Fake Fan Fiction ❯ Time for Healing ❯ With or Without You ( Chapter 7 )

Disclaimer: We do not own FAKE or its characters. They belong to Sanami Matoh, lucky girl! Any original characters belong to either Irish or Wildefyre.
Warnings: Thus far just Shounen AI but then again that's what FAKE is anyway. It may become Yaoi further along. This may have the guys out of Character somewhat, so Gomen for that and we are taking some creative freedom on histories & backgrounds as well as current lives so be prepared...

"Okay I have waited for an extra hour now would you kindly get me my pain meds?" Dee sat in the chair, wincing at the pain in his knees as he rubbed them gently. "After all it was your rug rat that slammed into my knees and caused the pain to flare up!"

"Her name is Keiry." Andrew said as he slipping into the bedroom and retrieved the bottle. "Hold out your hand." Presented with Dee's palm he tapped out the two pills he was allotted. "And if you had picked her up like she asked the first time it wouldn't have been an issue." Andrew said mildly, poking his head into Bikky's room to check on the homework situation.

"Hey it's not like I asked for this! Ryo is the kid person. He should have just stayed here and played with the little ones." Dee grumbled and then swallowed his pills. "What the hell is taking them so long anyway?"

"Kids are a gift not a plague. She's right in front of you holding her arms up again." Andrew replied after seeing Bikky hunched over his Science book. He gimped back over to the couch and lowered himself stiffly with the popping of many joints. "Being a curmudgeon isn't going to heal you any faster."

Dee raised his head in Andrew's direction. "I'm sorry but Ryo knows that I really don't like kids. I told him that right from the get go." Dee in spite of that picked Keiry up and held her. "I'm a cop, rather I was a cop. Without my eyesight I can't do that! That's like taking Yao Ming's legs away and telling him that he can't play pro basketball anymore! How can I provide for even Ryo or myself if I can't see?" Dee sighed woefully as he sat there. His heart was with Ryo though he wasn't sure if he could be.

"So you've given up all hope of ever seeing again!" Andrew stated, rubbing his sore knees absently. His hands moved unbeknownst to Dee, telling Keiry to sit still. Despite his orders her hand promptly went to Dee's lips, the other resting on his chest to feel the rumble of his voice while he spoke.

"I have to prepare myself for the worst." Dee confessed. "I don't believe in sugar coating. Ask Ryo. I've always been blunt and to the point. If my eyesight were meant to come back you would think that it would have by now! It's been 3 weeks since I got out of the hospital, 5 since the beating. I have lived like this for almost two months and personally I'm fed up with it!" Dee sat back in the chair and sighed heavily.

The little girl on his lap imitated is heavy sigh. Andrew too leaned back against the couch. "Things aren't completely random Dee... I don't believe it, I can't. That little girl on your lap is stone deaf, won't ever hear a sound in her life. You can't tell me that that is just a random act of nature... I don't know if you're meant to get your sight back. And if you've already decided that you're not then why the heck aren't you learning to live with it? Judging by Ryo's reaction, just a while ago was the first time you had actually moved around even the apartment by yourself."

"Yeah well maybe I don't like running into walls." Dee shot back. "The first day home I tried to walk out of the frigging bathroom by myself and wound up on the floor and in horrible pain. Of course had Ryo been smart enough to pick the rug up then maybe that wouldn't have happened!" Dee pushed his cane away from the chair. "And that thing screams to all that see it... Take pity! Here comes the blind man."

"Actually... to me it says get the heck out of the way, those things hurt. So are you just going be led around by your elbow for the rest of your life? Like the cripple you so despise being viewed as? You know most blind people lead normal lives. They go to the grocery store, do dishes and raise kids with no more help then the average person. Walls don't jump out and bite, Dee. You just have to try."

Andrew sighed and gave his ponytail a tug, looking down at Annie asleep next to him on the couch. "Fine then let me be sure I have this right. You don't want to be an invalid but you're afraid to do it for yourself? And everything that happens is someone else's fault, not yours because you didn't ask for this and you're a blind cripple...? Even though you don't want anybody's pity...? Does that about sum it up?"

Dee sat there unsure about how to answer. "That's not the way it is. I want to try but I don't want to fail. I'm worried that Ryo will see me as failure because I'm not good enough for him now. Ryo's the type that won't abandon you but I don't want him around if he's only here because he pities me."

