibly soft his lips were when they kissed him; how terribly sexy it could sound when the deep rustic vibrations would issue out of it when in the pitch of passion.

Thinking about the dark haired man before him created a swell of aching warmth within his stomach. Ryo bit his bottom lip again, feeling the muscles within him clamped down on Dee's cock.

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Dee sat there with Ryo's thighs over his own. Green eyes didn't miss the far off daze of his partner as they turned upward to darker brown ones.

"You still doing okay?"

Even though Ryo was back to biting his lower lip, the expression on his face was one of deep pleasure. He gave another silent nod of his mop-ish sandy brown hair.

After lubing his hand once more, Dee discarded the tube and reached for Ryo's pulsing cock. Encasing his stiff member, he slid his gel slick palm down over it. The hand that still rested on Ryo's hip, glided over his taunt stomach, dragging the back of his fingernails, from the sensitive skin joining his thigh, upwards again.

As Dee toyed with Ryo's skin, the other hand began stroking him in a pulsing up and down motion. Slow and light at first, slipping up pass the flanged ridge, delicately massaging over the head before sliding downward again. Over and over he repeated his motions as bright green eyes watched between the veil of bangs to view Ryo's reaction.

The throbbing clamp on his cock by the ring of muscles, the passion glazed look that had returned to the man's expression, and the shuddering movements of the prone body told Dee of his lover's readiness to further his pursuit. He intensify the pulsing strokes of his hand, and every now and then, he would tighten the muscles of his own backside, giving a diminutive push-withdraw against his partner, which was enough to cause Ryo to want more.

Dee began a study rhythmic pace with his own hips, shifting his sight downward, once again, to watch his flesh draw fractionally out of his partner and slip back in. There was no need to have a full withdraw to find gratification from the sight, just knowing that he was buried inside, was a turn on in itself.

Ryo, on the other hand, was starting to crest the edge, with the friction the Dee made moving as he was. His pants beginning to increase in rate and volume.

"Dee…" The near whispering voice begged, as fingers gripped into the bed sheets, having had to forfeit the luxury of the other man's flesh. Legs that were stretched across the darker thighs, contracted as his body rose up, straining into the stroking of the man's hand. There was a short grunt of pleasure drawn from Dee as Ryo unconsciously clenched the gluteus muscles of his ass together, causing a tightening around his partners stiff member inside.

When his body lowered, Ryo took the moment to reach toward his partner so intent on pleasuring him.

"Koi… uhhnnn… P-Please…" he begged for Dee to lower himself upon him. His request was granted, but only to a degree.

Dee shifted his body across Ryo's, and in doing so, Ryo's legs were drawn up against his sides, the heels of his feet pressed into the lowest part of his back. His one arm encircled his lover's leg, pressing it tightly against him as he continued the pumping motion of his hand, while the other braced itself again near the tangle of sandy brown hair.

"Ready, Ryo?" The deep timber of his voice murmured above him.

"N-No more play…" Came the return, as he wound a hold around the back of Dee's muscled bicep to place his hand on his shoulder. The other reached up to curl about his neck.

Bending his head, Dee planted another hot kiss upon Ryo's mouth, and he began a quicker, stronger driving momentum into his partner's body, along with more determined, matching jerks of his hand.

"GGoddd… yessss…" Ryo hissed deeply, craning his head back. His legs tightened and heels dug into the tensing muscles to urge a harder down stroke. The pressure of Dee's fingers squeezing and pumping pull of his hard-on along with the ramming pressure of his length sliding in and out of him, hitting that spot inside, was too much to fight against. It was sending Ryo over the edge, to where he couldn't contain himself much longer.

"That's it, baby." Whispered words came out between heavy breaths, feeling the cock in his hand swell a bit more.

"Oh,…uhhhnn… Goddd,… Dee!" Ryo cried out, as his body went taunt. Warm, liquid spurts shot out of his body and splashed across his stomach and chest.

He felt a few more pulling pumps to ensure that he had release all that he was going to, and then Dee's mouth was against him, licking at the white trails of cum showered across his chest that he could reach. Hot fanning breaths brushed over his skin, and a sound, which Ryo couldn't make certain of it being, vibrated against him.

Despite the mess still laying on Ryo's stomach, Dee lowered his body against him.

"I love you, Ryo," He groaned softly, screwing his eyes shut to concentrate on his own relief now; muscles within Ryo still flexed in the throngs of his release. Deep throaty sounds were forced from him on every rutting thrust.

Ryo's moans edged him even closer, until finally he felt his cock expand and the heat start to flow through him. His toes curled against the sheet of the bed as he use them as leverage to drive into Ryo during those last few thrust until he felt surging tide rip out of his body with heated force. He grunted out a cry as wave upon wave shot out of his body to drench the inside of his Japanese mixed lover. Pressing himself as deep as he could, Dee wrapped his arms around Ryo and cradled him tightly against him as he breathed in great gulps of air into his tortured lungs.