Dee put the heels of his palms against his eyes. "I couldn't handle that... And right now I don't know if we're together because of those reasons or because he does love me. What the hell we haven't even made love yet. He still pushes me off."

Andrew's quiet voice became even softer. "Lyn was damn near frantic the other night.... Ryo called... apparently completely lost it while Lyn was on the phone with him, couldn't even hold the phone. I don't think that's the kind of reaction you get just from pity. Lyn's only known him for what maybe a week now? But he's broken down almost ever time Lyn's seen him. He loves you Dee and he's hurting with you."

"H-He what?" Dee sat up straighter. "I wasn't told... What happened?" Dee could tell by the weight on his lap that the girl had fallen asleep and so he tried to move as carefully as he could. "Bikky merely said that Ryo was busy and that I had to wait. He never said that he was on the phone."

"I'm not sure." Andrew said slowly. "I heard it secondhand but Ryo feels very alone, according to Lyn, very adrift. He's trying very hard to help you but you lash out at him and he feels like he is failing you. Lyn said he just started sobbing so hard that he couldn't hold the phone then Bikky came on and more or less hung up on him. Or it was Ryo who hung up... I'm not sure." Andrew shook his head in empathy for Ryo and really for Dee, he had been there too.

"You know you make it sound like I beat him. I don't nor will I ever abuse my lovers! I've seen enough of that in my job. Ryo's just too sensitive for his own good. That's the reason the brat is here. The first day on the job at the 27th and what's he do? He takes Bikky home with him because... Tada! He felt sorry for him!" Dee paused in thought.

"Look at me now...? What did Ryo do? He pushed me away, wouldn't let me do anything more then kiss him and even then he acted as though it was wrong. But lo and behold, I get beaten to within an inch of my life and all of a sudden he loves me..." Dee crossed his arms at his chest. "I'm nothing more than a stray he took in."

"Frankly I doubt Ryo would put up with you if you were just a stray, and he loves Bikky, he's not just a stray. If you're really that worried about it talk to him. Telling all of this to me doesn't get you anywhere. But from where Lyn and I are standing, Ryo loves you with all his heart and is willing to do anything to make life even a fraction easier for you." Andrew carefully found his feet again and crutch in hand gimped back over to Bikky's room, peeking in again and giving the boy a smile when he looked up.

"What do you want?"

"Just checking in. Need any help?"

"Is Ryo home yet? I needed some things to start my science fair project." Bikky slid off the bed. "I wanted him to make me a sandwich too."

"Make it yourself brat!" Dee shouted upon hearing Bikky's comment.

"Shut up you perv! You're just angry because Ryo won't let you get into his pants!" Bikky smirked and pushed past Andrew to go out to Dee. "With any luck he'll come to his senses and see what a lamebrain you really are and then kick you out."

"You're the one that should be kicked out! You act all sweet and innocent around him but I know your kind! You'll use him to get what you want and then stab him in the back." Dee responded sharply.

"And like you won't? If you make it with him you'll most likely toss him aside like yesterday's news." Bikky stood there with his arms folded, arching an eyebrow.

Andrew frowned as Annie started to cry at the commotion. Andrew lifted her into his arms rocking back and forth. "All right children. Ryo is a big boy. He can make decisions about his children and his lovers all by himself. Bikky you're a big boy too and I'm sure that you can make your own sandwich but tell me what you need for your Science project and I will be happy to see what I can do. Please don't call Dee a pervert that's homophobia, plain and simple. Dee and I have suffered enough for our sexual preferences without you shooting off at the mouth."

"Hey don't blame me for that! Maybe you two deserved it!" Bikky glared at Andrew and then stepped closer to Dee. "If Ryo ever gets hurt because of being with you I swear I will make you pay! I won't let you hurt him! I won't! Maybe if I had been tougher my dad wouldn't have hurt my mom... You didn't lie in your bed at night hearing your dad beat your mom! I did!" Bikky swiped a sleeve across his eyes. "I won't let it happen again Dee!"

"If I get a hold of you I'll wring your neck!" Dee shouted then grabbed his cell phone from his shirt pocket. "That's it! Ryo comes home now!"

Andrew reached down and deftly snatched the phone away from Dee. "Leave the poor man alone." He slipped the phone into his pocket and laid a hand gently on Bikky's shoulder. "Come on sport let's get a snack and see what you need for your project."

Guiding Bikky into the kitchen he handed the quieting baby off to the boy. "Hold her against your shoulder." Andrew instructed.

"Hold your own damn kid! I'll drop her!"

"No you won't." Andrew replied not in the least worried about Bikky's ability to hold the child as he moved over to the fridge to find stuff for a sandwich. "No one ever deserves to be hurt Bikky. I think that you know that... Are you really worried that Dee would hurt Ryo like that?"

"That's what couples do! They get mad, shout at each other and before you know it someone is beating the other." Bikky frowned. "Dee and Ryo are at the shouting stage. It'll happen... You'll see!" Pulling a bag from the local deli out of the meat drawer and grabbing the mayo Andrew limped back over to the counter.

"Lyn and I don't hit each other. We get mad and sometimes we yell but we never hit each other. That's not okay and it's not normal. I think that if Dee ever did that to Ryo, Ryo would crack him one back and tell him to get the hell out."

He carefully spread the mayo on the whole wheat bread and added some ham then lettuce and tomato just for good measure. "People who love each other don't hurt each other Bikky." He set the plate down in front of the boy, carefully retrieving his daughter before going back to the fridge for milk and some sort of fruit.

"Oh yeah? Then why did Dee shoot Ryo? Answer me that?" Bikky hissed. "Dee went after this dude who bombed the orphanage, he was going to just shoot the guy and Ryo tried to stop him. Dee fired his weapon anyway. Luckily the bullet only grazed Ryo's cheek but had Ryo moved his head he... He..." Bikky bent his head down, trying to hide his tears. "Ryo told me that he cut himself but I overheard him and Dee talking... I found out the truth."

Andrew paused. "Well.... um... what would you do if some one hurt Ryo real bad...? Go after him right? Well what if someone else you cared about tried to stop you? What would you do?"

"That's not fair! Dee acted like he cared about Ryo but he was willing to sacrifice his life just to get that jerk! He could have just arrested him like any other cop would have done!" Bikky remained defiant, not giving Andrew any sort of edge.

"If it weren't for Dee always forcing himself on Ryo, always kissing him and trying to get him into bed, Ryo would have a girlfriend! But not now! Thanks to that bozo! I think Ryo just gave up trying to push him away."

Adding a glass of milk and an apple to the sandwich, Andrew sat down at the table with him. "What if Ryo loves Dee and that Dee makes him happy? I know it doesn't seem like it right now but just humor me okay?" The blond man reached down and retrieved his daughter so that Bikky could eat.

"No! He even told Dee in the beginning that he was straight. You should have seen Dee! He was always grabbing Ryo and kissing him! If it weren't for me, Dee would have taken Ryo's virginity and I won't let him!" Bikky looked at the food, his stomach growling. "Thanks for the sandwich."

"You're welcome." Andrew watched the boy a moment, trying to feel him out to see what was really the issue here. "Loves a funny thing Sport... You know Ryo won't love you any less if he loves Dee too. He can love you both equally if you give him a chance." He leaned down to kiss the sleeping Annie's head. "I love both my girls equally and I love Lyn equally. Just because I love them all doesn't mean any one of them is loved less."

"Did either of you consider yourselves straight? Did either of you force yourself on the other?" Bikky wasn't about to give in. He was street punk through and through. "I know that Ryo loves me and I have no problem with sharing, if it's with a girl!"

"Do you really think Ryo is so incompetent that he doesn't know whom he wants to have sex with?"

"What if he's just confused?" Bikky was slowly running out of steam. "You aren't going to give up are you?"

Andrew grinned "No... I'm pretty damn tenacious. And Ryo is what? 30? You don't have crises of sexual preference at thirty, trust me on this one. It would really help Ryo out if you didn't rag on Dee quite so hard and it would really help me out if you didn't call him a pervert."

"So you're saying that Ryo is most likely gay? That he just didn't admit it to himself until now?" Bikky finished his food and got up to rinse off his plate. "I guess that would explain a lot of things. I won't call Dee a pervert when you're here but that's as far as it goes... for now."

Andrew's smile broadened and he ruffled Bikky's hair. "Yeah I guess that's what I'm saying and thank you. You're a good kid Bikky.... Stubborn as a mule but a good kid. Now if only I can verbally beat some sense into Dee." Andrew sighed to himself.