Still breathing hard, Dee captured Ryo's mouth in a final kiss more harsh than the previous ones had been. Ryo was his and he wasn't ever going to let go of him again.

Drawing away from Ryo's mouth, Dee stared into the rich dark irises that gleamed with a renewal of life, with the shimmer of sated passion… that glistened with love. He was truly the reason that he felt so complete. There had always been something missing before he met Ryo, and since then… well without the man to counterpart his near opposite character, Dee had found himself quite unbalanced and lost. It had been hard going back to how things use to be, once you get a taste of what wholeness is like.

For a man, Ryo was beautiful. He had nearly always thought him was such, and with his caring heart and mannerisms it just made him even more so.

Ryo was thinking along the same lines himself as he gazed up into the twin green of Dee's eyes. He not only saw the passionate hunger still burning within them, but also the rawness of the depth in which Dee felt about him. He wasn't sure that the tremble that ran through his body was the after shock of their loving making, or the fact that he was loved beyond measure.

Ryo knew that Dee's rougher brashness gave his mellow existence a shot of life, and with that same nature, Dee opened him to things that he would have been too timid otherwise to express. It was Dee that was handsome in all ways possible, and with such a tender heart underneath that brash exterior made him love the man all that much more.

"I know exactly where to put that portrait of you at," Dee smiled, his dark lashes falling over the sparkle of his eyes.

Ryo's lips curved a bit. It didn't surprise him that Dee's thoughts sometimes could go immediately elsewhere right afterwards.

"Where?"

Tilting his dark head upward, green eyes directed Ryo's attention to the wall just behind his own head, above the railing of the bed.

"Right there."

Trying to twist his own head somewhat around, he commented, "I don't know, Dee. I don't think I want my portrait to hang right above where I sleep."

"It may be a portrait of you, but it's not yours. It's mine." Dee corrected. "And it's the perfect place to put it."

"Should I even ask why?" His dark eyed partner asked dryly more as a retort than a question as he turned his gaze back upon the man still atop him. The smile that slowly turned wicked told him all he needed to know.

"That way," Dee glanced playfully, yet truthfully, back down at Ryo. "the times when I can't see your face, when we're doing this, I can look up at your portrait and see the expression on your face just the same."

"Dee…"

"No." he cut him off. "It's settled. That's where I want it to be at."

Without thinking -- totally without thinking --, Ryo smartly said, "Oh, and who said you could move back in and take over?"

The sudden stillness of Dee's body, snapped him into realizing what exactly he had said.

"I--I didn't mean that, Dee," he said in a rush, feeling the muscles grow tense beneath his fingers, and the light dimmed within his eyes. He grew even more worried when there came no reply. "Dee?"

Still there was nothing.

"Anywhere," Ryo whispered desperately. "Anywhere you want, koi. I don't mind. You want it above the bed, that's where it'll go. Don't… don't think that I…" He trailed off seeing the dark lashes swept down over Dee's eyes to hide back whatever thoughts that might be going through his mind. He still had not moved an inch, otherwise.

"I'm sorry. I… really… didn't… mean…"

A moment later, Dee's chest expanded and expelled a heavy breath. Opening his eyes, he glanced down into the dark ones that were worriedly staring up at him.

"Dee, I…"

"Shhh…" A finger came up to lay across his lips to silence him. Ryo watched as the man propped his head against his upraised palm, as he continued to gaze down at him; shifting his body so that his weight wasn't so crushing.

The finger upon his lips moved away to brush lightly across his cheek, along with the others. Tracing a line down his throat, they finally curled around the back of his neck. And of all things, Dee leaned in and placed a kiss softly on his mouth.

"Did I tell you how much I love you, Ryo?" He murmured as he pulled back.

Ryo drew a sharp intake of air, his eyes widened a bit more. His parted mouth started to waver as his eyes flooded with stinging tears. "Dee…" He quickly moved to embrace his partner and bury his face underneath Dee's chin. "…I'm sorry."

"I love you, Ryo." He repeated, his voice staying the same even tone. "Totally, seriously, completely love you."

Ryo's body quaked against him. "I love you, too, Dee. Only you. Forever."

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ End of Part 16 ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

I don't know about you, but I wish Dee was around right now!

This Is STILL Not the last chapter, although this could be just by how it ended. I have a more finishing way to end the story, but it is not quite finished yet. You will have to bear with me through at least one more chapter to see it to completion.

Thanks you to all those that have been patiently waiting for the next chapter, and for those especially that have made reviews!