"Andrew? If Dee and Ryo do stay together and all, how do I keep kids from picking on me about having 2 dads?" Bikky kicked at the floor and frowned. "It's bad enough getting picked on for being biracial yet alone for that."

The blond man sighed deeply. He and Lyn had struggled with that question with their own children, if they should even adopt because of that. "Well let me tell ya I'm not biracial, and my guardians were straight and I still got picked on. They will always find something... They won't ever really stop but if you ignore it and don't let them see how it gets to you they will stop enjoying it. I'm not saying keep it all inside that's not okay either."

Andrew paused clearing his throat. "There is a saying that goes 'Do not cast your pearls before swine.' Meaning don't let jerks see what really matters to you..." Now he was probably just confusing the kid.... He hadn't expected to have this talk with a kid for at least five more years.

"They won't stop teasing you Bikky so ignore them and know that you are a kinder, better, smarter more understanding person then all of them put together. It's little consolation but I think that it's the best any of us can offer."

"That's pretty much what Ryo says. He's really cool. He took me in even though he didn't know me. Now he wants to adopt me. I guess I get worried that being with Dee could hurt that. I... I really want Ryo to be my dad you know." Bikky looked up at him, bright blue eyes wet with tears. "I-I want a real dad for once."

Andrew gave the boy's shoulder a squeeze. "Yeah I do know... I think Ryo will adopt you no matter what and if things work out, well, like you said you might get two for the price of one. Not to shabby if you ask me.... And Bikky? Hugging is not for sissies." Lyn had told him that part of the conversation the other night and that had disturbed him almost as much as the rest of the conversation especially since the kid in question was standing in front of him big blue eyes swimming with tears. If any one needed a hug it was this kid.

Bikky hung his head. "Ryo... Ryo hugged me that day. That day I had to identify my dad... They showed me pictures of him after he... he was murdered. R-Ryo told me that it's okay to cry and that he cried all day when his parents were murdered. I-I tried to stay strong... I really did."

Bikky kept his head down, embarrassed by his display of emotion. "D-Dee was almost killed. When I found out... I cried. Ryo and I both sat here and cried over Dee being hurt."

Andrew reached out with an arm and pulled the boy to him, hugging him tightly. "You know the last time I cried? I was in the hospital after I got beat up like Dee did. I had been there for a few days, and my guardians, they didn't come and see me right away... When they finally did, they told me that it was really all my fault for getting beat up like I did because I was gay and that I deserved it.... Everybody cries Bikky. Ryo cries Dee cries, Lyn and I cry. It doesn't make you any less a man. Are you worried about Dee Bikky?"

"Uh huh. Ryo too." He buried his face in Andrews's chest. "If he had died, Ryo would have been so hurt... I know that's a risk they take being cops and all but I'm scared that I could be alone again someday." His voice was slightly muffled. "Dee sometimes doesn't go by the book and he's gotten Ryo into some tough spots before... I'm scared he could get Ryo killed." Bikky sobbed softly, holding onto to Drew, keeping his face buried.

Neither one of them saw Dee standing right outside the kitchen dabbing at his tears before turning and heading into the bedroom. 'I'm a burden to both of them... Why didn't I just die...? Why?'

"Ryo's a tough cop he won't die easily and I think Dee's a good cop too. I'm sure that he would die defending Ryo." He hugged the boy tight, rubbing his back gently. "You won't be alone Bikky both Ryo and Dee care for you very much." Even Dee couldn't possibly be such a hard ass that he didn't care for Bikky. If Bikky cared for Dee, which he did, then the opposite had to hold true as well. "You've got lots of adults watching out for you. Any time you need to talk, give Lyn or I a call okay sport? We won't mind a bit."

"Thanks... I'm sorry for acting like such a crud earlier." Bikky looked up at him, wiping his eyes with his hands. "Lyn's cool, he's got his tongue pierced. I wanted to do that but Ryo said I could only do it over his dead body. Dee actually told him to lighten up." Bikky smiled.

Andrew chuckled, smiling back. "Hey no worries kiddo. And Lyn's got a lot of things pierced... and tattooed. I'm sure that he would love to show them to you some time." Andrew checked his watch. "You should probably get to bed. The Science project can wait until tomorrow, besides I should probably try talking to Dee again. Don't forget to brush your teeth."

"He'd actually show me? Cool!" Bikky cheered up and started to walk away before turning back and giving Andrew another hug. "Ryo's lucky to have you and Lyn as friends." He remarked and quickly trotted out of the kitchen and back to his room.

His heart greatly lightened, he watched the boy trot off. "One down, one to go" He muttered but he doubted that showing off Lyn's body art would win Dee over as easily. Instead he opted for hot tea.

Quickly boiling some water and adding the same chamomile and Anise Lyn had suggested for Ryo earlier. Laying Annie down on the couch he went in search of Dee, tea mugs clasped in one hand, crutch in the other.

Dee sat on the edge of the bed, pill bottle in his hand and held it tightly. Hearing the sounds of what could only be Andrew heading his way. Dee quickly put the bottle down on the nightstand and lay on the bed. Maybe if he pretended to be asleep Andrew would just go away. He didn't need one of his lectures at the moment. What he did need was a way to end his pain.

"Nice try buddy but I do have ears you know and if you weren't just sitting up a minute a go I will put on a party dress and dance the Charleston." Andrew said good-naturedly. "I brought tea...plenty of honey in yours because I bet tea isn't your thing."

"Yeah well if you start wearing a dress I am locking my doors, getting a big ass dog and calling the cops!" Dee smirked as he sat up frustrated at being caught yet partially happy for the distraction even for just awhile.

"You are the cops... Besides I'm sure that your buddies down at the precinct would think you were just throwing a party." Andrew handed Dee the mug that he knew had honey in it, relaxing at the banter. Maybe this would go better then he thought.

"Yeah well I seriously doubt that they'll let me keep my badge and gun if my sight doesn't return. What the hell am I saying? They all ready took them." Dee carefully raised the mug to his lips, sipping some of the heated liquid and then holding it in his hands.

"I haven't told Ryo that yet so keep it to yourself. I'm on LOA until my sight returns. That's if it returns. That means you hand over your badge and your gun. I'm not Detective Latener, Criminal Investigator anymore... I'm just good old Dee Latener... the blind cripple!"

"Or the self pitying blockhead... either way." Andrew sighed. "You know that kid really cares about you. I think it scares him to see you like this."

"Yeah right! More like he cares to make my life a living hell!" Dee quickly retorted. "Tell me how you felt when you couldn't do what you loved to do? And don't give me some crap that you just accepted it and went on with your life as though nothing happened. That's plain old bullshit and we both know it."

Dee felt the mood change and stiffened. "Like I said, Bikky is just worried that I'll get Ryo killed. Well he needn't worry about that anymore now does he?"

"How did I feel...? Well...?" Andrew took a deep breath. "I was angry upset and confused... I was a lot more laid up then you were. I was in a wheelchair for several months after I got home... Lyn had to lift me a lot and it was goddamned humiliating.... That's why I don't get you letting Ryo do everything for you. I wanted to try. I didn't care if it took me an hour and a half to get from the bed to the dresser and back again. I was damn well going to do it on my own..."

"If it were just my knees and arm I wouldn't care so much but it's a lot different when you can't see what you're doing or where you're going. You walk around for awhile blind folded and then tell me how it feels. Tell me how it feels knowing that you can't look at your lover or your kids?" Dee sat there, his eyes remaining closed. It was no sense in opening them.

"I had a friend who was blind, way back in high school. She saw with her hands and she was damn good at it too... I'm not saying it isn't hard or won't be a change but just giving up isn't the answer either. You might be happier if you at least tried a little." Andrew sipped his tea, glad that he had chosen herbs known for their calming properties.

"Well with me I use visual clues. It's in my training as a cop. It kills me to know that I may never see the way Ryo blushes or the way he cocks his head to one side when he smiles while he's trying to let me know that he understands what I'm saying." Dee paused to get his emotions back under control.

"I'll never see the way his eyes smile when he's really happy. It breaks my heart to know that I may never again see the dark eyes I fell in love with almost from the day I met him. Seeing his facial expressions is how I have always been able to judge him. I don't have that now and I feel clueless." Dee sighed heavily, he really didn't want to talk about any of this yet, it hurt just too damn much. Why couldn't this guy understand that?

"The greatest thing about humans is... We adapt... Don't think that I haven't lost a few things too... A loss of flexibility and mobility just didn't effect my moving around..." Andrew cleared his throat, this was damn embarrassing but maybe it would catch Dee's attention. So far it was like talking to a wall. "It's changed how we make love for one thing. And we weren't able to do even that for damn near a year."

"Well I got 2 years to your 1... and I was/am capable. Ryo's just unwilling. Oh sure he gets into the kissing and the touching and even starts getting turned on but then BAM... either Bikky needs something or he interrupts us some how." Dee frowned. "And if that doesn't happen, then Ryo finds his own excuse to stop the forward progress."

"And now? Well I don't know if I want to make love. I can't see him. I can't see his face to know if he likes it or if I'm hurting him. I know he won't verbalize it. He's too shy and he won't do anything to hurt my feelings. The worst things is... I can't see his face when he comes. That's something I have always dreamt about and now..." His voice trailed off as the sadness set in.

"Name one good thing that's happened in the past two weeks." Andrew said softly. "And don't tell me there hasn't been one because there is always something."

"There isn't anything... In the past two weeks I have fallen twice, had my gun and badge taken away, gotten into god knows how many fights with Ryo, have had Bikky insult me... JJ try and kiss me. I have endured the humiliation of someone having to pick out my clothes for me, help me in the shower, help me to eat... And now I'm sitting here with Dear Abby!" The sarcasm oozed from Dee's words as he felt along the nightstand for a place to set his mug down.

"Three inches to your right..." Andrew sighed. Dee was stubborn even in his self-pity stage. "Ryo loves you, Bikky loves you and even I kind of like you despite your perpetual pessimism and self-pity. You're not dead and at least Ryo is letting you kiss him. You haven't fallen down a flight of stairs and at least when you're blind you don't have to see people's poor choice of wardrobe or garden gnomes."

"Cute, real cute. I also don't have to look at JJ's ugly mug!" Dee grinned about that one. "I'm really tired so if you don't mind, I may as well turn in. It's not like I have anything else fascinating to do other then listen to you try and break me the way you did Bikky. I'm not as impressionable as he is. So save it for someone who gives a fuck." Dee hissed.

"Yeah it sounds like I'm giving up and maybe I am. So what! Bikky and Ryo are better off without me. Look what I've done to him? I've convinced him to love another man when he didn't want to. I've got him changing his lifestyle when he feared that the most. I had him collapsing when all he was doing was trying to help me... I'm a worthless piece of shit now..."

All right so he was caught red handed... Yeah he definitely lacked Lyn's lawyer like fine precision. "I'm not trying to break you. I think that you're doing a good enough job of that yourself. He loves you Dee and you can't force love. You want to help Ryo out when he gets home tonight? Then hold him, tell him how much you love him and how much you appreciate everything that he's doing for you. I suspect that might fix quite a few things... Just for Ryo to feel appreciated...." Andrew stood up having no doubt that Dee was indeed tired.

"And I think I will put these elsewhere." He added picking up the bottles on the nightstand.

"Go a head! Take them. Just be careful though, one of your kids is awake." Dee crawled under the covers. "Besides if I were going to kill myself I'd use a gun... It's quicker. And that my friend you can't take... Ryo and I are the only ones who know the combo to his safe." Dee couldn't stop the smirk spreading across his face.

"When Ryo gets home just tell him that I went to bed. Goodnight." With that Dee lay down and turned his head. He had gotten better at his orientation that was a given.

"If you can find the box." Andrew paused at the door. "Which kid?"

"The baby... No... The older one. Her cries are stronger." Dee said. "Oh and in the closet, to the left." He added then pulled the blankets up.

Andrew smiled "You're adapting whether you like it or not. Goodnight Dee and sleep well." Andrew stepped out shutting the door behind him.

'Yeah like I can even do that lately...' Dee sighed to himself, tears springing to his eyes. Silently he cried into the dark abyss he was so cruelly left to.

W ildefyre: God we are just evil aren't we? Hehe! Okay like I said last chapter... Reviews motivate us to getting other chapters formatted and posted. If you want more then you need to tell us. You would be surprised at how fast I can work at formatting a chapter when I feel motivated... ^_^

Irish: Let me tell you guys, when Wildefyre is motivated she gets her groove on. I wound up with three chapters in my mailbox in one day! So, it's all about motivating Wildefyre. I could use a little motivation too, I'm flagging a bit with my creative inspiration (...though it might have something to do with the sleep deprivation) I'm always all about comments suggestions, whatever. Let me know if there is anything I can improve on. I'm trying to get the original fic for Lyn and Drew kicked off as well. I'll keep you posted :D